Android Kikaider
Waiting for Dusk
Written by: Spike (Don't own Kikaider, wish I did though…)
A/N: After a long wait… it's here!
Chapter: Numbness of My Heart
"I… won't forget… I'll never forget…"
Kikaider was now deep in the forest, lost in his life, begotten by the darkness. Without knowing, without thinking, he struck out into the air, hitting only the emptiness inside of him.
"I… will never believe… where… am I? Is this it…? Is this… true darkness?"
Ah… young Kikaider…Kikaider jumped in his brain, though he continued to wonder through the dark. "Who are you? What… have you done… to me?"
Foolish boy… it is all coming in on you. Your emotions are closing in on your heart. You can't stop it now. I am in control of your fate.
"You can't… control me! I'll never be…. Controlled!" Tears ran through his face, burning his metallic skin. But he didn't care… "I just… want… to see… light… again…"
Light? Ha! Such a thing does not exist anymore. Both you and your beloved are wondering through darkness, unaware of the danger at hand.
"I'll… never… let go! I'll never… lose hope!"
From the window of her heart, Mitsuko watches Jiro's hopeless struggle against his own shadow. She cries as she watches this, fearing his life was forfeit for hers. There was nothing anyone could do for them except pray. Mitsuko only wished to be by his side right now… but she was bonded to the swirling stones around her, binding her heart to the edge of Hell.
She is so foolish, to struggle against that which cannot be beat. She'll never win, no matter how hard she tries. I will finally achieve victory…
"Jiro! Please… save yourself! Don't struggle… don't let your emotions defeat you! Please, be safe… Jiro… JIRO!!!"
He could see the light now… but it was only a lie, a fake of the perfection that was his emotion. Through his tears, he could see something… a shadow in a familiar shape. Looking up and down, Kikaider realized… it was himself. Perhaps not him entirely, but a damn-near replica of himself. Except, this person was covered entirely in black… a shadow? A mere reflection of himself?
Guess all you want, Kikaider… you'll never know who I am. You'll never believe what I believe, or know what I know, until you strike me down. And you can never do that, as long as you struggle against your emotions.
Shadows… better be ready for this! As for the person who asked where I get my quotes – sometimes I get them from anime, sometimes I make them up.
-Spike (Emotions do not have to be wasted – just don't use them so often.)