Title: How You Remind Me by Cat Lea
Rating: PG for M/M suggested Slash is implied
Disclaimer: Don't own either wrestler or any thing else for that fact. I also don't own the song used that belongs to Stereomud and is "The End Of Everything". It is one of my favorite songs and is on Forceable Entry, which is one of my favorite Wrestling soundtracks. I also don't receive any money on this story. Because Hell I don't write well enough to ever do that. But at least I have fun doing it.
Author Notes: First of all for those of you who know my writings this is my first story that is not about the Brothers of Destruction. I needed a change but will be back to them soon. So please Read and Review. Also this is my first Slash or Slash implied so please be nice. And if offended then don't read it. Also flames are welcome because I have to have something to laugh at. Just kidding so please be nice though if you plan on flaming me. Also if you read chapter one then you also know that this is my first Raven story and if you read chapter two you now know that my pairing with Raven is Bradshaw. So now onto the story but first I would like to take a moment to thanks the people who are reading and reviewing: KazzaXTreme thanks girl you are the reason that I am writing this one. Oh and Takers POV on our combined slash story is almost done. Sweet-Steffie you are awesome can't wait to read more of your stories. Crys Skywalker loved your lord of the ring fic. Spy Elf you have gotten me so into CM Punk and Raven, which is why, I chose him. I can't wait to you up date Drug of Choice. Especially since where I live it's hard to get news on them so I love the little up dates in your story. Thanks for the great reviews and please keep reading.
The End Of Everything
** Fuck it I couldn't have just let it be. No not me the wise man that I am. So now here I am sitting in the back of a Police car heading to the hospital. And you, hell all I know is that they placed you in an ambulance. I knew just by the look in your eyes when you stared me down on the steps that you had made up your mind. I could see that you still loved me but that maybe it just wasn't enough any more. **
~~~ God you looked so scared and it was then that I really knew. I think that my heart must have stopped or skipped a beat at least. I was holding my breath just waiting for you to speak so that I could change your mind. Hell I could tell that it was taking everything you had not to walk back up those steps and into my arms. Hell and then you had to go and do it. You told me that it was over and that there was nothing I could do about it. That you had decided that it was over. Or did you? ~~~
You will not waste my time
I will do anything
I want to anyway
~~~ I guess that I shouldn't have told you to get your ass in the house and to quit being a dumb ass. That you should just quit wasting my time. I mean I could tell that you meant it. I just didn't want to lose you. I want you so bad that I will do what I want or had to do to get you back. But then you just had to go and do it. I wasn't even sure that I heard you right at first. I mean did you just tell me to fuck off. You wouldn't do that I mean you don't have the nerve. Or do you? ~~~
This will be the end of everything that you know
I know we're killing for the raven so here we go
Don't even try to hold me down
Watch me
Be afraid
~~~ I could tell deep in my soul that I should have just walked back into the house because if I didn't it would be the end of everything I wanted. But no not me because once more I had to kill everything that I wanted. I could see you watching my eyes and by the fear I saw I could tell that you where afraid. That you also knew that I couldn't be held down if I decided to push it to the limits. And then you did something that surprised us both you I'm sure. You turned away to leave me. Or could you? ~~~
This is the way that it is
Get ready here I come
Dropping down on you
Don't want and try to run
And when I'm finished with you
Watch me
Be afraid
~~~ I don't even remember moving or yelling out your name but I could hear it in my own ears. I could also feel the rush of the wind as I took a flying leap off the top step and came dropping down on you. You turned when I yelled your name and didn't even try and run. I could tell that once more you where watching me. And once more I could see the fear in your eyes. And all I could think was that once I was done with you my love you would be afraid to leave me. Or are you? ~~~
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
I do not fear
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one
I do not fear
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid
Afraid!
~~~ I can tell even before I land on you that you are so afraid of me. I can't help but to laugh because I have never been afraid of no one. As I punch you over and over I can see the fear. I do not fear. But then whom am I kidding. Because if you could see into my eyes or yet my soul you would know the truth. You would know that I am afraid of you. Or at least of losing you. And that I do fear. I fear not having you in my life. Have you ever been afraid of someone? I have and that person is you. Though you don't realize it. Or have you? ~~~
Raven
~~~ I hear you softly whisper my name as I hit and kick you. I can hear the love and the lost both in just that one word. Raven. My name on your lips some how now said with both love and hate. But I still can't stop from beating you. Almost as if I am trying to prove to myself or is it to you that I don't love you. Or maybe both? ~~~l
You will not waste my time
I will do anything
I want to anyway
~~~ I tell myself that I will not waste my time. But then why didn't I just let you turn and walk away? I do, I always have to do what I want to any way? Was it the Jack Daniels? No I know that it wasn't as much as I wish that I could tell you that it is. Because I know that I will do anything that I want to get what I want. I think you also know that about me. Like I know it about myself. Or did I? ~~~
This will be the end of everything that you know
I know we're killing for the raven so here we go
Don't even try to hold me down
Watch me
Be afraid
~~~ As I watched your eyes or maybe I should say your eye as one is already swollen shut from earlier because of me. I could see as it dawned on you that this was the end of everything. That I had started the end that was going to kill everything that we had. I didn't even try to hold you down because I knew that I couldn't have if I wanted to. For now it was going to be my turn to be afraid. Or could I? ~~~
This is the way that it is
Get ready here I come
Dropping down on you
Don't want and try to run
And when I'm finished with you
Watch me
Be afraid
~~~ I could read in your eyes at I need to get ready because here it was coming. I didn't even try and run because I could tell when you punched out at me for the first time in three years that I deserved it all. You dropped me with that first punch like very few other people have ever dropped me. As I watched you I could tell that when you finished I would be the one who needed to be afraid. But then would you be able to handle it? Or would I? ~~~
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
I do not fear
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one
I do not fear
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
I do not fear
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
I do not fear
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one
Raven
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Raven
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
~~~ So now it was your turn to beat on me. Something that really should have happened a long time ago Bradshaw. Something that I think deep down that you were afraid to let ever to happen. After a couple of good punches you looked into my eyes and all I can guess is that you must have seen that it was my turn to be afraid of someone. And you maybe it was your first time not to be afraid of no one. But then I could see just how mixed up you were and just how much you feared. Feared me or our love almost as much as I feared it. But I could also see that I had lost you. Because as you started to slide down toward the ground taking me with you and softly calling out Raven. Once more with the pain of love and hurt that I knew I caused. I could tell that I had caused this and that it was the End of Everything. Or was it? ~~~
** So I gently held you why we both cried. I grabbed the cell phone out of my pocket and dialed the Police knowing that for once I had to get help. Help for you and yes even help for myself. When they got here and asked what had happened I did something that I never thought that I could ever do. I told them that I had beaten my lover. They quickly called out the ambulance and then after letting me kiss you one final time gently on the lips they took you from my arms so that they could arrested me. So now I am on my way to the Police Station. And you are now on your way to the hospital. Both of us lost. **
~~~ Have you ever been afraid of someone? I've never been afraid of no one. ~~~
** Author Note: Hope that you like it and that you will take the time to Review. I also hope that doing this chapter for a break up was a surprise for you all. Oh and for those of you who don't know the song is Raven WWE theme. I know that I am evil but there will be more with the next one being Bradshaw take on the break up. That is if any one thinks that I should write it. It should also have the same song as this one because I thought that it fit. ** Thanks, Cat Lea Takersdarkone@msn.com