Final chapter of this fic is here. Yes it's only two long. It took me two or three days to figure out which song I should use for a second chappie, and it hit me in the car a few hours ago. The line I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone made me think that this song would work great. It is My Immortal by Evanescence (my fav group!), I think it's quite a sad song. Perfect for a sad fic. *sweatdrop* Thanks to everyone who reviewed, and enjoy!
*I do not own InuYasha, My Immortal or anything else here except the plot.*
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I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
It's been so long now, and I can't take it any longer. How much I need you is unreal, Kagome. So much doubt arises when your gone, and now your lost because of me. I know you have to go, your already gone. But your still trapped in my mind. The scene keeps replaying itself, I can't do this. I want to die, I want to be with you! Please Kagome, if your memory can't leave me be then let me join you...
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
I don't want to be here anymore. This pain...it's endless, I'll never forget you. The guilt will never leave, nor will the memory of you. Thinking of you hurts, but your all that lingers in my head. Will I ever get over your loss? Can time really heal these wounds that run so deep within me? Kikiyo may not have killed my body but my soul is dying ever so slowly, being devoured by this agony inside.
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
I've always tried to protect you, but I wasn't there the moment you needed me most. Your eyes shed almost no tears and you looked so brave the moments your were slipping away, yet sorrow still lingered. God, Kagome...your scream...from the time it reached my ears I knew I was too late. Your hand was so cold in my grasp...and in your grasp was my cold heart which you had melted with your warmth. And you took it with you, all the way to heaven.
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
My soul is dark and lost. Your light was my single guide, and now it's been extinguished. All I can see is your face, fading away...your eyes slowly growing blank while you lay in my arms. I can't stop thinking that there was some way to save you, some way to stop this horrible nightmare and I couldn't think of it. It was because of me that you were lost and I'll never forget it.
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
Some of your last words brought a flood of tears to my eyes. Don't forget me you said, but how could I? All that you've done for me, what you never had to do. I was such a jerk to you in the beginning but you stuck by me. When I picked Kikiyo over you you returned to me. No one thought you should have, I can't count how many times they told me that I should apologize to you, but I never did. I couldn't face you, I wasn't brave enough after what I had done to you. But you took care of it, as always. I could always count on you to make things right, but now who will?
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
My hand met your tears and carried them away, just to have more of my own fall on your pale face. I'd never felt so desperate in my entire life, I would have done anything to save you. Kagome, you were everything to me, you still are. To have you live...it's become my greatest dream. It's all I want. You took a part of me with you, and now half of me is gone. I want to feel the warmth of your skin on my face one last time. What I would give to talk to you again. To beg for your forgiveness, to tell you what you mean to me and how much I need you. Kagome...
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
I know that your gone, even though I don't want it to be true. For minutes after your death I held your limp body close and begged for it not to be true. I screamed for you to return. Miroku and Sango stood at a distance, he was comforting her I know. After an eternity they told me to leave you, that my cries were in vain. All that remains now is your memory, Kagome. When I had you I wasn't alone, I felt whole, that I finally had someone again. Now your lost to me, and I can't have you back no matter what. Unless I die...but I am still among the living, alone again.
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
I fought them with all my might. Miroku told me to give up, that you were gone. Sango couldn't even speak that much. I can remember what I said...No! She can't be gone! I need her...Kagome...come back...I tightened my grasp on you and broke down. Sango walked up to me and stroked my shoulders. I let you go, some how I did and my head fell to my hands. They helped me up, and supported me back to this hut where I lie now.
This is really the end. These tears will never stop falling, they are an endless rain. I'll never be the same again. I don't know what I can do anymore, save reminisce. I'll never forget you Kagome. Never forget the wonderful times we shared, and the obstacles we tackled together. I only wish that the memory of your death was a lie, that I could erase it. The most horrible moment in my life is engraved in me, and my heart can feel the pain of the process. If you can hear me Kagome, if I had to pick one final thing to say to you this would be it. All that's left of my love lingers with you, and let it stay in your heart until I may join you.