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"so let his heart surround you,

and let his arms protect you

and hold you every morning the way that I could never do

another life has blessed you,

he wants the same as you do

so I must find the courage to send you on your way"

( From "On your way" by Eastmountainsouth )

Note: This is the last part! YEAH! Thank you to Sandra, a.ka, Lukerules, for beta

Reading all of this. And to all of you that reviewed. Thank you!

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The fall of a sparrow

"Return to me"

by: Jessica

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Jess POV

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I woke out of breath the next morning.

The sun hadn't yet risen on the sky.

Every part of my body ached as I rose from the bed.

She was still sleeping on the couch.

I stumbled towards the bathroom.

I peel of my clothes and grant my broken body a few minutes

under the shower.

Trying to get warm.

Then I leave.

To stand in front of the mirror for a while.

A pale face met me.

Eyes that had lost their glow.

It was a stranger that looked back at me.

A broken being.

Eventually I move and dressed in the dim lights of

the bathroom.

Then I returned to the bedroom.

To wake her.

Lucy.

I kneeled down beside her and touched her arm.

She opened her eyes and smiled at me.

I wanted to say something.

Anything.

But my mouth couldn't form the words.

I turned away from her, afraid that she might see the pain in

my eyes and understand.

"Shall I order breakfast?"

"Shouldn't you get ready?"

My voice seemed hollow.

"We have got time for breakfast, don't we?"

"I guess..."

The bags were all packed and sat by the door.

They seemed to call out to me, mocking me, haunting me.

It was only a few hours now, and then this life would

just be a memory of what once was.

Her voice pierced the silence of the room as she ordered breakfast.

I stumbled towards the couch and sat down.

My body felt hollow.

It felt like every part of me would scatter for the wind and it was

only my skin that held it back.

I kept reminding my heart that I made the choice to leave.

But my head kept screaming of her own part in all of this.

I kept remembering her words as she proclaimed that she wouldn't

come with me.

I don't know what I was thinking.

Maybe I had no right to ask her to give up everything for me.

Who was I?

No one.

A nobody.

Maybe she was right.

What if she had gone with me and two years down the line she

would hate me for ever making her give up her dream?

Her dream was being a journalist.

To see the world.

Maybe I should just let go of her once and for all.

Maybe I should let go and see how she flies.

I just wished it wouldn't hurt so.

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Rory POV

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My intention was to find him.

My intention was to stop him.

To tell him the truth.

To make him forgive me.

I had it all planned out.

I had worked all through the night, forming my plan.

I meant to dazzle him with my words.

To make him fall for me.

To make him take me back.

I will admit that it scared me.

The thought of opening my heart so fully.

To give him my heart once again.

But I had to do it.

I had to sacrifice everything.

Because I knew that if I didn't I would

surely perish.

So when morning broke that day I was prepared.

I drove like a madman.

It was amazing that I didn't crash into something.

Cold winds blew in from the west and brought with it the first snow.

It painted the world in white and everything seemed to slow down.

As I head down the road towards the airport a smile painted my

face.

For once in my life I was following my heart.

I was reaching out and taking what I wanted.

It's the little things I remember.

The snow that painted the road.

The cold wind against my cheek.

Some sappy love song streamed out from the radio.

Words like "love" and "Eternity" flew into the air and surrounded me.

And I knew that I was happy.

It all happened so fast.

Maybe there were things I should have done to avoid it.

Maybe I wasn't looking.

I like to think it was fate.

It wasn't anybodies fault.

It was an icy road.

It was just a bend in the road.

Nothing else.

Then a deer.

I hit the braks, to save the animal.

To save another.

I knew instantly that it was a mistake.

Fear gripped at my core as the car went flying.

And there was nothing I could do to stop it.

The tree came suddenly.

It just appeared.

There was nothing I could do to stop it from happening.

His name escaped my lips like he could save me now.

The last thing I remember was his face before me.

Then darkness.

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Jess POV

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The airport was crowded as we got there.

She kept talking about everything and nothing.

I didn't listen.

I was prepared.

I went through the motion as we checked in our bags

and walked towards the gate.

I kept searching for her face in the crowd, hoping that she

might change her mind.

I lingered by the gate, searching for her.

For Rory.

Hoping.

Waiting.

"Come back to me......"

My words were just a whisper.

But I knew that it was no use.

She had made up her mind.

So it was no use in hoping.

"Jess? Are you coming?"

Lucy was standing a few meters a head of me, ready to board the plane.

Our eyes met.

Let her go!!

Maybe this was letting go.

Maybe it was time.

"Yes."

I walked towards her and took her hand in mind.

Together we walked towards the plane.

This is letting go.

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