Maria's Story: Being Me
Disclaimer: The Plot and Characters belong to The Sound of Music & 20th Century Fox, However Maria's Thoughts are mine.
Written by: Maria's Georg
Authors Note* I included the 3 deleted scenes from the film, info I learned and info I made up. Also this is a working story, and a working tittle! Enjoy Reading and please review it! Feel free to e-mail me! I can't wait til it's over and done w/so that I could start on my next fanfiction idea! I hope you all enjoy this chapter! You know I've been writing this fanfiction since 4.6.03! It's almost done w/now! I'm so happy, my very first chapter fanfiction!
4 Review Ransom for the next chapter! Thanks! Avid SOM fanfiction fans! Without you this fanfiction wouldn't be possible!
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Chapter 21: Offal things in life.
"You may go in how." I nod and follow Sister Magaretta back into Reverend Mother's Office. I hastily walk to Reverend Mother's and perform the standard greeting, hoping this will be over soon so I can return to the safe haven of my dusty old room. They're to be alone with my thoughts and feelings, once again.
"You've been unhappy. I'm sorry." I look up, kissing her hand.
"Reverend Mother." I force my voice for the first time in a week. I stand up.
"Why did they send you back to us?"
"They didn't send me back, Mother, I- I left."
"Sit down, Maria. Tell me what happened." I reach the chair in front of her desk. I sit, and try to find my voice once again. Hoping to avoid tell Reverend Mother about my recent feelings.
"Well, I-I was frightened."
"Frightened? Were they unkind to you?"
"Oh, no! No, I - I was - I was confused. I - I felt - I've never felt that way before. I couldn't stay. I knew here that I'd be away from it. I'd be safe."
"Maria, our Abbey is not to be used as an escape. What is it you can't face?" I was becoming confused, nervous. Just the very question I prayed she'd not ask. My stomach turning at my nervousness. I take a deep breath, trying to ease my nervous state that had formed in the pit of my stomach.
"I can't face him again."
"Him?" That was it. She knew, we all knew now. Oh God why do I have to feel this way?!
"Thank you, Sister Magaretta." We were alone now, all I wanted to do was run. Run from everything, run from my feelings and everyone. Where no one would know me, and where nothing could happen.
"Captain von Trapp? Are you in love with him?" My heart began to pound very fast, I knew I was found out. Oh. Love? Oh I don't know. How could I? It was defiantly something.something that had been bothering me since.
"I don't know! I don't know! The Baroness said I was. She - She said that he was in love with me, But I - I didn't want to believe it. Oh, there were times when we would look at each other. Oh Mother I could hardly breathe." I exclaimed. A flood of emotions overcomes me and I clutched my stomach relieving the feelings all over again.
"Did you let him see how you feel?"
"If I did, I didn't know it. That's what's been torturing me. I was there on God's errand. To have asked for his love would have been wrong. Oh, I couldn't stay, I just couldn't. I'm read at this moment to take my vows. Please help me." I'd had been so confused these past few days. I simply didn't want to feel this way. I just wanted them to go away.
"Maria, the love of a man and a woman is holy, too. You have a great capacity to love. What you must find out is how God wants you to spend your love."
"But I pledged my life to God, I - I've pledged my life to his service."
"My daughter, if you love this man it doesn't mean you love God less. No. You must find out. You must go back."
"Oh, Mother, you can't ask me to do that. Please let me stay. I beg of you." The truth was these feelings scared me more than anything that I had ever know.
"Maria, these walls were not built to shut out problems. You have to face them. You have to live the life you were born to live."
Disclaimer: The Plot and Characters belong to The Sound of Music & 20th Century Fox, However Maria's Thoughts are mine.
Written by: Maria's Georg
Authors Note* I included the 3 deleted scenes from the film, info I learned and info I made up. Also this is a working story, and a working tittle! Enjoy Reading and please review it! Feel free to e-mail me! I can't wait til it's over and done w/so that I could start on my next fanfiction idea! I hope you all enjoy this chapter! You know I've been writing this fanfiction since 4.6.03! It's almost done w/now! I'm so happy, my very first chapter fanfiction!
4 Review Ransom for the next chapter! Thanks! Avid SOM fanfiction fans! Without you this fanfiction wouldn't be possible!
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Chapter 21: Offal things in life.
"You may go in how." I nod and follow Sister Magaretta back into Reverend Mother's Office. I hastily walk to Reverend Mother's and perform the standard greeting, hoping this will be over soon so I can return to the safe haven of my dusty old room. They're to be alone with my thoughts and feelings, once again.
"You've been unhappy. I'm sorry." I look up, kissing her hand.
"Reverend Mother." I force my voice for the first time in a week. I stand up.
"Why did they send you back to us?"
"They didn't send me back, Mother, I- I left."
"Sit down, Maria. Tell me what happened." I reach the chair in front of her desk. I sit, and try to find my voice once again. Hoping to avoid tell Reverend Mother about my recent feelings.
"Well, I-I was frightened."
"Frightened? Were they unkind to you?"
"Oh, no! No, I - I was - I was confused. I - I felt - I've never felt that way before. I couldn't stay. I knew here that I'd be away from it. I'd be safe."
"Maria, our Abbey is not to be used as an escape. What is it you can't face?" I was becoming confused, nervous. Just the very question I prayed she'd not ask. My stomach turning at my nervousness. I take a deep breath, trying to ease my nervous state that had formed in the pit of my stomach.
"I can't face him again."
"Him?" That was it. She knew, we all knew now. Oh God why do I have to feel this way?!
"Thank you, Sister Magaretta." We were alone now, all I wanted to do was run. Run from everything, run from my feelings and everyone. Where no one would know me, and where nothing could happen.
"Captain von Trapp? Are you in love with him?" My heart began to pound very fast, I knew I was found out. Oh. Love? Oh I don't know. How could I? It was defiantly something.something that had been bothering me since.
"I don't know! I don't know! The Baroness said I was. She - She said that he was in love with me, But I - I didn't want to believe it. Oh, there were times when we would look at each other. Oh Mother I could hardly breathe." I exclaimed. A flood of emotions overcomes me and I clutched my stomach relieving the feelings all over again.
"Did you let him see how you feel?"
"If I did, I didn't know it. That's what's been torturing me. I was there on God's errand. To have asked for his love would have been wrong. Oh, I couldn't stay, I just couldn't. I'm read at this moment to take my vows. Please help me." I'd had been so confused these past few days. I simply didn't want to feel this way. I just wanted them to go away.
"Maria, the love of a man and a woman is holy, too. You have a great capacity to love. What you must find out is how God wants you to spend your love."
"But I pledged my life to God, I - I've pledged my life to his service."
"My daughter, if you love this man it doesn't mean you love God less. No. You must find out. You must go back."
"Oh, Mother, you can't ask me to do that. Please let me stay. I beg of you." The truth was these feelings scared me more than anything that I had ever know.
"Maria, these walls were not built to shut out problems. You have to face them. You have to live the life you were born to live."