Disclaimer: I do not own Trigun or its characters, however I do lay claim to Silas, the evil bastard he is. *Sigh* I know you all hate him now.

Author note: I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo thoroughly sorry. I know I've been keeping you people in suspense and anguish for Meryl, please do except my apology.

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Meryl slowly grew numb, she felt so vulnerable, and weak. How could this be happening to her? Why? What did she ever do to deserve any of this? Tears ran down her cheeks as she bared the pain and nearly bit through her lower lip. She was losing so much in this instant, she was meant for Vash, not some petty heartless creep.

Silas was enjoying himself greatly, the look of pain in the woman's eyes, the very threat of death as she glared at him and cursed his name, the reaction as he silenced her for it, the screams and moans he every now and then received. He could see why his father preformed such things on others.

Something inside of him started to change, without his consent, he felt himself slipping, and in the back of his mind, he was screaming for release. He snarled as his head was hit was an unexplainable pain. He wrenched back holding his head slightly "what is this.what have you done!?" he screamed at the room, it could have been the plant, or Meryl or anyone outside the room, he wasn't sure. All he knew is it hurt, and he was confused.

Slowly his eye started to burn and the once mismatched eye reverted to a pure gold like its twin. His temperament changed drastically. He held himself upright as his chest heaved and a stunned Meryl watched in horror, as Silas seemed to slip through the pain, unsure of what was going to happen next.

He opened his eyes and gazed down at the woman, his eyes widening at the forced state she was in, and just what he had been doing to her. He immediately removed himself from her and backed up against the wall shaking his head, his eyes wide with fear, guilt and pain. "wha.what have I done." He wrapped his arms tightly about himself and slipped to the floor curling into a ball, he started to sob.

Meryl tilted her head some as she watched the boy in his anguish unsure of what just happened, but her once thoroughly enthralled assailant was now crying over what he had done to her. Somehow, this all didn't make sense, but it almost seemed like the man was a completely different person. That almost child-like innocent look in his eyes as he realized what he had done, that absolute pain that struck those golden orbs before backed off as if burned and crumpled to the floor.

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Vash kicked in the door to the plant and stood staring at the utter carnage before him. His eyes widened and he took one step back, the scene twisting his stomach. He raised his eyes to the hall before him and reminded himself why he was here. His eyes grew stern and his expression determined as he moved through the dark hall, stepping over the telltale signs of Silas' presence.

Knives raised a brow as Vash hesitated then finally pressed on. As he followed, he took not to the arrangement of various bodies on the floor, all destroyed in a messy manor. He shook his head and sighed "Such a disgraceful display of power, what utter lack of creativity." He frowned "this was a stupid move on his part, leaving such evidence behind."

Vash shook his head "No, he wanted us to find this." he looked around "dammit.we're going to have our hands full these halls wind on forever." He sighed, "You go that way," He pointed to the left. "I'll go this way." Pointing to the right "if you find her let me know." He said tapping his temple.

Knives nodded some and moved in the direction he was pointed. He glared as he passed through the hall, he muttered to himself. "If I find this kid he's going to be screaming for his death." He snickered some ".. then maybe I'll rescue Vash's woman."

Vash looked around frantically poking his head into every room before coming to the end of the hallway where two large doors led to the plant. He pressed his palm to the pad and opened the doors stepping in he examined the large room. He gazed upon his sister within, moved up to the walkway, and pressed his fingers to the warm bulb. "Hello there sis." he got a nod in return, but the woman had a sort of concerned look on her face. He frowned "what troubles you?" she began to show him images of Silas and he nodded "do you know where he went?" she shook her head no. He sighed and nodded "Thank you, you helped me quite a bit." He offered her a smile "don't worry. you won't have to worry about him." With that, he turned to leave touching his temple

Knives quickly grew annoyed as he searched through each room until he finally heard some soft sobbing from a nearby room. He growled and moved to the door kicking open to find Meryl strewn across the desk in a most un- natural pose, and Silas sitting against the wall bawling and hugging his knees. He raised a brow as Vash spoke to him

Vash's eyes widened and he stopped He exclaimed hearing his voice echo in the hall, apparently voicing it as well as sending the message mentally.

Knives winced he glared at the boy and moved towards him, fists clenching "your one twisted bastard you know that, not even I sunk to this level!"

Silas sunk lower into a ball and laced his fingers tightly in his hair. ".I. I ..it wasn't me. I didn't do this.I didn't mean to." He muttered weakly. Knives snarled "Like hell you didn't! Then who did you pathetic excuse for a living being!" he glared and kneeled down taking a large chunk of the boy's hair in his fist and yanking him to his feet. "Stop acting like your fucking innocent! You know I'd beat the snot out of you here but I think my brother would much rather enjoy it once he sees what you've done to his lover!"

Vash came in just as Knives said this and immediately his eyes moved over Meryl. He quickly went to her side noticing the blank look in her eyes. Tears started to form and he bit his lip as he tried to untie her. His brow furrowed and he turned to glare at the boy whom his brother so painfully grasped. "Where are the keys!?"

Knives gave the boy a shake "Answer him damn you!" the boy whimpered "I. I don't know.. I really don't know. Please. I didn't." he was cut off as his head and body bounced back harshly against the wall. Knives promptly searched the boy and found them in his pocket. He tossed them to Vash and glared down upon him. "You don't lie very well in bad situations you know that?"

Vash caught the keys and un-cuffed Meryl. Her wrists were slightly bloody and swollen from struggling. Her body was ruthlessly exposed which Vash gently moved to cover. He felt horrible, this was his fault, she was stolen from him, he did not move to stop it, and this is the result. Once she was no longer exposed, he helped her to sit up. The moment she did, she broke down and clung to Vash, crying painfully into his chest and gripping his jacket. He'd never, ever seen Meryl so weak and in pain, and he never wanted to see it again. He picked her up in his arms and moved to carry her out. ".. Do what you want with him Knives.but don't kill him." He muttered before leaving. "Don't worry Meryl we'll get you home. You'll be ok now."

Meryl buried herself in Vash's coat, half to hide her tears and half to cover what noise would come from the room. She then closed her eyes and fell asleep in his arms trying to forget the pain.

Vash ignored the sounds that echoed down the halls shortly after he left Knives to deal with Silas. Somewhere in his heart it felt wrong to let Knives harm the boy, but then again there was a piece of him that wanted the man to learn what he's done. He went back to their hotel and placed Meryl in bed, retrieved a doctor who looked over her wounds and assessed that she could become pregnant. The doctor shook his head "Its too early to tell, you'll have to wait it out." He then left Vash to be alone with her.

Knives soon returned with a battered Silas and cuffed him outside the Inn for the time being. He entered with a worried Millie at his heals and frowned slightly as Vash didn't respond. ".How is she?" He asked mostly worried about his brother.

Vash sighed ".. She'll heal, but the doctor said she.has a possibility of being pregnant." He frowned.

Knives snarled slightly "damn him, why didn't you let me.no never mind, I know why." He sighed.

Millie smiled slightly "Oh, I didn't know you and Meryl sempai were trying for children Mr. Vash."

Knives rolled his eyes "No, that's not wha." he was rudely cut off.

Vash "well ya know I wouldn't call it really trying." he blushes lightly offering her a smile "Could you go get us a wet cloth and some wild turkey?"

Millie nodded "Sure thing." She then disappeared out the door.

Knives raised a brow "What is the alcohol for?"

Vash snickered "For me. I'm going to need some picker-uppers after all this."

Knives shook his head "You know she'll eventually find out."

Vash nodded "I know. but for now its better this way, I know Meryl wouldn't want Millie worrying over her. Beside I don't want to have to hold her off from killing the boy too." He sighed ".Thank you Knives, for.sparing him."

Knives shrugged "He wasn't even attempting to get away, it would have been no fun killing him anyway, it'd be like beating a child to death. Even I'm not that evil."

Vash shook his head "Your not that bad of a person at all Knives, face it, you've changed for the better."

Knives snarled "That's where your sadly mistaken, I haven't changed I'm just laying low until I get my chance, and right now this kids in my way."

Vash sighed "Ok knives.sure." He looked over Meryl and gently squeezed her hand. ".Everything will be Ok Meryl. I promise you."

Knives half gagged at this and sighed leaving the room to allow the other two some privacy. ".. Maybe the kid was telling the truth. It was just like the first time we kicked his ass, he reverted to a child like form, except this time he remained that way." He sighed, "This kid is some mental case. we'll have to be careful, he may revert any time."

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Well that's it for chapter 21, I hope this helped you somewhat. Hey, I had to throw some sort of Kink into things or it wouldn't be interesting. Besides, it helps you to see into Silas a bit more. He is the proverbial yin and yang. NE way new chap ASAP, I hope. R&R please!!!!