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Kagome can't take the pain of seeing Inuyasha with Kikyo so she leaves.

[Heaven bent to take my hand

And lead me through the fire

Be the long awaited answer

To a long and painful fight]

'Why is it so hand to let go? He was not in my reach in the first place. He treated me like

shit. I don't belong here. Hojo is really nice and I keep turning him down and yet he keeps

trying. Why is it so hard to tell him off?' For all the reasons Kagome could think of to

hate him. Tears fell on the letter that she wrote. She put the jewel into the letter.

[Truth be told I've tried my best

But somewhere along the way

I got caught up in all there was to offer

And the cost was so much more than I could bear]

She remembered all the times she was called name by him and didn't do anything. Her

thought turned to Inuyasha. With all his strength he never hurt her. He called her names

but his golden eyes told the story of his pain. She had desperately wanted to heal the

wounds that he held. But alas she couldn't catch the one thing she wanted most, Inuyasha.

For her efforts she had a broken heart.

[Though I've tried, I've fallen...

I have sunk so low

I have messed up

Better I should know

So don't come round here

And tell me I told you so...]

She left the letter near the tree where he was pinned for so long and jumped down the

well for the last time so he wouldn't see her cry it would hurt even more.

[We all begin with good intent

Love was raw and young

We believed that we could change ourselves

The past could be undone

But we carry on our backs the burden

Time always reveals

The lonely light of morning

The wound that would not heal

It's the bitter taste of losing everything

That I have held so dear.]

He found the tear stained letter in it was the jewel. Inuyasha opened the letter and read it.

To my love Inuyasha,

By the time you read this letter I will be gone. I can't tell you in person because I would

lose it. You have my heart always but I couldn't grasp yours. Even now I am sobbing by

the time you read this I will be in my room crying long into the night. I miss seeing you

next to me, miss your voice comforting me, I miss your strong but gentle touch. I don't

need a jewel that can grant wishes. The only one I have is out of my grasp from the day

we met. It was my dream to be the one to heal your broken heart. Inuyasha I love so

much. You have my heart and soul, all I ask is that you remember me.

Always yours,

Kagome Higurashi

[I've fallen...

I have sunk so low

I have messed up

Better I should know

So don't come round here

And tell me I told you so...]

Inuyasha realized what he lost. 'Yes I did love Kikyo but I have to let go.' tears flowed

freely 'Because I didn't want to get hurt I lost my one chance at happiness.' His soul

shattered when he realized that.

[Heaven bent to take my hand

Nowhere left to turn

I'm lost to those I thought were friends

To everyone I know

Oh they turned their heads embarrassed

Pretend that they don't see

But it's one missed step

You'll slip before you know it

And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed]

He took a piece of paper and wrote a letter.

To my love Kagome,

I am sorry I never meant to hurt you but in the end I hurt you worse than any injury. In my

blind faith to my first love I did to you what Naraku did to me. Thank you for the jewel

but I have no use for it because it can't heal all the pain I caused you. I can't begin to start

to make amends for what I have done. I don't mean to hurt you even more but I love you.

It took you losing you to realize that. I regret my actions so much and though I will never

feel your warmth again that is the only thing that could heal my heart. I wish so much to

hear your angel voice, see your perfect body, feel you next to me, smell your sweet scent

again. All I can say is I hope the gods give us one more chance.

Your Love,

Inuyasha

A tear slipped from his eye. He put the letter in a hole.

[Though I've tried, I've fallen...

I have sunk so low

I have messed up

Better I should know

So don't come round here

And tell me I told you so...]

About dusk Kagome went out to the tree where Inuyasha was pinned. Kagome turned on

the radio to listen to something upbeat to make her happy but the song playing was

Dido's Here With Me. She only succeeded in dredging up memories. Thinking she would

fell better if she could do something that took focus climbed the tree. When she got up

into the tree she found Inuyasha's letter. She climbed down and read it. After she read it

Kagome ran to her room and closed the door. She put her face into the pillow and let out

all the pent up sorrow that had accumulated during her travels.

[Though I've tried, I've fallen...

I have sunk so low

I have messed up

Better I should know

So don't come round here

And tell me I told you so...]

Five minutes later she heard footsteps coming up the stairs and she heard a door open and

close. Thanks to her depression her senses were not working quite right so she could not

tell which door it was. Suddenly she felt the bed sink. Then she felt had hand touch her

face then a rough sleeve gently wipe her face clean of tears. The person stroked her face

again and put her head on their lap. Kagome usually didn't like that but today she took

any comfort she could. A familiar male voice whisper "It's okay Kagome."

Trying to comfort her he sang the only song he knew. He had listened to her sing it so

many times. The song was really how he felt.

"Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

You all assume

I'm safe here in my room

Unless i try to start again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

Cause inside i realize

That i'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why i have to scream

I don't know why i instigate

And say what i don't mean

I don't know how i got this way

I know it's not alright

So i'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more

Than anytime before

I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

Cause inside i realize

That i'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why i have to scream

I don't know why i instigate

And say what i don't mean

I don't know how i got this way

I'll never be alright

So i'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls

Cause i'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why i have to scream

But now i have some clarity

To show you what i mean

I don't know how i got this way

I'll never be alright

So i'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit tonight"

Kagome had calmed down considerably. He leaned down and kissed her. 'That was a

befitting song. But I know what's for. My Kagome.' as he was getting up Kagome opened

her eyes she saw her wish coming true. 'I must be dreaming. Is that Inuyasha?' she

thought. Opening her eyes she saw she wasn't. She quickly grabbed his arm. Inuyasha

noticed that she was awake and set down beside her. "I'm sorry for the pain I caused." he

said.

Kagome looked him in his eyes and said "I want to forget the past. But if you really want

to make it up to me by stay here to night."

Inuyasha nodded. Kagome laid down on the bed Inuyasha followed her shortly. Kagome

turned over and said "Good night my love." and kissed him.

Inuyasha wrapped his arm around her gently. They both stayed that way though the night.

The next morning Kagome's mom walked in to get her daughter up do chores. But she

seen the two in peaceful slumber and decided it best to not wake them. She locked the

door and closed it. 'There will be other days she can do the chores. Moments like this

only come once in a blue moon.' thought as she went to off.

A/N I don't own Inuyasha, Fallen, Here With Me or Breaking The Habit. I know that it is

a lot like another fic of mine but I didn't use the basis of it on this one. I felt so much of

the Inuyasha and Kagome relationship in the song I had to the song fic. The reason I used

letters was I wanted to have love out of their reach. Well please R/R.