Nagi
The dreams were always the same; he would curl into the fetal position on his bed. He remembered very little of his childhood, but he knew from what Schuldich had told him that it was not pleasant, he had been locked away.
As soon as he was able to walk his mother had taken him to a park and children were cruel to her son. She hid him away from the cruelty and in doing so, her son started to lack what was most important, speech, and social development.
Schuldich was the one who made the first contact with him; he was the one to jerk the boy out of his silent world. In truth it was thanks to the German that Nagi was able to speak at all. The first few years of Nagi's life with Schwarz was rather short, he was kept hidden at first and the gradually Crawford started taking him out of the house.
The German would quill his fears of the outside world, he had run away once, and was found a couple days latter in an alley. Schuldich sat with him talking him out of leaving. In some ways there was a clash in character with the German, he was not totally evil, he understood, he was kind, and he was the closest person to a big brother that Nagi could ask for.
When it came to Tot, Schuldich had said to go for it, as long as it didn't interfere with the missions. He was always there when Nagi needed him; he was the person who taught him how to talk in the first place.
Being isolated from the world from the moment he was two till he was ten, he was unable to develop a proper language structure. Schuldich held the most patience for him and would do just about anything to get him to speak.
There was still that patience when he saw him walking the halls at night, he would ask if he was alright or needed anything.
The Weiss had Schwarz figured wrong. They were evil, but it was only for show, in truth, Schuldich was kind, he was gentle, but he also showed and evil side when he couldn't help it.
**
Take a deep breath; he thought as he worked his way out of another overload, he lay on his back looking at the ceiling thinking. He heard the clock ticking in the hall, then he rolled onto his side going briefly to sleep, that was when nightmare came, he whispered and heard the door open.
Crawford sat down touching his side whispering to him that it was alright.
**
Crawford wasn't a total monster, in some cases; the American proved time and time again that he was the father figure. He wasn't as evil as he thought he was, he was sometimes concerned.
There was never a thought in Nagi's mind about having a father, he always considered Crawford his guardian. He never really belittled the leader, he never really spoke against him, he didn't know how.
It was until Tot came around that he started to change, and somehow Crawford did not view this as a good change. Nagi started going out late, he started acting out like a normal teenager trying to rebel against his father.
It felt though as if it was ice all around him, Nagi would stand there and wait until Crawford would slap him for saying something like that. "At least you didn't get her pregnant," was what Schuldich had said when he found out a little dirty secret from his mind.
Nagi wished though that he were treated like an adult like Schuldich. "Nagi, Schuldich isn't an adult, he's something else who needs a mother."
Crawford was entirely more protective of keeping the boy from doing something he would regret.
**
Nagi stared up at the ceiling breathing hard and then feeling a little better he turned to look over at a picture of the team.
He was deathly afraid of Farfarello, he was rather scary at times and sometimes it was to the point that Nagi couldn't stay at home.
Crawford and Schuldich made it clear that someone had to be between those two. From the one incident from when Nagi was twelve or so, he had been raped and cut up pretty badly. Schuldich was surprised the boy didn't go back into his shell and refused to speak.
The truth was that Nagi did go back into the isolation and didn't leave his room for a month. Crawford and the German really though he had gone back to the old habits.
Farfarello wasn't always so bad, it was when Takatori started abusing his power, and he was abusing Schuldich. There was a sort of anger carried over from what happened, he went out in search of anything that would sooth his anger.
**
It was rather tiring about what was going on in the mansion since leaving Eszet. There was an idea that Crawford would remain the leader, but there was also the threat of Schuldich leaving.
The team was unbalanced and in truth they were all pretty envious of Weiss.
**
Nagi glared at a picture of Omi Tsukiyono, he hated Omi more than anything, it was the simple jealousy of him. Omi was everything that Nagi wasn't, he was positive, perky, and above loved by everyone who he talked to.
He was sickened by the idea that the older boy was more than he would ever be. Schwarz had seen this jealousy and tried to get it out of him. He tried to think about some way to kill Omi.
It was a sad jealousy, he also wanted to strive to be social like Omi, and he blamed his problems on his guardians. The truth was he should have blamed his parents for the way he was.
**
The clock ticked out the time again his eyes traveled to the walls and then to the door to his room. He saw Schuldich standing there and saw him holding a cup of warm milk. "Here," he whispered.
Looking at the warm milk, the German sat down and smiled at him. "It isn't going to kill you."
Taking a drink Nagi felt the rush of sleep threatening to come. "Sometimes, Nagi you are such a child and yet so grown up," the German smiled at him as he walked away*
**
The next morning walking to school, passing the flower shop that Omi worked in, he saw Aya glaring at him as he walked by. Ever since Schwarz escaped the battle alive, Aya was cruel and evil.
He moved across the street avoiding the man's eyes. The tall crimson haired man was scary and often watchful of him. He supposed that somewhere in that man's mind about being concerned about him.
Remembering one time some older boys decided to use Nagi as a punching bag in the alley beside the flower shop. Aya came out and chased the boy away and then called Crawford to take him home. "Watch your brat sometime!"
Brat? Is that what I am? Nagi never considered how Aya viewed him, except it was that Schwarz spoiled him. He supposed Weiss spoiled Omi in away, but Aya was too cold to be human.
Crawford isn't as cold as Aya is, he thought to himself when he walked to school today.
He looked over and saw Ken Hidaka talking to some children. It was odd how much Nagi didn't seemed to be bothered by Ken who just looked up and smiled at him. It was weird with the clash of emotions.
Ken was gentle, there was something about the guy, he cared about children, but Nagi had seen the other side of Ken. He had seen the assassin go crazy, sort of berserk like Farfarello, it was scary.
**
Then Nagi saw Yohji walking into the flower shop, he was watching Nagi quietly. There was a sense of sadness every time he thought about Yohji, he had sympathy for him, and he had lost his love. He had seen Nagi and Tot together and he understood what the two had felt.
Schuldich's evil games had to come to an end, it wasn't Yohji's fault, he wanted to be with the person he loved just as much as Nagi did. Somehow it was sad when he looked at the way the older man was around his team.
"Hey kid!" he turned to see Ken walk up. "You dropped this the other day." He held up a calculator.
"Thank you," Nagi took it and ran off down the street.
The dreams were always the same; he would curl into the fetal position on his bed. He remembered very little of his childhood, but he knew from what Schuldich had told him that it was not pleasant, he had been locked away.
As soon as he was able to walk his mother had taken him to a park and children were cruel to her son. She hid him away from the cruelty and in doing so, her son started to lack what was most important, speech, and social development.
Schuldich was the one who made the first contact with him; he was the one to jerk the boy out of his silent world. In truth it was thanks to the German that Nagi was able to speak at all. The first few years of Nagi's life with Schwarz was rather short, he was kept hidden at first and the gradually Crawford started taking him out of the house.
The German would quill his fears of the outside world, he had run away once, and was found a couple days latter in an alley. Schuldich sat with him talking him out of leaving. In some ways there was a clash in character with the German, he was not totally evil, he understood, he was kind, and he was the closest person to a big brother that Nagi could ask for.
When it came to Tot, Schuldich had said to go for it, as long as it didn't interfere with the missions. He was always there when Nagi needed him; he was the person who taught him how to talk in the first place.
Being isolated from the world from the moment he was two till he was ten, he was unable to develop a proper language structure. Schuldich held the most patience for him and would do just about anything to get him to speak.
There was still that patience when he saw him walking the halls at night, he would ask if he was alright or needed anything.
The Weiss had Schwarz figured wrong. They were evil, but it was only for show, in truth, Schuldich was kind, he was gentle, but he also showed and evil side when he couldn't help it.
**
Take a deep breath; he thought as he worked his way out of another overload, he lay on his back looking at the ceiling thinking. He heard the clock ticking in the hall, then he rolled onto his side going briefly to sleep, that was when nightmare came, he whispered and heard the door open.
Crawford sat down touching his side whispering to him that it was alright.
**
Crawford wasn't a total monster, in some cases; the American proved time and time again that he was the father figure. He wasn't as evil as he thought he was, he was sometimes concerned.
There was never a thought in Nagi's mind about having a father, he always considered Crawford his guardian. He never really belittled the leader, he never really spoke against him, he didn't know how.
It was until Tot came around that he started to change, and somehow Crawford did not view this as a good change. Nagi started going out late, he started acting out like a normal teenager trying to rebel against his father.
It felt though as if it was ice all around him, Nagi would stand there and wait until Crawford would slap him for saying something like that. "At least you didn't get her pregnant," was what Schuldich had said when he found out a little dirty secret from his mind.
Nagi wished though that he were treated like an adult like Schuldich. "Nagi, Schuldich isn't an adult, he's something else who needs a mother."
Crawford was entirely more protective of keeping the boy from doing something he would regret.
**
Nagi stared up at the ceiling breathing hard and then feeling a little better he turned to look over at a picture of the team.
He was deathly afraid of Farfarello, he was rather scary at times and sometimes it was to the point that Nagi couldn't stay at home.
Crawford and Schuldich made it clear that someone had to be between those two. From the one incident from when Nagi was twelve or so, he had been raped and cut up pretty badly. Schuldich was surprised the boy didn't go back into his shell and refused to speak.
The truth was that Nagi did go back into the isolation and didn't leave his room for a month. Crawford and the German really though he had gone back to the old habits.
Farfarello wasn't always so bad, it was when Takatori started abusing his power, and he was abusing Schuldich. There was a sort of anger carried over from what happened, he went out in search of anything that would sooth his anger.
**
It was rather tiring about what was going on in the mansion since leaving Eszet. There was an idea that Crawford would remain the leader, but there was also the threat of Schuldich leaving.
The team was unbalanced and in truth they were all pretty envious of Weiss.
**
Nagi glared at a picture of Omi Tsukiyono, he hated Omi more than anything, it was the simple jealousy of him. Omi was everything that Nagi wasn't, he was positive, perky, and above loved by everyone who he talked to.
He was sickened by the idea that the older boy was more than he would ever be. Schwarz had seen this jealousy and tried to get it out of him. He tried to think about some way to kill Omi.
It was a sad jealousy, he also wanted to strive to be social like Omi, and he blamed his problems on his guardians. The truth was he should have blamed his parents for the way he was.
**
The clock ticked out the time again his eyes traveled to the walls and then to the door to his room. He saw Schuldich standing there and saw him holding a cup of warm milk. "Here," he whispered.
Looking at the warm milk, the German sat down and smiled at him. "It isn't going to kill you."
Taking a drink Nagi felt the rush of sleep threatening to come. "Sometimes, Nagi you are such a child and yet so grown up," the German smiled at him as he walked away*
**
The next morning walking to school, passing the flower shop that Omi worked in, he saw Aya glaring at him as he walked by. Ever since Schwarz escaped the battle alive, Aya was cruel and evil.
He moved across the street avoiding the man's eyes. The tall crimson haired man was scary and often watchful of him. He supposed that somewhere in that man's mind about being concerned about him.
Remembering one time some older boys decided to use Nagi as a punching bag in the alley beside the flower shop. Aya came out and chased the boy away and then called Crawford to take him home. "Watch your brat sometime!"
Brat? Is that what I am? Nagi never considered how Aya viewed him, except it was that Schwarz spoiled him. He supposed Weiss spoiled Omi in away, but Aya was too cold to be human.
Crawford isn't as cold as Aya is, he thought to himself when he walked to school today.
He looked over and saw Ken Hidaka talking to some children. It was odd how much Nagi didn't seemed to be bothered by Ken who just looked up and smiled at him. It was weird with the clash of emotions.
Ken was gentle, there was something about the guy, he cared about children, but Nagi had seen the other side of Ken. He had seen the assassin go crazy, sort of berserk like Farfarello, it was scary.
**
Then Nagi saw Yohji walking into the flower shop, he was watching Nagi quietly. There was a sense of sadness every time he thought about Yohji, he had sympathy for him, and he had lost his love. He had seen Nagi and Tot together and he understood what the two had felt.
Schuldich's evil games had to come to an end, it wasn't Yohji's fault, he wanted to be with the person he loved just as much as Nagi did. Somehow it was sad when he looked at the way the older man was around his team.
"Hey kid!" he turned to see Ken walk up. "You dropped this the other day." He held up a calculator.
"Thank you," Nagi took it and ran off down the street.