A/N: Yet another chapter for you all! Whoopee!!
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Disclaimer: Not mine or the song below. ::Told ya it wouldn't change!::
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GOMENASAI!!!! I forgot who reviewed... I'm so stupid sometimes!!
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--Foolish--
Chapter 6: Forgetting you
" Tell me, just tell me.. did you love me..?" He asked, feeling uncertain as he waited for her answer. Tohru looked at Yuki and a tear dropped..
Tohru panicked, ' Breathe...in and out...'
" I..I--"
*Ring! Ring!*
" I'm sorry...Sohma-kun, I have a call to answer.." She said turning around quickly to hide the tears that fell down. ' Thank God for the phone...' She thought closing her door leaving Yuki by himself.
*Ring! Ring!*
Tohru picked up her cell phone, " Hello?" She said, her voice a bit shaky. ' I don't even know why I'm crying..'
" Tohru? What's wrong?" A familiar voice from the other side of the line asked with pure concern. Then she realized who it was, " Kyo..? Oh, nothing's wrong! I just hit my head on the table...but now I'm fine now that you called." Tohru lied, ' I'm not actually lying..since I don't even know what's wrong myself.'
" You better take care of yourself...and I hope you're alright. Sorry about calling you in the middle of the night--" Kyo said on the other line but was cut off by a sniffle.
" Tohru? Did it hurt that bad?" Kyo asked, he was really ocncerned now. ' Maybe I shouldn't have called..then maybe she wouldn't have gotten hurt.' He thought.
Yuki ran his hands through his hair, " DAMMIT!" He shouted in his room. ' Was it wrong for me to ask that?' He asked himself. Yuki felt tired, his head hurts and most of all was his heart. It wouldn't stop beating the same sad rythm.
' I can't believe this! But..she called me by my name...like I did her.' He thought, then getting confused argued with himself again, ' But what would it mean? It wouldn't mean anything that's for sure!'
He flopped down on his bed, ' Not even thinking of sleep makes me feel better..' He thought. He stopped moving and looked up on the ceiling, stared there for almost eternity..thinking what those tears he saw drop meant.
Tohru didn't know what he was saying, it was as if part of herself was lost somewhere else that didn't exist. Somewhere where everthing was fine... perfect..
" It does hurt..it hurts so bad, Kyo..." She confessed to Kyo crying.
" Tohru...I'm sorry I did that..I shouldn't have--"
" No..it's okay. I'm fine now.." Tohru replied and yawned, " I really would love to talk to you, Kyo...but it's three in the morning now.."
Kyo smiled sadly, " Alright then...sorry. I can't wait to see you and check that bump of yours."
Tohru smiled slightly, " Alright, sleep tight Kyo."
" You, too..aishiteru, Tohru." Kyo said on the other line.
Tohru paused for a while, " A-aishiteru, Kyo.." She said and putting down her phone. Another tear dropped, ' Why can't I stop crying when I don't even know why..?' She asked herself.
" A-aishiteru, Kyo.." Tohru said and with a click was gone. Kyo wondered if it really hurt that bad. ' A bump is nothing more but a bump..' Kyo thought, he wanted so much to think what was wrong with Tohru but his eyes disobeyed and he fell asleep.
Tohru was on her bed hugging herself, ' Why am I crying like this..? Why am I hurting..? Am I hurting..?'
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'It hurts still... It hurts..'
[ Where am I? ]
' Tohru..?'
[ Mom..? ]
' It hurts still..'
[ Huh..? ]
' Remember you cut me accidentally yesterday? The wound is too deep..'
[ I'm sorry mom, I didn't mean it..]
' Let's just give it time to heal okay?'
[ Okay...]
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Tohru woke up opening one eye first then the other. She yawned, ' I knew I had a dream..I can't remember it...I know it had to do with you, Mom..' She thought. Then realizing her eyes felt weird... She looked at the mirror finding it a bit swollen from crying too much.
' I cried myself to sleep..' She thought and touched her face, ' I better get ready this is the third day and I might as well do something with it..'
Tohru got herself ready and was about to put her hair up, and rummaged through her stuff.
" C'mon...ribbon.." She talked to herself holding her hair with one hand and the other going through her things.
She bit her lip, " AHA! Found it..." She said trailing off as she looked at which ribbon she had packed up. It was a white silky ribbon. A present from White Day. A present from...
She looked at it for a while, ' What am I doing? I'm being stupid..' She thought and thrust the ribbon in her pocket to put on her later.
Tohru stretched her arms, " Time for breakfast!" She told herself and went out her room. As she watched the doors of the elevator close, since she was so lazy to take the stairs someone put their hand in between to stop the door from closing.
" WAIT!" They said, and came in...
Tohru stared, " Ohayo.." She whispered.
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" Ohayo.." She whispered.
All he could do was stare at her. Yuki let himself in and watched the door of the elevator close. He sighed softly, and smelled strawberry in the air. He looked at Tohru who was looking down on the floor for some reason.
He spotted something familiar in her pocket that was sticking out, " I gave you that.." He said.
That caught her attention. She lifted her head up and looked up at him, " Hai...I l-like it." She said. Tohru felt something grow in her stomach...more like come alive! ' I have butterflies in my stomach!' She thought.
" I'm glad you like it. Why don't you tie it on your hair?" He asked, ' Did you love me-- stop thinking that!' Yuki told himself, so he lowered his eyes down.
Tohru looked at Yuki and couldn't help but look at his posture. He just gives off the aura of mystery, and then she replied, " I was a bit lazy.."
Tohru then took her hair up and tied the ribbon around her hair into a bow. Yuki lifted his gaze upon the floor and looked at Tohru getting an eye contact from her. ' Her eyes...she's been crying..' He thought, and he couldn't help but think it had to do with him.
" I see.." He said.
' I'm not suppose to be like this! I'm not suppose to be like this!' Tohru thought angrily. She averted her face from his eyes.
" I'm sorry about yesterday, Honda-san.." Yuki said, ' Honda-san?! You called her Tohru last night why can't you call her Tohru?' Yuki thought.
" There's nothing to be sorry about, Sohma-kun." Tohru said rather harshly using formal speech as well.
Yuki blinked in surprise and stood up straight, " Are we back to where we first begun..? I'm sorry if I made you cry--"
Tohru turned herself fully to him, " What do you mean back? We've never gone anywhere, Sohma-kun. If you think you made me cry, you're wrong. I was crying because last night reminded me of how Kyo and I used to go up on the roof together." Tohru said feeling ashamed as well as angry.
' I need to be angry!' She thought.
Yuki eyes widened a little, and his mouth was a little open, as if in shock...or pain. He looked away from her, " I understand..." Yuki replied.
Tohru was still at her place, same position. Same thoughts. Same beating of the heart, like it wanted to burst out of her until it gets what it wants which she doesn't know what. She just feel this heaviness around her heart. What was it? It just feels wrong and bad and she wanted to lift it. She wanted to breathe freely with no care in the world but to live her life...her once perfect life.
The doors of the elevator slid oped. *Ding!* Yuki walked out first leaving Tohru behind. Tohru walked out slowly and sighed and looked down on the floor as she was doing so in the elevator. She walked into the small restaurant with the piano and walked in ready to her job without looking at Yuki or anyone else.
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It was about time to eat, their last night all together. Hana looked at Tohru's eyes and knew she had been crying. Uo looked at Tohru and Yuki back and forth trying to figure out what had happened...if there was something that really happened. Uo sighed and Hana smiled a little.
" Hey! Why are you all so dead?" Came a familiar voice from behind Tohru. Tohru turned around only to find a handsome young man who was still a little boy in her eyes, " Momiji!! What are you doing here?" She asked with a smile. Her first smile of today..
Momiji looked at Tohru with concern, ' Uh-oh..it's a good thing I came here..' He thought and replied, " Ooh I just wanted to see Yuki's Hotel!"
" Well, we're about to eat dinner...would you like to join us Momiji?" Yuki asked.
Momiji nodded and squeezed hmself between Hana and Tohru. Tohru moved to her right and bumped against Yuki's shoulder.
" Sorry." She whispered and turned her attention to Momiji.
" Ne, Yuki! This is a nice little restaurant!" Momiji commented eating his dinner. Hana looked at Momiji who was sitting by her, " What are you trying to do?" She asked him.
Momiji swallowed and replied, " Nothing."
" You lie."
Tohru looked at her best friend and Momiji converse, she was confused and so was Yuki. Uo shrugged and said, " I don't know, kid. Leave it alone, we'll just see how it turns out. All we can do is just be there, y'know?"
" I guess you're right. Was it wrong of me to come?" Momiji asked Hana.
" No it wasn't wrong. I understand how you're concerned." Hana replied.
" U-umm.." Tohru said.
Momiji smiled, " Sorry Tohru! And Yuki! I guess it was an inside conversation!" Momiji apologized but couldn't help thinking, ' She's right, we can't do anything but stand by and watch what'll happen. We're only here to help them..' He thought.
It was such a quiet dinner no one rarely spoke even though Momiji was there. It would've usually been hectic, but it was just dead. The air was so thick, and everyone was so tense. As they were finishing dinner, Yuki got up and excused himself.
Tohru just stared down on her plate and excused herself to the ladies bathroom. Hana looked at Uo and sighed. Momiji got up and followed Yuki as Uo went to go to Tohru.
Uo walked in the restroom, ' Good thing there's only a few people here for a while...' She thought as she opened stall after stall until she reached the one with Tohru in it. She saw Tohru on the floor looking out, but wasn't really seeing.
" Tohru..?" Uo whispered getting concerened at what Tohru was doing.
"...Uo..?" Tohru said, " I don't know what's wrong with me...I feel so...numb."
Uo kneeled down before Tohru, she knows all she can do for now was hug her friend. All she can do for now is let it be until she realized it, ' You're feeling numb now, wait till you realize it. Then...you'll be so numb, you just want to feel it again. It... it's such a confusing feeling.'
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Yuki walked out the hotel, ' Some business this turned out to be. I at least wanted to know. I wanted to make peace...or something.' He thought and felt a tap on his shoulder. He turned around, it was Momiji.
" What is it?" He asked his younger cousin.
" Ne, Yuki...I know it's hard for you. Specially when you heard it--"
" It wasn't hard. It wasn't hard!! Why should it be hard?!" Yuki said angrily. He was sick of it.
" Because everyone knew that you love her...you still do don't you?" Momiji asked.
Yuki stared at him, " So what? What can I do? Nothing, I never forgot about her. Every day when I woke up, it's her on my mind. Every time I turned around it was her I would see...and she's the only person I'd think of every night I fall asleep." He pasued, " I couldn't stop thinking about her. All I would think about was why I left wothout saying what I wanted to say--"
" Yuki...if only you knew.." Momiji mumbled to himself but Yuki didn't hear him
" When I came back, I kind of expected it. But, I hoped so much...I guess I should've prayed. This won't get me anywhere so.." Yuki said and smiled a sad smile. ' I'm forgetting about you from now on..' Yuki thought.
Momiji stared at his cousin getting what he meant and turned to leave, ' Nothing seems to be a happy ending these days..'
~" I want to stop it from hurting! But, I can't forget about you...let me be happy.." Tohru said crying on her pillow remembering the day he left..~
--End of Chapter 6--
A/N: I'll only not put song below but something from the past kkz? Please review and this time I won't forget!!
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Disclaimer: Not mine or the song below. ::Told ya it wouldn't change!::
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Thank You(s) to:
GOMENASAI!!!! I forgot who reviewed... I'm so stupid sometimes!!
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--Foolish--
Chapter 6: Forgetting you
" Tell me, just tell me.. did you love me..?" He asked, feeling uncertain as he waited for her answer. Tohru looked at Yuki and a tear dropped..
Tohru panicked, ' Breathe...in and out...'
" I..I--"
*Ring! Ring!*
" I'm sorry...Sohma-kun, I have a call to answer.." She said turning around quickly to hide the tears that fell down. ' Thank God for the phone...' She thought closing her door leaving Yuki by himself.
*Ring! Ring!*
Tohru picked up her cell phone, " Hello?" She said, her voice a bit shaky. ' I don't even know why I'm crying..'
" Tohru? What's wrong?" A familiar voice from the other side of the line asked with pure concern. Then she realized who it was, " Kyo..? Oh, nothing's wrong! I just hit my head on the table...but now I'm fine now that you called." Tohru lied, ' I'm not actually lying..since I don't even know what's wrong myself.'
" You better take care of yourself...and I hope you're alright. Sorry about calling you in the middle of the night--" Kyo said on the other line but was cut off by a sniffle.
" Tohru? Did it hurt that bad?" Kyo asked, he was really ocncerned now. ' Maybe I shouldn't have called..then maybe she wouldn't have gotten hurt.' He thought.
Yuki ran his hands through his hair, " DAMMIT!" He shouted in his room. ' Was it wrong for me to ask that?' He asked himself. Yuki felt tired, his head hurts and most of all was his heart. It wouldn't stop beating the same sad rythm.
' I can't believe this! But..she called me by my name...like I did her.' He thought, then getting confused argued with himself again, ' But what would it mean? It wouldn't mean anything that's for sure!'
He flopped down on his bed, ' Not even thinking of sleep makes me feel better..' He thought. He stopped moving and looked up on the ceiling, stared there for almost eternity..thinking what those tears he saw drop meant.
Tohru didn't know what he was saying, it was as if part of herself was lost somewhere else that didn't exist. Somewhere where everthing was fine... perfect..
" It does hurt..it hurts so bad, Kyo..." She confessed to Kyo crying.
" Tohru...I'm sorry I did that..I shouldn't have--"
" No..it's okay. I'm fine now.." Tohru replied and yawned, " I really would love to talk to you, Kyo...but it's three in the morning now.."
Kyo smiled sadly, " Alright then...sorry. I can't wait to see you and check that bump of yours."
Tohru smiled slightly, " Alright, sleep tight Kyo."
" You, too..aishiteru, Tohru." Kyo said on the other line.
Tohru paused for a while, " A-aishiteru, Kyo.." She said and putting down her phone. Another tear dropped, ' Why can't I stop crying when I don't even know why..?' She asked herself.
" A-aishiteru, Kyo.." Tohru said and with a click was gone. Kyo wondered if it really hurt that bad. ' A bump is nothing more but a bump..' Kyo thought, he wanted so much to think what was wrong with Tohru but his eyes disobeyed and he fell asleep.
Tohru was on her bed hugging herself, ' Why am I crying like this..? Why am I hurting..? Am I hurting..?'
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'It hurts still... It hurts..'
[ Where am I? ]
' Tohru..?'
[ Mom..? ]
' It hurts still..'
[ Huh..? ]
' Remember you cut me accidentally yesterday? The wound is too deep..'
[ I'm sorry mom, I didn't mean it..]
' Let's just give it time to heal okay?'
[ Okay...]
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Tohru woke up opening one eye first then the other. She yawned, ' I knew I had a dream..I can't remember it...I know it had to do with you, Mom..' She thought. Then realizing her eyes felt weird... She looked at the mirror finding it a bit swollen from crying too much.
' I cried myself to sleep..' She thought and touched her face, ' I better get ready this is the third day and I might as well do something with it..'
Tohru got herself ready and was about to put her hair up, and rummaged through her stuff.
" C'mon...ribbon.." She talked to herself holding her hair with one hand and the other going through her things.
She bit her lip, " AHA! Found it..." She said trailing off as she looked at which ribbon she had packed up. It was a white silky ribbon. A present from White Day. A present from...
She looked at it for a while, ' What am I doing? I'm being stupid..' She thought and thrust the ribbon in her pocket to put on her later.
Tohru stretched her arms, " Time for breakfast!" She told herself and went out her room. As she watched the doors of the elevator close, since she was so lazy to take the stairs someone put their hand in between to stop the door from closing.
" WAIT!" They said, and came in...
Tohru stared, " Ohayo.." She whispered.
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" Ohayo.." She whispered.
All he could do was stare at her. Yuki let himself in and watched the door of the elevator close. He sighed softly, and smelled strawberry in the air. He looked at Tohru who was looking down on the floor for some reason.
He spotted something familiar in her pocket that was sticking out, " I gave you that.." He said.
That caught her attention. She lifted her head up and looked up at him, " Hai...I l-like it." She said. Tohru felt something grow in her stomach...more like come alive! ' I have butterflies in my stomach!' She thought.
" I'm glad you like it. Why don't you tie it on your hair?" He asked, ' Did you love me-- stop thinking that!' Yuki told himself, so he lowered his eyes down.
Tohru looked at Yuki and couldn't help but look at his posture. He just gives off the aura of mystery, and then she replied, " I was a bit lazy.."
Tohru then took her hair up and tied the ribbon around her hair into a bow. Yuki lifted his gaze upon the floor and looked at Tohru getting an eye contact from her. ' Her eyes...she's been crying..' He thought, and he couldn't help but think it had to do with him.
" I see.." He said.
' I'm not suppose to be like this! I'm not suppose to be like this!' Tohru thought angrily. She averted her face from his eyes.
" I'm sorry about yesterday, Honda-san.." Yuki said, ' Honda-san?! You called her Tohru last night why can't you call her Tohru?' Yuki thought.
" There's nothing to be sorry about, Sohma-kun." Tohru said rather harshly using formal speech as well.
Yuki blinked in surprise and stood up straight, " Are we back to where we first begun..? I'm sorry if I made you cry--"
Tohru turned herself fully to him, " What do you mean back? We've never gone anywhere, Sohma-kun. If you think you made me cry, you're wrong. I was crying because last night reminded me of how Kyo and I used to go up on the roof together." Tohru said feeling ashamed as well as angry.
' I need to be angry!' She thought.
Yuki eyes widened a little, and his mouth was a little open, as if in shock...or pain. He looked away from her, " I understand..." Yuki replied.
Tohru was still at her place, same position. Same thoughts. Same beating of the heart, like it wanted to burst out of her until it gets what it wants which she doesn't know what. She just feel this heaviness around her heart. What was it? It just feels wrong and bad and she wanted to lift it. She wanted to breathe freely with no care in the world but to live her life...her once perfect life.
The doors of the elevator slid oped. *Ding!* Yuki walked out first leaving Tohru behind. Tohru walked out slowly and sighed and looked down on the floor as she was doing so in the elevator. She walked into the small restaurant with the piano and walked in ready to her job without looking at Yuki or anyone else.
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It was about time to eat, their last night all together. Hana looked at Tohru's eyes and knew she had been crying. Uo looked at Tohru and Yuki back and forth trying to figure out what had happened...if there was something that really happened. Uo sighed and Hana smiled a little.
" Hey! Why are you all so dead?" Came a familiar voice from behind Tohru. Tohru turned around only to find a handsome young man who was still a little boy in her eyes, " Momiji!! What are you doing here?" She asked with a smile. Her first smile of today..
Momiji looked at Tohru with concern, ' Uh-oh..it's a good thing I came here..' He thought and replied, " Ooh I just wanted to see Yuki's Hotel!"
" Well, we're about to eat dinner...would you like to join us Momiji?" Yuki asked.
Momiji nodded and squeezed hmself between Hana and Tohru. Tohru moved to her right and bumped against Yuki's shoulder.
" Sorry." She whispered and turned her attention to Momiji.
" Ne, Yuki! This is a nice little restaurant!" Momiji commented eating his dinner. Hana looked at Momiji who was sitting by her, " What are you trying to do?" She asked him.
Momiji swallowed and replied, " Nothing."
" You lie."
Tohru looked at her best friend and Momiji converse, she was confused and so was Yuki. Uo shrugged and said, " I don't know, kid. Leave it alone, we'll just see how it turns out. All we can do is just be there, y'know?"
" I guess you're right. Was it wrong of me to come?" Momiji asked Hana.
" No it wasn't wrong. I understand how you're concerned." Hana replied.
" U-umm.." Tohru said.
Momiji smiled, " Sorry Tohru! And Yuki! I guess it was an inside conversation!" Momiji apologized but couldn't help thinking, ' She's right, we can't do anything but stand by and watch what'll happen. We're only here to help them..' He thought.
It was such a quiet dinner no one rarely spoke even though Momiji was there. It would've usually been hectic, but it was just dead. The air was so thick, and everyone was so tense. As they were finishing dinner, Yuki got up and excused himself.
Tohru just stared down on her plate and excused herself to the ladies bathroom. Hana looked at Uo and sighed. Momiji got up and followed Yuki as Uo went to go to Tohru.
Uo walked in the restroom, ' Good thing there's only a few people here for a while...' She thought as she opened stall after stall until she reached the one with Tohru in it. She saw Tohru on the floor looking out, but wasn't really seeing.
" Tohru..?" Uo whispered getting concerened at what Tohru was doing.
"...Uo..?" Tohru said, " I don't know what's wrong with me...I feel so...numb."
Uo kneeled down before Tohru, she knows all she can do for now was hug her friend. All she can do for now is let it be until she realized it, ' You're feeling numb now, wait till you realize it. Then...you'll be so numb, you just want to feel it again. It... it's such a confusing feeling.'
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Yuki walked out the hotel, ' Some business this turned out to be. I at least wanted to know. I wanted to make peace...or something.' He thought and felt a tap on his shoulder. He turned around, it was Momiji.
" What is it?" He asked his younger cousin.
" Ne, Yuki...I know it's hard for you. Specially when you heard it--"
" It wasn't hard. It wasn't hard!! Why should it be hard?!" Yuki said angrily. He was sick of it.
" Because everyone knew that you love her...you still do don't you?" Momiji asked.
Yuki stared at him, " So what? What can I do? Nothing, I never forgot about her. Every day when I woke up, it's her on my mind. Every time I turned around it was her I would see...and she's the only person I'd think of every night I fall asleep." He pasued, " I couldn't stop thinking about her. All I would think about was why I left wothout saying what I wanted to say--"
" Yuki...if only you knew.." Momiji mumbled to himself but Yuki didn't hear him
" When I came back, I kind of expected it. But, I hoped so much...I guess I should've prayed. This won't get me anywhere so.." Yuki said and smiled a sad smile. ' I'm forgetting about you from now on..' Yuki thought.
Momiji stared at his cousin getting what he meant and turned to leave, ' Nothing seems to be a happy ending these days..'
~" I want to stop it from hurting! But, I can't forget about you...let me be happy.." Tohru said crying on her pillow remembering the day he left..~
--End of Chapter 6--
A/N: I'll only not put song below but something from the past kkz? Please review and this time I won't forget!!