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Fuuei: The second chapter of The End! Guilt is here!!! Okay, this chapter is quite or should I say, almost all Sanzo-centric. I mean… It's like what he feels about Gojyo and uhh… he's like blaming himself…
Sanzo: I DO NOT!!!
Fuuei: Don't be shy! Aww… come on… Oh, by the way… For those people who think that the Goku and Gojyo brother relationship is little bit weird… I'll tell you all why I did that… Well, in Tenkai, Goku used to call him Ken-nii-chan, right? So isn't it QUITE the same when he was reincarnated??? I mean, even though he's Gojyo, not Kenren… It's still the same right? Okay, I present to you… The End: 2nd Chapter, Guilt!!!!!
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The End GuiltGojyo… If time could be turned back, I wish I did not argue with you. It is my entire fault that you are laying on the bed now, motionless. If the last argue had never happened, you would never be like this. Oh, how I wish to die! Gojyo, I'm sorry… But I guess these words will never reach you anymore… I'm sorry, Gojyo, I know that you would never like to see me in tears, but I just can't hold them back no matter how… Honto ni gomenasai, Gojyo… iya, o… nii-chan…
Ch! I don't care a damn about you… But why, is there a sense of guilt and pain within me? It's like I have another heart, which keeps on blaming me for your death. The other "me" keeps on saying that if I did not fire that gun, this whole tragedy could never happen. So, it's really me, huh? The one who gave you your last destiny… Heck, after all, I still say I don't care about you… Guess it was a lie… for me.
Baka! Baka! Baka! Baka! Why was I so stupid and careless? If only I did not lose control of Hakuryu when Sanzo fired his gun… If only I could heal the poison out of nowhere which covered your body… If only we could reach a town earlier… All of this would never happen. Why? Why was I so helpless and useless when I was the one needed most at that time? I didn't have the power to save Kanna at that time, and now, I couldn't save you either. I hate myself…
Now, in front of the incomplete Sanzo-ikkou, is Sha Gojyo, the happy-go-lucky guy in the group, lying on the bed. But his face no longer contained any happiness nor pain, as he is no longer that world's inhabitant. In front of him, is the coldest Sanzo ever found in the world, eyes narrowing, and does not dare to face him, even if he is dead. Beside him are both the man with monocle and brother whom he never has the chance to call him as his otooto.
Goku obscured his head on to the blanket and shed tears, wetting the blanket. He was shuddering like crazy, but not out of cold. Worse than Goku, Hakkai's eyes were totally blank. He looked at Gojyo's corpse and tears flowed down his cheeks like rivers. They never bring to a halt and he never has the attempt to cease them. Sanzo could not stand the sorrow and anguish air anymore. Moreover, he could not stand the sense of guilt within him whenever he saw Goku and Hakkai, and of course, Gojyo.
Another one whom I could not protect. Sanzo thought as he was smoking and drinking in the bar. He struggled to hide that sense of guiltiness and grief by drinking, but no matter how many times the alcoholic liquid surges down into his throat, he was not drunk. His heart throbbed with pain whenever he thought about the scene when Gojyo was taken away to the other world.
Gojyo's face was a mixture of tears. It was not clear whether they were his, Hakkai's or Goku's. His eyes were plain and blank. His body moved up and down furiously as he was heaving heavily. He was obviously gasping for air as he was suffocating. Suddenly he opened his eyes wide. His eyes were as if going to pop out as he looked from Goku, then to Sanzo, and finally to Hakkai. His eyes seemed to glow like beautiful red rubies whenever his tears reflected the sun's rays.
At last, he glanced at Sanzo and forced the words out of his mouth. He had to say it to Sanzo, as Sanzo was the calmest and yet the most understanding one of all whenever these kinds of tragedies happen. "Continue this… unghh… journey without me… one--- Arghh!!!" With that, he tossed himself to the left, then to the right. He closed his eyes tight, as if fearing to see the people around him. Eventually, he stopped. He took a final glance at the other three and smiled a smile, which showed the message "I'm sorry… Really sorry."
"Gai." Sanzo said as he stared at Gojyo's body, with a sympathetic look, also full with mourning and agony. You haven't even finished your sentence yet, and you died. And yet, you call us to continue this journey. How can we continue with an always crying hypocrite and a wet saru? You really are irresponsible, you know that? Sanzo thought, but he did not meant to complain to him. He had the feeling that his heart stopped beating. He clutched his robe and felt that his heart throbbed with regret and pain. He was as if dying from anguish and guilt.
Humph, irresponsible, dead ero kappa. How can you do this to us?
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Fuuei: Okay… I'm going to make the whole Sanzo-ikkou die in this fic… So please don't be angry with me… Gojyo-fans… Don't chase me around like crazy, okay?
Sanzo: What!!! We're all gonnna die!?
Fuuei: Of course! And the last one who dies will suffer the most!!! And I've chosen!!! It will be either YOU or GOKU!!!
Goku & Sanzo: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Fuuei: Hehe… Please help me choose, ne? Either Goku or Sanzo… And also, please review! I need to know if there are mistakes and I also need to know your honest opinion! Jaa!