Maria's Story: Being Me
Disclaimer: The Plot and Characters belong to The Sound of Music & 20th Century Fox, However Maria's Thoughts are mine.
Written by: Maria's Georg
Authors Note* Feel free to e-mail me! Part of this is in the film, part of it is a delete scene and part of it I made up. I hope you enjoy it! I like reviews!
Author's Note* Wow you guys! 7 reviews when I asked for 3! I honestly didn't think it was that great of a chapter.but hey if you think it's great then why should I be complaining?! LOL. SO here is the next chapter as promised it'd come early!
I apologize if this chapter isn't up to standards but I didn't know what to do to this chapter. I wanted some raw emotion in it but I don't know what happened to it. I think it's been carefully placed in the next chapter. In all honestly I like the next chapter better than this one.
5 Review Ransom for the next chapter.you get the drill. Thanks again everyone for supporting and reviewing my fanfiction! I LOVE REVIEWS!
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Chapter 19: Sinful Regrets
Now in the safe heaven of my room, I am thankful for the isolation from the party. I walk to my amoire and begin to undress for the party. Now what to wear?
"Knock. Knock." I open my mouth to ask them politely to go away, but before I even have the first word out of my mouth, the Baroness slips in.
"I'd like to help you change, Maria." I'm sure the woman has much more information on fashion than I do. I still don't want to go but I guess I don't have much of a choice.
"It's very kind of you to offer to help me, Baroness."
"I'm delighted, Maria."
"I - I - I really don't have any thing that would be appropriate." I slip the dress off of me and lay it on the bed. I try to make an excuse, even as I am in my room in the process of changing. I really didn't have anything for a grand party.
"Now, where is that lovely little thing you were wearing the other evening when the Captain couldn't keep his eyes off you?"
"Couldn't keep his eyes off me?" I only hear the words from her mouth, not quite having any feelings towards her statement.
I fasten the buttons off my dress.
"Come, my dear we are women. Now let's not pretend we don't know when a man notices us."
"Here we are." I walk to the window.
"The Captain notices everybody and everything."
"There's no need to feel so defensive, Maria. You are quite attractive, you know. The Captain would hardly be a man if he didn't notice you."
"Baroness, I hope you're joking."
"Not at all."
"But I've never done a thing to-" I hadn't done anything to even suggest I was interesting in him. I was getting confused.
"But you don't have to, my dear. There's nothing more irresistible to a man than a woman who's in love with him."
"In love with him?" I repeated her last words, shock had settled over me like a shell in so many words. The shock hadn't quite penetrated it, and I felt numb.
"Of course, and what makes it so nice is.he thinks he's in love with you."
"But that's not true." I spat just as fast. He didn't feel that way for me, I just knew he didn't.
"Surely you've noticed the way he looks into your eyes. And you know, uh, you blushed in his arms when you were dancing just now." A flash of the dance is held before my eyes and my hands fly to my cheeks in the realization of what was actually happening to me. A flood of emotions overcomes me and I feel hot and ackward. I want to cover the emotions I had been laying out in front of me like Gretl's trail breadcrumbs. She knew I had feelings for him. And I only just let myself realize it.
How could I have been so careless? I simply wasn't supposed to feel that way. I didn't want to feel that way.
"Don't take it to heart. He'll get over it soon enough I should think. Men do you know." I listen with half an ear. I need to get out of here. I feel trapped by my emotions, they surround me like a strong wind and follow me wherever I go. I couldn't stay. I just couldn't.
"Then I should go. I mustn't stay here." I force my voice to work, choking back the emotion as best I could. My head is spinning with thoughts about what had just happened. I grabbed my carpetbag from under my bed and began to stuff it will the contents of my amoire.
"Is there something I can do to help?"
"No, Nothing." I hadn't thought of anything. I couldn't think of much other than my distraught emotions, and that I needed to get out of there. Away, Away from my emotions away from it all. Just as the Baroness reaches the door, I realize that I don't want the Captain to know about any of this.
"Yes. Please don't say a word about this to the Captain." "No. No, I wouldn't dream of it." I resume my packing thoughts of realization spinning in my head. I feel stuffy.
"Goodbye Maria. I'm sure you'll make a very find nun." I finish my packing and I grab my old dress I slide it off the hanger, I begin to unbutton it. I claim defeat to the tears that threaten to spill. I hate myself right now. For having these feelings. I wipe the fallen tears from my face, I had to get moving despite the fact that my emotions were running high right now. I finish dressing and packing up all of my other belongings my books and such.
I decide to leave a note, as I couldn't tell anyone I was leaving. I take off my hat and lay it on the bed, and proceed to the desk in the corner. I take out a piece of paper from the drawer and a quill with some fresh ink that I hadn't used since I'd gotten there. I begin to write my farewell letter, I had to give a good reason as why I was leaving.
Dear, Captain & Children. I've enjoyed our time together, being your governess it's an experience I'll never forget. Despite this I simply miss my life at the abbey too much. I long to go back to where I belong and that is why I must return as soon as possible. I regret having to leave you so suddenly, I also regret having to leave with out saying Goodbye to you in person but I felt it would have been better this way.
I wish you all a happy life.
Goodbye, Maria
Folding up the letter, I slide it into the envelope, I address it to the; Captain. I grab the finished letter, I tuck it into my front pocket. I grab my guitar, carpetbag and hat, I quietly survey the room. It'll be the last time I'm in here, but I leave quickly and quietly before anyone would come after me wonder where I had been. I stealth fully walk down the hall to the main balcony making sure that I am not seen by anyone.
I look down to see if any of the guests are there, their not. Preoccupied with the Captain's party, I hurry down the stairs pull out the letter and place it on one of the tables in the hallway, propping it up for anyone to see. I hurry back to the door, taking one last look at the von Trapp villa. I step out into the night never to see these people ever again.
Disclaimer: The Plot and Characters belong to The Sound of Music & 20th Century Fox, However Maria's Thoughts are mine.
Written by: Maria's Georg
Authors Note* Feel free to e-mail me! Part of this is in the film, part of it is a delete scene and part of it I made up. I hope you enjoy it! I like reviews!
Author's Note* Wow you guys! 7 reviews when I asked for 3! I honestly didn't think it was that great of a chapter.but hey if you think it's great then why should I be complaining?! LOL. SO here is the next chapter as promised it'd come early!
I apologize if this chapter isn't up to standards but I didn't know what to do to this chapter. I wanted some raw emotion in it but I don't know what happened to it. I think it's been carefully placed in the next chapter. In all honestly I like the next chapter better than this one.
5 Review Ransom for the next chapter.you get the drill. Thanks again everyone for supporting and reviewing my fanfiction! I LOVE REVIEWS!
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Chapter 19: Sinful Regrets
Now in the safe heaven of my room, I am thankful for the isolation from the party. I walk to my amoire and begin to undress for the party. Now what to wear?
"Knock. Knock." I open my mouth to ask them politely to go away, but before I even have the first word out of my mouth, the Baroness slips in.
"I'd like to help you change, Maria." I'm sure the woman has much more information on fashion than I do. I still don't want to go but I guess I don't have much of a choice.
"It's very kind of you to offer to help me, Baroness."
"I'm delighted, Maria."
"I - I - I really don't have any thing that would be appropriate." I slip the dress off of me and lay it on the bed. I try to make an excuse, even as I am in my room in the process of changing. I really didn't have anything for a grand party.
"Now, where is that lovely little thing you were wearing the other evening when the Captain couldn't keep his eyes off you?"
"Couldn't keep his eyes off me?" I only hear the words from her mouth, not quite having any feelings towards her statement.
I fasten the buttons off my dress.
"Come, my dear we are women. Now let's not pretend we don't know when a man notices us."
"Here we are." I walk to the window.
"The Captain notices everybody and everything."
"There's no need to feel so defensive, Maria. You are quite attractive, you know. The Captain would hardly be a man if he didn't notice you."
"Baroness, I hope you're joking."
"Not at all."
"But I've never done a thing to-" I hadn't done anything to even suggest I was interesting in him. I was getting confused.
"But you don't have to, my dear. There's nothing more irresistible to a man than a woman who's in love with him."
"In love with him?" I repeated her last words, shock had settled over me like a shell in so many words. The shock hadn't quite penetrated it, and I felt numb.
"Of course, and what makes it so nice is.he thinks he's in love with you."
"But that's not true." I spat just as fast. He didn't feel that way for me, I just knew he didn't.
"Surely you've noticed the way he looks into your eyes. And you know, uh, you blushed in his arms when you were dancing just now." A flash of the dance is held before my eyes and my hands fly to my cheeks in the realization of what was actually happening to me. A flood of emotions overcomes me and I feel hot and ackward. I want to cover the emotions I had been laying out in front of me like Gretl's trail breadcrumbs. She knew I had feelings for him. And I only just let myself realize it.
How could I have been so careless? I simply wasn't supposed to feel that way. I didn't want to feel that way.
"Don't take it to heart. He'll get over it soon enough I should think. Men do you know." I listen with half an ear. I need to get out of here. I feel trapped by my emotions, they surround me like a strong wind and follow me wherever I go. I couldn't stay. I just couldn't.
"Then I should go. I mustn't stay here." I force my voice to work, choking back the emotion as best I could. My head is spinning with thoughts about what had just happened. I grabbed my carpetbag from under my bed and began to stuff it will the contents of my amoire.
"Is there something I can do to help?"
"No, Nothing." I hadn't thought of anything. I couldn't think of much other than my distraught emotions, and that I needed to get out of there. Away, Away from my emotions away from it all. Just as the Baroness reaches the door, I realize that I don't want the Captain to know about any of this.
"Yes. Please don't say a word about this to the Captain." "No. No, I wouldn't dream of it." I resume my packing thoughts of realization spinning in my head. I feel stuffy.
"Goodbye Maria. I'm sure you'll make a very find nun." I finish my packing and I grab my old dress I slide it off the hanger, I begin to unbutton it. I claim defeat to the tears that threaten to spill. I hate myself right now. For having these feelings. I wipe the fallen tears from my face, I had to get moving despite the fact that my emotions were running high right now. I finish dressing and packing up all of my other belongings my books and such.
I decide to leave a note, as I couldn't tell anyone I was leaving. I take off my hat and lay it on the bed, and proceed to the desk in the corner. I take out a piece of paper from the drawer and a quill with some fresh ink that I hadn't used since I'd gotten there. I begin to write my farewell letter, I had to give a good reason as why I was leaving.
Dear, Captain & Children. I've enjoyed our time together, being your governess it's an experience I'll never forget. Despite this I simply miss my life at the abbey too much. I long to go back to where I belong and that is why I must return as soon as possible. I regret having to leave you so suddenly, I also regret having to leave with out saying Goodbye to you in person but I felt it would have been better this way.
I wish you all a happy life.
Goodbye, Maria
Folding up the letter, I slide it into the envelope, I address it to the; Captain. I grab the finished letter, I tuck it into my front pocket. I grab my guitar, carpetbag and hat, I quietly survey the room. It'll be the last time I'm in here, but I leave quickly and quietly before anyone would come after me wonder where I had been. I stealth fully walk down the hall to the main balcony making sure that I am not seen by anyone.
I look down to see if any of the guests are there, their not. Preoccupied with the Captain's party, I hurry down the stairs pull out the letter and place it on one of the tables in the hallway, propping it up for anyone to see. I hurry back to the door, taking one last look at the von Trapp villa. I step out into the night never to see these people ever again.