Title: He Lives In You
Author: Falcon Horus
E-mail: thot_bastet@hotmail.com
Category: drama
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Meridian, Rite of Passage
Summary: Janet says goodbye.
Warning: Character death
Disclaimer: Stargate Sg-1 and its characters are the property of Stargate (II) Productions, Showtime/Viacom, MGM/UA, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Productions. This story is for entertainment purposes only and no money exchanged hands. No copyright infringement is intended. The original characters, situations, and story are the property of the author. This story may not be posted elsewhere without the consent of the author. The words come from the soundtrack of The Lion King II. I don't know who wrote it or who sings it but I'm just borrowing it for just this fic.
Author's notes: --------------------------------------------------------------------------
Doctor Janet Fraiser
'Wait! There's no mountain too great.'
I'm sitting in my backyard, looking at the beautiful night sky filled with hundreds of stars, one brighter than the other. I had to leave the closed spaces of the mountain. I hug myself like he used to do. I still can't grasp the idea he's not around anymore. I still don't know if I had to note the time of death or ... the time of ascension to some higher plane of existence. It slowly starts to sink in that he's gone for good ... or maybe not. It's all so confusing.
'Hear these words and have faith.'
I can still hear Colonel O'Neill tell Jacob to stop, as he somehow knew that was what he wanted. I still can't believe he could do that. How could he do that to his best friend? I know I reacted a little too emotional. It wasn't the Doctor who questioned his decision; it was I the woman behind the Doctor.
'Have faith!'
I told Cassie what had happened to him. When she came home from school she just knew something was wrong. She said she had felt a shiver at about 3 in the afternoon, one she couldn't explain. I had to try so hard to keep my tears from falling once again as I knew it had been around that time that he had left us ... me to join the ethereal beings.
'He lives in you.'
Cassie is the only one who knows what he really meant to me and she tried so hard to comfort me by telling me there's a little bit of him in all of us ... his strength to keep going no matter what happened, his childish look when he found a new artifact to play with. She even joked about our allergies and it made me smile for just a second.
'He lives in me.'
I know he lives in me. He'll always have a special place in my heart, right next to the one Cassie's occupying ... and her fluffy dog, even though the animal makes me sneeze a lot.
'He watches over...'
I wonder if he'll watch over us...
'...Everything we see.'
...If he'll be able to see how we manage our lives now that he...
'Into the water...'
I feel the tears slowly make their way down again. I feel so empty without...
'...Into the truth.'
I admire him for sacrificing his life to save millions of innocents. That's so like him. I even have some sympathy for Jonas, who gave us a chance to study the Naquadria and find out about his potential. But I don't know if that's a good thing. It still doesn't bring him back to us ... to me. I wished he had chosen life over ascension, even though Jacob wasn't able to restore him to his full strength. The truth is, whether I want to or not, I hate him for leaving me ... us.
'In your reflection.'
I asked General Hammond for some time off, which he granted me, albeit reluctantly. I know that I need some time to sort things out. When I look in the mirror tomorrow I want to know if I'm looking at myself or at the woman that failed to save the man she started to fall in love with.
'He lives in you.'
"Farewell, Daniel! I love you and I will miss you ... so much!"
The End
Author: Falcon Horus
E-mail: thot_bastet@hotmail.com
Category: drama
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Meridian, Rite of Passage
Summary: Janet says goodbye.
Warning: Character death
Disclaimer: Stargate Sg-1 and its characters are the property of Stargate (II) Productions, Showtime/Viacom, MGM/UA, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Productions. This story is for entertainment purposes only and no money exchanged hands. No copyright infringement is intended. The original characters, situations, and story are the property of the author. This story may not be posted elsewhere without the consent of the author. The words come from the soundtrack of The Lion King II. I don't know who wrote it or who sings it but I'm just borrowing it for just this fic.
Author's notes: --------------------------------------------------------------------------
Doctor Janet Fraiser
'Wait! There's no mountain too great.'
I'm sitting in my backyard, looking at the beautiful night sky filled with hundreds of stars, one brighter than the other. I had to leave the closed spaces of the mountain. I hug myself like he used to do. I still can't grasp the idea he's not around anymore. I still don't know if I had to note the time of death or ... the time of ascension to some higher plane of existence. It slowly starts to sink in that he's gone for good ... or maybe not. It's all so confusing.
'Hear these words and have faith.'
I can still hear Colonel O'Neill tell Jacob to stop, as he somehow knew that was what he wanted. I still can't believe he could do that. How could he do that to his best friend? I know I reacted a little too emotional. It wasn't the Doctor who questioned his decision; it was I the woman behind the Doctor.
'Have faith!'
I told Cassie what had happened to him. When she came home from school she just knew something was wrong. She said she had felt a shiver at about 3 in the afternoon, one she couldn't explain. I had to try so hard to keep my tears from falling once again as I knew it had been around that time that he had left us ... me to join the ethereal beings.
'He lives in you.'
Cassie is the only one who knows what he really meant to me and she tried so hard to comfort me by telling me there's a little bit of him in all of us ... his strength to keep going no matter what happened, his childish look when he found a new artifact to play with. She even joked about our allergies and it made me smile for just a second.
'He lives in me.'
I know he lives in me. He'll always have a special place in my heart, right next to the one Cassie's occupying ... and her fluffy dog, even though the animal makes me sneeze a lot.
'He watches over...'
I wonder if he'll watch over us...
'...Everything we see.'
...If he'll be able to see how we manage our lives now that he...
'Into the water...'
I feel the tears slowly make their way down again. I feel so empty without...
'...Into the truth.'
I admire him for sacrificing his life to save millions of innocents. That's so like him. I even have some sympathy for Jonas, who gave us a chance to study the Naquadria and find out about his potential. But I don't know if that's a good thing. It still doesn't bring him back to us ... to me. I wished he had chosen life over ascension, even though Jacob wasn't able to restore him to his full strength. The truth is, whether I want to or not, I hate him for leaving me ... us.
'In your reflection.'
I asked General Hammond for some time off, which he granted me, albeit reluctantly. I know that I need some time to sort things out. When I look in the mirror tomorrow I want to know if I'm looking at myself or at the woman that failed to save the man she started to fall in love with.
'He lives in you.'
"Farewell, Daniel! I love you and I will miss you ... so much!"
The End