Dear readers, please bear with this chapter…I would've liked to print it out and write it again, but my sister is printing something with 41 pages and I can't waste me time! So if there are lines where there should be spaces or HUGE enter spaces…bear with me. Thanks.
LAST TIME: **"I can't give you everything you need Dinah, I can't give you things Douglas can¼and as you brilliantly pointed out today, nothing I will ever do will be good enough for you¼"
**"Well¼uh¼Yes¼that's what it means Dinah. I¼love¼you¼"
Dinah froze. She wasn't really expecting him to say it, but he did. Am I supposed to tell him the same? She thought, panicking, But if I do, he'll take me away and well¼do I want to go or not?
Jack couldn't believe the words that came out of his mouth._ Well why stop now? Why not ask her to come with you? But act confident Then she'll know I'm sure about this¼I hope. "So luv, the way I see it, is that you and I feel the same for each other so let's get married,"
Dinah pulled away from Jack and stepped back. Jack cursed under his breath, there she goes, putting up that blasted wall. "Jack I'm already engaged."
Jack paused, "Then what was the point of me tellin' you that? So you could sleep at night?"
"Well Jack you didn't have to tell me!"
"What are you talkin' 'bout?_ Of course I would've had to tell you!_ You wouldn't have left until I did!"
"So you want me to leave?"
"No! You're the one who wants to leave!"
"Jack, that's not what I'm saying!_ I'm just saying that¼that¼I'm engaged!"
"Yes luv, I know that._That's why I came."
"Wait‑ you came to get me away from Douglas?"
Jack stood there and looked at her before answering._ This wasn't exactly turning out the way he had planned._ "Dinah, I just told you something that you had wanted to know and now you're mad?"
"I'm just trying to figure this out!_ You want me to marry you¼like actually marry you¼"
"Yes Dinah, that's what I'm saying."
"Why?"
"Dinah, just bloody except it!_ I love you!_I want you here with me!_ You're important to me!_ What do I have to say?"
Dinah paused; she felt a tear roll down her face._ She had dreamed about this when he left two years ago, she had wanted this to happen and now that it was, she was not responding the way she thought she would.
She and Ana's talk came to mind._ Jack or Douglas? Do you love Jack?_ Which pig would you choose?_ Douglas has feelings! So does Jack¼_ Yes, Dinah loved Jack but she had already said yes to Douglas._ It basically came down to who was more important?
"Do you still think you can't give me what I need or deserve?"
Jack furrowed his brow; this is a trick question¼ He thought._ I bloody hate trick questions and she's driving me insane! "Is this important? I mean, is this relevant to us?"
Dinah shrugged, "I was just wondering since you mentioned it¼"
"Do you think I can give you things you deserve?"_ Jack said, turning the question around.
"Well¼yea¼Jack!_ Why are you doing this to me now?"
"Doing what when?"
"Confusing me and less than a month before my wedding!"
"Why?_ Because I love you!"
"What kind of excuse is that?!"_ Dinah turned and ran down the plank; she felt rain on her cheeks, washing away her tears._She ran all the way to her house and then into the house, up the stairs and into the safety of her own room._ Minutes later she heard knocking, thinking it was Ana, she opened it.
"Jack, leave me alone!" She yelled, which caused Danielle and Ana to come out of their rooms._
"Dinah just tell me the truth, do you want to come with me or not?" Dinah turned to face him, water was dripping off both of them, her hair was soaked and they were both breathing hard._
Dinah refused her gut instinct and yelled as more tears coursed down her cheeks, "Yes!_ Yes of course I want to go with you, Jack!" she paused and lowered her voice, "But I'm not going to._ I'm going to stay here."
When Jack had left the house he seemed angry and hurt. Dinah didn't mean to hurt him, but there was no way around it. She had to stay here. She had to get married to Douglas. Why she wasn't quite sure, but she had to, she needed to.
Douglas was everything Jack wasn't. And Jack was everything Douglas wasn't. If they were one man, my life would be perfect. But their complete opposites...so that's not every going to happen with genetics. When she looked at Douglas she saw someone who was stable and with Jack she saw someone who refused to settle down.
Dinah spent one day crying in bed. Jack and everyone on the crew had left except for Ana. Jack told her they would pick her up the day after the wedding. Ana had gone around the house for at least a week whining about how Jack and his crew were bloody pirates. Dinah and her went shopping and never spoke of what happened. Dinah knew that Ana had seen what happened and that Jack had talked to her before he left. Dinah didn't want to bring it up though. She was sure that Jack wouldn't interfere with her life again, so she wanted to get over him as quickly as possible.
Two weeks before the wedding Ana came to Dinah's room and found her writing in her journal. "Who're writin' about?"
Dinah snapped her journal shut and looked up and smiled at her best friend. She shrugged, "Wedding stuff..."
"Nervous?"
"About?"
"Getting married! Spending the rest of your life with someone! Someone like Douglas..." Ana said the last sentence a little dull.
"Oh thanks..."
"No! Now that I've spend time with him, he's not that bad...but he doesn't..." Ana faded.
"He doesn't what?"
"Can I honestly tell you this and you won't burst into tears or throw a dictionary at me?"
"Sure."
"He doesn't seem your type..."
Dinah paused, "And Jack is?"
Ana smiled and didn't say anything.
"Ana, he's gone...he's not coming back except for you. I rejected him so I don't blame him. Even if I didn't he probably would've left and 'promised' to come back, but wouldn't."
Ana smirked and leaned against the doorframe. "You don't think Jack loves you, do you?"
Dinah shrugged.
"Dinah, let me ask you, if you remember, how many times did he tell you that he loved you?"
"Three times...why?"
"Haven't you ever heard that third times a charm?"
"What are you telling me?"
"I'm telling you that you're insane not to think that he doesn't love you, savvy?"
Dinah didn't respond but straightened her back.
"It's alright though, you're still going to go through it...and I'm proud of you..."
"But?"
"It's none of my business..."
"Ana Maria, you've already gone far enough! Now just tell me the rest."
Ana paused, wondering if she should really tell her best friend this, "I don't think you're making the best choice..."
"To put it lightly, right?" Dinah questioned. Ana noticed that she had been awfully unemotional during this whole conversation.
"What's wrong?"
"Wrong? Nothing's wrong! Except for the fact that I let the love of my life leave...without me. My best friend thinks the same thing I am and my mother thinks that I need a tighter corset for my wedding...and my soon to be husband has no idea that I don't love him...and the man I love who I let leave...will never know my true feelings." Dinah started breathing hard and tried hard not to cry, but once Ana went over and hugged her the tears started slowly going down her cheeks.