Walk Away
'Finally, I made it. Everything's going alright again' The brunette thought. As she let the last tears slip from her face, to Yamato's chest.
"It's OK," he whispered, stroking Sora's back gently.
'I could stay in this forever… Just here… Feeling protected and loved' A warm feeling was starting to grow in Sora's heart. A Love – feeling.
Both withdrew from the hug.
"I thank you" Sora told.
"Why?"
"I dunno why… But I'm so thankful towards you" She smiled.
"Don't worry…" was all the blonde could say.
A silence grew. Not a real silent, though, they were too busy observing each others eyes.
But the eye-staring soon ended by a grumble of Sora's stomach.
Sora blushed, putting a hand on her stomach.
"Sorry…"
Yamato smiled. "Let's eat. I understand you're hungry. I'm hungry myself too" He laughed.
"OK" Both headed for the lunch hall.
'Wow… This really is odd… I know most guys like girls if they are funny, happy and those things. I got in a little depression and he's in love with me… He's just another type of guy'
As Sora kept wondering, she didn't even noticed Yamato took her hand is his.
Yamato was really satisfied with himself. He got the chance to tell her, and to help her. Nothing could go wrong right now…
~* Monday evening *~
Sora was busy making her homework for Tuesday. It sure wasn't easy. Difficult essay's of Math, and that's the last good thing she could. But yeah, difficult or not, got to get through, ne-?
"Sora! Sora!" Her mother called from downstairs.
"Yeah?!" She shouted back.
"Come down, if you!"
"Damn it, I was just getting away with it…" Sora stated. Leaving her work behind, she headed downstairs.
"Yes?" She asked her mother, as she finally was with her.
"Please sit down"
'What the hell is happening?' The brunette thought. But she did as she was told.
"I just got a phone call from Mimi's mother" Her mother was nearly crying.
"What?!!! What did she say?! Is Mimi OK?" Sora her heart, and she herself, panicked a little. Seeing her mother nearly to tears wasn't a habit.
"Honey dear… I'm very sorry, but Mimi died. She didn't make it" With the last sentence, Mrs. Takenouchi hugged her closely. Tears running out of her eyes.
While Sora just sat down… She was frozen for a moment. Frozen of the sudden rush of harsh reality.
"What?" She muttered, more to herself.
The brunette burst out in tears.
'How could this happen?! Mimi… dead… No…'
Her mother withdrew from the hug. She saw that her daughter was crying hard, which caused a reflex to hug her back. But Sora ran away before she could.
Sora ran to her bedroom as fast as she could… Ready to grab something. No, not a knife. Just something to write. To write her feelings down. All the while, tears kept running down her cheeks. She still couldn't believe it. Mimi… dead? No way…
She nestled herself in her bed with a pen and a little book. A book were all the feelings she once had stood written.
Dear
I feel like someone has just shot me in slow motion. The bullet is slowly ripping through my heart…
Why, when I feel a little happier, it gets always destroyed?
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Everytime I try to Grasp for Air
I am Smothered in Despair
It's never Over
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The lost brunette checked her clock: 09:36PM. Once she knew, she wrote further:
Another day, another broken heart. The day started good, but badly.
I really can't believe I am doomed for this…
You know, being lucky is an illusion. Life is harsh and cruel.
'Geez…Why am I feeling like this? I shouldn't…' A sigh escaped from Sora's mouth. 'Look at it' Pointing herself to the book.
Just then, Yamato came in.
"Yamato?!" She asked, surprised.
"Yeah, your mother called me. She asked me to support you a little. I heard about Mimi" Yamato looked down. He felt miserable about Mimi too, even though he wasn't so close to her as Sora was.
The brunette threw her arms around her new boyfriend, crying.
'She does cry a lot,' Yamato wondered, 'But however, she has every right to cry' Hugging her closely, he did his best to comfort the broken teenager.
'I still can't believe it…' Sora thought, 'she was the one and only…. The only one who supported me…. And now, because of some stupid illness, she's dead… This really can't be happening… No…'
Her legs started to tremble of the pain in her heart. Which caused her to collapse.
"Ow" The blonde startled. As a reflex, he carried her to her bed, right next to the book she had been writing in.
"Calm down, calm down" Yamato comforted, kneeling so he reached her height.
Sora rested her head on his shoulder, still crying.
After several minutes, her crying finally died somewhat down.
The blonde lifted her head a little, so he could sit down next to her.
"Huh?" Yamato startled as he felt something under him "What the-..?"
There, lay the book Sora had been writing in. Unconsciously, he started reading what there stood.
Sora didn't even notice. Her mind was still blurry, and full of the last events, which were slowly seeping into her brain, and her already shattered heart.
"Sora?" Yamato half whispered, half demanded.
"Hm?" She gave a weak response.
"What is this?" As he put the book under her nose. "What d'you mean with this?!"
Sora looked up. Her eyes still watery and were circled with red. However, inside her, she could feel the horror of him reading what she had written. He wasn't supposed to… Making up she can't say anything else but the truth, she answered: "It means what there's standing"
"Sora…" Yamato kneeled again before her. Holding her upper-arms for support.
"Being lucky isn't an illusion, " Sora looked away, he continued, "Everyone can be lucky, and especially you!"
"You have to say it. You don't have any problems, do you?!" She half said, half snapped.
"Everyone has his or her own problems, dear. But the problems are there to be solved… Keep your head up, and don't give in to the Darkness. You know that causes problems in the Digi-World too…"
Even Yamato's eyes started to water. He could not believe nor allow that his girlfriend was thinking or acting like this. Not at all…
Sora didn't answer. She just didn't want to answer. She knew he was right… She knew that it causes problems in Digi-World, and that the Darkness is taking over…
"Yamato…" She started to snob again, at all those thoughts.
It grew silent for a moment, both of them deep in thought. Yamato was still kneeling and looking at her with either surprised as worried feeling.
"Sora, Sora, Sora… Never knew you could be so… dramatic.." He half whispered.
He settled himself again next to her. Pushing to book aside. He putted his arm around her shoulder, so her head could rest near his chest. Stroking her slightly, to comfort her.
It was a peaceful moment. Just the couple… sharing their love, and despair.
But it didn't lasted long:
"Yamato!" Sora's mother called from downstairs. "You're dad has called and said that he'd be pleased if you came home!"
"He probably is hungry…" He stated. Slowly, he dropped his arm, and started to stand up.
"Please…" The brunette pleaded "Don't leave…me…"
"I don't, dear… I just have to go… My father, you know… I can't let him down, and we have to go to school tomorrow. Although I won't come in the morning, I have to go in the studio to discuss our plannings of our concerts."
Sora looked down again. It made the blonde feel sorry that he had to leave…
He kneeled, grabbing her chin gently, "Look at me…"
She did as she was told, meeting his ocean blue eyes.
Softly, he pressed his lips against hers. More as a support or goodbye kiss, but the passion and love was definitely palpable in his kiss.
"If anything is wrong, call me, OK?" Yamato informed, after he broke their kiss.
"OK…"
He stood up, heading for the door.
Just before he seized the door-handle, he head Sora silently say, "Thank you…"
Yamato didn't answer back, though. 'She needs this time alone, to cry out a little'
"Is she OK?" Sora's mother asked him as he was putting on his shoes.
"Don't worry, she'll be alright," he smiled, "but, if I were you, I'd let her alone now, you know, to cry out."
"OK, Thanks a lot, Yamato."
"My pleasure. I'll have to go now. Bye, Mrs. Takenouchi!"
"Bye, and once again thanks"
The blonde departed, leaving his beloved girlfriend, and her mother, alone with their sorrow.
~* Tuesday Morning *~
"Right. So the next concert will be tomorrow, midday in the fair in Adaiba" Their manager informed them. They were already at 7 o'clock in the studio, and were almost ready discussing their plans.
"Then, Thursday evening, it will be in a concert hall –" He was cut off by Yamato's cell phone.
"Sorry" He excused, blushing slightly. He took a few steps away from the group for some privacy, and answered the phone.
"Ishida speaking"
"Yamato… It's me" Sora answered on the other line.
"Sora? Aren't you supposed to be in school?"
"No, I don't want to. I'm too… sad"
Yamato sighed. 'Not going to school… what does that give for a solution?'
"You should try, Sora… Anyway, I can't really talk right now, I'm in a meeting for my concerts, remember?"
"Yeah…"
"I'll talk to you later, I promise"
"Wait!"
"Yes?"
"Can you please come over, and skip school?" She wanted to badly to talk to someone, she didn't even are about that damn school anymore.
"I'll see what I can do…"
"Thanks… I love you"
"I love you too, bye" With that, he shut
the conversation off, and turned around again.
"Sorry, - " He stopped when he saw the astonished
looks on their faces. "What?" He asked, puzzled.
"Do you have a girlfriend?" His manager asked.
"Ahm…" Then, it dawned on him: he may not have a girlfriend, otherwise he would lose most of his fans. That was a deal they made….
"Yamato, Yamato…"
"I'm sorry… But how can you stop that feeling?" Yamato half asked, half snapped. Was fans and money all what he cared about?
"Just not give into that feeling, Ishida! You know the press finds out anything! Break this relationship, or you're out of the band…"
His bands mates still looked astonished. With that their friend has a girlfriend, and the fact that he, if he didn't break up with her, would be out of the band. Just not to involve themselves with it, they kept their mouth shut.
Yamato stood there… frozen with what his manager just said. Break up with Sora… Or give up his band…
"I… - I can't choose between that!"
"You'll have to!"
"Ugh…" With a disgusted and sad feeling, he left the studio.
The blonde walked to the nearby park, settling himself in one of the benches.
'What now? Sora is already so depressed because of Mimi dying, and now she has to hear this? This world can't go any more crazy…' He let out a deep sigh.
Wow… It's more than a month since I've updated this story, sorry ^^' I was just too busy. Now that it's a holiday I have to ride my horse more. And with my birthday… I played loads of games on my new gamecube ^^
But actually, I'm glad this chap is finished. It was difficult, I was stuck sometimes.
And a huge thnx who reviewed!
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