Amen
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Rating: PG
Genre: Angst/Tragedy
Warnings: None
Spoilers: None
Summary: Faith brings answers and security to many. To one, it is only twisted torment of the darkness within. Angst!Ken
Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon. If I did, they would still be playing 01 and 02, or at least a DECENT sort of season, NOT the Tamers arc. /grumbles/
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Our Father.
I keep my head bowed, daring not to look up. My lips slowly mouth the words to the psalm ringing in the air.
Who art in Heaven
I clench my eyes shut, obediently repeating the mandatory words of the ceremony. They fall from my tainted lips like dark, corroded stones of lead, sinking into a crystalline pool of purity and poisoning it.
Hallowed be Thy name
Throughout the Homily I do not dare look up to the pulpit, to the altar or the crucifix above it. My hands barely grasp my parents' as the Lord's Prayer is said.
Thy Kingdom come
The sanctity of the church is not in the incense, the candles, or the pious statues of saints. It is something far deeper, in the foundations of this very building.
Thy Will be done
On Earth as it is in Heaven
I feel darkness coiling in me, hating the light and the goodness of this all. It snarls at the priest, at the dutiful worshipers at the service.
Give us this day our daily bread
The Bread and Wine are blessed, becoming the Flesh and Blood of Christ. I wonder if it would truly save me, purge my soul of the evil within it.
And forgive us our trespasses
I have to crack open my eyes as it is soon my turn to receive the Host. Would I be forgiven? The sad, blank eyes of a statue of the Blessed Virgin in a small nook gaze at me, Her hands outstretched.
As we forgive those who trespass against us
I open my mouth to let the Host be placed on my tongue. But in that moment, my eyes see the image of Christ upon His cross above the altar. The bread turns to ash in my mouth as His peaceful, sorrowful face turns to me, with the eyes of the Kaizer.
And lead us not into temptation
Oh will he never stop following me? Will I be cursed by his damned presence forever? His eyes dance with wicked glee as he snickers silently at me. I manage to regain my composure, hurrying to my seat to reflect while somehow managing to swallow the dry Host in my mouth. Christ's Body chokes me, a sinful beast.
But deliver us from evil
I close my eyes but I still see the Kaizer's eyes gleaming at me in amusement as he whispers mockingly at my attempts to hide from him. Clenching the pew in front of me, I bury my face into my hands and feel hot tears fall down my cheeks.
Amen.
~*~
Adrian: You are one twisted person.
Why thank you.
Ken: Why must you do this to me?!?!?!!!
Because you're so beautiful when you're angsty, Ken-chan. ^^
Ken: ARGHHHHH!!! /stomps off/
~*~
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst/Tragedy
Warnings: None
Spoilers: None
Summary: Faith brings answers and security to many. To one, it is only twisted torment of the darkness within. Angst!Ken
Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon. If I did, they would still be playing 01 and 02, or at least a DECENT sort of season, NOT the Tamers arc. /grumbles/
~*~
Our Father.
I keep my head bowed, daring not to look up. My lips slowly mouth the words to the psalm ringing in the air.
Who art in Heaven
I clench my eyes shut, obediently repeating the mandatory words of the ceremony. They fall from my tainted lips like dark, corroded stones of lead, sinking into a crystalline pool of purity and poisoning it.
Hallowed be Thy name
Throughout the Homily I do not dare look up to the pulpit, to the altar or the crucifix above it. My hands barely grasp my parents' as the Lord's Prayer is said.
Thy Kingdom come
The sanctity of the church is not in the incense, the candles, or the pious statues of saints. It is something far deeper, in the foundations of this very building.
Thy Will be done
On Earth as it is in Heaven
I feel darkness coiling in me, hating the light and the goodness of this all. It snarls at the priest, at the dutiful worshipers at the service.
Give us this day our daily bread
The Bread and Wine are blessed, becoming the Flesh and Blood of Christ. I wonder if it would truly save me, purge my soul of the evil within it.
And forgive us our trespasses
I have to crack open my eyes as it is soon my turn to receive the Host. Would I be forgiven? The sad, blank eyes of a statue of the Blessed Virgin in a small nook gaze at me, Her hands outstretched.
As we forgive those who trespass against us
I open my mouth to let the Host be placed on my tongue. But in that moment, my eyes see the image of Christ upon His cross above the altar. The bread turns to ash in my mouth as His peaceful, sorrowful face turns to me, with the eyes of the Kaizer.
And lead us not into temptation
Oh will he never stop following me? Will I be cursed by his damned presence forever? His eyes dance with wicked glee as he snickers silently at me. I manage to regain my composure, hurrying to my seat to reflect while somehow managing to swallow the dry Host in my mouth. Christ's Body chokes me, a sinful beast.
But deliver us from evil
I close my eyes but I still see the Kaizer's eyes gleaming at me in amusement as he whispers mockingly at my attempts to hide from him. Clenching the pew in front of me, I bury my face into my hands and feel hot tears fall down my cheeks.
Amen.
~*~
Adrian: You are one twisted person.
Why thank you.
Ken: Why must you do this to me?!?!?!!!
Because you're so beautiful when you're angsty, Ken-chan. ^^
Ken: ARGHHHHH!!! /stomps off/