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Co-written with Starbright
Thought: The Price of Nobility
Chapter 3:
Doc's thoughts
I should never have told her that she had to work as a paramedic today. She would've rather have been working with the firefighters! Would she still be here today if I didn't get her to work as a paramedic?
I was just worried about my job, if only I knew that she was going to lose her life today. I feel so sick, I have never felt like this before, I have seen people die before, but I never thought that it was my fault. I just want to go hide somewhere and never come out! When I couldn't see her working at the scene, the first thought that came to my mind was that she just being a smartass and not coming to help me, but I never thought she was hurt.
I should have helped her, she needed me and I wasn't there! When Carlos told me about Alex, I couldn't believe it, it couldn't be true, not Alex, she is a strong woman, she couldn't be dead! Why did this happen? Could I have saved her? I found out later, how bad she really was, and that even if I was there, I wouldn't have been able to save her. What is the use of being a paramedic and saving people's life, when you can't save one of your own? Carlos said she wasn't in much pain and I am glad that she didn't have to suffer that long, but she had so much more to do in life! Why? She was such a great firefighter and paramedic. She will never get to help anyone ever again and it's all because of me! I got a promotion today, but I can't be happy about it, because Alex died today!
Co-written with Starbright
Thought: The Price of Nobility
Chapter 3:
Doc's thoughts
I should never have told her that she had to work as a paramedic today. She would've rather have been working with the firefighters! Would she still be here today if I didn't get her to work as a paramedic?
I was just worried about my job, if only I knew that she was going to lose her life today. I feel so sick, I have never felt like this before, I have seen people die before, but I never thought that it was my fault. I just want to go hide somewhere and never come out! When I couldn't see her working at the scene, the first thought that came to my mind was that she just being a smartass and not coming to help me, but I never thought she was hurt.
I should have helped her, she needed me and I wasn't there! When Carlos told me about Alex, I couldn't believe it, it couldn't be true, not Alex, she is a strong woman, she couldn't be dead! Why did this happen? Could I have saved her? I found out later, how bad she really was, and that even if I was there, I wouldn't have been able to save her. What is the use of being a paramedic and saving people's life, when you can't save one of your own? Carlos said she wasn't in much pain and I am glad that she didn't have to suffer that long, but she had so much more to do in life! Why? She was such a great firefighter and paramedic. She will never get to help anyone ever again and it's all because of me! I got a promotion today, but I can't be happy about it, because Alex died today!