The search for sanity
By Natta
Summary: When all the male members of Andromeda are drugged to act strangely, Rommie, Beka and Trance has to take matters in their own hands and get their sanity back. Set somewhere in the first season
Disclaimer: I don't own Andromeda since I'm not Gene Roddenberry, which is damn lucky for me since the man is dead.
Another month had passed and they didn't speak much of the episode onboard the Andromeda. It was forgiven and they tried to move on as if nothing had happened. Trance, Rommie and Beka had started to spend much more time together though, but not even then they spoke much about what had happened. It was almost as if it had never occurred in the first place, and everyone was more or less troubled by that although they didn't want to start the conversation. Beka still hadn't told Tyr about her pregnancy, she still felt he was avoiding her. Rev and Dylan were in the dark too. Rommie knew of course since she heard their discussion, Harper hadn't said anything about it and Trance just tried to make sure Beka ate and slept properly. One night though, they had decided to have a "girls night out" as Beka jokingly called it, and their thoughts went back to the oppression they had endured. It was with laughter though, now that some time had passed it didn't feel so bad anymore.
'I'm not touching a rag again in my life!' Rommie exclaimed. 'I bet the walls will shine for months now, with all that cleaning we did.'
'We didn't do all of the ship though,' Trance reminded her.
'No, thank the divine for that!' There was a quiet moment as they relaxed and stared out at the stars.
'What are we going to do on this.what did you call it? Girls night out?' Rommie asked.
'I dunno. Maybe we could just sit here, if no one has a better idea.' Trance had been thinking for a while and now she turned to Beka with a determined look on her face.
'I know. You are going to tell Tyr.' Beka got a bit pale and looked away.
'No.I can't.' She shook her head and run her fingers through her hair, looking on anything but Trance. Suddenly, the purple girl got an evil smile on her face.
'All right. If you're not, I am.' Beka's eyes widened.
'Oh no, you can't do that! He'd be.no!' Rommie and Trance exchanged a glance and the android leaned forward.
'Or maybe I could just get my AI to inform him.'
'Yes,' Trance agreed, 'maybe that's even better.' She turned to Beka. 'Of course I think you should tell him yourself, but it's your choice.' Beka groaned.
'You've turned against me! Okay, I will tell him, but it's your fault if this goes bad!' 'Which I'm sure it will,' she added silently to herself as she left the room.
'Come in,' Tyr's deep voice was heard and Beka swallowed deep. She entered the room slowly and she saw he winced slightly when he saw it was her. He didn't say anything though, just looked at her expectantly.
'Tyr.there's something I have to tell you.' He didn't say anything, so she continued. 'I should have told you before, but I wanted this clear.tension between us to.at least lessen before I did.' She took a pause, moving closer to him. He looked down at her, probably seeing how hard it was for her to tell, because he put his hand on her back and gently moved for her to sit down. He then sat down next to her and looked in her eyes, waiting for her to tell. She was fiddling with her fingers, not knowing where to look.
'I know you won't like this, maybe you'll feel even worse and maybe it will make the tension get even worse too, I don't know, but.'
'Beka,' he broke off. 'What is it you want to tell me?' He was growing anxious, worried about what she was going to say. It had to be something bad. She looked up at him, a pleading gaze in her eyes.
'I spoke to Trance before and.' She took a deep breath. 'I'm pregnant.' Tyr's eyes widened in disbelief and Beka rose, walking around the room at a quick pace.
'I don't want to take it away. If you don't want the baby, you don't have to be father to it, but I want to keep it. Maybe I should go now and I.' Tyr had now regained his senses and motioned for her to get back to him. She became silent and sat down next to him again, her head hanging. He put an arm around her shoulders and she dared to look up at him. He had never seen her look so weak and vulnerable before, and he suddenly felt an urge to pull her closer and just encircle her in his arms. He resisted that urge though and instead started talking in a very sincere voice.
'This child,' he put a hand on her stomach and noticed her wincing slightly from the touch, 'wasn't created the way I've imagined my child to be created. But it is nevertheless my child and I will not leave you to raise it alone.' Her eyes lit up slightly.
'I'm glad you think that Tyr, and I hope.' she swallowed and looked away, 'I hope that we can be friends again even after what happened.' He nodded.
'I think we can Beka, maybe we just need to work on it.' She leaned back on the couch and looked down, then up to his face again.
'How do we do that?' she asked, sounding tired. Telling this had drained her of all her energy. When he saw her face looking at him like that, Tyr got an overwhelming urge that he couldn't resist. He leaned down and softly, gently kissed her on the lips. He was actually as surprised as she was, this was not what he had planned to do. Beka didn't pull away, and when the kiss broke, her shocked gaze met his.
'Tyr,' she whispered, 'what are you trying to tell me?' He stroke her cheek gently, not shocked anymore that he had done what he did.
'I.' he smiled. This time it was his turn to be uncertain what to say. 'When I look back at what happened, I can only feel anger at myself for not being able to resist the drug and.I feel bad for you, wishing that you wouldn't have had to go through with it. But somehow, I expected to feel something, at least something about sleeping with a kl.' he gave an excusing smile. 'Human. I have a feeling that if it wouldn't have been rape and I would have been myself, I would have enjoyed it. And I would have wanted to do it again.' Beka's eyes were about as wide as they could get now. She opened her mouth to say something, but not a word came over her lips. Tyr looked down.
'I guess what I'm saying is that I think we could have a more.normal parentship.' He realized that might not be so clear either. Beka had finally regained her speech ability.
'Are you saying you might consider having a.romantic relationship with me?' Tyr shook his head.
'No. Not consider. I want you to consider it. If you feel uncomfortable with it, I totally understand and I hope we can go back to being friends again. But.would you think about it?' Beka smiled and shook her head, imitating what he had done.
'Not think.' She said simply. Then she reached up, put her arms around his neck and gave him another kiss. This one was deeper, and in the heat of the moment, Tyr started to unzip her west and stroke her back, pulling her closer. Beka immediately pulled away and looked down, her hands slid down to his shoulders and then to his arms, not breaking contact.
'Tyr.I can't.' He stroke her hair, smiling slightly.
'I understand. It reminds you, doesn't it?' She nodded and took a breath to speak.
'It's not that I.I don't think it's going to be the same or anything, you mustn't think that! It's just, it feels so scary somehow.' He smiled and nodded, then pulled her in for a hug.
'I understand. We'll wait, have this little one and then we'll see. For now.let's just be together.'
The End.
A/N I finished! Well, it was a happy ending but maybe not perfect. Not everything is solved, so I'm going to ask you if anyone (apart from Lexi) wants a sequel. I have one in mind, but I want to know if you people are interested.
By Natta
Summary: When all the male members of Andromeda are drugged to act strangely, Rommie, Beka and Trance has to take matters in their own hands and get their sanity back. Set somewhere in the first season
Disclaimer: I don't own Andromeda since I'm not Gene Roddenberry, which is damn lucky for me since the man is dead.
Another month had passed and they didn't speak much of the episode onboard the Andromeda. It was forgiven and they tried to move on as if nothing had happened. Trance, Rommie and Beka had started to spend much more time together though, but not even then they spoke much about what had happened. It was almost as if it had never occurred in the first place, and everyone was more or less troubled by that although they didn't want to start the conversation. Beka still hadn't told Tyr about her pregnancy, she still felt he was avoiding her. Rev and Dylan were in the dark too. Rommie knew of course since she heard their discussion, Harper hadn't said anything about it and Trance just tried to make sure Beka ate and slept properly. One night though, they had decided to have a "girls night out" as Beka jokingly called it, and their thoughts went back to the oppression they had endured. It was with laughter though, now that some time had passed it didn't feel so bad anymore.
'I'm not touching a rag again in my life!' Rommie exclaimed. 'I bet the walls will shine for months now, with all that cleaning we did.'
'We didn't do all of the ship though,' Trance reminded her.
'No, thank the divine for that!' There was a quiet moment as they relaxed and stared out at the stars.
'What are we going to do on this.what did you call it? Girls night out?' Rommie asked.
'I dunno. Maybe we could just sit here, if no one has a better idea.' Trance had been thinking for a while and now she turned to Beka with a determined look on her face.
'I know. You are going to tell Tyr.' Beka got a bit pale and looked away.
'No.I can't.' She shook her head and run her fingers through her hair, looking on anything but Trance. Suddenly, the purple girl got an evil smile on her face.
'All right. If you're not, I am.' Beka's eyes widened.
'Oh no, you can't do that! He'd be.no!' Rommie and Trance exchanged a glance and the android leaned forward.
'Or maybe I could just get my AI to inform him.'
'Yes,' Trance agreed, 'maybe that's even better.' She turned to Beka. 'Of course I think you should tell him yourself, but it's your choice.' Beka groaned.
'You've turned against me! Okay, I will tell him, but it's your fault if this goes bad!' 'Which I'm sure it will,' she added silently to herself as she left the room.
'Come in,' Tyr's deep voice was heard and Beka swallowed deep. She entered the room slowly and she saw he winced slightly when he saw it was her. He didn't say anything though, just looked at her expectantly.
'Tyr.there's something I have to tell you.' He didn't say anything, so she continued. 'I should have told you before, but I wanted this clear.tension between us to.at least lessen before I did.' She took a pause, moving closer to him. He looked down at her, probably seeing how hard it was for her to tell, because he put his hand on her back and gently moved for her to sit down. He then sat down next to her and looked in her eyes, waiting for her to tell. She was fiddling with her fingers, not knowing where to look.
'I know you won't like this, maybe you'll feel even worse and maybe it will make the tension get even worse too, I don't know, but.'
'Beka,' he broke off. 'What is it you want to tell me?' He was growing anxious, worried about what she was going to say. It had to be something bad. She looked up at him, a pleading gaze in her eyes.
'I spoke to Trance before and.' She took a deep breath. 'I'm pregnant.' Tyr's eyes widened in disbelief and Beka rose, walking around the room at a quick pace.
'I don't want to take it away. If you don't want the baby, you don't have to be father to it, but I want to keep it. Maybe I should go now and I.' Tyr had now regained his senses and motioned for her to get back to him. She became silent and sat down next to him again, her head hanging. He put an arm around her shoulders and she dared to look up at him. He had never seen her look so weak and vulnerable before, and he suddenly felt an urge to pull her closer and just encircle her in his arms. He resisted that urge though and instead started talking in a very sincere voice.
'This child,' he put a hand on her stomach and noticed her wincing slightly from the touch, 'wasn't created the way I've imagined my child to be created. But it is nevertheless my child and I will not leave you to raise it alone.' Her eyes lit up slightly.
'I'm glad you think that Tyr, and I hope.' she swallowed and looked away, 'I hope that we can be friends again even after what happened.' He nodded.
'I think we can Beka, maybe we just need to work on it.' She leaned back on the couch and looked down, then up to his face again.
'How do we do that?' she asked, sounding tired. Telling this had drained her of all her energy. When he saw her face looking at him like that, Tyr got an overwhelming urge that he couldn't resist. He leaned down and softly, gently kissed her on the lips. He was actually as surprised as she was, this was not what he had planned to do. Beka didn't pull away, and when the kiss broke, her shocked gaze met his.
'Tyr,' she whispered, 'what are you trying to tell me?' He stroke her cheek gently, not shocked anymore that he had done what he did.
'I.' he smiled. This time it was his turn to be uncertain what to say. 'When I look back at what happened, I can only feel anger at myself for not being able to resist the drug and.I feel bad for you, wishing that you wouldn't have had to go through with it. But somehow, I expected to feel something, at least something about sleeping with a kl.' he gave an excusing smile. 'Human. I have a feeling that if it wouldn't have been rape and I would have been myself, I would have enjoyed it. And I would have wanted to do it again.' Beka's eyes were about as wide as they could get now. She opened her mouth to say something, but not a word came over her lips. Tyr looked down.
'I guess what I'm saying is that I think we could have a more.normal parentship.' He realized that might not be so clear either. Beka had finally regained her speech ability.
'Are you saying you might consider having a.romantic relationship with me?' Tyr shook his head.
'No. Not consider. I want you to consider it. If you feel uncomfortable with it, I totally understand and I hope we can go back to being friends again. But.would you think about it?' Beka smiled and shook her head, imitating what he had done.
'Not think.' She said simply. Then she reached up, put her arms around his neck and gave him another kiss. This one was deeper, and in the heat of the moment, Tyr started to unzip her west and stroke her back, pulling her closer. Beka immediately pulled away and looked down, her hands slid down to his shoulders and then to his arms, not breaking contact.
'Tyr.I can't.' He stroke her hair, smiling slightly.
'I understand. It reminds you, doesn't it?' She nodded and took a breath to speak.
'It's not that I.I don't think it's going to be the same or anything, you mustn't think that! It's just, it feels so scary somehow.' He smiled and nodded, then pulled her in for a hug.
'I understand. We'll wait, have this little one and then we'll see. For now.let's just be together.'
The End.
A/N I finished! Well, it was a happy ending but maybe not perfect. Not everything is solved, so I'm going to ask you if anyone (apart from Lexi) wants a sequel. I have one in mind, but I want to know if you people are interested.