Our Reflection
Cruel to be Kind
Broken Dreams
I got out of the comfortably hot water, and into the cool night air. I wrapped myself in a small, fluffy, white towel that Kagome had given me.
I couldn't believe I had actually told her about what I felt. I trusted her, that wasn't a lie, but if she told Miroku, and he left, she would never be whole again in her life.
(Kagome-chan? Are you getting out soon? Your going to be like a prune if you stay in there any longer…) I said trying to smile. She noticed the pained smile and kept looking at me with those pity-filled eyes.
(No… I need to think…) she said slowly. I began dressing myself in the dark-under clothes I wrapped myself in.** I finally finished with that and began putting on my haori* and yukata*
I made my way back to the camp and, to my surprise, Inu-Yasha and Miroku were actually having a conversation.
(-You and Kagome anyway?) I heard Miroku say. Then I thought of something. Kagome never told me where she was…
(In a small village outside of the forest. We got there and Kagome-Ku- I mean Kagome sensed something that felt a lot like a shikon shard.) The hanyou explained carefully.
I laughed to myself at the term that Inu-Yasha almost used for Kagome's name.
(So what did you guys do while we were gone?) Inu-Yasha questioned. Miroku cleared his throat and I decided that was where I was supposed to walk in to save him…
But being me, I wanted to hear him out. Maybe he'd say he was leaving soon…
(Nothing exactly exciting, just the usual. Oh, and you didn't happen to hear what Kagome said to Sango about my leaving?) My heart dropped to my stomach and I had a horrible sinking sensation. So he was leaving…
(No, but maybe you should really tell her where-) I got up and ran. I didn't want to hear anymore. He was leaving, and I couldn't do anything.
I was crying and the tears just kept coming.
Stop!! I yelled at myself It's his choice! You can do nothing by crying! That part of my brain was back again. The mental comment only made the tears come harder and more forceful.
I hated myself…
But most of all I hated that stupid lecherous Houshi.
But at the same time I loved him more than anything. Like right now, I wanted nothing more than for him to come out of those woods and kiss me breathless and tell me he wasn't actually leaving and then confess how much he loved me.
Damn him.
Damn him to Hell.
How did he do this to me?
A/N—uhhhhh nothin 2day…
I'm listening to These are the days by o-town today
** if you've ever seen those medical bandages they use, then just think of those except pulled tight, like a corset. O yea and they're thicker than medical wraps. I think samerais wore them…
* haori and yukata- the parts of a kimono. Onez the top and the other one iz the bottom, I cant remember which onez which tho…. Does n e one else??