Walk Away
"Yamato…" I half moan in his kiss.
We are sitting in a beautiful park. Sakura leafs drop off by the wind, landing on us or on the grass.
I just remembered: it's the same park Yamato kissed me for the first time. We're here again.
But there are a few differences: For one, I'm now am officially a couple with him. For two, I'm happy.
I really, really, really am. And that fact is quite odd, since I just lost one of my best friends.
Even though I'm happy, however, my heart or my soul is telling me something. I feel a strange presence here. It's like someone or something is watching us. And waiting for its arrival.
Yamato makes me forget about that stupid feeling, though. His sweet kiss, his sweet arms, his sweet eyes. Everything about him is sweet… and adorable.
I haven't had many boyfriends before, but what I can say, is that he is one of the best I ever had, and have. I may not depend of the fact that I may loose him. That thought, is too harsh.
"I'm glad I'm with you…" I talk to him softly. "I never want to loose you…, ever"
"Same counts for me, honey"
I am sitting in his lap, but with my face turned to him, and my feet pointing behind him. No, not in a really intimate position! We're just like this, and nothing's really going to happen.
The silence is restful, but at the same time frightening. STOP! No frightening things here, stop thinking about that, baka.
Again, that thought comes to a halt with Yamato's kiss. He deepened it by letting his tongue entering my mouth. I more than accept it.
The taste of his tongue, the presence of his lips against mine. The hold of his arms around me. Everything is so… perfect. Nothing could go wrong. That's why I'm happy.
But like always, the happiness doesn't take long.
Neither of us noticed it getting colder…darker… The wind turns into a cold breeze. It runs chills down my spine.
I let go of our passionate kiss and look around.
"What's the matter?" Yamato asks me friendly.
"I don't know… I feel like someone is watching us or something…"
"Really? I didn't notice it, though" He answers me. His eyes tell me that he's kind of scared by my remark too.
"Gomen-ne" I apologize "I didn't mean to frighten you"
"It's OK, honey. Don't worry. It's probably just some damn feeling"
He starts to tickle me, in an attempt to stop our tense situation.
However, I don't laugh like I use to.
"Yamato, stop" I demand him. My stern eyes watch his surprised ones. "Stop… I… I don't feel at my ease here…"
"Sorry. Let's go somewhere else, OK?"
I nod. We both stand up in silent. He takes my hand, and we walk further. Further from the place I call Hell.
Suddenly, we stand still. I feel that Yamato's hand is cold all of sudden, too. In an urge of panic, I turn to him: he start to collapse, and his face is totally white and pale.
"Yamato?!" I begin to panic more.
"Yamato?!! Answer me!" Unfortunately, I don't get any answer. I start to shake him a little, trying to wake him up, but somehow it didn't work.
'Come on… GET UP! Don't leave me behind now… come on…' I start to cry. My heart, who was already in two, is now in four pieces.
I pick his wrist, searching desperately for a pulse. Which I didn't find either…
It seeps into me: he's dead. I knew all along that it was Death who was lurking behind the bushes… waiting for its arrival…
Sora jumped out of her bed. Literally. She sat on her carpet. Her whole body was covered in sweat.
"Just a nightmare…" She tried to calm herself. 'Wait a second… Yamato…dead?'
"Sora!" Her question didn't get answered by her mother's call.
"Yes!?"
"A visitor!"
'Yamato!' Sora thought immediately. And her mind was right: right in front of the door; stood Yamato.
"Hi" He greeted her silently and quite depressing.
"What's wrong?" Unwillingly, her eyes start to water again. However, she blinked a little, so it was not noticeable.
"N-Nothing" she mumbled. "Let's go upstairs, ne-?" She putted up a fake smile.
"Could… Could we go outside? I… I need to talk to you" His faces showed worry all over. It was obvious this wasn't going to be a laughing matter.
"Sure…" The brunette sighed. 'Please don't let me think like I am thinking'
She ran into the kitchen for a second, "Mom, I'm going outside a little with Yamato. I'll be back as soon as I can"
"Honey, take a house key with you. I'm off within 5 minutes so…"
"OK, bye"
"Bye"
She took her house key, and left, hand-in-hand, with her boyfriend.
They sat in the park where they kissed for the first time. Indeed, the same park as in her dreams.
However, Sora didn't feel uncomfortable right now. But then again, she could feel something was troubling Yamato.
"Can I know now what's wrong?" She finally asked, looking at him worried.
"Sora…" He turned to her, holding her hands. "I…-I have a problem"
"Tell me…"
"You know that this morning I was at the studio, right?" Sora nodded in response.
Then Yamato continued further: "My manager heard us calling, of course, and… thus… he found out that I'm in love with you. And it completely slipped my mind, but I…-" He hesitated. 'It is more difficult to tell this than I thought…'
She, on the other hand, was searching for what he was reaching for. She knew that wasn't going to be good news after all…
"Tell me…" She said again.
"I…- I can't have a girlfriend" Sora's mouth fell open, but Yamato continued further, "I'd loose most of my fans, and my manager doesn't want that…"
"What are the consequences?" She asked, trying to sound as normal as possible. Although she was everything except normal.
"Or I'm out of the band… or…- I…-I have to break up… with you…" He looked down. Tears were forming in his eyes too.
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Seems I'll never Wake from this Nightmare
I let out a Silent pray
Let it be over…
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Sora couldn't help, but she bursted out in tears.
Somehow, Yamato couldn't hug her like he used to. Something was keeping him from it. The tears that were forming in his eyes, are now streaming down too.
The moment was with sorrow and despair…
"No…" The brunette mumbled softly after a couple of minutes.
"What?"
"This just can't… I-… I want to give up this" Only even more crying, she stood up, and ran to her house.
'I want to give up this' What Sora just said, kept running through Yamato's mind. It was telling him something… Not really knowing why, he tried to follow her. Which didn't succeed.
Sora arrived at her house. Her eyes were red from crying, her hands were shaking from angst. Indeed, angst. Her mind and soul were frightened…
With much difficulty, she opened the door, and ran to the kitchen.
She settled herself on a chair, her elbows on the table, with her head in her hands.
'Why are you still here?! DO SOMETHING!' A voice commanded her.
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Inside I'm Screaming, Begging,
Pleading No more…
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She opened a drawer where she knew the knifes would be. She looked at each knife carefully, searching for the sharpest.
'That one, there. That should do' The voice told her again.
She took it, put off her watch, and pointed the knife at her pulse. Right at her vein.
It was like Sora was under hypnosis, she wasn't quite aware what she was doing anymore. All she wanted, was to stop her pain.
She pushed as hard as she could with the knife into her bare skin, and sliced.
Not any few seconds later, she started to feel dizzy. All she could make out was that her wrist was all covered in blood.
She fell down, landing on the hard ground. Falling into a world where she hoped everything would be solved… and where the word 'pain' didn't exist.
Yamato searched off the whole park. Although his heart was telling him she was too far to be found.
'I'll take a look at her house, that usually is her first hiding place'
He wandered off, heading at her home.
'It's kind of odd… I mean I didn't tell her that I'm going to break up with her or something… On the contrary, I guess she reckoned that I will choose for my group instead… But if she only knew that I'm willing to give up my band for her…'
The blonde already arrived at her house, as he noticed the door was open.
'That is strange… Usually she always closes her doors…'
He pushed the door even more open.
"Hello?" He observed the living room.
"Sora?"
'She probably is in her room…like always'
He took off his shoes, and started to climb up the stairs.
"Sora? Are you in there?" He asked as he opened her door.
'No one in here either… I'll better take a better look downstairs.'
He headed downstairs again, taking a better look in the living room.
'She really isn't here… I'll look in her garden.' His mind was very calm, but his heart… he was proving it totally wrong. He had a feeling he was about to enter Hell.
He opened the kitchen door, to his horror. For several minutes, the time stood still.
Yamato saw it… his mind needed time to make out what he was seeing: a girl, lying on the floor, covered in a slaughter.
"Sora…" He, too, bursted out in tears. He kneeled beside her, holding her neck. Even though his heart was telling him she wasn't alive anymore, he had to try…
'There could always be hope…' he thought as he felt at the side of her neck, searching for a heartbeat.
But then, as like a knife that tore open his heart … he felt nothing. The girl of his dreams was gone … forever …
Yes, finished… Gomen ne it took so long… I just had LOADS of writer's blocks… I just hope that this is much better than the others. I tried to make the best of it…
I know it's kind of a sad ending… But that was on purpose…
And Of course(I guess you can already guess it ^^") a HUGE thnx to my reviewers!
= Emily-is-strange: I know that Sora's quite a crybaby. And I'll explain why: When somebody has a bitter youth, some people get absorbed by it, and so, with the most little pain, they cry. It's because they have a need to let out their emotions, and crying is mostly the most suitable for that. U see? (U can disagree with me, don't be afraid! ^^)
Anyways, thnx for your review!
= LOL: Well, you know the answer now, and I'm TERRIBLY sorry for the fact that it took so long for me to update…
= NightAngel: I don't have a feeling that thing are going too fast in chappie 4 and 5. But it could be, I guess that is, too, a matter of opinion. Sorry about that ^^"
And ahm, thnx for the compliment! And as before, I'm sorry it took so long.
= Dream-rose/fanfictionist: U didn't sound demanding at all! No problem ^^" I'm used to that. Ow, yes, thnx for saying I improved ^^ It's nice to hear such a compliment.
= Imagi-Chan: Actually I think you're right… I guess I corrected it in this ficcie, or didn't I? Anyways, thnx for reviewing, too! ^^
So, this was the last chapter, so now it's finito…
I'm already working on my next one, which won't be a Digimon ficcie, but a CardCaptor Sakura one! ^^ (Lately I'm just such a HUGE fan of it so…)
However, I hope that everyone will review this last chapter too…Please be so kind…
Thank you!
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