Do I really need to rehash the last week or so? Okay, work, sleep, eat, sleep, repeat.
I can officially say that I absolutely hate my job. Sure I get to keep all my tips but that also means I have to grin and bare the dirty plump hands that manage to smack me in the ass every time I near them and I have to smile and nod at all their nasty little remarks about the way I look. Some of the other waitresses seem to like it, especially when it is a "hot" guy. Whatever that means, all I see are alcoholics who probably have a few kids and a wife waiting for them at home.
But whatever, the money isn't bad and I enjoy the music. Well Alec is freaking me out.
One of the things I was starting to cherish about our arrangement was the lack of talking but now he seems to be around more and he always wants to talk. And not about just anything, he wants to talk about stupid things like the weather and stupid TV shows. I don't want to talk about anything, especially the weather and TV shows. It's either good or bad, life will go on so who really wants to get caught up in talking about it?
And he came to the bar. I would talk more about it but it is an experience I would like to forget. All I will comment on is that fact that I was embarrassed. I don't get embarrassed. You don't see me going to the construction site…I'm sure females like to call out to them too, right? It's just something I don't want to relive.
I've been having less dreams about Ben. I used to have a few different ones every time I would fall asleep, lately I've been lucky if I have one. They've all been replaced with weird dreams about my morbid things and the others. The latest dreams are of Max and I and we're standing on a roof looking out over Seattle.
I mean I'm assuming it's Seattle, but it looks even worse.
The buildings surrounded TC are in pieces. Fires blaze all around and it's eerily quite. And everything seems so still at first, but then you see what at first seems to be black creatures emerging from the rubble and fires and crawling towards the gates of TC…but then the closer they get I realize that they are people.
They never get close enough though and then all of a sudden Max and I are flanked by Alec, Zane, and the others. And the quite stops and we hear them marching. Someone is marching and they are yelling. But I'm not scared…I'm not scared of all of that. What scares me is the look in Max's eyes and Alec's hand is squeezing mine…
That's when I wake up. Every time I dream it little things become more real and clear to me. I see new things. I see faces clearly. I can almost smell the hot metal of the M16's that we hold…and every time I wake up more confused.
Maybe Alec would like to have a conversation about that. It would be a nice change from the damn weather. I would rather have dreams about Ben.
Jondy tucked the journal under her pillow and shuffled out of her room. Alec was sprawled out on the couch staring at the TV. She could tell by the way his eyes were glazed over that he wasn't really taking anything in. Which in a way was good to hear then he wouldn't feel the need to tell her all about it.
Pulling the refrigerator door open she stared at the contents. With a long sigh and a look she shut the door and began to rummage through the cabinets. With a satisfied look she pulled down the box of wheat thins and poured herself a glass of water.
Alec sat up a little and looked around when she began to change the TV. "Hey I was watching that."
"Yeah right." Jondy continued to flip through the ten channels that came in.
He rolled his eyes when she was about to run through all ten of them for a third time. "Just watch that. It's making me dizzy."
"What is it?" Her arm fell to her side limply.
"Xena."
She shrugged and grabbed her water and crackers before falling into the chair next to the couch. It was rare that the two of them had a day off at the same time. "So do you think she would be considered genetically engineered?"
Alec shook his head. "Well maybe if it were happening now, but the last thing they were thinking about then were genetics. Her strength went unquestioned."
"I guess that's why she's not real and this is a show." Jondy almost smiled when Alec turned and rolled his eyes at her.
"We should be a damn TV show."
"Called?"
Alec's eyebrows narrowed. "Adorable genetically engineered freaks made in the U.S.A. who now wants to kill us off one by one by hiring a cult that are more freaky then us?"
"Sounds like you've been thinking about this." Jondy chuckled.
"I can tell that you're impressed. I should get a copy write on it." Alec sat up and stretched. He yawned loudly and reached over to take the box from her lap. He grabbed a handful and handed it back to her before she could protest. "What time is it?"
Jondy shrugged and stared at the TV. "I would guess around five."
"That's it?"
"It was a guess."
Alec slid deeper into the couch and yawned again. "And you're awake?"
"No, this is all a dream." Jondy shook her head and smiled as she dug into the box.
"Oh so we got jokes today?" Alec smiled and turned back to the TV. If this had been any other girl he would have called it flirting. So his attempts to have conversations were not a complete waste.
Jondy watched him as his brows furrowed and his jaw tensed and relaxed a few times. "Can I talk to you about something?"
Alec's eyebrows rose. "Of course."
Jondy set the box down and pulled her legs up underneath her. "Do you ever have a reoccurring dream?"
Alec thought about it for a minute and shrugged. "Like of memory?"
"Everyone has those, I mean…" Jondy chewed on her lip. "I mean I've been having this strange dream."
"About Ben?" The words were spoken before he had a chance to stop them.
Jondy visibly tensed and her green eyes narrowed on his. He waited her walls of secrecy to come crashing down around her giving her time to retreat to her room and forget that he existed. He was almost afraid to breathe as he waited but the moment never came.
Jondy sighed and shook her head. "Contrary to what everyone assumes, Ben is not on my mind all of the time."
Alec nodded and held up his hands. "I'm sorry…"
"He is most of the time but not lately. It's like he's fading and I'm not sure why. I think it has to do with this new dream…" She trailed off in her thoughts, while Alec could only stare. She felt his eyes on her and shook away thoughts of Ben. "When I said reoccurring I didn't mean like a memory or even something I had experienced before."
"So…"
"And it continues from one episode to the next like a TV show…" Jondy's eyes were shrouded in thought. "And it builds on itself."
"Woah okay back up, you're thinking a loud and it's not making any sense to me." Alec sat forward. "You are having a dream about?"
Jondy leaned back and stared at the window. "It's about Seattle and Terminal City, but it's different. It really looks like a bomb just layered the city."
"It looks like that now and you have been there," Alec began.
"Stop interrupting and just listen to me." Jondy gave him a look that reminded him so much of Max it made his heart ache.
"Sorry, sorry."
Jondy rolled her eyes. "To clarify what I mean it looked like a wasteland. What I imagine a wasteland would look like. All that is left are pieces of buildings, the horizon is blazing with fires, and the sky and air is filled with smoke…I almost feel like I'm choking on it."
The look in her eyes and the way her voice had lowered to a whisper was giving him chills. He would almost believe that she had come up with this story to scare him, but Jondy wasn't a storyteller. Hell the girl didn't like to talk if it wasn't necessary.
"Hey…" Alec said softly after minutes of silence. He shook her hand and her head turned and looked at him.
"We're all watching it."
"Who?"
"Me, you, Max, Krit…all of us. We're standing on a really tall building. I don't think we're in Terminal City though…because I can see it. I think it's Terminal City…but it's all confusing."
"Space needle?"
Jondy thought for a moment then nodded. "Maybe. I'm not sure, but we are high."
"Is Terminal City being attacked?"
"Not yet. It's like it's building up. We have M16's and things are being set up. I don't know what yet, but I can hear them working on it. It's like we are waiting for something."
"For someone to attack?"
Jondy shrugged. "I don't know, but we're all scared…or worried. It may not even be Seattle, I mean…I can't tell yet. For awhile the dream is really quite but then things start to appear."
"People?"
"Well at first they looked like black creatures or shadows but lately they have looked like people."
"Transgenics?"
Jondy shook her head. "No. I think they are coming for us."
"Probably the Phalanx." Alec suggested.
"Who are they?"
"It's a breeding cult called the familiars. Basically they are like us, only they are naturally superior to civilians. Ames White is one of them and he's trying to kill all transgenics so that the government secret doesn't get out. Well the Phalanx is like a group of super soldiers who are a lot stronger then us." Alec shrugged. "It's a long story, but I would assume that they are the Phalanx."
"I've never seen them so why am I dreaming about them?" Jondy nodded when she met his eyes. "And every time I have this damn dream I can hear marching and yelling, it's like cadence but I can't see where it's coming from, but it's scary."
"Does it scare all of us?"
"What do you mean?"
"I understand that it scares you now, I mean it's scaring me and I've never dreamt anything like it."
Jondy closed her eyes and sifted through the dream. "I'm not really sure. We seem scared but I don't know if it's from that or what is going on. Every time I have the dream I learn something new or I see something more clearly. It's just a weird dream…"
Alec shook his head. "I don't know…let me know if you have another one. Wake me up if you have too."
Jondy gave him a worried glance. "You don't think something bad is happening in Seattle?"
He smiled to try and ease her worry and mask his own fears. "No, no. I'm just intrigued. It sounds like a good TV show."
Her eyes rolled and she sat forward to grab the box. "It's all about TV with you."
"Yeah." Alec sank into the couch and thought about everything she'd just said. He wasn't sure what any of it meant, if it meant anything at all. What he did know was that it scared him and that he needed to tell Max.