Litanya: I'm not very religious, but this just popped into my head… I'm like one of the most unreligious people in the world, but I still am a Christian, in a weird way… and so yeah, I thought that I would write this.
I Know That You Know
Dear God,
I know that You know who I am, where I am and how I'm feeling, but I still decided to check in. Yes, it has been months since I last prayed, but You know why. I just don't believe that I have to pray for You to hear me. I know that You know that I sometimes question everything, but it's hard not to. And I believe that if You didn't want people to question things, You would have made it so that we didn't. But I suppose that sometimes You get bored and questions are a good thing to mull over whilst waiting for the right time to answer them.
I know that You know what has been going on in my life… my mother's anorexia and my periodic sessions of depression. I know that You know about all of this and I know that it's all a test, but sometimes I wish that it wasn't. These are the times that I usually pray. There's a song by Savage Garden that always makes me think about praying… and I usually do when I listen to it. I'm listening to it tonight, right at this minute. I know that I'm not supposed to listen to music whilst I pray, but why not? You would probably like this song too. It's not necessarily religious, but it's cool. I don't know what it is called, but I know that You do. You've probably listened to the people who wrote it pray. Most of my friends are not religious, but I know that You don't hold that against them. True, some of my friends are religious, and I even got invited to a Gospel thing, but I can't go to those things. It just seems pointless to me. I believe in You in my own way… and church just isn't the way I believe. I know that You know that and I am glad that You understand.
Please watch over my family… we're going through a tough time at the moment, well, it feels like it. It might just be me though, so maybe You should check over them just to make sure. Please watch over my friends, because they are all good people and they help me in so many ways. Please watch over everybody in the world, whether they believe in You or not, because without You, who would watch over them? Well, except for their Guardian Angels? And finally, I ask this even though I already know that You do, could You please watch over me, to make sure that I don't upset the people I care about and the people that I don't know too well. World peace is a good thing, but first there has to be peace within everyone before that can happen. I know that You know me, but just in case, my name is Tamika Kamora. Thank you God.
Amen.