Walk Away
Sora's crying died down and Yamato released his grip.
Still, he was holding her by her arms, looking into her eyes and brushing the wet tears on her cheeks away.
Taichi just stood there. Glad, that everything seemed to get normal again. He had never seen Sora so intense with Yamato before, either. Not that cared, because those two: they deserve each other.
'This really must be something bad if she's becoming so emotional' The blond thought, still looking in the beautiful eyes of the one he was holding.
Sora didn't gaze back at all. Instead, she was looking down. Ashamed that she let her emotions get ahead of her.
'I guess it's not all that bad,' the brunette wandered, 'he did gave in too, he probably understands it a little. However, are we going to remain friends or not?'
"You're OK?" Yamato broke the silence.
Sora looked up. "Yes, thanks" She gave a weak smile.
"Sorry if I look pathetic" she added quickly.
"You're not acting pathetic. We understand that it's hard for you. Don't we, Taichi?"
"Uh…," Taichi was kind of lost-in-thought, "Y-yeah, sure"
"See? No problem, Sora"
She blushed. She really appreciated the fact they cared enough for her. But somehow… a feeling somewhere inside of her made her doubt. Taichi's answer didn't seem to be confident enough.
"Really?" She finally looked up. Her eyes wandered from the blue ones of Yamato to the brown ones of Taichi. She kept a questioning look at Taichi.
"Yeah, really" He reassured.
Yamato finally let go the full grip he had on her as he saw she was 'recovering' from her little breakdown.
"But… I have been meaning to ask you something. And since you are here, I think this is the perfect opportunity"
Taichi and Yamato shared a glade, then Yamato gave a nod.
"After you kissed me, why did you ran away?"
Yamato blushed little as he thought of what he had done.
'I actually dunno why I left… Or it was of my popularity or… that… I didn't want to confess my true feelings for her"
"Well?" This time, Sora gave Yamato a puzzled look.
"I…-I dunno… I really don't" He looked down.
"Honestly?"
"Yeah… I'm sorry" He returned his gaze. Sora could see in his eyes that he really meant it. And that he pleaded for forgiveness.
"You know…" She hesitated. "In my opinion, if you both don't mind, I would like to think about all this again."
"But why?" Taichi didn't understand why she needed so much time. A misunderstanding, and now all this? That's exaggerated, isn't it?
"I…-I dunno…"
Yamato had comprehension for her. He did understand why she needed time. Probably for her, it wasn't that easy as Taichi thought it was. Still, he needed forgiveness. He was longing so badly to tell her what was inside him. But how is he going to say it if she isn't even his friend?
"I… I really have to go. It's getting late, my mother probably will be worried. I'll let you guys know when I made a decision, OK?"
"OK" The blonde singer felt miserable about her answer, but he wasn't going to show that in front of them.
Taichi said nothing with a blank expression on his face.
'I can't believe her! She's the holder of Love and she can't even forgive a misunderstanding! What is WRONG!? There must be something else…'
"Taichi, come on. Let's go home." Yamato broke the awkward silence that hang between them as Sora departed.
"OK. See ya, buddy!"
"Bye."
With that, they both walked off in different directions. While the girl whom Yamato was hopelessly in love with, was heading for another breakdown again.
~* Sora's House *~
"Ow, Sora. You're finally home. I began to worry" her mother stated.
"I thought so. I came home as soon as I can" Sora put up a fake smile as her mother hugged her.
"Are you hungry?"
"No… I'm tired, I'm going to bed. Goodnight mom." Sora gave Mrs. Takenouchi a good-night kiss and headed upstairs again.
"Men… My daughter sure spends lots of time there. Probably teenage stuff." Her mother thought to herself.
For the hundredth time that day, crystal rimmed tears were sliding down the heart broken brunette.
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Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need…
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No, she couldn't take this anymore. This has got to stop. And now!
But how?
Being egoistic and kill herself. Or being 'social' and ask your friends about it. Which of one?
'Kill yourself, easiest way. All of the other sufferings are over by then too' A nasty, dark voice said in the back of Sora's mind.
'Don't do that!! This is a problem anyone can have. And problems are there to be solved. It gets solved by talking!' A gentle but stern voice said sharply.
'Shut up, both of you!' The real thoughts of Sora demanded. 'I don't want to think about this right now. I'm going to sleep. I'll see tomorrow'
With that thought, she closed her eyes. Sleepiness slowly took over her, and she drifted away in her own dreams and nightmares. Where only you rule, where only your imagination counts.
~* Next Morning *~
*BEEP BEEP BEEP*
Sora's alarm clock announced she had to wake up and get ready for school.
'Damn you' She scolded it as she pushed the stop-button.
Throwing her blankets out of the way, she stood up and made her way to her wardrobe.
However, she had to rub her eyes before she could see the contents of it.
While Sora was busy dressing herself, Mrs. Takenouchi was busy with making breakfast for her.
"Morning" Sora greeted her mother as she was heading down the stairs, towards the kitchen.
"Good morning honey. I made you an omelette like you always want."
"Thanks mom." She began to eat her omelette. The brunette really was thankful towards her mother. Her mother always made breakfast for her in the mornings. Always helped her, or tried to help. And still, she had a feeling some invisible barrier is growing between them.
'Probably really typical for people my age. Although I hope we can repair that….'
Breakfast passed in silence. Both of them with their mind somewhere else.
"Sora, I think you really should leave. It's a quarter to 8 already" Her mother broke the silence.
"Ow!" Sora checked the clock which hung above the cooking-range. "Damnit! Bye mom"
She quickly grabbed her school-bag, putted on her shoes while grabbing her jacket, and headed towards her school.
Sora always went on foot to school. It wasn't far away, so that was a good warming-up.
'Actually… I haven't been thinking about it yet, but am I going to remain friends with the others?' Her thoughts were again interrupted with that thought.
'I do have a question to myself: Why is it that it's so difficult to forgive and forget?'
She stopped at the thought. Literally. Her feet stood still too, they didn't seem to carry her anymore to school.
'It couldn't be that my heart has gone cold, could it?'
She was so lost in thought…
"BOE!" Somewhere shocked her from behind. It was like Sora just met someone who was about to kill her.
"Hikari?!" As she turned around, she saw who the about-the-kill was.
"Yes, it's me. Sorry to startle you like that. I'm just crazy today!" Hikari giggled. Sora could see in her eyes she really was happy about something.
"I see…" Hikari's mood was lighting her heart a bit, "Can I know why?"
"Me and Takeru are dating Wednesday!" She answered happily. She jumped in the air as she said it too. They started walking again, knowing both perfectly well to where they were heading.
"Good" The holder of Love simply replied. 'I could ask her for some advice…'
"Ahm, Hikari?"
"Yes?"
"I don't want to destroy your happiness, but I have a problem. And I was wondering if you could help me….?"
"Sure! Anytime for you!"
"Thanks…"
"So, what's wrong?"
"Well, it's a whole bunch, but I'll try to make it short. Yamato and I dated, where he kissed me. Then…"
"He kissed you?!" Hikari's eyes were wide open from amazement.
"Yeah… But listen further. So then, I went Taichi and told him. He said to me that this was all a joke. Or a bet, better said. And I'm doubting that I will forgive them or not."
"With the fact that you were in a depression before, you mean or…?"
"Yes. Exactly"
"Well… I dunno, Sora… I mean…, I dunno how much you feel for Yamato and my brother to forgive them or not…"
"But," Sora turned to Hikari, explaining it a little more with her hands, "what would you do?"
"Pff… I will forgive them I guess… But yeah… I really should don't know. I don't know the whole thing. I'm really sorry I can't help you Sora…"
Sora sighed. 'If I ask any more I will destroy the happiness she had, and that's the last thing I want to do'
"That's OK… I guess this is something I have solve on my own…" But in reality, she didn't felt good at all. She at least expected a little advice… But no, she doesn't know… Hey! Wait a second! Why am I thinking like this! I know she's telling the truth!'
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I can't mend
This torn state I'm in
Getting Nothing in Return
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They were so busy with their little conversation of girl-talk. They both didn't noticed they were already in front of the school. Just in time. The ball rang, as a sign they had to go to their classes.
"Well, I'll see you around Sora. Good luck!" Hikari said.
"Yes, thanks! Goodbye!"
The morning passed with boring subjects. But however, Sora didn't care. She had to get her mind of her mess, and put it on the lessons. Otherwise, she may fail for this year.
Finally, it was time for lunch. Sora grabbed her stuff, and walked as fast as she could out of the class.
She shoved on for her lunch. Which was her favourite food: Spaghetti.
The woman behind the barrier gave her some Spaghetti in her dish. And for once: the food saw delicious.
After looking for a place, she seated herself on a bank. Alone. She used to sit here with Taichi, Yamato and the gang. But now, she preferred the solitude.
None of them seemed to notice her, though. It was like she wasn't there; like she was air. But that's was alright…
Alright… Yes, until she saw someone, for whom she wasn't air: Yamato.
Sora's mouth fell open. Why? She did not know.
Yamato noticed her, and her shocked look. 'I wonder if she decided something yet.'
"Taichi?" Taichi was standing right behind him, talking to Koushiro and the others.
"Yes?" He asked, turning around.
"I'm going to check on Sora, I'll be right back"
"'Kay!" Taichi turned again, talking further. While Yamato's heels turned him to the lonely brunette.
'Oh no! He's coming!' With an instant, Sora stood up, and ran away of the lunch hall. She actually didn't know why she was acting so strange… She just was… afraid.
She hided her somewhere around a corner. Sinking towards the ground slowly. Tears again filled her eyes, and she began to cry.
The popular blonde saw her running of the hall, and decided to follow her.
'I am not going to let her through with this! She is going to tell me now why she's so overreacting!'
Standing just at the door, he looked around, looking for any sign of his beloved. But none came.
Until he heard sobs.
'That must be her!' He followed the sound slowly. Finally he saw her. Curled into a ball, with her head bent to her knees.
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What did I do to deserve
The pain of this slow burn.
And everywhere I turn,
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need
To walk Away from.
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Yamato bent down at her height, stroking his left arm over her back.
Sora startled and looked up. Directly meeting the ocean blue eyes of Yamato.
"Yamato?" She asked in a whisper. Her eyes were red from crying yet again.
"Yes, it's me."
"Why did you follow me?"
"I want to know what's really the matter with you. Admit, you are a little overreacting, aren't you?"
"Yeah… I'm damn pathetic…"
"I didn't said pathetic, I said overreacting. There's a difference between that. Anyway, so, what's the matter?"
"Do I really have to say it?" Her head bent down again, a little ashamed.
"I'd like to know, yes"
"The whole truth?"
"Yes, if you"
"Good," Sora looked up. "I'll tell you the truth: the truth is that I love you, Ishida. I thought, when you asked me on a date, that you loved me too… But I guess I was mistaken… Now, don't feel sorry for nothing! If you don't feel anything for me then…-"
Yamato stopped her by putting his finger on her mouth. Shaking his head slightly.
"You are completely mistaken, Sora…"
"I knew it…." She lowed her head again, only to cry more.
"You don't understand" Somehow, he had managed to let her look up again. He was holding her chin by now. 'What I meant is, you are mistaken that you thought that I don't love you. I do love you; that's why I kissed you, and that I permitted myself to go on a date with you. It wasn't particularly because of that bet."
Sora's despair changed into hope again. He did love her… Again, a big mistake she had made…
She allowed herself to hug him. He, hugged her, with all his love, back.
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