Several days later, after strained meals and long nights, Trish finally
came to Neo's room to get him. She didn't even bother to get Morpheus, this
wasn't his problem, and though he would learn about the events in the med
lab soon, right now, only Neo needed to be there. Upon opening the door,
Neo saw a pale, sick looking, and sad Trinity. He had seen exactly where
she was primarily hurt and knew that was where the baby was.
When he saw the look on her face, he said no words, made no sound. He only walked to her bed, wrapped his arms around her, and allowed her to cry into his shoulder. How long they stayed like that, not even Trish knew, but when Trinity finished, Neo knew she was different. The hard shell Trinity had surrounded herself in had cracked, and not just one crack like the one he had caused when she fell in love with him, but instead, many spider cracks.
"Hey, I love you. Nothing's gonna change that. You know that?" Neo asked quietly as he pulled back to look into her wet eyes.
Trinity nodded, unable to speak. A stiff silence followed before Trinity spoke.
"Trish said, she said that either she take the baby out now, or let me go through about another eight hours of pain before I had a full miscarriage. God, it was already dead, Neo! It was already dead..." Trinity sobbed out her pain, her sadness, and even a little relief. She didn't want a child to grow up now, not in this world, but the idea of having a child nonetheless was thrilling.
Neo's own tears meshed with Trinity's as they cried together. She had felt so alone, thinking he would never understand how much she felt like a part of her had just been taken out of her. But he did. More than she knew. He had felt the same as her. He didn't want a child to grow up here, but did want a child. Neo didn't have the words to comfort Trinity. None would suffice. She needed him to be there for her. That was all. And he was.
Two Months Later
"We're in." Neo spoke into the phone.
Trinity and Strife followed Neo as they walked the streets to find a new contact. Upon entering the seedy building where they were to meet, two agents attacked with a team of cops. Neo took the two agents on as Trinity and Strife fought to make an opening to get out. As they fled the building a mother holding an infant changed into an agent. Trinity stopped dead upon seeing the baby dropped; it's neck breaking upon hitting the ground.
The agent took this pause to aim a gun at Trinity and fire. Trinity stood frozen. Neo turned and stopped the bullet, grabbed Trinity by the arm and followed Strife to the exit.
~~*~~
"What the hell happened to you in there?" Strife yelled at Trinity when they were all safely back on the ship.
"Fuck off Strife." Trinity retorted. Neo saw the look in her eyes when that baby broke it's neck. He saw the look in her eyes now. The last thing she needed was to be verbally pummeled over something she was already upset about.
Before Strife could get enough steam to say something back to Trinity, Morpheus' scolding tone silenced everyone.
"Stop. Trinity, go rest, Neo go with her. Strife, come with me. Now."
~~*~~
"I choked. I saw that baby, and I choked. I can't believe it. Fuck, Neo, it's been two months!" Trinity cried out the moment he shut the door.
"It's okay Trinity. You..."
"It's not okay! Okay? I cannot let what just happened in there ever happen again. My life was almost snuffed out due to a human weakness."
"But you are human Trinity! What else do you want? To be like the machines? Heartless, soulless, unfeeling?" Neo shot back, tears falling down his own face.
"What? How dare you!"
"I do dare, dammit! You are human. Humans are not perfect, we make mistakes, we have feelings, we hurt, we love, and we hate. It's that which makes us stronger than the machines Trinity. True, you shouldn't have choked in there, but if you didn't and just moved on without caring, you'd be that much worse than you are now."
Trinity's battle was crushed upon hearing that she was only human. She did such a good job of making others believe she was more than human due to her stoic attitude and strength, she actually believed it herself. But Neo was right. She was human. With the truth hitting her in the face like a slap, Trinity collapsed into Neo's arms, crying.
"When will this be over? I want to be able to move on, but I can't."
"When you're ready to move on, you will. And I'll be there with you. You're not alone."
When he saw the look on her face, he said no words, made no sound. He only walked to her bed, wrapped his arms around her, and allowed her to cry into his shoulder. How long they stayed like that, not even Trish knew, but when Trinity finished, Neo knew she was different. The hard shell Trinity had surrounded herself in had cracked, and not just one crack like the one he had caused when she fell in love with him, but instead, many spider cracks.
"Hey, I love you. Nothing's gonna change that. You know that?" Neo asked quietly as he pulled back to look into her wet eyes.
Trinity nodded, unable to speak. A stiff silence followed before Trinity spoke.
"Trish said, she said that either she take the baby out now, or let me go through about another eight hours of pain before I had a full miscarriage. God, it was already dead, Neo! It was already dead..." Trinity sobbed out her pain, her sadness, and even a little relief. She didn't want a child to grow up now, not in this world, but the idea of having a child nonetheless was thrilling.
Neo's own tears meshed with Trinity's as they cried together. She had felt so alone, thinking he would never understand how much she felt like a part of her had just been taken out of her. But he did. More than she knew. He had felt the same as her. He didn't want a child to grow up here, but did want a child. Neo didn't have the words to comfort Trinity. None would suffice. She needed him to be there for her. That was all. And he was.
Two Months Later
"We're in." Neo spoke into the phone.
Trinity and Strife followed Neo as they walked the streets to find a new contact. Upon entering the seedy building where they were to meet, two agents attacked with a team of cops. Neo took the two agents on as Trinity and Strife fought to make an opening to get out. As they fled the building a mother holding an infant changed into an agent. Trinity stopped dead upon seeing the baby dropped; it's neck breaking upon hitting the ground.
The agent took this pause to aim a gun at Trinity and fire. Trinity stood frozen. Neo turned and stopped the bullet, grabbed Trinity by the arm and followed Strife to the exit.
~~*~~
"What the hell happened to you in there?" Strife yelled at Trinity when they were all safely back on the ship.
"Fuck off Strife." Trinity retorted. Neo saw the look in her eyes when that baby broke it's neck. He saw the look in her eyes now. The last thing she needed was to be verbally pummeled over something she was already upset about.
Before Strife could get enough steam to say something back to Trinity, Morpheus' scolding tone silenced everyone.
"Stop. Trinity, go rest, Neo go with her. Strife, come with me. Now."
~~*~~
"I choked. I saw that baby, and I choked. I can't believe it. Fuck, Neo, it's been two months!" Trinity cried out the moment he shut the door.
"It's okay Trinity. You..."
"It's not okay! Okay? I cannot let what just happened in there ever happen again. My life was almost snuffed out due to a human weakness."
"But you are human Trinity! What else do you want? To be like the machines? Heartless, soulless, unfeeling?" Neo shot back, tears falling down his own face.
"What? How dare you!"
"I do dare, dammit! You are human. Humans are not perfect, we make mistakes, we have feelings, we hurt, we love, and we hate. It's that which makes us stronger than the machines Trinity. True, you shouldn't have choked in there, but if you didn't and just moved on without caring, you'd be that much worse than you are now."
Trinity's battle was crushed upon hearing that she was only human. She did such a good job of making others believe she was more than human due to her stoic attitude and strength, she actually believed it herself. But Neo was right. She was human. With the truth hitting her in the face like a slap, Trinity collapsed into Neo's arms, crying.
"When will this be over? I want to be able to move on, but I can't."
"When you're ready to move on, you will. And I'll be there with you. You're not alone."