Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this fiction, blah blah. Don't sue.

A.N.: I thought why not post the chapter since I finally have free time? So I did.

Chapter 5. . .enjoy.

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When I woke up, I had gone through the scenario about a thousand times in my sleep and my heart felt like it was on fire. It was about 10 A.M. when I realized I was tired of waiting. I went to his office in blind rage, probably not the best mood to have a hopefully civilized conversation. Before I went in I heard Wesley say something.

"If we're going to do something, we have to do it quickly." I didn't care, but when I reached for a knob on the outside of the closed double doors I almost went back to my room. I sighed and with that mere exhale my entire plan went with it. I entered the room slightly hastier than I would have intended. I felt all eyes on me as I entered but my blindfold of rage was over my eyes again. I stopped right in front of his desk and spoke soft but fierce.

"I need to talk to you."

"Connor, can you wait? I'm kind of-"

"No." I interrupted him. I could see the expression on his face turn from cautious to worried.

"I'm tired of waiting." The rest looked confused but Gunn looked defensive. Even with no memory of what I did, he still didn't trust me. Angel nodded.

"Okay."

"Angel-" Wesley looked concerned but I couldn't wait, right?

"It's okay, um, we'll pick this up later." Everybody left and I stood there before him with a million questions but couldn't ask one. He would get mad or I would get mad, then we'd fight and he would throw me out. One way or another I always ended up alone, and I couldn't stand him abandoning me again. Maybe a quick escape was in order. I took out the spare key to his new place that he had given me and put it on his desk. He looked down at it, his face full of pain.

"Why?" his voice had a mix of question and grief.

"Because you don't get to let me go this time. I let you go. I. Abandon. You."

"Is that what you think I did?" he said standing up and looking me in the eye.

"Isn't that what you did? You never wanted me here. I did something wrong and you threw me away like a broken toy. I was the thing that never should have happened and you were ashamed. You still are, aren't you?" So much for the quick escape just red rage.

"Connor, I was never ashamed of you. I-"

"Then why did you erase everyone's memory?"

"Because I don't want them to worry about you or feel pain and I wanted the same for you. You were so obsessed by the concept of having a family that I decided to give you one."

"That wasn't your decision to make! Why are you constantly making choices for everyone?"

"Because I'm older and I know what's out there."

"Just because you're older, doesn't mean you're wiser. I don't think you lived out there for a long time. I bet the second you turned into a vampire you kept a safe distance from the world." He walked from behind the desk and I took a few steps back expecting a fight, but the hits never came. He walked around the desk and leaned on the front of it, crossing his arms. His voice got so soft it was painful for me to hear.

"Then were are we if not in the world?" I calmed slightly and the fire in my heart was reduced to just angst.

"We're under it." I think there was more pain in those words than I had intended, because his eyes started to water but he kept the same tone.

"And I gave you a life above that, above this." I could tell my eyes were welling up now.

"No, you gave me a lie."

"I gave you a family." That comment sparked the fire again and it raged so much inside of me I thought my insides were going to explode, and somewhere in those mix of emotions my pride drowned.

"You are my family! Don't you get it?! You are all I have! You may have your friends and comfortable everything here but I don't have that. I have you, and you toss it away. I thought vampires appreciated blood." Tears were rolling down both of our cheeks. He came over and hugged me. I think this was our first real hug. I didn't push away. I didn't cringe or flinch. It was just father and son. The way it should be, right?

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I know. . .not much of a plot but I couldn't stand the episode 'Home'. It left too many holes. So I fixed them. Please review. It will depend on you if there is a sequel, and if I do there will be an actual plot to it.