(A/N:  I never thought that anyone was really paying attention when I posted songs at the beginning of each chapter in "The Real Life Cammy", but a reviewer (david osborne) actually asked when they'd be back.  So here they are.)

My world's on fire
My life's overwhelming
Just breathe
You're on the next train to life without me
Time had nothing left to show so we found out
A world on fire
A life overwhelming

Do you believe in the words you said to me
As you take away everything?

I can't believe what you're saying
So don't tell me
The words that kill, the words that kill
You're leaving

I spent my time thinking about you
Remember when we said that this would not end?
But now you're gone
I'm still right here without you
A world on fire
A life overwhelming
Just breathe

Do you believe in the words you said to me
As you take away everything?

I can't believe what you're saying
So don't tell me
The words that kill, the words that kill
You're leaving

So take back what you said
This would never end
The words that kill, the words that kill
You're leaving

Die Trying –"Words That Kill"

            Ken's body stirred, smashing Cammy awake with a start.  As soon as she saw that it was Ken lying beside her, saw that his arms were around her, she was okay.  She looked at his sleeping face in the semi-darkness of the room.  Moonlight shone in through the sheer draperies covering the window and made him look simply beautiful.  Cammy reached out and touched his face.  He stirred again, wrinkling his nose and making a disgusted sound, as if he hated waking up.  Cammy watched him closely, anticipating that moment when his eyes opened and awareness hit him.  She couldn't wait to hear what his first words would be.  He stretched, his skin tightening against hers.  Pulling her tighter against him and cuddling his head into the arch of her neck he groggily murmured. 

"I love you, Eliza."

--

"Where the hell are you Ken?"

            Julian slammed the receiver of the phone down in frustration.  It was more important than ever that he get a hold of Ken now that Cammy was in the picture.  After seeing her, he had tried to find Vega.  But he was no where to be seen, and it wasn't good.  Julian took Ken's sign in paper and stuffed it in his pocket.  He was just going to have to go to Ken's hotel and wait for him.  Julian hailed a taxi and was soon on his way.  The cab stopped next to a police cruiser at a traffic light and Julian shifted his gaze downward.  Habit.  He held his breath until it passed them once the light changed.  It was only like a ten minute drive, but given traffic and his anxiousness, he knew it would be a long ride.

--

            Cammy's eyes went wide for a moment before she pushed Ken's body away from hers.  His eyes snapped open in protest.  He looked at Cammy.  Then his eyes darted around the room, realizing where he was.  He spoke.

"Oh God."

"Who's Eliza?"

Ken's eyes closed and he put his head in his hands.

"My wife."

"Your wife!"

Cammy pulled herself, with the sheet, out of the bed, suddenly embarrassed about her state of dress, or rather lack there of.  She tripped on the tangles of the sheet but managed to keep herself covered when she fell on the floor.  Ken yelled to her.

"Wait, Cammy!"

She yelled back as she began picking up her clothes from the floor.

"Wait for what?  You to find the time to tell me you love me, to lie to me?"

"I don't know what came over me."

"Save it!"

As Cammy hurriedly put her clothes on, she made sure Ken couldn't see her face.  She didn't want him to see the tears that were threatening to fall from her eyes.  Grunting in frustration she remembered that her shirt was in the other room.  Ken came behind her, wearing his boxer shorts.

"Cammy, please wait.  We have to figure this out."

"Why do you need me to wait?  You got what you wanted."

"This isn't what I wanted.  I tried to tell you."

"Oh really, was it when you were telling me you loved me, that I was beautiful, or kissing me, or when you were carrying me to the bed?"

"I tried telling you things were different."

"Saying 'things are different' and mentioning the fact that you're married are two very separate things to me."

"I was trying."

"Not hard enough."

            With that Cammy turned and headed for the door, picking up and putting on her shirt before leaving.  Ken called after her but she slammed the door closed behind her.  Now that she was in the hall and Ken couldn't see her, the tears began to fall from her eyes.  Then she started to run, pushing past people in the halls and down the stairs.  Running down the street this late at night, she was getting many cat calls as well as a few strange looks.  But she just kept running; tears now dried on her skin.  By the time she reached her hotel room she was sweating and panting heavily.  Her hands shaking, she slid the keycard through the slot and entered the enclosure of her room.  Pressing her body against the door she slid down to the floor and sobbed into her hands.  She was numb to all feeling besides the hurt.  The worst part was she knew she still loved him.  Then she cried harder.

--

            Julian went to the front desk of Ken's hotel, speaking to the clerk.

"M'am?  Could you ring Ken Master's room for me?"

Oddly remembering this information off hand the clerk replied.

"Mr. Master's isn't answering his phone, though I'm almost positive he's in his room.  I checked him in myself."

"What's his room number?"

"524."

"Thanks.  One other question.  How do you know all this stuff off hand?"

The clerk laughed and blushed before speaking again.

"You are the second gentleman who has come in here for Mr. Masters within the past 30 minutes. Another very good looking gentleman came in here earlier."

"Holy shit."

Julian turned away from the clerk and ran towards the elevators.

--

            Ken ran his hands through his hair in frustration and disbelief.  How could he have let this happen?  He had brought Cammy here to tell her about Eliza in a caring way, not to hurt her and now…now he had done some serious damage.  Suddenly Ken heard a loud crash.  He ran out to the door and saw it had been busted open.

"Julian?"

Julian looked about frantically and grabbed Ken's shoulders.

"Where'd Cammy go?"

Not even taking the time to question Julian's presence or the fact that the door to his room now lay on the floor, Ken spoke, spilling his emotions onto Julian.

"I screwed up so bad.  I saw her and I just didn't want to hurt her.  But she kept saying things.  And I…I turned into myself at 19 again, when I loved her so much.  I screwed up so bad Julian."

            Julian took in the scene of Ken's hotel room.  Clothes lying on the floor, the bed had all the sheets stripped off it aside from the one covering the mattress, Ken's state of dress, and it all came together. He shook his head.

"Tell me you didn't, man."

Ken eyes shifted away from Julian's face and to the floor.  It was all the answer he needed.

"But you're married Ken."

"I know! Dammit, I know.  I don't know how it happened.  I love Eliza with all my heart.  Then suddenly Cammy is back and things just happened."

"That doesn't just happen."

"It did.  Oh my God what have I done?"

Julian tried to keep his head together, remembering why he was really here.

"Where'd she go?"

"She ran off when she found out."

"How long ago?"

"About twenty minutes."

"Shit, shit.  Where could she have gone?"

"I would think back to her hotel room.  What's going on?"

"Where's she staying?"

"I think she mentioned a Motel 6.  Now what's going on?"

"Dammit.  There's like a million of them in this fuckin' city."

"What's wrong?"

"Vega has had a tail on you since the day Cammy went into hiding."

"Oh my God."

"We have to find her before he does, if he hasn't already."

"Just tell me what to do."

"You go east, I'll go west."