To all those who think that they are not Beautiful. To all those who think
that they are useless and that no body cares for them. To all those who
just want to cry in a dark corner of their bedroom when night comes because
they just don't know how they'll face tomorrow...
You Are Beautiful. I Care For You. We Will Face Tomorrow Together.
To Stacy Janice Elton, because she's so much of a support for me... And because she wants me to smile and it makes me feel just plain happy. So I smile for you, Stacy Janice Elton... ^________^ (Hey guys, did you know that this girl is the most incredible beta reader on the net?) Thank you so much Stace-Tace! You've worked so hard on this that you deserve all the reviews! By the way ,I don't think I'll ever be able to write a D/H for you... 'cause I just hate Draco Malfoy too much... instead, I gave him a really important role in this part!
No matter how sad you are, there's always someone who wants you to smile. If you can't find this person, e-mail me. You'll find someone who wants your smile more than hers.
"You are beautiful
No matter what they say
'Cause words can't bring you down
You are beautiful
In every single way
'Cause words can't bring you down"
-Beautiful, Christina Aguilera.
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Part 3
Hogwarts is just Hogwarts, and naturally the whole school knew about Ron. At the beginning, only Gryffindors were supposed to know, but eventually, the news spread around the school. Some students suspected Parvati Patil to have talked about it with her Ravenclaw twin sister; Padma. But it was absolutely not proven... and it didn't even matter that the whole school knew. What mattered were the rumours... They were becoming worse and worse as days passed and they were almost unbearable for Ron's true friends and loved ones.... The only confirmed facts were that he was on the road of recovery and under a strong sleep spell. It is also known that Dumbledore owled the Weasleys to tell them what happened to their youngest son...
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Hermione swoop in and out of Hogwarts hallways and corridors in her usual brisk way . She was looking for Harry. Since the incident, Hermione observed that he was quiet . It really did affected him somehow... She saw how he tried to convince himself that Ron didn't attempt suicide, but it didn't seem to work... It was so obvious that he even lost the Quidditch match a day after that. The Gryfindor captain ,Angelina tried to cancel the match because she knew that her seeker and her beaters wouldn't be able to concentrate, but they had to play and naturally they lost against Hufflepuff. Hermione knew that even if he tried to be alone, Harry needed someone. Just a comforting presence.
As she turned to a corner, she overheard two second year girls whispering in not-so-soft voices
"I heard from Selina Baxter that he's suffering of anorexia..."
"You mean the red-haired boy? The one everybody talks about?"
"Yeah."
"Anorexia! But he is already so skinny!"
"Yeah! I would have killed to have his waist!" A pasty faced girl giggled.
The Prefect skidded to a stop, clutching her books tightly to her chest. Then, like a vulture, she headed towards the second years, her temper rising
"How dare you!"
She screeched waving her free arm wildly .
"For what we know he could have died, and you're giggling about his waist!"
"Um..sorry?'' The giggling one cowed under her height and superior tone.
The other girl merely rolled her eyes at her friend's cowardice.
"I suppose you * were * his friend if the rumours are true."
The other girl countered bravely with a catty smile.
"I * am * his friend. His best friend for Merlin sake ! Yes missy for once that idle gossip is right." Hermione stated. Her eyes flashed dangerously at the girl's obnoxious attitude.
"Then why didn't you see that he had eating disorder?"
"You don't know Ron! You don't know me! How... "
" But then you claim you're his best friend" The junior interjected. " if you * are* his best friend, you should know him better than some stupid books you even aren't supposed to read!"
Hermione drew in a shaky breath. She stood there, lost for words
"Well, are you really his friend, or you're just ashamed to admit that you thought that he is too abnormal to be cared for?"
That gave Hermione's temper thermometer a frightening boost.
"You.. you.you Slut!" Hermione screamed, frustrated .Turning on her heels, she stomped away.
"Really Renee. You shouldn't be that harsh.. after all ,Its just rumours"
Hermione heard the cowardly girl admonishing her friend . But still, that didn't make Hermione feel any better. Her vision blurred as she headed forward. Only when she arrived in a quiet dim corridor, she leaned on the wall and let her tears fall, unrestrained.
'Oh Ron. What is so wrong that you couldn't even talk about it? I know those girls are just being silly and it couldn't be anorexia, you were always stuffing yourself and complaining about being so thin. But it still scares me Ron. Why did they say I never even noticed anything?. Were Harry and I so blind? Were we such bad friends that you thought we wouldn't understand you? I always knew you didn't consider yourself as a worthy person, but you are worthy. And if it isn't for your weight, why did you stop eating? Why did you stop sleeping? Why did you stop living? And when, when did we let this happen?... When have you been so depressed with yourself?'
Hermione groaned, Academic problems and questions don't strain her quick mind . But, this, this is too much.
'I'm so sorry Ron, because I couldn't read the distress in your eyes nor in your actions. Come back to us Ron ... please, come back and brighten our days like you used to . You have to come back because we never told you how special you are.'
She looked up at the carved ceiling. Exhaling softly ,she prayed a silent prayer to whichever saint that protects wizards to help pull Ron through this ordeal.
Somehow, the quiet and desolate corridor became not so quiet anymore as two of Slytherin's females approached.
"I heard from that stupid Ravenclaw that Weasley tried to kill himself!" Pansy said in her high pitched horrible voice.
"Just between you and me ,if I were him ,I would have done that ages ago! But you know why he only did it until now?" Millicent asked.
"Because of Granger. He asked her out but she refused .Just because he was not handsome enough for her! Can you believe that?
"So? He finally realised that he was ugly and slashed his veins?" Millicent sneered, voice dripping with sarcasm.
"It sounds weird but that's exactly what happened! Though of course he should have not wait for the Mud blood to reject him first then kill himself.
"Yeah, and Granger is definitely not my opinion of beauty."
Their banshee like laughter brought Hermione out of the shadows, trembling with un-suppressed rage.
" You, you shut up already! Ron Is Absolutely Beautiful! You may say whatever you want about me, but if you ever insult him again, I'll... I'll..."
Pansy raised an eyebrow and smirked, certainly not affected by the other girl's tears.
"You'll do what, Granger?" she mocked, her ugly braces glinted as it formed into a evil grin
Hermione stepped forward until she's standing nose to nose with the still smirking Slytherin.
"I'll make sure that you have nothing more to say about Ron ,Harry, me or anyone in particular. In fact, I'm even willing to take the risk of getting suspended or expelled just to make sure not an atom of you both will remain here to pollute the earth" Hermione whispered in a unnaturally soft voice.
"Pansy..." Millicent hissed tugging her companions sleeve , as the fact that Hogwarts best student looked deadly serious suddenly hit her.
"I think we should go..."
So the Slytherins, without a word left , save for Pansy who muttered something incoherently before being dragged away . Hermione's cold glare following them until they were out of sight.
Alone once again, she slumped back on the wall and let her mind wonder about her friend's destiny.
"How could I've let this happen... Ron...."
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Ginny was in the Gryffindor common room, curled up in a comfortable high backed armchair .But still, she didn't feel comfortable at all. Instead, she felt tense. So very tense.
"Don't think... Don't think... Don't think..." she whispered to herself.
She repeated it, like a mantra. She concentrated every part of her mind on not thinking about the incident .
But as soon as she stopped the mantra, her brain would only think of one thing.
Ron... Ron hurt... Ron trying to hurt himself...
She closed her eyes and images of red hair, pale skin and scarlet blood flashed in her head.
"Don't think... Don't think... Don't think..."
The peace came back and she opened her eyes, exhaling shakily.
"Look, isn't that his sister!" Out from the blue, Ginny heard Martin Miller, a third-year, whisper towards his two friends.
"His sister? Whose sister?" asked one other boy named Elzear White.
"You know... the red-haired senior..."
"Oh... I see..."
"I heard something really disturbing about him" said the third one that Ginny recognized as Gordon Gondor.
"What?" exclaimed Elzear.
"I heard that he tried to kill himself because he thought he was a burden for his family."
"A burden?"
"Well, you probably know that he is a Weasley... He has a really huge family. Three brothers had already graduated, and there is also Fred and George in seventh year and...."
They all looked up and Ginny turned her head away.
"Ginny Weasley..." breathed Martin.
"Yeah... and even if their father works at the ministry, they are awfully poor and... he wanted his family to save the money they spend for him..."
"Really! That's awful..."
Ginny stood up. Se couldn't stand it anymore.
The three boys turned their eyes toward her. She was pale and on the verge of tears. They knew right then, that she had heard them and Gordon Gondor blushed with guilt and embarrassment.
And she ran... She ran as far as possible... She had to get away... to get away from all those horrible rumours
'Ron did it... be... because he thought he was a... a... a burden... No... not Ron! Not funny, cheerful Ron. Then... then why... why would he hurt himself so badly? I know he'd be willing to sacrifice anything for us, he proved this three years ago with the events of the Chamber of Secrets... but he wouldn't... would he? What if... what if it was... no... but I see him... every times he brings Ha...Harry home... his pink ears, his nervousness. He's ashamed. Ashamed of his old house. Ashamed of his ugly bright orange bedroom. Ashamed of his poverty. Ashamed of... his family? No never... no... he was ashamed of... himself... I saw this expression of shame countless time on his face, but...'
Ginny's frightened thoughts were interrupted when she bumped into someone. Well into * two* someone, in fact... "Ginny?" Asked Fred and George in the same concerned voice She had always wondered how they did that... Saying the exact same words at the exact same time... Must be some kind of "twins connection". She'd probably never understand because she had no twin sister or brother, but she used to have Ron...
Since that day she felt that she never really knew him very well...
"Are you all right?" asked Fred concernedly, bending down so that he was face level with his sister.
Ginny opened her mouth to say "yes", but before the word left her lips, George smiled softly and said:
"Of course you're not..."
He brought his hand up to her face to gently wipe of her tears .
"You've heard one of those horrible gossip, didn't you?" asked Fred.
"Gordon Gondor said that Ron..."
"Shhh" interrupted George. " these are only stupid rumours. I think I even heard a Hufflepuff say that he did this because he was pregnant!"
His joke put a little smile on his sister's face, just like he had hoped it would.
"But Gordon... he said that..."
"What did we told you about those chitchats?"
"Listen! He said that Ron did it because we are poor! Because he felt like a burden!" Ginny exclaimed .
"Oh, Ginny!"
Concernedly both twins hugged their little sister in a tighthug and she started to cry against her brother's chests.
"Don't you worry your pretty little head 'bout it Gin dear.. Ron will wake up soon And we will make sure he'll give us an explanation. A really simple explanation. So simple that we will laugh at his face about it, Gin." soothed Fred.
"Yeah, just like the old days" smiled George.
Somehow, they all doubted that it was true, but for once, they tried to believe in it. Oh yes they tried, because it was the only thing that would make them feel better.
"You don't have to worry anymore. Once Ron wake ups, we'll make sure that no body ever hurts him again. Even himself, ever. He will be fine. We will all be fine.
Two Ravenclaws passed by, not noticing them .
" I heard that he did it all to get attention. You know, with his famous friends... The Boy Who Lived and Hermione Granger... And his huge successful family, Headboys, Quidditch player and all... Humph... it seems a little bit selfish to me! One girl harrumphed.
The Weasleys only glared at the offender. That's all they could do for now. Glare at gossipers and then get comfort in each other's arms . Anything to think that their precious Ickle Ronnekins would be just fine.
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"You know what? I heard that it was the first time a student tried to kill himself at Hogwarts ...no wonder Dumbledore was stunned when he learnt what happened!" said a seventh-year named Jeffrey Puggle.
"I guess you're talking about Ron Weasley..."
"Of course! It's not every day that a Hogwarts student attempt suicide!"
"Did you know that he nearly died? If his best fri..."
"What is it?"
"Shhhh... he's there..."
Jeffrey pointed a dark corner and Harry stepped out of the shadows. He stared at them hoping that they would go away. Embarrassed, that's what they did. He sighed and let his hard facade fall, revealing a tired and miserable face.
Suicide. Attempt Suicide. Ron Attempted Suicide.
Such intolerable words...
'Is it true, Ron? Did you really want to end your life? Did you really try to kill yourself?' Harry thought.
He heard them, he heard them all... Oh yes he did... All those horrible gossips... all those stupid rumours...
He wanted to scream. To scream that Ron was happy... That he didn't try to kill himself... That it was all a misunderstanding...
But he knew that it was not the truth.
He tried very hard to believe that it was, but in the end, he couldn't fool himself. He knew that something must've gone wrong... For Ron to perform such acts, something must've gone terribly wrong...
" I heard that he had one heck of an inferiority complex... All his friends and all his brothers are just so cool!" said just another gossiper to his ever listening accomplice .
Harry growled in his throat and they looked at his way ,startled. Then, guilty faced they went away with Harry's glare burning there backs.
Just like all the others...
Those who said that he did it because his too huge family had disowned him because he was the inferior one among all his brothers and little sister.
Even if he just wanted to hit the people who could think such thing's of the Weasleys, Harry just glared and they went away.
Those who said that he did not try to kill himself, but to disguise himself into a girl by letting his hair grow and his frame get thin. Even if he wanted to scream that they were sick to think such thing of Ron; so very pure Ron, Harry just glared and they went away.
And those silly Hufflepuffs who said that it was a last distress message to get help for his unwanted pregnancy. Even if he wanted to shout that someone really HAD to explain them a thing or two about "Where do babies come from?" , Harry kept calm. He just glared and they went away
Countless of those rumours were just plain ridiculous.
No, Ron wasn't a selfish idiot looking voraciously for consideration. It was just stupid. No, Ron was not a sordid psycho achieving his serial murders by his own spectacular death. It was just weird and plainly impossible. No, Ron was not a suicidal resource-less teen in deep depression. This one was just... inconceivable and painful and frightening.
So it was indeed not that ridiculous...
But it was just inconceivable to think that Ron wanted to kill himself. Ron was life itself... It was just so frightening to think that Ron was in deep depression. Ron was happiness itself... It was just too painful to think that Ron was resource-less. Ron was his best friend...
But he just glared and they all went away.
Countless of those rumours were ridiculous, right, but some of them scared him beyond limits of imagination...
All the "...Not good enough's "...No particular abilities's" and "...Inferiority complex's" made Harry cringe.
He knew perfectly well that Ron was just perfect, but he doubted his best friend thought the same...
Frequently, Harry suspected that here and there, he had dropped hints about his low opinion about his own self .
But Ron was usually so transparent... His feelings always written so clearly on his freckled face....
Wide grin for joy. Bright pink ears for embarrassment. Complete fright in front of any kind of spider. Pure worry whenever a menace was threatening the one he loved.
Worry was a feeling that he didn't like to see in Ron's face. It just simply didn't belong with that cute freckled face of Ron's. He should absolutely never worry about anything! All Ron have to do is to stay boyish and innocent. So very pure Ron...
But Harry had to be true with himself; most of the time, he admitted he was what caused Ron to frown in deep anxiety.
The Third year especially had been really hard on the redhead... Knowing that his best friend's life was endangered during the whole year. Worry had never completely left his face until they went back home for the Summer...
But only to be replaced by another kind of concern... The one taking over his joyful smile every time they would go back home on the Hogwarts Express... Ron wouldn't hide that he was afraid that Harry would be yet again be abused by his horrible muggles relatives over the summer.
Harry cringed as sudden guilt washed over him in a sickening fast pace. He knew that Ron was worrying a lot, but he never realised that he was worrying that much... When did Harry felt so much anxiety for his best friend anyway?
Is it when Ron sacrificed himself on the chess board in first year? No, he had just walked out of the room, * hoping* Ron would be all right...
His friend had just sacrificed himself for him and he didn't even gave a last look before leaving.
Is it when thousand of the creatures Ron feared the most, surrounded around them in the place he less wanted to be at night, so scarred that he couldn't talk? So scarred that he threw up afterward back in second year? No, Harry just kept talking with Aragog, ignoring Ron's pleas and whimpers...
He hadn't even turned to his needing friend when he was calling * his * name for protection.
Is it when Ron, standing agonizingly on a broken leg, said that he was ready to die to protect him. Nearly fainting because of all the pain he was feeling. The pain he was feeling because of that dog which had dragged him when he tried to shield Harry in their third year at Hogwarts? No, he just caused Ron even more pain by squirming away from the his grip... Ron had just told him the most beautiful words anybody had ever told him and he didn't even acknowledged his presence.
Damn! His friend had to fight for him on a broken leg and he didn't even acknowledged his presence! He never even thanked him! Or told him that it was a courageous and noble act! Nothing at all!
Harry felt disgusted with himself. How could he dared even to pretend that he was Ron's best friend? After all he had done- or rather after all he hadn't done- to Ron!
Ron... the very first person who really appreciated him... His very first friend... Ron...
"Ron..." he slinked back to the shadow's he was hiding previously, allowing a lone tear fall on the cobblestone floor, realizing it was way too late that he hadn't exactly been a good friend to this boy, who deserved it more then anything else in this world.
"Ah, Potter ,just the one I'm looking for... You must feel really bad eh?" snorted a dry voice behind him.
Harry squared his shoulders and wiped his lonely tear. Turning around, his sadness was momentarily forgotten as he turned around to see his arc enemy; the one and only, Draco Malfoy .
"What do you mean by that, ferret?" Harry hissed, trying to control the quivering in his voice.
Draco folded his arms and leaned his shoulder on the wall. He was undaunted by Harrys remark but instead he just smugly smiled .
"Oh stop this Potter! We all know why he did it?"
Harry couldn't answer. Oh Merlin, had Malfoy just read his mind?
The blond smirked wider. He looked over his shoulder at his dumb looking cronies Crabbe and Goyle.
"Did you hear the news ,boys ? Potter broke up with his boyfriend! Weasley's little heart is broken!"
Crabbe and Goyle snickered stupidly at Malfoys mockery.
Naturally Harry wasn't a bit amused instead, his eyes widened as a realization sank in.
"My what?"
Harry forgot his own question. He had something else to deal with, especially when it comes with a certain smug ferret .
"Hey, watch it !" Draco Malfoy yelped as Harry gripped his collar and pinned Malfoy's back painfully on the wall.
" You just shut up Malfoy. A day will come when you'll regret everything you've said about Ron!" Harry hissed between gritted teeth.
"Hey look Potter, I'm very sorry for Weasley, things like that shouldn't happen yeah, but it's certainly not my fault. Now let me go!"
With a feral like growl, Harry did as he was told and Malfoy left hurriedly, With his cronies dutifully dusting his clothes.
"My boyfriend..." Harry rasped ,running his fingers shakily through his ebony hair. "Ron..."
Then, with features set in a fierce determination, he headed toward the infirmary.... The only place where he should be... By his beloved's sides...
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" I spend my whole time running
He spend his running after me
I feel myself going down
I just call and he comes around
And for the first time
I feel love"
-The First Time, U2
You Are Beautiful. I Care For You. We Will Face Tomorrow Together.
To Stacy Janice Elton, because she's so much of a support for me... And because she wants me to smile and it makes me feel just plain happy. So I smile for you, Stacy Janice Elton... ^________^ (Hey guys, did you know that this girl is the most incredible beta reader on the net?) Thank you so much Stace-Tace! You've worked so hard on this that you deserve all the reviews! By the way ,I don't think I'll ever be able to write a D/H for you... 'cause I just hate Draco Malfoy too much... instead, I gave him a really important role in this part!
No matter how sad you are, there's always someone who wants you to smile. If you can't find this person, e-mail me. You'll find someone who wants your smile more than hers.
"You are beautiful
No matter what they say
'Cause words can't bring you down
You are beautiful
In every single way
'Cause words can't bring you down"
-Beautiful, Christina Aguilera.
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Part 3
Hogwarts is just Hogwarts, and naturally the whole school knew about Ron. At the beginning, only Gryffindors were supposed to know, but eventually, the news spread around the school. Some students suspected Parvati Patil to have talked about it with her Ravenclaw twin sister; Padma. But it was absolutely not proven... and it didn't even matter that the whole school knew. What mattered were the rumours... They were becoming worse and worse as days passed and they were almost unbearable for Ron's true friends and loved ones.... The only confirmed facts were that he was on the road of recovery and under a strong sleep spell. It is also known that Dumbledore owled the Weasleys to tell them what happened to their youngest son...
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Hermione swoop in and out of Hogwarts hallways and corridors in her usual brisk way . She was looking for Harry. Since the incident, Hermione observed that he was quiet . It really did affected him somehow... She saw how he tried to convince himself that Ron didn't attempt suicide, but it didn't seem to work... It was so obvious that he even lost the Quidditch match a day after that. The Gryfindor captain ,Angelina tried to cancel the match because she knew that her seeker and her beaters wouldn't be able to concentrate, but they had to play and naturally they lost against Hufflepuff. Hermione knew that even if he tried to be alone, Harry needed someone. Just a comforting presence.
As she turned to a corner, she overheard two second year girls whispering in not-so-soft voices
"I heard from Selina Baxter that he's suffering of anorexia..."
"You mean the red-haired boy? The one everybody talks about?"
"Yeah."
"Anorexia! But he is already so skinny!"
"Yeah! I would have killed to have his waist!" A pasty faced girl giggled.
The Prefect skidded to a stop, clutching her books tightly to her chest. Then, like a vulture, she headed towards the second years, her temper rising
"How dare you!"
She screeched waving her free arm wildly .
"For what we know he could have died, and you're giggling about his waist!"
"Um..sorry?'' The giggling one cowed under her height and superior tone.
The other girl merely rolled her eyes at her friend's cowardice.
"I suppose you * were * his friend if the rumours are true."
The other girl countered bravely with a catty smile.
"I * am * his friend. His best friend for Merlin sake ! Yes missy for once that idle gossip is right." Hermione stated. Her eyes flashed dangerously at the girl's obnoxious attitude.
"Then why didn't you see that he had eating disorder?"
"You don't know Ron! You don't know me! How... "
" But then you claim you're his best friend" The junior interjected. " if you * are* his best friend, you should know him better than some stupid books you even aren't supposed to read!"
Hermione drew in a shaky breath. She stood there, lost for words
"Well, are you really his friend, or you're just ashamed to admit that you thought that he is too abnormal to be cared for?"
That gave Hermione's temper thermometer a frightening boost.
"You.. you.you Slut!" Hermione screamed, frustrated .Turning on her heels, she stomped away.
"Really Renee. You shouldn't be that harsh.. after all ,Its just rumours"
Hermione heard the cowardly girl admonishing her friend . But still, that didn't make Hermione feel any better. Her vision blurred as she headed forward. Only when she arrived in a quiet dim corridor, she leaned on the wall and let her tears fall, unrestrained.
'Oh Ron. What is so wrong that you couldn't even talk about it? I know those girls are just being silly and it couldn't be anorexia, you were always stuffing yourself and complaining about being so thin. But it still scares me Ron. Why did they say I never even noticed anything?. Were Harry and I so blind? Were we such bad friends that you thought we wouldn't understand you? I always knew you didn't consider yourself as a worthy person, but you are worthy. And if it isn't for your weight, why did you stop eating? Why did you stop sleeping? Why did you stop living? And when, when did we let this happen?... When have you been so depressed with yourself?'
Hermione groaned, Academic problems and questions don't strain her quick mind . But, this, this is too much.
'I'm so sorry Ron, because I couldn't read the distress in your eyes nor in your actions. Come back to us Ron ... please, come back and brighten our days like you used to . You have to come back because we never told you how special you are.'
She looked up at the carved ceiling. Exhaling softly ,she prayed a silent prayer to whichever saint that protects wizards to help pull Ron through this ordeal.
Somehow, the quiet and desolate corridor became not so quiet anymore as two of Slytherin's females approached.
"I heard from that stupid Ravenclaw that Weasley tried to kill himself!" Pansy said in her high pitched horrible voice.
"Just between you and me ,if I were him ,I would have done that ages ago! But you know why he only did it until now?" Millicent asked.
"Because of Granger. He asked her out but she refused .Just because he was not handsome enough for her! Can you believe that?
"So? He finally realised that he was ugly and slashed his veins?" Millicent sneered, voice dripping with sarcasm.
"It sounds weird but that's exactly what happened! Though of course he should have not wait for the Mud blood to reject him first then kill himself.
"Yeah, and Granger is definitely not my opinion of beauty."
Their banshee like laughter brought Hermione out of the shadows, trembling with un-suppressed rage.
" You, you shut up already! Ron Is Absolutely Beautiful! You may say whatever you want about me, but if you ever insult him again, I'll... I'll..."
Pansy raised an eyebrow and smirked, certainly not affected by the other girl's tears.
"You'll do what, Granger?" she mocked, her ugly braces glinted as it formed into a evil grin
Hermione stepped forward until she's standing nose to nose with the still smirking Slytherin.
"I'll make sure that you have nothing more to say about Ron ,Harry, me or anyone in particular. In fact, I'm even willing to take the risk of getting suspended or expelled just to make sure not an atom of you both will remain here to pollute the earth" Hermione whispered in a unnaturally soft voice.
"Pansy..." Millicent hissed tugging her companions sleeve , as the fact that Hogwarts best student looked deadly serious suddenly hit her.
"I think we should go..."
So the Slytherins, without a word left , save for Pansy who muttered something incoherently before being dragged away . Hermione's cold glare following them until they were out of sight.
Alone once again, she slumped back on the wall and let her mind wonder about her friend's destiny.
"How could I've let this happen... Ron...."
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Ginny was in the Gryffindor common room, curled up in a comfortable high backed armchair .But still, she didn't feel comfortable at all. Instead, she felt tense. So very tense.
"Don't think... Don't think... Don't think..." she whispered to herself.
She repeated it, like a mantra. She concentrated every part of her mind on not thinking about the incident .
But as soon as she stopped the mantra, her brain would only think of one thing.
Ron... Ron hurt... Ron trying to hurt himself...
She closed her eyes and images of red hair, pale skin and scarlet blood flashed in her head.
"Don't think... Don't think... Don't think..."
The peace came back and she opened her eyes, exhaling shakily.
"Look, isn't that his sister!" Out from the blue, Ginny heard Martin Miller, a third-year, whisper towards his two friends.
"His sister? Whose sister?" asked one other boy named Elzear White.
"You know... the red-haired senior..."
"Oh... I see..."
"I heard something really disturbing about him" said the third one that Ginny recognized as Gordon Gondor.
"What?" exclaimed Elzear.
"I heard that he tried to kill himself because he thought he was a burden for his family."
"A burden?"
"Well, you probably know that he is a Weasley... He has a really huge family. Three brothers had already graduated, and there is also Fred and George in seventh year and...."
They all looked up and Ginny turned her head away.
"Ginny Weasley..." breathed Martin.
"Yeah... and even if their father works at the ministry, they are awfully poor and... he wanted his family to save the money they spend for him..."
"Really! That's awful..."
Ginny stood up. Se couldn't stand it anymore.
The three boys turned their eyes toward her. She was pale and on the verge of tears. They knew right then, that she had heard them and Gordon Gondor blushed with guilt and embarrassment.
And she ran... She ran as far as possible... She had to get away... to get away from all those horrible rumours
'Ron did it... be... because he thought he was a... a... a burden... No... not Ron! Not funny, cheerful Ron. Then... then why... why would he hurt himself so badly? I know he'd be willing to sacrifice anything for us, he proved this three years ago with the events of the Chamber of Secrets... but he wouldn't... would he? What if... what if it was... no... but I see him... every times he brings Ha...Harry home... his pink ears, his nervousness. He's ashamed. Ashamed of his old house. Ashamed of his ugly bright orange bedroom. Ashamed of his poverty. Ashamed of... his family? No never... no... he was ashamed of... himself... I saw this expression of shame countless time on his face, but...'
Ginny's frightened thoughts were interrupted when she bumped into someone. Well into * two* someone, in fact... "Ginny?" Asked Fred and George in the same concerned voice She had always wondered how they did that... Saying the exact same words at the exact same time... Must be some kind of "twins connection". She'd probably never understand because she had no twin sister or brother, but she used to have Ron...
Since that day she felt that she never really knew him very well...
"Are you all right?" asked Fred concernedly, bending down so that he was face level with his sister.
Ginny opened her mouth to say "yes", but before the word left her lips, George smiled softly and said:
"Of course you're not..."
He brought his hand up to her face to gently wipe of her tears .
"You've heard one of those horrible gossip, didn't you?" asked Fred.
"Gordon Gondor said that Ron..."
"Shhh" interrupted George. " these are only stupid rumours. I think I even heard a Hufflepuff say that he did this because he was pregnant!"
His joke put a little smile on his sister's face, just like he had hoped it would.
"But Gordon... he said that..."
"What did we told you about those chitchats?"
"Listen! He said that Ron did it because we are poor! Because he felt like a burden!" Ginny exclaimed .
"Oh, Ginny!"
Concernedly both twins hugged their little sister in a tighthug and she started to cry against her brother's chests.
"Don't you worry your pretty little head 'bout it Gin dear.. Ron will wake up soon And we will make sure he'll give us an explanation. A really simple explanation. So simple that we will laugh at his face about it, Gin." soothed Fred.
"Yeah, just like the old days" smiled George.
Somehow, they all doubted that it was true, but for once, they tried to believe in it. Oh yes they tried, because it was the only thing that would make them feel better.
"You don't have to worry anymore. Once Ron wake ups, we'll make sure that no body ever hurts him again. Even himself, ever. He will be fine. We will all be fine.
Two Ravenclaws passed by, not noticing them .
" I heard that he did it all to get attention. You know, with his famous friends... The Boy Who Lived and Hermione Granger... And his huge successful family, Headboys, Quidditch player and all... Humph... it seems a little bit selfish to me! One girl harrumphed.
The Weasleys only glared at the offender. That's all they could do for now. Glare at gossipers and then get comfort in each other's arms . Anything to think that their precious Ickle Ronnekins would be just fine.
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"You know what? I heard that it was the first time a student tried to kill himself at Hogwarts ...no wonder Dumbledore was stunned when he learnt what happened!" said a seventh-year named Jeffrey Puggle.
"I guess you're talking about Ron Weasley..."
"Of course! It's not every day that a Hogwarts student attempt suicide!"
"Did you know that he nearly died? If his best fri..."
"What is it?"
"Shhhh... he's there..."
Jeffrey pointed a dark corner and Harry stepped out of the shadows. He stared at them hoping that they would go away. Embarrassed, that's what they did. He sighed and let his hard facade fall, revealing a tired and miserable face.
Suicide. Attempt Suicide. Ron Attempted Suicide.
Such intolerable words...
'Is it true, Ron? Did you really want to end your life? Did you really try to kill yourself?' Harry thought.
He heard them, he heard them all... Oh yes he did... All those horrible gossips... all those stupid rumours...
He wanted to scream. To scream that Ron was happy... That he didn't try to kill himself... That it was all a misunderstanding...
But he knew that it was not the truth.
He tried very hard to believe that it was, but in the end, he couldn't fool himself. He knew that something must've gone wrong... For Ron to perform such acts, something must've gone terribly wrong...
" I heard that he had one heck of an inferiority complex... All his friends and all his brothers are just so cool!" said just another gossiper to his ever listening accomplice .
Harry growled in his throat and they looked at his way ,startled. Then, guilty faced they went away with Harry's glare burning there backs.
Just like all the others...
Those who said that he did it because his too huge family had disowned him because he was the inferior one among all his brothers and little sister.
Even if he just wanted to hit the people who could think such thing's of the Weasleys, Harry just glared and they went away.
Those who said that he did not try to kill himself, but to disguise himself into a girl by letting his hair grow and his frame get thin. Even if he wanted to scream that they were sick to think such thing of Ron; so very pure Ron, Harry just glared and they went away.
And those silly Hufflepuffs who said that it was a last distress message to get help for his unwanted pregnancy. Even if he wanted to shout that someone really HAD to explain them a thing or two about "Where do babies come from?" , Harry kept calm. He just glared and they went away
Countless of those rumours were just plain ridiculous.
No, Ron wasn't a selfish idiot looking voraciously for consideration. It was just stupid. No, Ron was not a sordid psycho achieving his serial murders by his own spectacular death. It was just weird and plainly impossible. No, Ron was not a suicidal resource-less teen in deep depression. This one was just... inconceivable and painful and frightening.
So it was indeed not that ridiculous...
But it was just inconceivable to think that Ron wanted to kill himself. Ron was life itself... It was just so frightening to think that Ron was in deep depression. Ron was happiness itself... It was just too painful to think that Ron was resource-less. Ron was his best friend...
But he just glared and they all went away.
Countless of those rumours were ridiculous, right, but some of them scared him beyond limits of imagination...
All the "...Not good enough's "...No particular abilities's" and "...Inferiority complex's" made Harry cringe.
He knew perfectly well that Ron was just perfect, but he doubted his best friend thought the same...
Frequently, Harry suspected that here and there, he had dropped hints about his low opinion about his own self .
But Ron was usually so transparent... His feelings always written so clearly on his freckled face....
Wide grin for joy. Bright pink ears for embarrassment. Complete fright in front of any kind of spider. Pure worry whenever a menace was threatening the one he loved.
Worry was a feeling that he didn't like to see in Ron's face. It just simply didn't belong with that cute freckled face of Ron's. He should absolutely never worry about anything! All Ron have to do is to stay boyish and innocent. So very pure Ron...
But Harry had to be true with himself; most of the time, he admitted he was what caused Ron to frown in deep anxiety.
The Third year especially had been really hard on the redhead... Knowing that his best friend's life was endangered during the whole year. Worry had never completely left his face until they went back home for the Summer...
But only to be replaced by another kind of concern... The one taking over his joyful smile every time they would go back home on the Hogwarts Express... Ron wouldn't hide that he was afraid that Harry would be yet again be abused by his horrible muggles relatives over the summer.
Harry cringed as sudden guilt washed over him in a sickening fast pace. He knew that Ron was worrying a lot, but he never realised that he was worrying that much... When did Harry felt so much anxiety for his best friend anyway?
Is it when Ron sacrificed himself on the chess board in first year? No, he had just walked out of the room, * hoping* Ron would be all right...
His friend had just sacrificed himself for him and he didn't even gave a last look before leaving.
Is it when thousand of the creatures Ron feared the most, surrounded around them in the place he less wanted to be at night, so scarred that he couldn't talk? So scarred that he threw up afterward back in second year? No, Harry just kept talking with Aragog, ignoring Ron's pleas and whimpers...
He hadn't even turned to his needing friend when he was calling * his * name for protection.
Is it when Ron, standing agonizingly on a broken leg, said that he was ready to die to protect him. Nearly fainting because of all the pain he was feeling. The pain he was feeling because of that dog which had dragged him when he tried to shield Harry in their third year at Hogwarts? No, he just caused Ron even more pain by squirming away from the his grip... Ron had just told him the most beautiful words anybody had ever told him and he didn't even acknowledged his presence.
Damn! His friend had to fight for him on a broken leg and he didn't even acknowledged his presence! He never even thanked him! Or told him that it was a courageous and noble act! Nothing at all!
Harry felt disgusted with himself. How could he dared even to pretend that he was Ron's best friend? After all he had done- or rather after all he hadn't done- to Ron!
Ron... the very first person who really appreciated him... His very first friend... Ron...
"Ron..." he slinked back to the shadow's he was hiding previously, allowing a lone tear fall on the cobblestone floor, realizing it was way too late that he hadn't exactly been a good friend to this boy, who deserved it more then anything else in this world.
"Ah, Potter ,just the one I'm looking for... You must feel really bad eh?" snorted a dry voice behind him.
Harry squared his shoulders and wiped his lonely tear. Turning around, his sadness was momentarily forgotten as he turned around to see his arc enemy; the one and only, Draco Malfoy .
"What do you mean by that, ferret?" Harry hissed, trying to control the quivering in his voice.
Draco folded his arms and leaned his shoulder on the wall. He was undaunted by Harrys remark but instead he just smugly smiled .
"Oh stop this Potter! We all know why he did it?"
Harry couldn't answer. Oh Merlin, had Malfoy just read his mind?
The blond smirked wider. He looked over his shoulder at his dumb looking cronies Crabbe and Goyle.
"Did you hear the news ,boys ? Potter broke up with his boyfriend! Weasley's little heart is broken!"
Crabbe and Goyle snickered stupidly at Malfoys mockery.
Naturally Harry wasn't a bit amused instead, his eyes widened as a realization sank in.
"My what?"
Harry forgot his own question. He had something else to deal with, especially when it comes with a certain smug ferret .
"Hey, watch it !" Draco Malfoy yelped as Harry gripped his collar and pinned Malfoy's back painfully on the wall.
" You just shut up Malfoy. A day will come when you'll regret everything you've said about Ron!" Harry hissed between gritted teeth.
"Hey look Potter, I'm very sorry for Weasley, things like that shouldn't happen yeah, but it's certainly not my fault. Now let me go!"
With a feral like growl, Harry did as he was told and Malfoy left hurriedly, With his cronies dutifully dusting his clothes.
"My boyfriend..." Harry rasped ,running his fingers shakily through his ebony hair. "Ron..."
Then, with features set in a fierce determination, he headed toward the infirmary.... The only place where he should be... By his beloved's sides...
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" I spend my whole time running
He spend his running after me
I feel myself going down
I just call and he comes around
And for the first time
I feel love"
-The First Time, U2