Hi hi! Back with more. I'm starting to feel a bit better about everything but it still sucks all-in-all. Like I said at the end of the last chapter life would be so much easier if he was an asshole but he's not and it makes everything worse. Also please note two things. ONe that I did up the rating due to some swearing. Trust me it's not half as much as I would normally swear but if I did write what I actually thought it would just be tasteless. Secondly please note that I did update chapter 2 because well, I thought it needed more to it after a review that suggested as much (thank you Hele!) I'll be addressing a couple of other questions/comments made in later chapters. Thanks to those who have reviewed! Always makes my day feel a better! Anyway, enough rambling on. This is slightly brief but perhaps there will be more to come especially once my computer is fixed. (thanks Sher for letting me use you comp!). Okay on with the fic already.
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I hadn't heard from you in a week. I decided I needed to see you. I made cookies on the weekend and brought some with me just for you.
I sat and waited for you on the bench. Three o'clock every Monday you told me you go by here. So I got there a bit early and watied. I almost didn't recognize you. You look really different with a hat on.
I called your name and was greeted with a big smile. It made me feel good but that feeling didn't last long.
We greeted each other commenting on it had been too long since we had talked last.
"Busy with the woman." you told me. My heart sank. So dthe date had obviously gone well. Somewhere in the back of my mind I had hoped the date had been a disaster. You asked me if I was free the following night. I told you not until nine. "Perfect" you said. "We're going to a movie tomorrow night and she's bringing some of her friends. I want you to come with us. It's kind of a date but well, yeah. So can you come?"
What the hell do you need me there for? To hold your hand an coax you along so nothing goes wrong? So you don't fuck up? No, fuck you, sorry. It's not going to happen.
I feel like I've been punched in the stomach but I smile at you and say that I'll try. I hand you the cookies and tell you to enjoy them. I know you have your appointment so I say bye and leace. My smile drops once i have my back truend to you. Already I'm thinking of excuses to not go. I have the early morning shift at the shop. I suppose I'll just use that as my excuse. I can't let you know how much it will hurt if I were to actually go and see you with her. After all you're happy now. I should be glad that you're happy because that's all I've really wanted for you. So why does it hurt so much?
tbc...
So yeah that's what's been going on. As I said before once more will be up once I get my computer fixed and running. *grumbles* stupid heat sink breaking, cheap plastic piece of crap clip....
So anyway, reviews would be wonderful but not necessary! Thanks for reading! :D
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I hadn't heard from you in a week. I decided I needed to see you. I made cookies on the weekend and brought some with me just for you.
I sat and waited for you on the bench. Three o'clock every Monday you told me you go by here. So I got there a bit early and watied. I almost didn't recognize you. You look really different with a hat on.
I called your name and was greeted with a big smile. It made me feel good but that feeling didn't last long.
We greeted each other commenting on it had been too long since we had talked last.
"Busy with the woman." you told me. My heart sank. So dthe date had obviously gone well. Somewhere in the back of my mind I had hoped the date had been a disaster. You asked me if I was free the following night. I told you not until nine. "Perfect" you said. "We're going to a movie tomorrow night and she's bringing some of her friends. I want you to come with us. It's kind of a date but well, yeah. So can you come?"
What the hell do you need me there for? To hold your hand an coax you along so nothing goes wrong? So you don't fuck up? No, fuck you, sorry. It's not going to happen.
I feel like I've been punched in the stomach but I smile at you and say that I'll try. I hand you the cookies and tell you to enjoy them. I know you have your appointment so I say bye and leace. My smile drops once i have my back truend to you. Already I'm thinking of excuses to not go. I have the early morning shift at the shop. I suppose I'll just use that as my excuse. I can't let you know how much it will hurt if I were to actually go and see you with her. After all you're happy now. I should be glad that you're happy because that's all I've really wanted for you. So why does it hurt so much?
tbc...
So yeah that's what's been going on. As I said before once more will be up once I get my computer fixed and running. *grumbles* stupid heat sink breaking, cheap plastic piece of crap clip....
So anyway, reviews would be wonderful but not necessary! Thanks for reading! :D