Maria's Story: Being Me
Disclaimer: The Plot and Characters belong to The Sound of Music & 20th Century Fox, However Maria's Thoughts are mine.
Written by: Maria's Georg
Authors Note* I included the 3 deleted scenes from the film, info I learned and info I made up. Also this is a working story, and a working tittle! Enjoy Reading and please review it! Just to let you know. Feel free to e- mail me! This is my favorite part of the film! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!
Ransom Note* As I said previously I don't think I'm going to have ransom's anymore. I'm getting tired with this fanfic.it's been 6 months since I started it and it's STILL not finished. Grr Me! I do have an idea for another chapter fanfiction.which I haven't started due to this fanfic and 2 others as well as I have to do research on it. So all won't see a big chapter fanfic from me for a while.
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Chapter 23: Not Yours, Sincerely Maria
Shock settling over me, making me feel numb. I couldn't believe it. I just couldn't.
"Yes. To Baroness Schraeder." Looking at all of their faces I knew it was true. The shock had begun already to slip away, and I begun to feel depressed again. Emotions beginning to over come me. I felt like my whole world was falling apart. I felt hot, embarrassed, depressed. I felt horrible, and it wasn't going to get better. No matter how hard I tried.
"Oh I see." Tears were forming in my eyes. I did my best to hid them from the children. The shock had formed around me, I didn't want to believe it. This wasn't happening.
"Oh, Father. Look! Look!" I whipped around to find the Captain at the top of the steps, the door slightly open. Blinking at the sight of him. A wave of nervousness engulfed me, and I felt the pain all over again, just by looking at him. He was the last person I had wanted to see. Yet ironically the first person I had wanted to see, before I heard about the news.
"Father, Fraulein Maria's come back from the Abbey!" I swallowed hard, trying to force the tears & visible pain back inside of me, they seem to threaten to overpower me and in a matter of time I was going to give into the emotions.
"Good evening, Captain." At least I had the children to protect me from him getting any closer.
"Good Evening. All right, everyone inside. Go and get your dinner."
"Dinner! Dinner!" I feel the children move from my side to enter the house, my safety net was ripped from me once again. I had only the distance between us to protect me. We were alone, he would ask the questions that I didn't want to hear. The Captain moves down the steps, each step he takes is like another dagger stabbing my heart. I had to get out of there. He finally stops at the end of the steps and I make no move to meet him. Taking my very last comfort in the distance that has gotten even smaller between us.
"You left without saying goodbye.even to the children."
"Well it was wrong of me, forgive me."
"Why did you?" The question I knew he would ask. I could never tell him why, I couldn't explain my feelings very well myself. I wanted to run and never look back. I should have never come back. Never.
"Please don't ask me. Anyway, the reason no longer exists." That was the truth of it. I couldn't lie, but I couldn't tell him. I wanted so desperately to feel that connection between us, but I didn't want him to see the pain in my eyes, or the pain in my heart. I just wanted to get this conversation over with and leave, without saying goodbye. Again.
I hear the footsteps of another individual, I force my eyes to see through my flooded rain storm. Eyes are blurry, from the tears that haven't fallen.
"Fraulein Maria, you've returned. Isn't it wonderful, Georg?" In all my hurt, I realized how jealous I was of the Baroness. She had everything I wanted. But the truth was he was happy. All I had to do now was just walk away, and the sun would come out the every next day and I would be happy again. It didn't seem that easy, not this time.
I realize I need to end the conversation, with a congratulation towards their impending wedding. The thought makes my stomach turn, forcing more tears forward, and I have to work all of my will power from letting them flow. I gulp once more, and move forward.
"May I wish you every happiness Baroness and you Captain. The children tell me your going to be married." That left a foul taste in my mouth, and the emotions begun to tug at my heart.
"Thank you my dear." My strength had begun to leave me, and I knew I had to leave otherwise they would see everything that I felt. I moved past them as far away as I could get, practically running towards the door, I knew the save haven of the house would only be a few steps away. I face towards the door, not at any moment letting them see the pain that's begun to take over me.
"Your are back to stay?" I hear the Captain say just as I reach the door, behind me. I take a deep breath, preparing myself to face him. I turn and shake my head. Trying to find the words.
"Only until the arrangements can be made for another governess." I flee inside before another question is asked. And race to my room, where I let my emotions finally take over me.
Disclaimer: The Plot and Characters belong to The Sound of Music & 20th Century Fox, However Maria's Thoughts are mine.
Written by: Maria's Georg
Authors Note* I included the 3 deleted scenes from the film, info I learned and info I made up. Also this is a working story, and a working tittle! Enjoy Reading and please review it! Just to let you know. Feel free to e- mail me! This is my favorite part of the film! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!
Ransom Note* As I said previously I don't think I'm going to have ransom's anymore. I'm getting tired with this fanfic.it's been 6 months since I started it and it's STILL not finished. Grr Me! I do have an idea for another chapter fanfiction.which I haven't started due to this fanfic and 2 others as well as I have to do research on it. So all won't see a big chapter fanfic from me for a while.
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Chapter 23: Not Yours, Sincerely Maria
Shock settling over me, making me feel numb. I couldn't believe it. I just couldn't.
"Yes. To Baroness Schraeder." Looking at all of their faces I knew it was true. The shock had begun already to slip away, and I begun to feel depressed again. Emotions beginning to over come me. I felt like my whole world was falling apart. I felt hot, embarrassed, depressed. I felt horrible, and it wasn't going to get better. No matter how hard I tried.
"Oh I see." Tears were forming in my eyes. I did my best to hid them from the children. The shock had formed around me, I didn't want to believe it. This wasn't happening.
"Oh, Father. Look! Look!" I whipped around to find the Captain at the top of the steps, the door slightly open. Blinking at the sight of him. A wave of nervousness engulfed me, and I felt the pain all over again, just by looking at him. He was the last person I had wanted to see. Yet ironically the first person I had wanted to see, before I heard about the news.
"Father, Fraulein Maria's come back from the Abbey!" I swallowed hard, trying to force the tears & visible pain back inside of me, they seem to threaten to overpower me and in a matter of time I was going to give into the emotions.
"Good evening, Captain." At least I had the children to protect me from him getting any closer.
"Good Evening. All right, everyone inside. Go and get your dinner."
"Dinner! Dinner!" I feel the children move from my side to enter the house, my safety net was ripped from me once again. I had only the distance between us to protect me. We were alone, he would ask the questions that I didn't want to hear. The Captain moves down the steps, each step he takes is like another dagger stabbing my heart. I had to get out of there. He finally stops at the end of the steps and I make no move to meet him. Taking my very last comfort in the distance that has gotten even smaller between us.
"You left without saying goodbye.even to the children."
"Well it was wrong of me, forgive me."
"Why did you?" The question I knew he would ask. I could never tell him why, I couldn't explain my feelings very well myself. I wanted to run and never look back. I should have never come back. Never.
"Please don't ask me. Anyway, the reason no longer exists." That was the truth of it. I couldn't lie, but I couldn't tell him. I wanted so desperately to feel that connection between us, but I didn't want him to see the pain in my eyes, or the pain in my heart. I just wanted to get this conversation over with and leave, without saying goodbye. Again.
I hear the footsteps of another individual, I force my eyes to see through my flooded rain storm. Eyes are blurry, from the tears that haven't fallen.
"Fraulein Maria, you've returned. Isn't it wonderful, Georg?" In all my hurt, I realized how jealous I was of the Baroness. She had everything I wanted. But the truth was he was happy. All I had to do now was just walk away, and the sun would come out the every next day and I would be happy again. It didn't seem that easy, not this time.
I realize I need to end the conversation, with a congratulation towards their impending wedding. The thought makes my stomach turn, forcing more tears forward, and I have to work all of my will power from letting them flow. I gulp once more, and move forward.
"May I wish you every happiness Baroness and you Captain. The children tell me your going to be married." That left a foul taste in my mouth, and the emotions begun to tug at my heart.
"Thank you my dear." My strength had begun to leave me, and I knew I had to leave otherwise they would see everything that I felt. I moved past them as far away as I could get, practically running towards the door, I knew the save haven of the house would only be a few steps away. I face towards the door, not at any moment letting them see the pain that's begun to take over me.
"Your are back to stay?" I hear the Captain say just as I reach the door, behind me. I take a deep breath, preparing myself to face him. I turn and shake my head. Trying to find the words.
"Only until the arrangements can be made for another governess." I flee inside before another question is asked. And race to my room, where I let my emotions finally take over me.