A/N~ Hey people, how's it going. I was gonna update sooner but I didn't
want to until I got Word on my computer, now that I do I can start. Yes, it
does take me a week to install it, I've had so much homework it's crazy.
Not as much as last time but still, it's tiring, even if I still haven't
started on it, it can wait until 2 in the morning, right. ~*~ will mean
flashbacks and all that good stuff.
Disclaimer~ If I owned Inu Yasha do you really think I'd be writing fanfics for Inu Yasha? NO! I'd be not doing them. I was gonna say something else but I forgot it, damn, that looks really pitiful, ne?
Are any of us really alive, or are we just nothing. It's all so complex, so many questions and no answers. ~
I sat on Sango's couch looking at the police officer that stood in front of me. I had moved in with Sango right after the accident. It has been 3 days since my break down. Now I had Sango on one side of me, with her arm around my shoulders giving me friendly comfort, Miroku on the other side, and Inu Yasha leaning against the wall behind the couch.
"Well." The officer said. "We found out what happened to your father." I cringed at the words 'my father.' "He killed himself."
"Why would he shot his arm and his leg?" Sango asked. "That would mean he bled to death. Why would you want to bleed to death?"
The officer nodded. "We believe that he wanted to die in a painful way, that's what we get from the note he left behind."
"A note?' I asked, looking up.
He nodded again and pulled a piece of paper from his shirt pocket and handed it to me. "I think that's all, if you excuse me I have another investigation to get to. A kidnapping, we think the child's father toke him, the mother had custody."
I nodded and he left. When I heard the door close I opened up the note but my eyes were closed. I toke a deep breath and opened them slowly and started reading.
I'm going to die, I know that, but I want to make the process go faster. A lot of people don't want to feel pain when they die, they want to die in their sleep, not knowing what's happening. Now why would they want that when they can feel the glorious pain shooting through their bodies? I will never understand them, nor do I want to. I want to feel the burning sensation course through my veins, to see my blood drip out of me, I want to see if I was ever really alive.
I blinked a couple of times. He killed himself for what? Just some stupid experiment practically. He knew he was alive, somewhere in that head of his, he knew, but then again, something was telling him to prove it, and so he did.
"That's so strange." Sango whispered. She had been reading the note with me silently.
"The man did have problems." Miroku pointed out.
Inu Yasha ripped the paper from my hands and read it before letting out a 'feh.' "What a moron, but I guess he did disserve dying, hells, he didn't even disserve that."
The words just flew past me, I didn't really hear them, all I heard were their voices but the words were too difficult to understand. After a while I just gave up on trying to understand what they were saying. It couldn't have been too important. My mind wondered back to when things weren't bad, when things were actually peaceful.
~*~
"Okaasan, Okaasan, look what I found." A small girl with raven hair and Bluish-Grey eyes said, holding up a rock.
A woman, around her late twenties or early thirties took the rock from the girl's small hands. "What a beautiful rock Kagome. Where did you find it?"
Little Kagome grabbed her mother's larger hand and pulled her along. "Over here." She pulled her to the middle of the green field where a few large boulders sat. She kneeled down and grabbed a few smaller rocks from under the larger rocks.
"Look." Kagome giggled. "They're sparkly."
Her mother smiled gently. "Yes, they are."
"Can we take all the pretty rocks home?" She asked with a hopeful glint in her eye.
"All of them?"
"Yeah, every pretty rock out her."
"I don't think that's possible sweetie, but we can take a couple of them home with us. IS that okay?"
Kagome nodded quickly. "Hai, it's okay."
"Okay, find the prettiest rocks that you can find and then we can take them home and put them on the kitchen's window seal.
Kagome smiled and nodded. "Okay Okaasan." She then ran off to find some rocks that she liked while her mother smiled warmly at the young child.
~*~
"Kagome. Kagome snap out of it."
I saw a hand waving infront of my face, I quickly snapped out of my thoughts. "Gomen." I said quietly. "I was just thinking."
"Thinking about what?" Sango asked.
"Nothing important." I said and stood up. "I think I'll go take a nap."
Sango nodded and I left the room heading for the stairs. As my hand touched the railing I heard footsteps behind me and turned around to see Inu Yasha following me.
"You okay?" He asked.
"Yeah. I'm fine." I said.
"Where you thinking about your dad?"
I shook my head. "No, not this time. This time I was thinking about my mom."
"Oh."
"Yeah."
We stayed silent for a few moments. Him standing and looking at me and me with my hand on the railing ready to go upstairs. I decided that since he didn't say anything else that we were done talking. I toke a step up on the stairs before his hand grabbed my wrist.
"Where you going?" He asked.
"Sleep. You know, humans do need it, I'm not sure if Hanyou's do or not but we do so can you let go now?"
Inu Yasha smirked at me. "What if I don't want to?"
"That's cold. You are a cruel, cruel man. I wanna go to sleep." I whined like a child.
"Say please."
"Please this." I said and smacked the back of his head.
"What was that for wench?" He growled.
"Now now, temper temper."
"Temper this." He said, stealing my comeback. He easily picked me up bridal style and I yelped.
"Hey, let me go." I struggled against him.
"Whatever you say." Then he dropped me. I closed my eyes, waiting for the floor but it never came. I opened my eyes to see that Inu Yasha was still holding me. He had caught me after he dropped me. I glared at him.
"Put me down."
"What if I don't wanna?"
"Then I'll hurt you."
"I'm real scared."
"You would be."
"What's that suppose to mean."
"Wouldn't you like to know."
"Yes I would but I'd like to know more why we're acting like children?"
I shrugged. "I'm not sure, just felt like the right thing to do. Can you put me down now? Please?"
He set me down. "If you would have only said please in the first place then you could of gotten down faster but nooooo you just had to not say it."
"Well, I didn't want to then."
"So now you do."
"Sure why not. Now I'm going to sleep. Good Night Inu Yasha. Or Good Afternoon, whatever."
"Night or afternoon." He said and kissed me lightly.
I smiled at him before going up stairs and into the guest bedroom which was now mine. I looked at the open duffel bag that lay on my bed. I growled at it for taking my bed and pushed it to the floor, spilling its contents over the rug. I fell onto my back as the sheets flew up around me. I sighed in content and closed my eyes.
"HENTAI!!!" Sango screamed and the sound of flesh on flesh contact was heard. I giggled slightly at the two. They were so entertaining, even better then TV.
'I've been living in the past.' I thought. 'Now is my time to live in the present, to live life day by day, to start over. No longer will I dwell over my horrible past, but now I'll look forward to my future. I guess karma really does work out in the end.' The welcoming feeling of sleep toke over me and at that moment, I was truly happy, just like all those years ago I had been with my mother while I search for rocks to take him.
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A/N~ Ooooh, how very touchy feely like. The fic is coming to an end, it's been fun but all things must end. It sound like it's over now doesn't it, don't worry, there's still 1 or 2 more chapters left, maybe even 3 or 4 or 500. Well, not that many, 5 more chapters at the most but I doubt, I think it'll be 2 left. I'll try to make them super long but hey, I don't like making promises, to much responsibility. I'm off to do homework *looks at homework on ground* or take a nap *looks at bed* the nap sounds much better.
REVIEW!!!
Disclaimer~ If I owned Inu Yasha do you really think I'd be writing fanfics for Inu Yasha? NO! I'd be not doing them. I was gonna say something else but I forgot it, damn, that looks really pitiful, ne?
Are any of us really alive, or are we just nothing. It's all so complex, so many questions and no answers. ~
I sat on Sango's couch looking at the police officer that stood in front of me. I had moved in with Sango right after the accident. It has been 3 days since my break down. Now I had Sango on one side of me, with her arm around my shoulders giving me friendly comfort, Miroku on the other side, and Inu Yasha leaning against the wall behind the couch.
"Well." The officer said. "We found out what happened to your father." I cringed at the words 'my father.' "He killed himself."
"Why would he shot his arm and his leg?" Sango asked. "That would mean he bled to death. Why would you want to bleed to death?"
The officer nodded. "We believe that he wanted to die in a painful way, that's what we get from the note he left behind."
"A note?' I asked, looking up.
He nodded again and pulled a piece of paper from his shirt pocket and handed it to me. "I think that's all, if you excuse me I have another investigation to get to. A kidnapping, we think the child's father toke him, the mother had custody."
I nodded and he left. When I heard the door close I opened up the note but my eyes were closed. I toke a deep breath and opened them slowly and started reading.
I'm going to die, I know that, but I want to make the process go faster. A lot of people don't want to feel pain when they die, they want to die in their sleep, not knowing what's happening. Now why would they want that when they can feel the glorious pain shooting through their bodies? I will never understand them, nor do I want to. I want to feel the burning sensation course through my veins, to see my blood drip out of me, I want to see if I was ever really alive.
I blinked a couple of times. He killed himself for what? Just some stupid experiment practically. He knew he was alive, somewhere in that head of his, he knew, but then again, something was telling him to prove it, and so he did.
"That's so strange." Sango whispered. She had been reading the note with me silently.
"The man did have problems." Miroku pointed out.
Inu Yasha ripped the paper from my hands and read it before letting out a 'feh.' "What a moron, but I guess he did disserve dying, hells, he didn't even disserve that."
The words just flew past me, I didn't really hear them, all I heard were their voices but the words were too difficult to understand. After a while I just gave up on trying to understand what they were saying. It couldn't have been too important. My mind wondered back to when things weren't bad, when things were actually peaceful.
~*~
"Okaasan, Okaasan, look what I found." A small girl with raven hair and Bluish-Grey eyes said, holding up a rock.
A woman, around her late twenties or early thirties took the rock from the girl's small hands. "What a beautiful rock Kagome. Where did you find it?"
Little Kagome grabbed her mother's larger hand and pulled her along. "Over here." She pulled her to the middle of the green field where a few large boulders sat. She kneeled down and grabbed a few smaller rocks from under the larger rocks.
"Look." Kagome giggled. "They're sparkly."
Her mother smiled gently. "Yes, they are."
"Can we take all the pretty rocks home?" She asked with a hopeful glint in her eye.
"All of them?"
"Yeah, every pretty rock out her."
"I don't think that's possible sweetie, but we can take a couple of them home with us. IS that okay?"
Kagome nodded quickly. "Hai, it's okay."
"Okay, find the prettiest rocks that you can find and then we can take them home and put them on the kitchen's window seal.
Kagome smiled and nodded. "Okay Okaasan." She then ran off to find some rocks that she liked while her mother smiled warmly at the young child.
~*~
"Kagome. Kagome snap out of it."
I saw a hand waving infront of my face, I quickly snapped out of my thoughts. "Gomen." I said quietly. "I was just thinking."
"Thinking about what?" Sango asked.
"Nothing important." I said and stood up. "I think I'll go take a nap."
Sango nodded and I left the room heading for the stairs. As my hand touched the railing I heard footsteps behind me and turned around to see Inu Yasha following me.
"You okay?" He asked.
"Yeah. I'm fine." I said.
"Where you thinking about your dad?"
I shook my head. "No, not this time. This time I was thinking about my mom."
"Oh."
"Yeah."
We stayed silent for a few moments. Him standing and looking at me and me with my hand on the railing ready to go upstairs. I decided that since he didn't say anything else that we were done talking. I toke a step up on the stairs before his hand grabbed my wrist.
"Where you going?" He asked.
"Sleep. You know, humans do need it, I'm not sure if Hanyou's do or not but we do so can you let go now?"
Inu Yasha smirked at me. "What if I don't want to?"
"That's cold. You are a cruel, cruel man. I wanna go to sleep." I whined like a child.
"Say please."
"Please this." I said and smacked the back of his head.
"What was that for wench?" He growled.
"Now now, temper temper."
"Temper this." He said, stealing my comeback. He easily picked me up bridal style and I yelped.
"Hey, let me go." I struggled against him.
"Whatever you say." Then he dropped me. I closed my eyes, waiting for the floor but it never came. I opened my eyes to see that Inu Yasha was still holding me. He had caught me after he dropped me. I glared at him.
"Put me down."
"What if I don't wanna?"
"Then I'll hurt you."
"I'm real scared."
"You would be."
"What's that suppose to mean."
"Wouldn't you like to know."
"Yes I would but I'd like to know more why we're acting like children?"
I shrugged. "I'm not sure, just felt like the right thing to do. Can you put me down now? Please?"
He set me down. "If you would have only said please in the first place then you could of gotten down faster but nooooo you just had to not say it."
"Well, I didn't want to then."
"So now you do."
"Sure why not. Now I'm going to sleep. Good Night Inu Yasha. Or Good Afternoon, whatever."
"Night or afternoon." He said and kissed me lightly.
I smiled at him before going up stairs and into the guest bedroom which was now mine. I looked at the open duffel bag that lay on my bed. I growled at it for taking my bed and pushed it to the floor, spilling its contents over the rug. I fell onto my back as the sheets flew up around me. I sighed in content and closed my eyes.
"HENTAI!!!" Sango screamed and the sound of flesh on flesh contact was heard. I giggled slightly at the two. They were so entertaining, even better then TV.
'I've been living in the past.' I thought. 'Now is my time to live in the present, to live life day by day, to start over. No longer will I dwell over my horrible past, but now I'll look forward to my future. I guess karma really does work out in the end.' The welcoming feeling of sleep toke over me and at that moment, I was truly happy, just like all those years ago I had been with my mother while I search for rocks to take him.
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A/N~ Ooooh, how very touchy feely like. The fic is coming to an end, it's been fun but all things must end. It sound like it's over now doesn't it, don't worry, there's still 1 or 2 more chapters left, maybe even 3 or 4 or 500. Well, not that many, 5 more chapters at the most but I doubt, I think it'll be 2 left. I'll try to make them super long but hey, I don't like making promises, to much responsibility. I'm off to do homework *looks at homework on ground* or take a nap *looks at bed* the nap sounds much better.
REVIEW!!!