Hopelessly devoted to you

Disclaimer: None of the characters, Mark, Steve, Jesse, Amanda, Dane Travis, CJ, Dion or Susan belong to me, I am just borrowing them from CBS. No money is intended from this story.

E-mail: Vicky.ratcliff@virgin.net

Rating: PG

Summary - Answers following Challenges:

65:Why did Jesse decide to become a doctor and why does he like Susan so much?

90: The gang is at Marks house watching the news when its announced that a man is being released from prison after serving a five year sentence. This news makes Jesse very angry. Mark, Steve and Amanda try to find out why Jesse is so upset.

159: After his father's death, Jesse becomes depressed and starts drinking. One night Mark, Amanda send Steve out to find Jesse, when he does Jesse is very drunk and he tells Steve a secret from his past. Will the gang be able to help Jesse?

The Release

It was a bright sunny afternoon and Dr. Jesse Travis was sitting lazily on the beach talking with his closest friends he had for a long time, Dr. Mark Sloan and his son Lt. Steve Sloan and Dr. Amanda Bentley. Her children, CJ and Dion had also joined them and for the first time in what seemed like ages they had all had the day off and had spent it on the beach together, and had just finished eating lunch. They had decided to sit down and rest before taking their dinner plates back into Mark's beach house, which he shared with Steve, and were reflecting on the mornings events, being promoted by the boys to come and play again, "Uncle Steve and Uncle Jesse", CJ began, "Please can you come and play with us again in the water",

"Yeah, please, it was really fun, and besides I want to get you this time, instead of being splashed myself" finished Dion.

"Now boys, remember what I said before", Amanda prompted, "After lunch we sit down and leave Uncle Steve and Jesse alone to rest, you had them all morning to play with, now it's our turn to spend time with them."

"And besides, you need to let all those BBQ ribs settle down in you stomach before you go in the water otherwise you'll get ill." Mark added coming to her defence. At this the boys settled down to a game of 'I spy' whilst Amanda silently thanked Mark for his input. She knew that they both respected Mark as a granddad figure, almost in the way she had come to think of Mark as a second father, he was someone special to the whole Bentley household, as were her best friends Steve and Jesse. This was her family and she was very happy sitting there with them all.

Not long after CJ and Dion had contented themselves a little dark skinned girl, with short black hair and green eyes passed by them, she couldn't have been more than about three, and she looked really lost, turning around in all directions to find someone she knew. Her eyes finally settled on Jesse.

"Olivia" Jesse suddenly cried out, but instead of responding the girl ran away back to the arms of who was presumably her mother.

"What?" Steve asked Jesse, "Do you know her?"

"Umm, no", Jesse replied looking very awkward, "she just reminded me of someone I used to know," he offered lamely, although Steve would have pressed the matter further, as he was sure that his best friend really had been surprised and delighted at seeing this 'Olivia' and then he had this faraway look and what Steve thought was a tear in his eye when he realized that was not who she was. Mark noticed it too, and he could see that Jesse was in no mood to answer questions about what had just happened, so he suggested that they clear the plates away and settle down in the house with a game to amuse the boys who had begun to get restless with their game anyway.

As Jesse helped Mark and the others clear away, he starred back at where the little girl, 'it looked so much like her' he thought, 'Then again, there's no way it could have been, she's been dead for about ten years now', he continued to think, a tear coming to his eye, 'come on Jesse, pull yourself together than episode of your life is over, the monster who killed her is away forever, she got her justice as did her mother, now go back in there with a happy face and enjoy yourself. That's and order.' Jesse concluded slightly louder than he had intended,

"What is Uncle Jesse?" Asked CJ innocently,

"What? Oh nothing, I was just talking to myself, don't worry, people do that all the time, and you will someday," Jesse quickly explained, happy that no one else seemed to hear him mentally telling himself off. He then continued to help clear away the rest of the dishes before settling down with the others to play a game of cards, although CJ and Dion had been settled down by Amanda with a computer game which according to her, was something they could play at for hours without disturbing them.

After a couple of rounds of rummy, it looked like Steve was winning, as usual! Before they had a chance to even try and catch up however, the phone rang. Jesse was closest so he picked it up. It was Steve's captain, suggesting that they turn on the TV to watch Mark's most recent high profile victory, which happened to be catching and exposing the leader of the earthonomists. They turned on the TV just in time to see the news bulletin, which had an interview with both Mark and Steve's captain, and a few glimpses of Steve. They all cheered at their friends, who once again were hero's as the report came to an end. Then something caught Jesse's eye. He looked again and blinked, tears started forming in his eyes and he clenched his fist. None of the others noticed and Jesse starred at the screen getting madder and madder until he eventually let his anger out,

"How DARE they let that monster out", he's already done enough damage, he shouldn't be allowed to do anymore." Jesse cried out in anger, tears steaming down his face. "Why ever not Jesse?" Mark asked,

"Yeah" Steve commented, he's served his six year sentence and it was only a theft, from that account he's sorry about what he did and is ready to make a new life."

"It all seems reasonable and everyone deserves a second chance," Amanda agreed,

"Why?" Jesse almost screamed, "Why? You ask why? I'll tell you why, because he's ruined enough lives and shouldn't be allowed to ruin anymore, he has committed serious crimes, and they've let him out, he should have rotted in his cell."

"Jesse that's a bit harsh it was only theft and you don't even know who he is or exactly what he did." Mark stated

"I'm sorry Mark, he shouldn't have been allowed out," Jesse said a little calmer, "Um, excuse me, I think I need to go home now, have fun," Jesse said,

"Jesse wait," Amanda started,

"Bye," Jesse said as he walked out the door, tears streaming down his face. He went straight to his car and sat down in the driver's seat, he hit his head on the steering wheel and just continued to cry. It wasn't fair, why should he be allowed out, Olivia and her mother hadn't gotten the justice they deserved after all, his country had failed them and so had he. He sat there for a few more minutes before leaving, without giving a single thought to the bewildered friends he had just left behind.