Authors Note: chapter two is up!!! This is an interesting chapter, it is kind of boring to start off with but the end it neat. Keep reading!!! Thanks to everyone who reviewed.
Chapter 2
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Sometimes we must get
hurt in order to grow;
we must fail in order to know.
Sometimes our vision clear
only after our eyes are
washed away with tears
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'Carrots, why can I not find the carrots? I just bought some. I know we did not eat them all, they must be around here...ah, there they are.' I pulled out the bag of baby carrots and reached up to grab the veggie dip. "Mommy, did you find them?" Jeremy asked sauntering up behind me and leaning up against the fridge, while chewing on his gum. "Buzz!"
"I got it." Jeremy shouted as he ran for the buzzer. "Yeah!" He said casually.
"Hey, Jeremy," Carter beamed through the speaker.
"I'll let you into the building dad." He giggled. I heard Carter laugh and I was now prepared for the awkwardness that was about to abrupt. "Mommy, can daddy stay for dinner." Jeremy asked walking up next to me. "Not tonight baby." I said picking him up and walking to the door. I hadn't seen Carter since he caught Anthony and I in the middle of a kiss, well we hadn't really started yet.
"Knock, Knock." Logan laughed.
"Logan!" Jeremy cried, opening the door. There stood Carter with a big grin on his face and Logan in his arms. "Mommy." Logan said reaching out for me, it had been 4 days since we had seen each other. Jeremy lunged toward Carter, we switched kids and Carter walked in. "Hey how have you been Logan, have you had fun with daddy?" He nodded planting a kiss on my cheek. "Okay, I better get going now." Carter said setting Jeremy on the floor. "NO!" Jeremy shouted. His little forehead wrinkling.
"I got to go, buddy." He said patting his arm. Jeremy, started to cloud up and became angry, I knew he was tired so this could have something to do with the brewing tantrum.
"I want you to stay for dinner." He sobbed wiping his eyes with the back of his balled up fists. Carter lowered himself to Jeremy's level wrapping an arm around his back. "Hey baby, maybe tomorrow night okay, but tonight its just going to be mommy, you and Logan. Okay?" Jeremy leaned his head onto Carters shoulder his whole body shaking.
Carter picked him up and looked at me. I nodded and he kissed Jeremy's temple. "Here go with mommy okay?" Loud screams escaped his tiny body. He obviously was not liking that idea. Carter did the only thing he could do, and took as seat on the couch with Jeremy in his arms. "I missed you mommy." Logan said smiling up at me. He was smiling. he still looked a little pale, but over all he looked pretty healthy. "I missed you too." I said kissing his head. "Dinner for four?" I said holding up an extra plate.
"It's starting to look that way." Carter expressed half heartedly.
I hoped he would leave right after dinner because I knew he was mad at me, for the whole Anthony thing. Truth be told I had a date with Anthony tomorrow night. I just did not feel the need to tell Carter about this. "Oh, I should call my dad." Carter piped.
"Yeah, sure. He can come too, actually Jeremy still hasn't met him and I think he should, especially when your here." I explained, I just hoped he was falling for all my ass kissing.
"Yeah, sure I'm sure he would love that actually. He always liked you."
I smiled at this, his father was always very nice. His mother on the other hand was rather cold and scared me a tad. "Dad," Carter hollered through the phone. His dad must have been on a cell phone. "Whose daddy talking too?" Jeremy said wiping his red eyes and sniffling. "His daddy." I replied matter of fact.
"Daddy has a daddy?" He responded still looking up at me.
"Yeah, he gave me a truck!" Logan said running over to show Jeremy and I the truck.
"He did?" I asked wide eyed. He nodded excitedly.
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You Don't Deserve Me
I Know That Its True,
but I Want u So bad..
What Do I Do
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"So your my daddy's, daddy?" Jeremy asked Jack curiously.
"Yes I am Jeremy." He said plopping mash potatoes on the brown eyed boys plate.
"You are old then." He added. Jack found this quite amusing which I was thankful for. Sometimes Jeremy and Logan just said whatever came to mind, which is what most kids do I guess, it can be a little embarrassing when it is your child though saying the things.
"Grandpa is very old Jeremy!" Carter encouraged. I smacked at Carters arm gently signalling him to cut it out. He turned and smiled to me.
"So Abby," Jack Started as we cleaned off the plates. Carter was on the floor with the boys playing dinosaurs, Jack had bought Jeremy a small set of dinosaurs.
"yeah."
"John tells me your dating again." He stated nonchalantly. I was appalled by this comment.
"uh- excuse me?"
"Oh, I'm sorry. I'm happy for you though. I always thought you and John were good together though. I just think he can be hard to deal with sometimes. I think he loves you. He needs you, but he needs you to need him. John needs to be relied on, at least it seems that way. Maybe he tried to hard to fix you." I nodded, John must have really filled him in on the details on our relationship.
"Yeah, but I was never broken. I'm better now though. I Know what I want." I explained.
"Good. I'm glad. I still believe you two are meant for each other though. I don't like that Tanya. She's very possessive of him. I try to tell him that, but now that your happy it seems like he try's even harder with Tanya." This made sense, Carter had been a bit standoffish and rude with me since he found out about Anthony, maybe I shouldn't have lied to him, but I just felt it was the thing to do. I was really hating the way he was acting about this, I was more mature about his relationship with Tanya then he is being with me.
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Love is like money, everyone
wants it, its great when you
have it, but it
disappears really fast!
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"Hello?"
"Hi, yah is Abby there?"
"Whose this?"
"Uh- Anthony, whose this?"
"You don't get to ask who this is you called me."
"Is this Carter?"
"How do you know who I am."
"Abby, she told me a little about you."
"Oh she did."
"Carter what are you doing?" I say through the phone line. I hear a click, he should check to see if I am on the line before he goes harassing my friends.
"Anthony" I ask hoping he is still there.
"Yeah, hi!" he seems a little muffed.
"Sorry, about that. Carter is just a little- I don't know." I say sitting on the bed.
"No, don't worry. If you were my ex I'd be trying to get you back too." He coos.
He so sweet, he's kind of making my teeth rot, which would be bad for anyone else to do, but from him its okay. "Abby-" Carter says knocking on my door, interrupting my conversation. "Hold on Anthony- Yeah."
"I'm going." He turns and walks to the front door.
"Anthony, I'll call you back in 2 minutes, Carter is leaving."
"Sure." He says hanging up. I get off the bed and follow Carter to the door. Jack had left at about 7:30 he had foundation obligations.
"Okay, see yah later." He says opening the door and giving me a small wave.
"Carter." I stop him.
"yeah." He doesn't even turn around.
"My phone calls are none of your business." he tenses at this, but its true.
"Abby, I don't think you should date him." He orders, now I'm flabbergasted.
"Excuse me?" I object.
"He's not right for you, he's not your type?"
"Oh and you are such an expert on my type?" I say now raising my voice, I try and stay quite by its hard I am so outraged with his comments, I can't hold my anger in.
"YES!" He says, he is very loud.
"Keep your voice down John you'll wake them!" I instructed as he plays with the buttons on his jacket angrily.
"Right." He says turning to leave.
"If you know so much about me John Carter, If you know so much about what type of man I should date who should I date HUH?"
"ME!" With that he slammed the door, leaving me baffled.
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Sometimes you lose,
but you're gonna win
if you just hang in
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I stand there looking at the door for what seems like hours but when I look over at the clock is actually only 5 seconds, to be exact. I could probably stand here forever if it weren't for the loud cries of Logan. I slowly turn away from the door to go and tend to my screeching son. "Logan, baby. Mommy's here now." I say caressing his blond sweaty hair. I hear quite sobs as he reaches his hand out and grabs my shirt. I lean down to pick him up and carry him out of the room, his tiny head resting on my shoulder, his body racked with sobs. "It's okay bab-" I hear a loud knock on the door, and look through the peep hole to see and out of breath Carter. "Hey." I say opening the door.
"Hey, is everything okay? I heard a scream." He says trying to catch his breath. I glance down at Logan, still crying. He reaches out and takes Logan from me.
"Hey, Hey shh. Don't cry baby." Logan still has his head resting on Carters chest and his hand in mine. "I- I heard a scary yell and bang." Logan stammers.
Carter gives me a knowing look.
"Come baby, I'll take you to bed." I say grabbing him from Carter.
"Bye daddy." He waves and sniffles. Carter waves back watching his crying son being carried off. I lay Logan down in bed, making sure Jeremy is okay too. I go out to the living room preparing to talk to Carter, but he's gone, he took off. Just like that.
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Think highly of yourself,
for the world takes you
at your own estimate!
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Chapter 2
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Sometimes we must get
hurt in order to grow;
we must fail in order to know.
Sometimes our vision clear
only after our eyes are
washed away with tears
-------------------------------------
'Carrots, why can I not find the carrots? I just bought some. I know we did not eat them all, they must be around here...ah, there they are.' I pulled out the bag of baby carrots and reached up to grab the veggie dip. "Mommy, did you find them?" Jeremy asked sauntering up behind me and leaning up against the fridge, while chewing on his gum. "Buzz!"
"I got it." Jeremy shouted as he ran for the buzzer. "Yeah!" He said casually.
"Hey, Jeremy," Carter beamed through the speaker.
"I'll let you into the building dad." He giggled. I heard Carter laugh and I was now prepared for the awkwardness that was about to abrupt. "Mommy, can daddy stay for dinner." Jeremy asked walking up next to me. "Not tonight baby." I said picking him up and walking to the door. I hadn't seen Carter since he caught Anthony and I in the middle of a kiss, well we hadn't really started yet.
"Knock, Knock." Logan laughed.
"Logan!" Jeremy cried, opening the door. There stood Carter with a big grin on his face and Logan in his arms. "Mommy." Logan said reaching out for me, it had been 4 days since we had seen each other. Jeremy lunged toward Carter, we switched kids and Carter walked in. "Hey how have you been Logan, have you had fun with daddy?" He nodded planting a kiss on my cheek. "Okay, I better get going now." Carter said setting Jeremy on the floor. "NO!" Jeremy shouted. His little forehead wrinkling.
"I got to go, buddy." He said patting his arm. Jeremy, started to cloud up and became angry, I knew he was tired so this could have something to do with the brewing tantrum.
"I want you to stay for dinner." He sobbed wiping his eyes with the back of his balled up fists. Carter lowered himself to Jeremy's level wrapping an arm around his back. "Hey baby, maybe tomorrow night okay, but tonight its just going to be mommy, you and Logan. Okay?" Jeremy leaned his head onto Carters shoulder his whole body shaking.
Carter picked him up and looked at me. I nodded and he kissed Jeremy's temple. "Here go with mommy okay?" Loud screams escaped his tiny body. He obviously was not liking that idea. Carter did the only thing he could do, and took as seat on the couch with Jeremy in his arms. "I missed you mommy." Logan said smiling up at me. He was smiling. he still looked a little pale, but over all he looked pretty healthy. "I missed you too." I said kissing his head. "Dinner for four?" I said holding up an extra plate.
"It's starting to look that way." Carter expressed half heartedly.
I hoped he would leave right after dinner because I knew he was mad at me, for the whole Anthony thing. Truth be told I had a date with Anthony tomorrow night. I just did not feel the need to tell Carter about this. "Oh, I should call my dad." Carter piped.
"Yeah, sure. He can come too, actually Jeremy still hasn't met him and I think he should, especially when your here." I explained, I just hoped he was falling for all my ass kissing.
"Yeah, sure I'm sure he would love that actually. He always liked you."
I smiled at this, his father was always very nice. His mother on the other hand was rather cold and scared me a tad. "Dad," Carter hollered through the phone. His dad must have been on a cell phone. "Whose daddy talking too?" Jeremy said wiping his red eyes and sniffling. "His daddy." I replied matter of fact.
"Daddy has a daddy?" He responded still looking up at me.
"Yeah, he gave me a truck!" Logan said running over to show Jeremy and I the truck.
"He did?" I asked wide eyed. He nodded excitedly.
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You Don't Deserve Me
I Know That Its True,
but I Want u So bad..
What Do I Do
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"So your my daddy's, daddy?" Jeremy asked Jack curiously.
"Yes I am Jeremy." He said plopping mash potatoes on the brown eyed boys plate.
"You are old then." He added. Jack found this quite amusing which I was thankful for. Sometimes Jeremy and Logan just said whatever came to mind, which is what most kids do I guess, it can be a little embarrassing when it is your child though saying the things.
"Grandpa is very old Jeremy!" Carter encouraged. I smacked at Carters arm gently signalling him to cut it out. He turned and smiled to me.
"So Abby," Jack Started as we cleaned off the plates. Carter was on the floor with the boys playing dinosaurs, Jack had bought Jeremy a small set of dinosaurs.
"yeah."
"John tells me your dating again." He stated nonchalantly. I was appalled by this comment.
"uh- excuse me?"
"Oh, I'm sorry. I'm happy for you though. I always thought you and John were good together though. I just think he can be hard to deal with sometimes. I think he loves you. He needs you, but he needs you to need him. John needs to be relied on, at least it seems that way. Maybe he tried to hard to fix you." I nodded, John must have really filled him in on the details on our relationship.
"Yeah, but I was never broken. I'm better now though. I Know what I want." I explained.
"Good. I'm glad. I still believe you two are meant for each other though. I don't like that Tanya. She's very possessive of him. I try to tell him that, but now that your happy it seems like he try's even harder with Tanya." This made sense, Carter had been a bit standoffish and rude with me since he found out about Anthony, maybe I shouldn't have lied to him, but I just felt it was the thing to do. I was really hating the way he was acting about this, I was more mature about his relationship with Tanya then he is being with me.
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Love is like money, everyone
wants it, its great when you
have it, but it
disappears really fast!
-----------------------------------
"Hello?"
"Hi, yah is Abby there?"
"Whose this?"
"Uh- Anthony, whose this?"
"You don't get to ask who this is you called me."
"Is this Carter?"
"How do you know who I am."
"Abby, she told me a little about you."
"Oh she did."
"Carter what are you doing?" I say through the phone line. I hear a click, he should check to see if I am on the line before he goes harassing my friends.
"Anthony" I ask hoping he is still there.
"Yeah, hi!" he seems a little muffed.
"Sorry, about that. Carter is just a little- I don't know." I say sitting on the bed.
"No, don't worry. If you were my ex I'd be trying to get you back too." He coos.
He so sweet, he's kind of making my teeth rot, which would be bad for anyone else to do, but from him its okay. "Abby-" Carter says knocking on my door, interrupting my conversation. "Hold on Anthony- Yeah."
"I'm going." He turns and walks to the front door.
"Anthony, I'll call you back in 2 minutes, Carter is leaving."
"Sure." He says hanging up. I get off the bed and follow Carter to the door. Jack had left at about 7:30 he had foundation obligations.
"Okay, see yah later." He says opening the door and giving me a small wave.
"Carter." I stop him.
"yeah." He doesn't even turn around.
"My phone calls are none of your business." he tenses at this, but its true.
"Abby, I don't think you should date him." He orders, now I'm flabbergasted.
"Excuse me?" I object.
"He's not right for you, he's not your type?"
"Oh and you are such an expert on my type?" I say now raising my voice, I try and stay quite by its hard I am so outraged with his comments, I can't hold my anger in.
"YES!" He says, he is very loud.
"Keep your voice down John you'll wake them!" I instructed as he plays with the buttons on his jacket angrily.
"Right." He says turning to leave.
"If you know so much about me John Carter, If you know so much about what type of man I should date who should I date HUH?"
"ME!" With that he slammed the door, leaving me baffled.
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Sometimes you lose,
but you're gonna win
if you just hang in
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I stand there looking at the door for what seems like hours but when I look over at the clock is actually only 5 seconds, to be exact. I could probably stand here forever if it weren't for the loud cries of Logan. I slowly turn away from the door to go and tend to my screeching son. "Logan, baby. Mommy's here now." I say caressing his blond sweaty hair. I hear quite sobs as he reaches his hand out and grabs my shirt. I lean down to pick him up and carry him out of the room, his tiny head resting on my shoulder, his body racked with sobs. "It's okay bab-" I hear a loud knock on the door, and look through the peep hole to see and out of breath Carter. "Hey." I say opening the door.
"Hey, is everything okay? I heard a scream." He says trying to catch his breath. I glance down at Logan, still crying. He reaches out and takes Logan from me.
"Hey, Hey shh. Don't cry baby." Logan still has his head resting on Carters chest and his hand in mine. "I- I heard a scary yell and bang." Logan stammers.
Carter gives me a knowing look.
"Come baby, I'll take you to bed." I say grabbing him from Carter.
"Bye daddy." He waves and sniffles. Carter waves back watching his crying son being carried off. I lay Logan down in bed, making sure Jeremy is okay too. I go out to the living room preparing to talk to Carter, but he's gone, he took off. Just like that.
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Think highly of yourself,
for the world takes you
at your own estimate!
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