Maria's Story: Being Me
Disclaimer: The Plot and Characters belong to The Sound of Music & 20th Century Fox, However Maria's Thoughts are mine.
Written by: Maria's Georg
Authors Note* I included the 3 deleted scenes from the film, info I learned and info I made up. Also this is a working story, and a working tittle! Enjoy Reading and Please Review it! Feel free to e-mail me~!
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Chapter 2: Fate Works In Mysterious Ways
Shutting the door behind me, I gulped trying to swallow my anxiety. The Reverend Mother sat on her great throne. She was always so patient with me, I was so grateful for to her, about that. She never raised her voice to anyone, not even the black sheep. Of course I knew, that the consciences of my actions were not going to be handled lightly. Which is the source of my impending doom, what ever it maybe.
"Come here my Child." I walked over to her and I bent to kiss her hand. A way of greeting our spiritual leaders.
"Now sit down." She said, with no hits of anger in her voice. I complied.
"Oh Reverend Mother I'm so sorry. I just couldn't help myself. The gates were open and the hills were beckoning and before I."
Before I could finish the Reverend Mother interrupted me.
"Maria, I hadn't summoned you here for apologies."
"Oh, please, Mother, do let me ask for forgiveness." It would certainly make me feel better; I need this guilt to be gone. "If it'd make you feel better." I began to explain my actions, and why I had felt compelled to do them.
"Yes, well you see, the sky was so blue today and everything was so green and fragrant. I just had to be apart of it. And the bird led me higher and higher as if it wanted me to go right through the clouds with it." I was so wrapped up in that little world, I often pictured heaven to be this great and wonderful place. Full of luscious verdants, mountain streams and miles of pure blue skies. It was my paradise.
"Child suppose darkness had come and you were lost?" Oh of course, the Reverend Mother would be thinking of my safety. But what she didn't realize is that I know those mountains, like the back of my hand.
"Oh, Mother I could never be lost up there. That's my Mountain. I was brought up on it." If I wasn't at home, I was up on my Mountain singing and enjoying nature.
"Oh"
"When I was a child, I would come down the Mountain, climb a tree and look over into your garden. I'd see the sisters at work and I hear them sing on there way to vespers." When I was little I thought the sisters were angels and the convent is where God lived surround by millions miles of Grassy hills and Snowy Mountains. I wanted so much to be a part of it all, which is what lead me into joining the convent.
"Which brings me to another Transgression, Reverend Mother. I was singing out there today without permission."
"Maria it is only here in the Abbey, that we have rules about our Postulants singing."
"I can't seem to stop singing where ever I am." It was the worst thing of all to give up, but it wasn't just that, I have a tendency to speak my mind. Even if I'm not allowed to. Especially when I'm not allowed to.
"And what's worse, I can't stop saying things. I.everything and anything I think and feel."
"Some people would call it honesty."
"Oh, but it's terrible!" I just couldn't get over my bad habits, try as I might. My mouth usually got me into trouble more than anything else I did. It has my whole life.
"Reverend Mother, You know how Sister Berthe always makes me kiss the floor after we've had a disagreement? Well, lately I've taken to kissing the floor, when I see her coming-just to save time."
"Maria - when you saw us over the Abbey wall and longed to be one of us, that didn't necessarily mean that you were prepared for the way we live here, did it?"
A little taken back by that statement, but none the less it was true. I was not prepared, but longed to live here and I had hoped that would be enough.
"No Mother, but I, I pray and I try. And I am learning I really am."
"And what is the most important lesson you have learned here, my child?" I reply with the only answer I can think of.
"To find out what is the will of God and.to do it wholeheartedly." I see the Reverend Mother stand, I'm not quite sure what's happening. But I feel it's bad.
"Maria it seems to be the will of God that you leave us." No! Leave!? Shock takes over my body, I feel numb I can't Leave what would become of me this is what I've looked forward to my whole life, and now I have to LEAVE???! I was trying to prepare for the consciences of my actions, but I hadn't thought that this would be so horrible. Leaving the Convent??! "Leave??!"
"Only for a little while, Maria."
"Oh, No Mother. Please don't do that! Don't send me away! This is where I belong this is my home, My family. It's my life." I just couldn't leave, I try to beg her to let me stay, I feel tears weld up threating to spill, it felt like I was losing the rest of my family. "But are you truly ready for that?"
"Yes I am."
"Perhaps if you go out into the world for a time, knowing what we expect from you, you can have a chance to find out if you can expect it from yourself."
I felt like my world was collapsing and there was nothing for me to do to keep it standing. I felt like this once before when my parents passed away, and I felt so helpless. I had to plea my case.
"I know what you expect from me, Mother. And I can do it. I promise, I can."
"Maria." She said to silence me, knowing I had lost the battle that would put my fate of becoming a nun into what was about to happen next.
"Yes, Mother. If it's God's Will." I sat back down, defeated. I watch the floor, waiting for the Reverend Mother to speak.
"There's a family near Salzburg that needs a Governess until September." September! That was so far away, that was half the year!
"Until, September?!"
"To take care of Seven Children." What??! Seven?!
"Seven Children!" Oh, dear. I've never been a Governess before, and now I have to take care of Seven children. Til September! Could this get any worse?
"Do you like Children, Maria?" Well, of course, I did. But seven was so many. I didn't even have Seven friends! How am I going to keep them under control?
"Oh, yes but Seven.?"
"I will tell Captain von Trapp to expect you tomorrow." Captain? I am completely confused.
"Uh, Captain?"
"A retired naval officer of the Imperial Navy. A fine man and a brave one his wife died several years ago leaving him alone with the children. Now I understand he's had a difficult time keeping a Governess there."
"Uh why "difficult"? Reverend Mother?" What am I getting myself into?! A Naval Captain with Seven children that have a hard time keeping a Governess!
"The Lord will show you in his own good time."
Disclaimer: The Plot and Characters belong to The Sound of Music & 20th Century Fox, However Maria's Thoughts are mine.
Written by: Maria's Georg
Authors Note* I included the 3 deleted scenes from the film, info I learned and info I made up. Also this is a working story, and a working tittle! Enjoy Reading and Please Review it! Feel free to e-mail me~!
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Chapter 2: Fate Works In Mysterious Ways
Shutting the door behind me, I gulped trying to swallow my anxiety. The Reverend Mother sat on her great throne. She was always so patient with me, I was so grateful for to her, about that. She never raised her voice to anyone, not even the black sheep. Of course I knew, that the consciences of my actions were not going to be handled lightly. Which is the source of my impending doom, what ever it maybe.
"Come here my Child." I walked over to her and I bent to kiss her hand. A way of greeting our spiritual leaders.
"Now sit down." She said, with no hits of anger in her voice. I complied.
"Oh Reverend Mother I'm so sorry. I just couldn't help myself. The gates were open and the hills were beckoning and before I."
Before I could finish the Reverend Mother interrupted me.
"Maria, I hadn't summoned you here for apologies."
"Oh, please, Mother, do let me ask for forgiveness." It would certainly make me feel better; I need this guilt to be gone. "If it'd make you feel better." I began to explain my actions, and why I had felt compelled to do them.
"Yes, well you see, the sky was so blue today and everything was so green and fragrant. I just had to be apart of it. And the bird led me higher and higher as if it wanted me to go right through the clouds with it." I was so wrapped up in that little world, I often pictured heaven to be this great and wonderful place. Full of luscious verdants, mountain streams and miles of pure blue skies. It was my paradise.
"Child suppose darkness had come and you were lost?" Oh of course, the Reverend Mother would be thinking of my safety. But what she didn't realize is that I know those mountains, like the back of my hand.
"Oh, Mother I could never be lost up there. That's my Mountain. I was brought up on it." If I wasn't at home, I was up on my Mountain singing and enjoying nature.
"Oh"
"When I was a child, I would come down the Mountain, climb a tree and look over into your garden. I'd see the sisters at work and I hear them sing on there way to vespers." When I was little I thought the sisters were angels and the convent is where God lived surround by millions miles of Grassy hills and Snowy Mountains. I wanted so much to be a part of it all, which is what lead me into joining the convent.
"Which brings me to another Transgression, Reverend Mother. I was singing out there today without permission."
"Maria it is only here in the Abbey, that we have rules about our Postulants singing."
"I can't seem to stop singing where ever I am." It was the worst thing of all to give up, but it wasn't just that, I have a tendency to speak my mind. Even if I'm not allowed to. Especially when I'm not allowed to.
"And what's worse, I can't stop saying things. I.everything and anything I think and feel."
"Some people would call it honesty."
"Oh, but it's terrible!" I just couldn't get over my bad habits, try as I might. My mouth usually got me into trouble more than anything else I did. It has my whole life.
"Reverend Mother, You know how Sister Berthe always makes me kiss the floor after we've had a disagreement? Well, lately I've taken to kissing the floor, when I see her coming-just to save time."
"Maria - when you saw us over the Abbey wall and longed to be one of us, that didn't necessarily mean that you were prepared for the way we live here, did it?"
A little taken back by that statement, but none the less it was true. I was not prepared, but longed to live here and I had hoped that would be enough.
"No Mother, but I, I pray and I try. And I am learning I really am."
"And what is the most important lesson you have learned here, my child?" I reply with the only answer I can think of.
"To find out what is the will of God and.to do it wholeheartedly." I see the Reverend Mother stand, I'm not quite sure what's happening. But I feel it's bad.
"Maria it seems to be the will of God that you leave us." No! Leave!? Shock takes over my body, I feel numb I can't Leave what would become of me this is what I've looked forward to my whole life, and now I have to LEAVE???! I was trying to prepare for the consciences of my actions, but I hadn't thought that this would be so horrible. Leaving the Convent??! "Leave??!"
"Only for a little while, Maria."
"Oh, No Mother. Please don't do that! Don't send me away! This is where I belong this is my home, My family. It's my life." I just couldn't leave, I try to beg her to let me stay, I feel tears weld up threating to spill, it felt like I was losing the rest of my family. "But are you truly ready for that?"
"Yes I am."
"Perhaps if you go out into the world for a time, knowing what we expect from you, you can have a chance to find out if you can expect it from yourself."
I felt like my world was collapsing and there was nothing for me to do to keep it standing. I felt like this once before when my parents passed away, and I felt so helpless. I had to plea my case.
"I know what you expect from me, Mother. And I can do it. I promise, I can."
"Maria." She said to silence me, knowing I had lost the battle that would put my fate of becoming a nun into what was about to happen next.
"Yes, Mother. If it's God's Will." I sat back down, defeated. I watch the floor, waiting for the Reverend Mother to speak.
"There's a family near Salzburg that needs a Governess until September." September! That was so far away, that was half the year!
"Until, September?!"
"To take care of Seven Children." What??! Seven?!
"Seven Children!" Oh, dear. I've never been a Governess before, and now I have to take care of Seven children. Til September! Could this get any worse?
"Do you like Children, Maria?" Well, of course, I did. But seven was so many. I didn't even have Seven friends! How am I going to keep them under control?
"Oh, yes but Seven.?"
"I will tell Captain von Trapp to expect you tomorrow." Captain? I am completely confused.
"Uh, Captain?"
"A retired naval officer of the Imperial Navy. A fine man and a brave one his wife died several years ago leaving him alone with the children. Now I understand he's had a difficult time keeping a Governess there."
"Uh why "difficult"? Reverend Mother?" What am I getting myself into?! A Naval Captain with Seven children that have a hard time keeping a Governess!
"The Lord will show you in his own good time."