The search for sanity
By Natta
Summary: When all the male members of Andromeda are drugged to act strangely, Rommie, Beka and Trance has to take matters in their own hands and get their sanity back. Set in the beginning/middle of season 2 before Rev leaves.
Disclaimer: They don't belong to me blah blah
Dylan blinked a few times before opening his eyes. What the hell had happened? Things were coming back to him, slowly, but clearly.
'Oh my god,' he thought, 'what did we do?' He remembered telling Rommie, Beka and Trance to put on those stupid Seka's.on the Andromeda. Why would he? But he remembered feelings too, that he was worth more than them, that they were made to clean and serve. He had been feeling.like a Mandera. He looked at them now, not dressed in sekas anymore. He saw Beka had a split lip and her arm in a bandage, ad felt a pang of guilt before realising he had not done it. Trance looked at him, worried.
'Do you think he's back to normal?' Dylan smiled at her.
'Yeah I'm fine Trance.' He looked hesitantly at the others who seemed to go through the same thing he did. Harper was looking a bit guilty, but with the same boyish puppy-eye-look he always wore. Tyr was looking anywhere but on the three women. Dylan knew this was a bit like Tyr, but he still found it strange.
'Do you remember anything?' Rommie asked. Dylan nodded and looked at the others who did the same. He saw Tyr had a moments eye-contact with Beka but he broke it very quickly to look at the floor. Maybe he had been the one to.Dylan shook his head. He really shouldn't be thinking about that, it was none of his business. Besides, it was all over now.
Or was it?
****
Things were going back to normal, they had decided not to go back to the Mandera homeworld as the risks might be greater than what they would accomplish. Life went on as usual for a week, but Beka felt like she and Tyr had a problem between them. He had not said a word to her since they "got back". So she decided to adress the issue. She went looking for him and finally found him working out, lifting weights.
'Tyr,' she started softly. He flinched and turned around. Apparently, his superior nietchzean senses hadn't noticed her coming in. He gently put down the weights on the ground. When she looked into his eyes, she saw something she had never seen in his eyes before. Regret. Guilt. Maybe fear?
'I don't know what to say,' she started. He slumped down on the floor, avoiding her gaze.
'What is there to say?' he asked with bitterness in his voice. 'I raped you. I forced you to go through a mating process and when you didn't do as I say, I hit you.' Beka sank down next to him, her healthy arm playing with the braids on his back.
'It wasn't you. It was the poison.' He looked at her, straight in the eyes now.
'Was it the drops of poison that hit you? Did they rip off your clothes? Was it small drops that.' he paused a moment to calm down, 'penetrated you against your will?' Now it was Beka's turn to break eye contact.
'No,' she said finally. 'Physically, it was you,' she said. 'But you weren't the one in control of your body. Tyr,' she paused, looking at him, 'do you remember what I said while you were doing it.'
'Yes,' he said, too calmly. 'You said "No" and "stop" and "Please, don't do this". I remember that very clearly.'
'Yes, but I also told you that I knew this wasn't you. That I forgave you, do you hear that Tyr? Even in that moment, I forgave you.' He didn't answer, just stared out at the air in front of him. She gave a small sigh and then left him sitting there. When she had left the room, the holographic version of Andromeda popped up.
'Trance would like to see you in the med bay,' she announced and disappeared as quickly as she had come.
'I'd better go there then,' Beka thought. 'What does Trance want to me now?'
****
Trance saw Beka enter and smiled a warm, purple smile at her.
'Come on and sit here on the bed.' Beka did as she said. Trance swung her tail nervously behind her as she walked around the bed. Beka looked at her curiously.
'Trance.is something wrong?' Trance took a deep breath. This time she didn't say anything about the use of her name. Beka and Rommie had started to call her Trancie now, to the others confusion.
'You know when I took that DNA from you to check for the way to remove the poison,' she said and wriggled her hands. She saw the confusion on Beka's face and looked up in the roof, not knowing how to say this. Was there a good way to do it? Probably not. 'You remember that I was acting a little strange after that, like I knew something you didn't.'
'Yes,' Beka said and nodded.
'Well.I did. Beka, you.you are.' Beka's eyes widened as she realised. 'You are pregnant.' She expected Beka to scream or do something, so she covered her face with her arms and jumped back. But to her surprise, Beka didn't do something and Trance dared to remove her arms and step closer. Beka had hid her face in her hands and bent her head down. Trance quietly sat down next to her and put her tail confortingly around her shoulders. They sat there for a few minutes, and then Harper came in.
'Hey what's up? He asked, then he saw how sad it looked. 'You okay?' he asked, looking closely at Beka. She removed her hands and revealed she had not been crying.
'Nothing,' she half-snapped, 'I'm fine.' Trance felt her tail drop down to the bed again as she quickly rose and left. Trance rose too.
'What was that about?' Harper asked, confused. Trance gave him a quick look and followed Beka.
'Beka?' Her friend stopped and turned around.
'Are you going to keep the baby?' Beka looked down and then up to Trance again, nodding slightly.
'I don't want to remove it. I didn't exactly plan on having a baby, but now.I couldn't just remove it.'
'So, how are you going to tell Tyr?'
'I'm not.' Beka's blunt answer made Trance gasp.
'But.you have to tell him! I mean, you're going to start showing eventually and he'll have to know!'
'I will tell him.before I start showing. But I just spoke to him, and he still doesn't accept the fact that it wasn't his fault, he's blaming himself. If I tell him now, it'll only add to the guilt. I'll wait.'
'What's all this about?' They heard a voice and turned at the same time. It was Harper of course.
'Harper!' Trance said accusingly, 'how long have you been standing there?'
'Erm,' he said, 'if this was a movie, I would say "long enough" and leave, but I didn't stand here long enough, so what the hell are you talking about.' He walked up to Beka and put his arm around her shoulder, which looked pretty pathetic to Trance since she was so much taller than him.
'Hey what's wrong boss? You know you can always talk to Harper." Beka sighed and looked at him.
'All right. While possessed by the drug Tyr raped me and now I'm pregnant.' She had decided to go the direct way. She gently removed his arm and walked away with a quick pace down the corridor. Harper just stood there with his mouth wide open.
~TBC~
By Natta
Summary: When all the male members of Andromeda are drugged to act strangely, Rommie, Beka and Trance has to take matters in their own hands and get their sanity back. Set in the beginning/middle of season 2 before Rev leaves.
Disclaimer: They don't belong to me blah blah
Dylan blinked a few times before opening his eyes. What the hell had happened? Things were coming back to him, slowly, but clearly.
'Oh my god,' he thought, 'what did we do?' He remembered telling Rommie, Beka and Trance to put on those stupid Seka's.on the Andromeda. Why would he? But he remembered feelings too, that he was worth more than them, that they were made to clean and serve. He had been feeling.like a Mandera. He looked at them now, not dressed in sekas anymore. He saw Beka had a split lip and her arm in a bandage, ad felt a pang of guilt before realising he had not done it. Trance looked at him, worried.
'Do you think he's back to normal?' Dylan smiled at her.
'Yeah I'm fine Trance.' He looked hesitantly at the others who seemed to go through the same thing he did. Harper was looking a bit guilty, but with the same boyish puppy-eye-look he always wore. Tyr was looking anywhere but on the three women. Dylan knew this was a bit like Tyr, but he still found it strange.
'Do you remember anything?' Rommie asked. Dylan nodded and looked at the others who did the same. He saw Tyr had a moments eye-contact with Beka but he broke it very quickly to look at the floor. Maybe he had been the one to.Dylan shook his head. He really shouldn't be thinking about that, it was none of his business. Besides, it was all over now.
Or was it?
****
Things were going back to normal, they had decided not to go back to the Mandera homeworld as the risks might be greater than what they would accomplish. Life went on as usual for a week, but Beka felt like she and Tyr had a problem between them. He had not said a word to her since they "got back". So she decided to adress the issue. She went looking for him and finally found him working out, lifting weights.
'Tyr,' she started softly. He flinched and turned around. Apparently, his superior nietchzean senses hadn't noticed her coming in. He gently put down the weights on the ground. When she looked into his eyes, she saw something she had never seen in his eyes before. Regret. Guilt. Maybe fear?
'I don't know what to say,' she started. He slumped down on the floor, avoiding her gaze.
'What is there to say?' he asked with bitterness in his voice. 'I raped you. I forced you to go through a mating process and when you didn't do as I say, I hit you.' Beka sank down next to him, her healthy arm playing with the braids on his back.
'It wasn't you. It was the poison.' He looked at her, straight in the eyes now.
'Was it the drops of poison that hit you? Did they rip off your clothes? Was it small drops that.' he paused a moment to calm down, 'penetrated you against your will?' Now it was Beka's turn to break eye contact.
'No,' she said finally. 'Physically, it was you,' she said. 'But you weren't the one in control of your body. Tyr,' she paused, looking at him, 'do you remember what I said while you were doing it.'
'Yes,' he said, too calmly. 'You said "No" and "stop" and "Please, don't do this". I remember that very clearly.'
'Yes, but I also told you that I knew this wasn't you. That I forgave you, do you hear that Tyr? Even in that moment, I forgave you.' He didn't answer, just stared out at the air in front of him. She gave a small sigh and then left him sitting there. When she had left the room, the holographic version of Andromeda popped up.
'Trance would like to see you in the med bay,' she announced and disappeared as quickly as she had come.
'I'd better go there then,' Beka thought. 'What does Trance want to me now?'
****
Trance saw Beka enter and smiled a warm, purple smile at her.
'Come on and sit here on the bed.' Beka did as she said. Trance swung her tail nervously behind her as she walked around the bed. Beka looked at her curiously.
'Trance.is something wrong?' Trance took a deep breath. This time she didn't say anything about the use of her name. Beka and Rommie had started to call her Trancie now, to the others confusion.
'You know when I took that DNA from you to check for the way to remove the poison,' she said and wriggled her hands. She saw the confusion on Beka's face and looked up in the roof, not knowing how to say this. Was there a good way to do it? Probably not. 'You remember that I was acting a little strange after that, like I knew something you didn't.'
'Yes,' Beka said and nodded.
'Well.I did. Beka, you.you are.' Beka's eyes widened as she realised. 'You are pregnant.' She expected Beka to scream or do something, so she covered her face with her arms and jumped back. But to her surprise, Beka didn't do something and Trance dared to remove her arms and step closer. Beka had hid her face in her hands and bent her head down. Trance quietly sat down next to her and put her tail confortingly around her shoulders. They sat there for a few minutes, and then Harper came in.
'Hey what's up? He asked, then he saw how sad it looked. 'You okay?' he asked, looking closely at Beka. She removed her hands and revealed she had not been crying.
'Nothing,' she half-snapped, 'I'm fine.' Trance felt her tail drop down to the bed again as she quickly rose and left. Trance rose too.
'What was that about?' Harper asked, confused. Trance gave him a quick look and followed Beka.
'Beka?' Her friend stopped and turned around.
'Are you going to keep the baby?' Beka looked down and then up to Trance again, nodding slightly.
'I don't want to remove it. I didn't exactly plan on having a baby, but now.I couldn't just remove it.'
'So, how are you going to tell Tyr?'
'I'm not.' Beka's blunt answer made Trance gasp.
'But.you have to tell him! I mean, you're going to start showing eventually and he'll have to know!'
'I will tell him.before I start showing. But I just spoke to him, and he still doesn't accept the fact that it wasn't his fault, he's blaming himself. If I tell him now, it'll only add to the guilt. I'll wait.'
'What's all this about?' They heard a voice and turned at the same time. It was Harper of course.
'Harper!' Trance said accusingly, 'how long have you been standing there?'
'Erm,' he said, 'if this was a movie, I would say "long enough" and leave, but I didn't stand here long enough, so what the hell are you talking about.' He walked up to Beka and put his arm around her shoulder, which looked pretty pathetic to Trance since she was so much taller than him.
'Hey what's wrong boss? You know you can always talk to Harper." Beka sighed and looked at him.
'All right. While possessed by the drug Tyr raped me and now I'm pregnant.' She had decided to go the direct way. She gently removed his arm and walked away with a quick pace down the corridor. Harper just stood there with his mouth wide open.
~TBC~