Dawson's fingers ran across the opening of the dairy. He knew if he read
Jen Lindley's diary, he would know everything about her, her secrets she
harbored, he pains, her desires. It was tempting, very tempting to Dawson.
Dawson carried the diary over to Jen's bed and slowly started to open it.
"What am I doing? I can't do this!" He said and he threw the journal onto her floor with frustration. Without another word, Dawson took a deep breath and picked himself back up. Leaving Jen's room, he looked longingly back at the journal. He took a deep breath and left Jen's room and closed her door with a snap.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*
"Jen, I can tell Dawson that he's being an asshole and I can punch his face in, but that's not going to change anything. I can't be the one to talk to him heart to heart, Jen, you have to be the one to do that."
Jen sighed. Even though she was still drunk, she felt sober enough to talk to Jack like a civilized person. He always brought out the best in her.
"Yeah I know Jack. But I don't know how to confront him with my feelings, I thought he knew about how I feel about him. I can't convince him to love me. So why try?" she said, feeling defeated.
Jack thought for a moment. Why try? Well that was a stupid question. Why try to get the love of your life? Why even bother to tell someone that you really love that you love them? Jack knew what it felt like to not tell anyone that he loved them. At one time, he loved Jen more than a best friend, but he never told her. And when he finally did, it was too late. He had already come out of the closet.
"Jen, I'm telling you, you love Dawson? You fight for him, even if it seems like he doesn't and he can't love you back, he can ALWAYS love you back. At least tell him how you really feel. If you don't ever tell him, one of these days it might be too late to tell him how you feel. " Jack said with a touch of wisdom.
Yes, Jack was right, Jen thought. She had to tell Dawson how she felt tonight. But first, she just had to get the hell down from the roof.
"Jack, help me down from this blasted roof!" Jen exclaimed.
Jack chuckled. "With pleasure."
~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~
"So, did you get Jen off the roof, Dawson?"
Dawson spun around from where he was standing outside of Jen's room. Joey was standing before him looking absolutely lovely.
"Joe, uh, no, Jack is up with her right now. I'm sure he'll get her down quite safely."
Joey looked around him, like she was looking for something. "Ok, well, what are you doing up here?"
Dawson gulped. He really couldn't say that he was in Jen's room, snooping.
"Well, I, uh," he stuttered.
"Dawson Leery, why are you so mysterious?" Joey said seductively. She put her arms around Dawson's neck and her hips touched Dawson's leg. Dawson was getting uncomfortable.
"Joey! I don't think-"
"You don't think what, Dawson Leery?" Joey breathed. And suddenly Dawson understood why Joey wasn't acting like the Joey Potter he knew.
"Joey, you're drunk!" he exclaimed.
"And the world's round!" she retorted.
Dawson pulled away from her vise like grip. "I can't be like this with you for one, you're drunk and two, I just broke up with Jen!"
Joey dropped the seductive act. Her eyes blazed fire. "I wasn't aware that you cared about Jen and your break up! Yesterday it seemed to me you really didn't care if jen toppled off a cliff or not, so why can you have the excuse of saying that you can't have fun with me because "you just broke up with Jen?"
Dawson paused. She had a point, but she was wrong about not caring for Jen and her feelings.
"Joey, I do care for Jen and her feelings-"
Joey intervened, "Bullshit. I heard what you called her, everyone knows."
Dawson stared Joey right in the eye. "What do you mean, everyone knows?"
Joey sighed like it was a big favor she was doing for Dawson. She seemed slightly annoyed. "Well, hello, Dawson. It's not exactly been a guessing game with your relationship with Jen, I mean, there were bets right off the bat of who was going to break who's heart first. You never knew about them? Oh, that's sweet, I always thought that naivety was a sexy quality in a man."
Joey started to get frisky again.
"Whoa hold on, what do you mean bets? Who was betting? So this relationship between Jen and me was a big hoax to all of you?" Dawson asked incredulously.
Joey grinned. "Oh yeah, I mean, think about it, Dawson the little man from a little town who is completely naïve and oblivious in every way. There is little miss Big Apple, who is a blubbering slut, and you know it Dawson. You know where she comes from, you know what she's done, you said it yourself. She is a drunken slut. You know it, I know it, everyone knows it."
Dawson shook his head. "I was wrong to say that, she's not a drunken slut, she's my friend. There is something about her that I haven't noticed before. It's called being honest and being open. I like that." Dawson thought aloud.
Joey rolled her eyes and was somewhat disgusted. She shrugged again and pulled Dawson closer to her.
"Dawson, you know you want me. Come on, just kiss me!" she wined.
"No, I told you Joey, I'm not doing this! I do care about Jen and I don't want to make things worse by being with you right now! I need to find Jen and apologize to her for being a asshole!" With those words he pushed Joey away, ignoring her gasps.
"Dawson Leery, you'll never be a real man! And Jen will always be stealing other people's true loves!"
He stopped in his tracks. What did she mean by "true loves?"
"True loves, what do you mean?"
Joey brushed back her hair and sat herself down on top of the stairs. "Dawson," she whispered, "I love you. I have always loved you from the moment we met, from our first sleep over, to our first kiss. I loved you then, I love you now. And I always thought you loved me, too. Everything was almost perfect...then Jen came to Capeside, and stole you away from me." She confessed.
Dawson was truly touched and he sat beside her. "Joey, we'll always be friends. Yes, I was in love with you, but in reality I knew we couldn't be anything more than friends because we have such a great friendship, Joey, think about it, we are like brother and sister. You are my soul mate! But as much as I hurt when I say this, it cannot nor will it ever work out between us. I love you Joey Potter, with all my heart, but-"
"No, Dawson, I understand." Joey hushed him, tears forming in her eyes.
Dawson put his hand on Joey's face, wiping the water from her cheeks. She smiled and laughed.
"Oh what a predicament we have gotten ourselves into!" she chuckled.
Dawson also smiled. Yes, he was in a slight predicament. He had a beautiful and loving girl whom he had loved for his whole life loving him back. Why was he refusing her?
"Oh my god!" Dawson realized something that made his heart pound.
Joey was a bit startled at his sudden revelation.
"What is it?"
"I just realized that I love-"
"WHOA! Watch out you two!"
Some one who was drunk bumped into them where they were sitting. The two were knocked into each other, in a very compromising position. Their lips were sort of forced upon each other's.
"Oh my god!" cried a voice coming from Jen's room.
Dawson and Joey practically jumped off each other at this voice.
"Oh no," Joey said as she realized who the voice belonged to.
"Oh my God," Dawson breathed as he also realized who the voice belonged to.
There in the door way of Jen's room was a very bitter looking Jennifer Lindley.
"I was right! You are an asshole!" she screamed.
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A/N: Hey yeah, well I think this is going to be finished in another two chapters or so..i know, a lot has happened in this chapter, sadly though, I have a pretty good idea what I want to happen, and it involves a very tragic ending..(sniff) hahaha I am evil..REVIEW!!!
"What am I doing? I can't do this!" He said and he threw the journal onto her floor with frustration. Without another word, Dawson took a deep breath and picked himself back up. Leaving Jen's room, he looked longingly back at the journal. He took a deep breath and left Jen's room and closed her door with a snap.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*
"Jen, I can tell Dawson that he's being an asshole and I can punch his face in, but that's not going to change anything. I can't be the one to talk to him heart to heart, Jen, you have to be the one to do that."
Jen sighed. Even though she was still drunk, she felt sober enough to talk to Jack like a civilized person. He always brought out the best in her.
"Yeah I know Jack. But I don't know how to confront him with my feelings, I thought he knew about how I feel about him. I can't convince him to love me. So why try?" she said, feeling defeated.
Jack thought for a moment. Why try? Well that was a stupid question. Why try to get the love of your life? Why even bother to tell someone that you really love that you love them? Jack knew what it felt like to not tell anyone that he loved them. At one time, he loved Jen more than a best friend, but he never told her. And when he finally did, it was too late. He had already come out of the closet.
"Jen, I'm telling you, you love Dawson? You fight for him, even if it seems like he doesn't and he can't love you back, he can ALWAYS love you back. At least tell him how you really feel. If you don't ever tell him, one of these days it might be too late to tell him how you feel. " Jack said with a touch of wisdom.
Yes, Jack was right, Jen thought. She had to tell Dawson how she felt tonight. But first, she just had to get the hell down from the roof.
"Jack, help me down from this blasted roof!" Jen exclaimed.
Jack chuckled. "With pleasure."
~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~
"So, did you get Jen off the roof, Dawson?"
Dawson spun around from where he was standing outside of Jen's room. Joey was standing before him looking absolutely lovely.
"Joe, uh, no, Jack is up with her right now. I'm sure he'll get her down quite safely."
Joey looked around him, like she was looking for something. "Ok, well, what are you doing up here?"
Dawson gulped. He really couldn't say that he was in Jen's room, snooping.
"Well, I, uh," he stuttered.
"Dawson Leery, why are you so mysterious?" Joey said seductively. She put her arms around Dawson's neck and her hips touched Dawson's leg. Dawson was getting uncomfortable.
"Joey! I don't think-"
"You don't think what, Dawson Leery?" Joey breathed. And suddenly Dawson understood why Joey wasn't acting like the Joey Potter he knew.
"Joey, you're drunk!" he exclaimed.
"And the world's round!" she retorted.
Dawson pulled away from her vise like grip. "I can't be like this with you for one, you're drunk and two, I just broke up with Jen!"
Joey dropped the seductive act. Her eyes blazed fire. "I wasn't aware that you cared about Jen and your break up! Yesterday it seemed to me you really didn't care if jen toppled off a cliff or not, so why can you have the excuse of saying that you can't have fun with me because "you just broke up with Jen?"
Dawson paused. She had a point, but she was wrong about not caring for Jen and her feelings.
"Joey, I do care for Jen and her feelings-"
Joey intervened, "Bullshit. I heard what you called her, everyone knows."
Dawson stared Joey right in the eye. "What do you mean, everyone knows?"
Joey sighed like it was a big favor she was doing for Dawson. She seemed slightly annoyed. "Well, hello, Dawson. It's not exactly been a guessing game with your relationship with Jen, I mean, there were bets right off the bat of who was going to break who's heart first. You never knew about them? Oh, that's sweet, I always thought that naivety was a sexy quality in a man."
Joey started to get frisky again.
"Whoa hold on, what do you mean bets? Who was betting? So this relationship between Jen and me was a big hoax to all of you?" Dawson asked incredulously.
Joey grinned. "Oh yeah, I mean, think about it, Dawson the little man from a little town who is completely naïve and oblivious in every way. There is little miss Big Apple, who is a blubbering slut, and you know it Dawson. You know where she comes from, you know what she's done, you said it yourself. She is a drunken slut. You know it, I know it, everyone knows it."
Dawson shook his head. "I was wrong to say that, she's not a drunken slut, she's my friend. There is something about her that I haven't noticed before. It's called being honest and being open. I like that." Dawson thought aloud.
Joey rolled her eyes and was somewhat disgusted. She shrugged again and pulled Dawson closer to her.
"Dawson, you know you want me. Come on, just kiss me!" she wined.
"No, I told you Joey, I'm not doing this! I do care about Jen and I don't want to make things worse by being with you right now! I need to find Jen and apologize to her for being a asshole!" With those words he pushed Joey away, ignoring her gasps.
"Dawson Leery, you'll never be a real man! And Jen will always be stealing other people's true loves!"
He stopped in his tracks. What did she mean by "true loves?"
"True loves, what do you mean?"
Joey brushed back her hair and sat herself down on top of the stairs. "Dawson," she whispered, "I love you. I have always loved you from the moment we met, from our first sleep over, to our first kiss. I loved you then, I love you now. And I always thought you loved me, too. Everything was almost perfect...then Jen came to Capeside, and stole you away from me." She confessed.
Dawson was truly touched and he sat beside her. "Joey, we'll always be friends. Yes, I was in love with you, but in reality I knew we couldn't be anything more than friends because we have such a great friendship, Joey, think about it, we are like brother and sister. You are my soul mate! But as much as I hurt when I say this, it cannot nor will it ever work out between us. I love you Joey Potter, with all my heart, but-"
"No, Dawson, I understand." Joey hushed him, tears forming in her eyes.
Dawson put his hand on Joey's face, wiping the water from her cheeks. She smiled and laughed.
"Oh what a predicament we have gotten ourselves into!" she chuckled.
Dawson also smiled. Yes, he was in a slight predicament. He had a beautiful and loving girl whom he had loved for his whole life loving him back. Why was he refusing her?
"Oh my god!" Dawson realized something that made his heart pound.
Joey was a bit startled at his sudden revelation.
"What is it?"
"I just realized that I love-"
"WHOA! Watch out you two!"
Some one who was drunk bumped into them where they were sitting. The two were knocked into each other, in a very compromising position. Their lips were sort of forced upon each other's.
"Oh my god!" cried a voice coming from Jen's room.
Dawson and Joey practically jumped off each other at this voice.
"Oh no," Joey said as she realized who the voice belonged to.
"Oh my God," Dawson breathed as he also realized who the voice belonged to.
There in the door way of Jen's room was a very bitter looking Jennifer Lindley.
"I was right! You are an asshole!" she screamed.
~~(~(~(~*~*~*~*
A/N: Hey yeah, well I think this is going to be finished in another two chapters or so..i know, a lot has happened in this chapter, sadly though, I have a pretty good idea what I want to happen, and it involves a very tragic ending..(sniff) hahaha I am evil..REVIEW!!!