The Hardest Thing. Is it really the end though?
My first InuYasha Fanfic other than just random thoughts in my head. It's about InuYasha+Kagome, I don't know how well it'll flow but it should work ok I suppose. Just read and review and please try to be kind. And no flames on InuYasha+Kagome even if my story sux, they're meant to be and so just go away anti-inuyasha+kagome ppl. I know this is gonna sound like a one-shot but it won't be.
Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha, or I wouldn't share, he'd never leave my room...oops did I just say that out loud? Never mind., I don't own the show or the characters okay?
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InuYasha sighed, he didn't want to do this but he had to. They were from different times, and virtually different worlds. He had to lie to Kagome, tell her he didn't love her. Things had gone too far, he had to go back, not only back to the Warring States Era, but also back in time to before Naraku turned Kikyo against him. He had to save her, and only now was that possible. And none of this mess would happen. Kagome would have never fallen into the well, he would have never met her and he wouldn't love her, and neither of them would be torn. He wouldn't be torn between her and Kikyo. She wouldn't be torn between being a normal modern teenager and being in love with a hanyou who lived 400 years before her conception. Kikyo loved him and trusted him, and he didn't want to let her down, he didn't want to let anyone down.
Kagome sighed from the other room. Something just didn't seem right. Why couldn't he just admit that he loved her, she could see it in his eyes. She knew he was torn between herself and her former incarnation but Kikyo was dead, and he couldn't accept it. If he would just admit that he loved her she'd have the courage to say it herself. She knew the opportunity he had to go back and save Kikyo but didn't fully understand it. She knew he needed to do it, but she knew it'd mean he wouldn't love her.
We both know I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killin' me, it's killin' you
Both of us tryin' to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
InuYasha walked into the room where Kagome was sitting. When she heard him the stood up facing him and inhaling, she didn't have the breathing capabilities of a hanyou but she breathed in every bit of his scent she could. Though in denial something deep inside her knew what was about to happen. He looked at her nearly touching her but he pulled his hands away, struggling with himself, tears threatening to fall from both people's eyes.
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
InuYasha knew that both Kagome and Kikyo deserved better than what he was, but that didn't change how he felt. Only one thing could. And that was to change history. He sighed and looked down her slight figure once more, not allowing her to see his eyes. "Kagome..." he began trying to deguise the tone of his voice.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
"Kagome...I can't be with you...because...because...I care about you, but I don't love you. We aren't meant to be." he finally said looking her in the eye trying to keep his lie hidden. She knew it wasn't true but it didn't ease her pain. She began to cry, first only a few tears then a steady flow. Now the person who hd offered her a sholder to cry on and eased her pain was the inflictor of her pain. She looked at him, hoping she'd wake up and this all be a terrible dream. InuYasha wanted so badly to ease her pain but he couldn't, he had to do this.
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
Kagome fell to her knees wishing she would die right then and there. That's the only thing she could think of to ease her pain. InuYasha wanted so badly to reach down and place a comforting hand on her back but he couldn't...what he had to keep telling himself was this was the right thing. He turned, and tried not to look back, only looking back once, but not so much that she, sobbing would notice.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you
He walked out of the building and in to the busy street. Getting a few odd stares because of his ears and odd attire, but now he didn't care, the pain he felt was emmense. He went around the building and to the well going into it and returning, this time only going back 50 years before when Kagome had found him pinned to the tree. It wasn't supposed to happen according to his plan but something told him he'd see Kagome again. Not just her body through Kikyo but the real her.
I know we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can move on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Something in the air over Kagome sounded like InuYasha's voice in a comforting tone saying 'move on', she had to try but how could she?
Days past and even though InuYasha had thought by destroying Naraku, which he had and saving Kikyo that Kagome would forget she didn't But she didn't go through the well, he didn't want her around, even if he did care about her and even love her. He must love Kikyo more, or he wouldn't d this to her. She eventually cried until she had to push it into the smallest recesses of her mind. When she would walk down the street in the cool Autum breeze she would occasionally feel warmth, not knowing it was InuYasha telling her that he still cared in some way. And not thinking of anything but her pain she didn't even know.
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending
(A/N: Not this chapter at least)
InuYasha, having saved Kikyo from her death and himself from his 50 year sleep spent time with her. But no matter how hard he tried he couldn't erase his memory of her, this wasn't supposed to happen. Why did he have to do it? Why couldn't he just leave things the way they were? Kikyo was probably happy in her afterlife. But he couldn't ask her that, because unlike him and Kagome she had completely lost her memory, like none of it ever happened.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
Now he was back with Kikyo, what he thought he wanted, but deep inside he'd known better all along. But now he was with her and that was all that could be said.
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you
He wanted so badly to go back to Kagome, and even though it was possible that would mean leaving Kikyo. And even if he had realized he didn't care about her in the way he cared about Kagome, he nevertheless did care about her and he couldn't do that. He couldn't make such a similar mistake again. Like they say two wrongs never make a right.
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I wanted to I couldn't stay
(A/N: I had to change that a lil)
I've made up my mind there is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you starts to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you
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Ja Ne!! Review, I almost crying writing it but it'll get happy. But I warn you I may have to kill Kikyo. But please tell me some alternatives.
My first InuYasha Fanfic other than just random thoughts in my head. It's about InuYasha+Kagome, I don't know how well it'll flow but it should work ok I suppose. Just read and review and please try to be kind. And no flames on InuYasha+Kagome even if my story sux, they're meant to be and so just go away anti-inuyasha+kagome ppl. I know this is gonna sound like a one-shot but it won't be.
Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha, or I wouldn't share, he'd never leave my room...oops did I just say that out loud? Never mind., I don't own the show or the characters okay?
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InuYasha sighed, he didn't want to do this but he had to. They were from different times, and virtually different worlds. He had to lie to Kagome, tell her he didn't love her. Things had gone too far, he had to go back, not only back to the Warring States Era, but also back in time to before Naraku turned Kikyo against him. He had to save her, and only now was that possible. And none of this mess would happen. Kagome would have never fallen into the well, he would have never met her and he wouldn't love her, and neither of them would be torn. He wouldn't be torn between her and Kikyo. She wouldn't be torn between being a normal modern teenager and being in love with a hanyou who lived 400 years before her conception. Kikyo loved him and trusted him, and he didn't want to let her down, he didn't want to let anyone down.
Kagome sighed from the other room. Something just didn't seem right. Why couldn't he just admit that he loved her, she could see it in his eyes. She knew he was torn between herself and her former incarnation but Kikyo was dead, and he couldn't accept it. If he would just admit that he loved her she'd have the courage to say it herself. She knew the opportunity he had to go back and save Kikyo but didn't fully understand it. She knew he needed to do it, but she knew it'd mean he wouldn't love her.
We both know I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killin' me, it's killin' you
Both of us tryin' to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
InuYasha walked into the room where Kagome was sitting. When she heard him the stood up facing him and inhaling, she didn't have the breathing capabilities of a hanyou but she breathed in every bit of his scent she could. Though in denial something deep inside her knew what was about to happen. He looked at her nearly touching her but he pulled his hands away, struggling with himself, tears threatening to fall from both people's eyes.
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
InuYasha knew that both Kagome and Kikyo deserved better than what he was, but that didn't change how he felt. Only one thing could. And that was to change history. He sighed and looked down her slight figure once more, not allowing her to see his eyes. "Kagome..." he began trying to deguise the tone of his voice.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
"Kagome...I can't be with you...because...because...I care about you, but I don't love you. We aren't meant to be." he finally said looking her in the eye trying to keep his lie hidden. She knew it wasn't true but it didn't ease her pain. She began to cry, first only a few tears then a steady flow. Now the person who hd offered her a sholder to cry on and eased her pain was the inflictor of her pain. She looked at him, hoping she'd wake up and this all be a terrible dream. InuYasha wanted so badly to ease her pain but he couldn't, he had to do this.
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
Kagome fell to her knees wishing she would die right then and there. That's the only thing she could think of to ease her pain. InuYasha wanted so badly to reach down and place a comforting hand on her back but he couldn't...what he had to keep telling himself was this was the right thing. He turned, and tried not to look back, only looking back once, but not so much that she, sobbing would notice.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you
He walked out of the building and in to the busy street. Getting a few odd stares because of his ears and odd attire, but now he didn't care, the pain he felt was emmense. He went around the building and to the well going into it and returning, this time only going back 50 years before when Kagome had found him pinned to the tree. It wasn't supposed to happen according to his plan but something told him he'd see Kagome again. Not just her body through Kikyo but the real her.
I know we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can move on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Something in the air over Kagome sounded like InuYasha's voice in a comforting tone saying 'move on', she had to try but how could she?
Days past and even though InuYasha had thought by destroying Naraku, which he had and saving Kikyo that Kagome would forget she didn't But she didn't go through the well, he didn't want her around, even if he did care about her and even love her. He must love Kikyo more, or he wouldn't d this to her. She eventually cried until she had to push it into the smallest recesses of her mind. When she would walk down the street in the cool Autum breeze she would occasionally feel warmth, not knowing it was InuYasha telling her that he still cared in some way. And not thinking of anything but her pain she didn't even know.
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending
(A/N: Not this chapter at least)
InuYasha, having saved Kikyo from her death and himself from his 50 year sleep spent time with her. But no matter how hard he tried he couldn't erase his memory of her, this wasn't supposed to happen. Why did he have to do it? Why couldn't he just leave things the way they were? Kikyo was probably happy in her afterlife. But he couldn't ask her that, because unlike him and Kagome she had completely lost her memory, like none of it ever happened.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
Now he was back with Kikyo, what he thought he wanted, but deep inside he'd known better all along. But now he was with her and that was all that could be said.
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you
He wanted so badly to go back to Kagome, and even though it was possible that would mean leaving Kikyo. And even if he had realized he didn't care about her in the way he cared about Kagome, he nevertheless did care about her and he couldn't do that. He couldn't make such a similar mistake again. Like they say two wrongs never make a right.
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I wanted to I couldn't stay
(A/N: I had to change that a lil)
I've made up my mind there is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you starts to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you
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Ja Ne!! Review, I almost crying writing it but it'll get happy. But I warn you I may have to kill Kikyo. But please tell me some alternatives.