Disclaimer: Does this ever get tiring? No, these characters do not belong
to me, they all belong to the creativ mind of J.K.Rowling.
**Hey guys, does anyone even read this? Haha! Anywho, I've been getting some great and amazing reviews, and I have all these awesome ideas floating through my head for this story, so it's just gonna get longer and better.**
**It was unfortunate what had happened to Hermione, but things like that will make someone stronger, and it will help Hermione too, you'll see.**
**This chapter is about the aftermath of that incident and mostly about Hermione's feelings and such, and she has a little talk with our favorite DADA teacher, it won't be a long chapter, but Im gonna try to do chapter 19 today aswell!! Please keep reading and reviewing!!**
CHAPTER 18-HERMIONE'S AFTERMATH
HERMIONE'S POV
Once I had got up in the morning I turned over to see Draco who was sleeping silently with his one arm protectively around my waist, but I don't know why, but I just felt like shrugging it off. I threw that idea out of my head and tried to remember what had happened the night before, and once I started to remember and I got angered, and I just wanted to forget again. I couldn't think straight, I had to take a shower and wash away Crabbe's touch off my skin, and melt away all the unpleasant thoughts, so I could finally think straight.
I stood in the shower with the water scolding my skin, it felt so hot I felt my body was on fire, but it also felt so good. I understood that I should tell McGonagall about this since she was the head, but I couldn't, I felt embarassed. I felt as if she wouldn't understand me. I decided to give a day to think about who I actually could talk to, of course I would make Draco promise me not to tell anyone for now.
I can't remember ever wearing more clothes then I was right now. I did not wear my skirt which was part of my uniform, I immediately chose to wear pants, a tanktop a blouse and vest on top and then my Hogwarts robe on top, and still I felt as if I were not wearing enough. I kep my hair down and puffy, feeling as if I could hide away from people in it.
I thought that maybe I should go see Draco, but for reasons unexplained I didn't. I just marched from my living quarters and decided to skip breakfast and all the people in the great hall and go straight to my Arithmancy class and sit at a desk and wait for the class to start. Of course I'd be there by myself for maybe an hour, but I could study to keep my mind off things.
Flashbacks kept coming into my head, and I knew that Crabbe should be punished for what he did to me, how dare he? He pried into my innocence, thank Merlin he didn't go any further. I felt dirty and sluttly and I hated myself forever inviting him in.
I also hated the way I was avoiding my friends. Thank the wizards that I only had Defence Agaisnt the Dark Arts with them, and that was the last class (and the dreaded class) of this day.
I did not go to lunch either, but just kept myself hidden deep into the library, reading books, teaching myself new spells and tricks to get my mind off what had happen the night before. I kept thinking to myself that I wished I knew some sort of selfdefence but I didn't. Especially with out my wand. Times like this I wish I was a Wand-no, never have to worry about where the heck your wand is because the power lies within you.
"Hah" I laughed to myself, that could never happen, it's something your born with, and it's very rare just as the book said, there are only 50 that are known.
"Hey.." I turned my head around and saw Draco walking towards me and sitting at the table I was in the library which was completely empty since everyone was at lunch.
"Hi." I said turning back to my book. I don't know why but I felt like being alone.
"Why didn't you wait for me in the morning, I didn't know where you went off to?" he asked me worringly.
"I..I just thought you'd like to sleep?" I mumbled, not looking at him at all.
"Are you okey?" he asked again putting his hand on my shoulder.
I shuddered. And he felt it. But he kept his hand there.
"You cold?" he said about to take off his robe.
"No!" I rushed "Im perfectly fine ok?"
"Don't you think we should talk at least about what.." I cut him off.
"Please Draco, just go away, I need to be alone." I snapped not looking at his face, but feeling his shocked eyes on me.
He did not say anything, but silently slipped away. Maybe he was angry. I don't know. But when he turned around I felt even more broken inside.
I was staring down at my book when I could of swore I felt someone watching me. I looked straight ahead, and to my surprise it was Professor Evee, she looked sympathetic.
"May I?" she asked pointing to the chair.
I looked at her, how wonderful she still looked in this dim gloomy light of the library. The thin strips of light cast shadows on her hair, making it seem more sleek and shiny then ever. As always it was parted at the middle, the front hairs pulled to the back the rest of it was down her back, but her curly ends tied into a French knot. Today she had a dark plum scarf tied around her neck, and a simple black dress, with a scooped classy neckline, and sleeves to her elbows. She wore a little silver belt around her small waist. And her dress went all away done covering her feet. She also wore black wrist gloves with silver trimming.
"Of course Professor" I answered nodding my head towards the chair.
"Are you and Mr.Malfoy alright?" she asked me, more worried then curious. Her gleaming eyes showing her sympathy for me, as if she knew what had happened the night before.
"I don't know" I answered once again avoiding the topic.
"Listen Hermione dear, I know you think Im quite odd, and don't think all that gracious of me, but I insist that there aren't many people who can understand you, but Im positive that I will, and I won't even try."
My eyes just teared up, I was fighting them back, trying to be strong as her.
"Professor, I do think gracious of you. I think your brilliant." I responded. For once it felt as if I had someone to talk.
"I..uhh.sooo .many things are going through my head, I just don't know where to start" I explained in turmoil, my hands in the air, shacking my head.
She patted my one hand with her gloved hand.
"Why don't you and I have a little something and some tea after class. We can chit chat, just like little schools girls. But we can also talk, just like grown women. Does that sound alright?" she politetly asked me with a gentle smile.
It's as if she knew I didn't want to be around people. It's as if she knew I needed someone to talk to. Then I remebered she can sense bad things. She probaly sensed what I was feeling. And by the look in her face, how could I ever refuse.
"I would really, really like that." I sniffed and gasped a bit.
She smile at me and stood up.
"It will all be alright. I promise you that." And she turned away and gracefully walked out of the library.
How ever did I think she was evil. She was wonderful, and beautiful, and easy to talk to. I began to look forward to having dinner with her.
For once all day I felt less agitated and a bit more eager for Defence Against the Dark Arts class, and it finally did. I decided to sit in the corner of the room by myself, because by the time my friends would come along, the class would be full and there would be no room for them to sit with me.
The class got full and Draco was sitting at the other end of the class with both Goyle and "gasp" Crabbe. This made me angry. How could he possibly sit with him still after what happened? Was it his choice? I did not know. But he did not look at me the whole entire class.
Finally class was over and people started to walk out. No one had asked me if I was okey or not. Not even Harry and Ron, I guess they were too busy with Quidditch season starting, or they would of cared at all. I think it was also cause they though I was some brainer teachers pet, as long as the rest of the class, and they knew I probaly just wanted to do my work and be left alone.
Draco never came to me or anything, when I saw him leave he was talking to Goyle and Crabbe as if nothing, why was he acting so funny, it totally infuriated me.
I looked around, and the entire class was empty.
Professor Evee was seated at her desk writing something. She did not look up but she did speak, politetly as always,
"Miss. Granger, do you mind on stopping by tommorow after dinner with Mr. Potter, there is something I would like to speak to him about."
"Alright" I said my eyebrows joining together, wanting to know what she needed Harry for.
"Well then," she said putting her pen down and pulling out of her chair, "Shall we eat?" her smile got wider and I could not help but smile back.
A knock at the door and I could of swear I saw Evee role her eyes before putting on a fake smile. So I whirled around and saw Snape standing there.
"Hello there dear Professor, you know Miss. Granger don't you?" she said putting her frail magic hands on my left shoulder.
He just looked at me and grunted, which I took as rudeness, and then looked back up at her.
"Professor Evee, just thought I would ask if you would be joining the staff for dinner today as you did yesterday?" he asked almost nervously if that was possible for him.
"You know I enjoy eating alone Severus." She said almost somberly. 'Besides today I have Miss. Granger here to join me."
I smiled.
"Alright. Just thought I would ask." And he gave her the smallest of smirks and left.
I heard Evee release a sigh of relief and plomping down on her chair and put her head on he hand.
"What was THAT all about?" I said kind of giddy for the first time all day.
"THAT my dear, is a man with an, shall we call it, an infatuation?"she smiled rolling her eyes.
I smile too. "I never thought Snape would ever have an infatuation?" I said almost shokingly.
"Oh I don't bother with him, it started with a silly crush, way years back, and now, it continues to be some sort of infatuation, I keep thinking it will pass." She answered waving her hand in the air as she descended from the chair walking up the stairs toward her private quarters where I guess we would eat.
"You never have, well, you know, gone out with him have you?" I asked her hoping that she didn't cause if she did, that might juts freak me out. I heard her giggle as she opened the door.
"No no no no no no. Ha ha. I've known him for years. But that never. He has asked me and still does. But my dear..he and I are two different people, after all, I have my own infatuations." And with that last though, she sighed almost as if she were thinking of her lover.
"Well anyways" she stood in the centre of the round room which was completely vacant at the time. And I was curious that it had no furnishing whatsoever. "What would you like for dinner, choose anything! Anything in the world!" she clapped her hands and smiled as if ready for a big trick.
"Well I could really go for some Chinese food!" I laughed knowing that wouldn't be possible but then something extrodinary happened.
**Sorry to leave it at a cliffhanger, I totally did not intend on this,it's just my brother wants the computer really badly, Im sorry don't hate me!!!! Please Read and Review though!!!!**
**Hey guys, does anyone even read this? Haha! Anywho, I've been getting some great and amazing reviews, and I have all these awesome ideas floating through my head for this story, so it's just gonna get longer and better.**
**It was unfortunate what had happened to Hermione, but things like that will make someone stronger, and it will help Hermione too, you'll see.**
**This chapter is about the aftermath of that incident and mostly about Hermione's feelings and such, and she has a little talk with our favorite DADA teacher, it won't be a long chapter, but Im gonna try to do chapter 19 today aswell!! Please keep reading and reviewing!!**
CHAPTER 18-HERMIONE'S AFTERMATH
HERMIONE'S POV
Once I had got up in the morning I turned over to see Draco who was sleeping silently with his one arm protectively around my waist, but I don't know why, but I just felt like shrugging it off. I threw that idea out of my head and tried to remember what had happened the night before, and once I started to remember and I got angered, and I just wanted to forget again. I couldn't think straight, I had to take a shower and wash away Crabbe's touch off my skin, and melt away all the unpleasant thoughts, so I could finally think straight.
I stood in the shower with the water scolding my skin, it felt so hot I felt my body was on fire, but it also felt so good. I understood that I should tell McGonagall about this since she was the head, but I couldn't, I felt embarassed. I felt as if she wouldn't understand me. I decided to give a day to think about who I actually could talk to, of course I would make Draco promise me not to tell anyone for now.
I can't remember ever wearing more clothes then I was right now. I did not wear my skirt which was part of my uniform, I immediately chose to wear pants, a tanktop a blouse and vest on top and then my Hogwarts robe on top, and still I felt as if I were not wearing enough. I kep my hair down and puffy, feeling as if I could hide away from people in it.
I thought that maybe I should go see Draco, but for reasons unexplained I didn't. I just marched from my living quarters and decided to skip breakfast and all the people in the great hall and go straight to my Arithmancy class and sit at a desk and wait for the class to start. Of course I'd be there by myself for maybe an hour, but I could study to keep my mind off things.
Flashbacks kept coming into my head, and I knew that Crabbe should be punished for what he did to me, how dare he? He pried into my innocence, thank Merlin he didn't go any further. I felt dirty and sluttly and I hated myself forever inviting him in.
I also hated the way I was avoiding my friends. Thank the wizards that I only had Defence Agaisnt the Dark Arts with them, and that was the last class (and the dreaded class) of this day.
I did not go to lunch either, but just kept myself hidden deep into the library, reading books, teaching myself new spells and tricks to get my mind off what had happen the night before. I kept thinking to myself that I wished I knew some sort of selfdefence but I didn't. Especially with out my wand. Times like this I wish I was a Wand-no, never have to worry about where the heck your wand is because the power lies within you.
"Hah" I laughed to myself, that could never happen, it's something your born with, and it's very rare just as the book said, there are only 50 that are known.
"Hey.." I turned my head around and saw Draco walking towards me and sitting at the table I was in the library which was completely empty since everyone was at lunch.
"Hi." I said turning back to my book. I don't know why but I felt like being alone.
"Why didn't you wait for me in the morning, I didn't know where you went off to?" he asked me worringly.
"I..I just thought you'd like to sleep?" I mumbled, not looking at him at all.
"Are you okey?" he asked again putting his hand on my shoulder.
I shuddered. And he felt it. But he kept his hand there.
"You cold?" he said about to take off his robe.
"No!" I rushed "Im perfectly fine ok?"
"Don't you think we should talk at least about what.." I cut him off.
"Please Draco, just go away, I need to be alone." I snapped not looking at his face, but feeling his shocked eyes on me.
He did not say anything, but silently slipped away. Maybe he was angry. I don't know. But when he turned around I felt even more broken inside.
I was staring down at my book when I could of swore I felt someone watching me. I looked straight ahead, and to my surprise it was Professor Evee, she looked sympathetic.
"May I?" she asked pointing to the chair.
I looked at her, how wonderful she still looked in this dim gloomy light of the library. The thin strips of light cast shadows on her hair, making it seem more sleek and shiny then ever. As always it was parted at the middle, the front hairs pulled to the back the rest of it was down her back, but her curly ends tied into a French knot. Today she had a dark plum scarf tied around her neck, and a simple black dress, with a scooped classy neckline, and sleeves to her elbows. She wore a little silver belt around her small waist. And her dress went all away done covering her feet. She also wore black wrist gloves with silver trimming.
"Of course Professor" I answered nodding my head towards the chair.
"Are you and Mr.Malfoy alright?" she asked me, more worried then curious. Her gleaming eyes showing her sympathy for me, as if she knew what had happened the night before.
"I don't know" I answered once again avoiding the topic.
"Listen Hermione dear, I know you think Im quite odd, and don't think all that gracious of me, but I insist that there aren't many people who can understand you, but Im positive that I will, and I won't even try."
My eyes just teared up, I was fighting them back, trying to be strong as her.
"Professor, I do think gracious of you. I think your brilliant." I responded. For once it felt as if I had someone to talk.
"I..uhh.sooo .many things are going through my head, I just don't know where to start" I explained in turmoil, my hands in the air, shacking my head.
She patted my one hand with her gloved hand.
"Why don't you and I have a little something and some tea after class. We can chit chat, just like little schools girls. But we can also talk, just like grown women. Does that sound alright?" she politetly asked me with a gentle smile.
It's as if she knew I didn't want to be around people. It's as if she knew I needed someone to talk to. Then I remebered she can sense bad things. She probaly sensed what I was feeling. And by the look in her face, how could I ever refuse.
"I would really, really like that." I sniffed and gasped a bit.
She smile at me and stood up.
"It will all be alright. I promise you that." And she turned away and gracefully walked out of the library.
How ever did I think she was evil. She was wonderful, and beautiful, and easy to talk to. I began to look forward to having dinner with her.
For once all day I felt less agitated and a bit more eager for Defence Against the Dark Arts class, and it finally did. I decided to sit in the corner of the room by myself, because by the time my friends would come along, the class would be full and there would be no room for them to sit with me.
The class got full and Draco was sitting at the other end of the class with both Goyle and "gasp" Crabbe. This made me angry. How could he possibly sit with him still after what happened? Was it his choice? I did not know. But he did not look at me the whole entire class.
Finally class was over and people started to walk out. No one had asked me if I was okey or not. Not even Harry and Ron, I guess they were too busy with Quidditch season starting, or they would of cared at all. I think it was also cause they though I was some brainer teachers pet, as long as the rest of the class, and they knew I probaly just wanted to do my work and be left alone.
Draco never came to me or anything, when I saw him leave he was talking to Goyle and Crabbe as if nothing, why was he acting so funny, it totally infuriated me.
I looked around, and the entire class was empty.
Professor Evee was seated at her desk writing something. She did not look up but she did speak, politetly as always,
"Miss. Granger, do you mind on stopping by tommorow after dinner with Mr. Potter, there is something I would like to speak to him about."
"Alright" I said my eyebrows joining together, wanting to know what she needed Harry for.
"Well then," she said putting her pen down and pulling out of her chair, "Shall we eat?" her smile got wider and I could not help but smile back.
A knock at the door and I could of swear I saw Evee role her eyes before putting on a fake smile. So I whirled around and saw Snape standing there.
"Hello there dear Professor, you know Miss. Granger don't you?" she said putting her frail magic hands on my left shoulder.
He just looked at me and grunted, which I took as rudeness, and then looked back up at her.
"Professor Evee, just thought I would ask if you would be joining the staff for dinner today as you did yesterday?" he asked almost nervously if that was possible for him.
"You know I enjoy eating alone Severus." She said almost somberly. 'Besides today I have Miss. Granger here to join me."
I smiled.
"Alright. Just thought I would ask." And he gave her the smallest of smirks and left.
I heard Evee release a sigh of relief and plomping down on her chair and put her head on he hand.
"What was THAT all about?" I said kind of giddy for the first time all day.
"THAT my dear, is a man with an, shall we call it, an infatuation?"she smiled rolling her eyes.
I smile too. "I never thought Snape would ever have an infatuation?" I said almost shokingly.
"Oh I don't bother with him, it started with a silly crush, way years back, and now, it continues to be some sort of infatuation, I keep thinking it will pass." She answered waving her hand in the air as she descended from the chair walking up the stairs toward her private quarters where I guess we would eat.
"You never have, well, you know, gone out with him have you?" I asked her hoping that she didn't cause if she did, that might juts freak me out. I heard her giggle as she opened the door.
"No no no no no no. Ha ha. I've known him for years. But that never. He has asked me and still does. But my dear..he and I are two different people, after all, I have my own infatuations." And with that last though, she sighed almost as if she were thinking of her lover.
"Well anyways" she stood in the centre of the round room which was completely vacant at the time. And I was curious that it had no furnishing whatsoever. "What would you like for dinner, choose anything! Anything in the world!" she clapped her hands and smiled as if ready for a big trick.
"Well I could really go for some Chinese food!" I laughed knowing that wouldn't be possible but then something extrodinary happened.
**Sorry to leave it at a cliffhanger, I totally did not intend on this,it's just my brother wants the computer really badly, Im sorry don't hate me!!!! Please Read and Review though!!!!**