Title: How You Remind Me by Cat Lea
Rating: PG for M/M suggested Slash is implied
Disclaimer: Don't own either wrestler or any thing else for that fact. I also don't own the song used that belongs to Stereomud and is "The End Of Everything". It is one of my favorite songs and is on Forceable Entry, which is one of my favorite Wrestling soundtracks. I also don't receive any money on this story. Because Hell I don't write well enough to ever do that. But at least I have fun doing it.
Author Notes: First of all for those of you who know my writings this is my first story that is not about the Brothers of Destruction. I needed a change but will be back to them soon. So please Read and Review. Also this is my first Slash or Slash implied so please be nice. And if offended then don't read it. Also flames are welcome because I have to have something to laugh at. Just kidding so please be nice though if you plan on flaming me. Also if you read chapter one then you also know that this is my first Raven story and if you read chapter two you now know that my pairing with Raven is Bradshaw. So now onto the story but first I would like to take a moment to thanks the people who are reading and reviewing: KazzaXTreme thanks girl for still reviewing. Oh and Takers POV on our combined slash story is almost done. Sweet-Steffie you are awesome can't wait to read the story you were telling me you were going to post today. Crys Skywalker I hope you like where it went. Spy Elf you have gotten me so into CM Punk and Raven, which is why, I chose him. I am so glad to hear that you are going to up date Drug of Choice soon. Thanks for the great reviews and please keep reading.
The End Of Everything
** Fuck it why the hell couldn't I have just done what he wanted. I could have just let it be. Maybe it would have been better after this time. No not me like he is all ways telling me a wise man that I am. So now here I am laying in the back of an ambulance on my way to the hospital. And you, hell all I know is that they placed you in the back of a squad car. I knew in my heart as I look in your eyes when you stared me down on the steps that I had made up my mind. I could see that you still loved me but that maybe it just wasn't enough any more. **
~~~ I was so scared that I was shaking in my damn boots. But if the truth were known that was when I knew that it had to be. I think that my heart must have been pounding so loud that I'm surprised that you couldn't hear it. I was trying so hard to breath that I was getting dizzy from not breathing. I just needed to here you speak so that I could change your mind. Hell it was taking everything I had in me not to just walk back up those steps and into your arms. Hell and then you had to go and do it. You had to get that smirk on your face. The one that all ways tells me that you are the one in control. So I did it I told you that it was over and that there was nothing you could do about it. That I had decided that it was over. Or did I? ~~~
You will not waste my time
I will do anything
I want to anyway
~~~ I wish that you wouldn't have told me to get my ass in the house and to quit being a dumb ass. Or that I should fucking just quit wasting your time. I mean I could tell that you meant it. I just couldn't do what you wanted this time. I didn't want to lose you but I some how feel as I was losing myself. I want you so badly that if you had just said you were sorry I would have done what you wanted. But then you just had to go and do it. I wasn't even sure that I heard you right at first. But when you said move it I just couldn't. So then with out even thinking I said it to you. I mean I didn't even think that you heard me. But the look on your face told me that you heard me tell you to fuck off. I can't believe that I said that. Fuck I mean I can't believe I had the nerve. Or do I? ~~~
This will be the end of everything that you know
I know we're killing for the raven so here we go
Don't even try to hold me down
Watch me
Be afraid
~~~ I could tell deep in my soul by the look in your eyes that I should have just walked back into the house with you because if I did it wouldn't have been the end of everything. But no I couldn't do anything about it because once more I had to kill everything that I wanted. I had to kill the love you had for me. I could see you watching my eyes and by the fear I know that you saw I could tell that you could see the fear and how afraid I was of losing you. For I saw it in your eyes too. I knew that you couldn't be held down if I decided to push it to the limits. Which I just knew I had to do. And then I did something that surprised us both I'm sure. I turned away to leave you. Or could I? ~~~
This is the way that it is
Get ready here I come
Dropping down on you
Don't want and try to run
And when I'm finished with you
Watch me
Be afraid
~~~ I will all ways remember you yelling out my name like a wounded animal. And that I could hear you move as you jumped from the top step. I knew that you where going to land on me even before you came dropping down on me. I turned around when you yelled my and softly whispered your name. And as afraid of you as I was I didn't even try and run. I could help but to watch you as you fly down like a graceful Raven. And once more I could feel the fear that you cause in my heart. I think it must have shown in my eyes because you almost looked sorry. And all I could think of was once you where done with me my love would I be too afraid of you to leave once more. Or I'm I? ~~~
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
I do not fear
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one
I do not fear
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid
Afraid!
~~~ I was so afraid of you and the beating that I knew that I had coming from you. And then you laughed because I know that you have never been afraid of no one. As you punch me over and over I can as more afraid of you then I ever was. Till I could see then that you fear me. But that can't be because you do not fear anything or any one. But then whom am I kidding could you really fear me? Because if I could have seen into your soul would I have seen the truth. Would I know that maybe you are afraid of me as much as I am afraid of you. Do you feel that I am losing you? Or do you at least care that you are losing me. And that I do fear that more then anything. I fear not having you in my life. And so wish you felt the same. Have you ever been afraid of someone? No I'm sure that you haven't. But I have and that person is you. Though you already realize that. Or have you? ~~~
Raven
~~~ Do you hear me softly whisper your name as you hit and kick me. Can you hear the love and the lost both that I am feeling in just that one word? Raven. Your name on my lips some how now said with both love and hate. Which shocks me because I didn't even know that I hated you. But I still can't stop from loving you either. I see love in your eyes but yet you just keep on beating me. Almost as if you are trying to prove to me or is it to yourself that you don't love me. Or maybe both? ~~~l
You will not waste my time
I will do anything
I want to anyway
~~~ I tell myself that I should not waste your time. You even told me not to waste your time. But then why didn't you just let me turn and walk away? I mean it's not as if you truly love me. Do you? Why do you Raven always have to do what you want to any way? Was it the Southern Comfort or the bottle of Jack Daniels that I'm sure that he drank too? Is that why he had to beat me more or why I had to take? No I know that it wasn't as much as I wish that I could tell myself that it is. Because I know my lover that you will do anything that you want to get what you want. And me well I'll take it just because I love you and well...I'm useless as you put it. I think you also know that about me. Like I know it about myself. Or did you? ~~~
This will be the end of everything that you know
I know we're killing for the raven so here we go
Don't even try to hold me down
Watch me
Be afraid
~~~ As look into your eyes I can see that you are watching my eyes. Or at least the one eye that I can open being that you have already beat one into it was swollen shut from earlier. I can feel it as it slowly seeps into my dumb as brain that this is the beginning of the End of Everything. I could also see it as it dawned on you that this was the end of everything too. That we had started the end that was going to kill everything that we had. I don't understand why you didn't even try to hold me down. Though I'm not even sure that you could have if you wanted too. For now it was like I was becoming possessed. Like maybe it was going to be your turn to be afraid. Or could you? ~~~
This is the way that it is
Get ready here I come
Dropping down on you
Don't want and try to run
And when I'm finished with you
Watch me
Be afraid
~~~ I could read in your eyes that you where getting ready. I also needed to get ready because here it was coming and like the man possessed I had to do it. I hope that you would try to run because that way I didn't have to hurt the person that I loved the most. But you didn't even try and run. Some how I could tell when I punched out at you for the first time in three years that you deserved it all. I dropped you with that first punch like very few other people have ever dropped you. As I watched you I could tell that when I finished it would be you who would be the one who needed to be afraid. But then would I be able to handle it? Or would you? ~~~
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
I do not fear
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one
I do not fear
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
I do not fear
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
I do not fear
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one
Raven
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Raven
(Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
Have you ever been afraid of someone?
I've never been afraid of no one)
~~~ Shit so now it was my turn to beat on you my love. Something that I never ever thought that I would really be able to do. Or that I should have been able to do. I mean I love him. Maybe some where in the back of my mind I think that it should have happened a long time ago Raven. Back when the beating began. But for the fact that deep down I was afraid to let ever to happen. After a couple of good punches I looked into you eyes as you were looking into mine and all I can see is that it is your turn to be afraid of someone. And the thing is that for the first time I was not the one to be afraid of no one. Shit. I could see just how mixed up you are and just how much you have fears too. Do you fear me or our love almost as much as I feared it? Or as much as I fear you. But I could also see that I have lost you. And with out you I have nothing. I take you down to the ground with me as I softly calling out Raven. I hear you mumble my name and once more with the pain of love and hurt that I knew I caused. I can tell that I have caused this and that it was the End of Everything. Or was it? ~~~
** I feel your arms around me as you gently hold me as we both cried. I close my eyes but I can tell that you have grabbed the cell phone out of your pocket. I cry for the lost of your love as you dialed the Police knowing that for once I had to get help. Help for you and yes even help for myself so that I am no longer afraid. When they got here and asked what had happened you did something that I never thought that I could ever do. You told them that you had beaten me your lover. They called out the ambulance and then after letting you kiss me one final time gently on the lips. I tried to reach up and touched your face as I opened up my eyes to look into your eyes one final time. But they took me from your arms so that they could arrest you. So now I am on my way to the hospital not really caring if I live or not. For we both knew that it was the End of Everything. And you Raven my love are on your way to the Police Station. Both of us lost. **
~~~ Have you ever been afraid of someone? I've never been afraid of no one. ~~~
** Author Note: Hope that you like it and that you will take the time to Review. I also hope that doing this chapter for a break up was a surprise for you all. Oh and for those of you who don't know the song is Raven WWE theme. I know that I am evil but there will be more with the next one being a Bradshaw take on missing Raven. That is if any one thinks that I should write it. It will have a different song if I can find one that fits. Also I'm looking for a song that I might be able to use to put them back together with. So if you should know of one that would fit please let me know. **
Thanks, Cat Lea Takersdarkone@msn.com