Hi, thanks for going on to part 2. I've decided to revamp chapter two and give some more detail into things. Some history in this chapter and yes I know at one point the characters are going to seem to be very out of character but well we never do see these women Yoji talks about and we never really know what happens outside of the flower shop all that often. I've also determined that people are a lot more honest, open and different when you're on ms...some messaging service and not talking face to face.
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It's been 2 days since I've seen or talk to you. Where are you? Are you still with her? We talked everyday up until our last conversation. Where are you?
Perhaps I should go into some of our history. When I fell on a mission some 5 months ago I broke my leg. I was out of commission for 4 months or there abouts. It was a bad break and I was under strict orders by the doctors not to do anything. That's right. I was given permission to sit on my ass and do nothing. So that's exactly what I did, nothing. Well one can only imagine how bored I became. Day time television sucks and I was going through books so fast all of you could barely keep me well supplied.
It wasn't until one day that I decided to haul out my laptop that Kritiker had given me some time ago, that my boredom started to be relieved. The lot of us started to talk online. NEver about much, usually what had happened in the shop that day, school, soccer practice, Takatori's head in a bucket. As I said never about much.
It was not long after I had my cast off (but still wasn't allowed back at work) that I started to love and hate you. We talked online for three hours one night and a lot was said. Truths were revealed and then promptly, or maye more like conviently, forgotten once we saw each other in person. You told me you were attracted to me but didn't see any potential romance with me. Besides you didn't want a relationship just then. You had just been burned badly. You were dumped for your friend. It hurts I know. But what you were looking for were women or men, some people, you could date 'casually'. Casually my ass. You wanted fuck buddies. You said that you couldn't get hurt again this way. Do you know how wrong you are? Look at who you're talking to. Would I not be the one to tell you that it does hurt? That it won't make you feel any better?
We argued about this. I told you that you would still be hurt if you did what you wanted too. You asked me what I wanted and I told you. You then told me theat you wanted me as one of your fuck toys. Part of me wanted to say yes just so I would have you butg a larger part of me screamed no. So that's what I told you, no. So that's where we left it. At that point I didn't know whether to hug you or punch you the next time we met. I hugged you and looking back on it maybe I should have punched you. Maybe if I had I wouldn't be feeling like I do now.
You were so sweet to me. So good, so nice, so great that I found myself falling even more for you. That's why when you toldme you had a date it hurt so much.
Why? Why did you have to be so sweet? Why couldn't you just have been an asshole? Everything would just be so much easier now if you were.
tbc
Yeah I know that the online convo seems odd and that our 'mysterious other' sounds a lot more like Yotan but like I said we don't know what the others do in their spare time all that often (I know Omi=school, Ken=soccer, Aya=...be bitter?). But in all honesty we don't see Yotan with women coming out of his room that often in the series (if ever?) but I tried to maintain the fact that he is a playboy. Please note I am not a slut! That part is definitely Yotan's playboy side. If you actually know me then you would probably find the comparison quite humourous. Nor did I ever break my leg it was just an excuse to get Yotan out of the shop for 4 months or so. Anyway, keep reading if you like. I'd appreicate it. More will come as writing makes me feel better.
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It's been 2 days since I've seen or talk to you. Where are you? Are you still with her? We talked everyday up until our last conversation. Where are you?
Perhaps I should go into some of our history. When I fell on a mission some 5 months ago I broke my leg. I was out of commission for 4 months or there abouts. It was a bad break and I was under strict orders by the doctors not to do anything. That's right. I was given permission to sit on my ass and do nothing. So that's exactly what I did, nothing. Well one can only imagine how bored I became. Day time television sucks and I was going through books so fast all of you could barely keep me well supplied.
It wasn't until one day that I decided to haul out my laptop that Kritiker had given me some time ago, that my boredom started to be relieved. The lot of us started to talk online. NEver about much, usually what had happened in the shop that day, school, soccer practice, Takatori's head in a bucket. As I said never about much.
It was not long after I had my cast off (but still wasn't allowed back at work) that I started to love and hate you. We talked online for three hours one night and a lot was said. Truths were revealed and then promptly, or maye more like conviently, forgotten once we saw each other in person. You told me you were attracted to me but didn't see any potential romance with me. Besides you didn't want a relationship just then. You had just been burned badly. You were dumped for your friend. It hurts I know. But what you were looking for were women or men, some people, you could date 'casually'. Casually my ass. You wanted fuck buddies. You said that you couldn't get hurt again this way. Do you know how wrong you are? Look at who you're talking to. Would I not be the one to tell you that it does hurt? That it won't make you feel any better?
We argued about this. I told you that you would still be hurt if you did what you wanted too. You asked me what I wanted and I told you. You then told me theat you wanted me as one of your fuck toys. Part of me wanted to say yes just so I would have you butg a larger part of me screamed no. So that's what I told you, no. So that's where we left it. At that point I didn't know whether to hug you or punch you the next time we met. I hugged you and looking back on it maybe I should have punched you. Maybe if I had I wouldn't be feeling like I do now.
You were so sweet to me. So good, so nice, so great that I found myself falling even more for you. That's why when you toldme you had a date it hurt so much.
Why? Why did you have to be so sweet? Why couldn't you just have been an asshole? Everything would just be so much easier now if you were.
tbc
Yeah I know that the online convo seems odd and that our 'mysterious other' sounds a lot more like Yotan but like I said we don't know what the others do in their spare time all that often (I know Omi=school, Ken=soccer, Aya=...be bitter?). But in all honesty we don't see Yotan with women coming out of his room that often in the series (if ever?) but I tried to maintain the fact that he is a playboy. Please note I am not a slut! That part is definitely Yotan's playboy side. If you actually know me then you would probably find the comparison quite humourous. Nor did I ever break my leg it was just an excuse to get Yotan out of the shop for 4 months or so. Anyway, keep reading if you like. I'd appreicate it. More will come as writing makes me feel better.