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Hello, here's is the chapter that you have been waiting a week for. I just want to let you all know that I may not update to soon after this one. I do have the chapter written don't get me wrong but I have mid-terms coming up and will be studying day in and day out. How is it that mid-terms count for 10% of your final grade? Well here's your chapter!

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Chapter 10: Realization Dawns

"Well," said Sirius as he walked in the halls, "here we are back again for the humiliation."

"Its not that bad Si," said James knowing that it was way worse for him. "Come on lets go."

Sirius looked at James seeing that he was rather pale and asked if he was all right and suggested he skip lessons that night. James had declined and only said he had skipped dinner and would be fine.

The two entered the portrait to find that most of the team was already there waiting for lessons to start. James looked around and didn't find Lily right away. But when he did he saw with her, someone who was not supposed to be there and quickly hurried over to where they were seated.

"Remus what are you doing here!?" said James both surprised and confused. "Your not on the bloody team!"

"James don't talk to him like that he is here on my invitation." said Lily not meeting his eyes but James could feel her defiance in her voice. "I'm going to go set up. You'll stay won't you Remus?"

"Of course Lily," said Remus smiling at her. " I'm not going anywhere."

Lily smiled happily and walked over to a bar in the far corner of the room and began to stretch.

"Well," prodded James.

"Well what?" asked Remus keeping his eyes on Lily.

"What did she say? Did you even ask her yet?"

"Yes I did Prongs and she answered me. But I will not tell you until after lessons. Lily invited me here because she couldn't face you and this class alone. And I don't intend to make it harder on the both of you by telling you at this very moment," said a very stubborn looking Remus Lupin.

"But-" started James but he was interrupted by Lily's quiet voice.

"Alright everyone warm up now," said Lily as she pointed her wand at the player and music began to spread though the room. Lily was at the front of the class leading the group in the warm-up exercises.

James watched her as she gracefully glided across the floor doing fluid movements. What could Remus have told me that would make this so much harder then it already is? Thought James as he attempted to follow along with the group.

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At the end of classes Lily hurriedly thanked Remus for staying with her for moral support. Then she apologized for leaving so quickly and said she wanted to go before James could find her and talk to her. Remus complied and said that he enjoyed watching the class immensely. Remus watched as the petite red head excited the room quietly so as not to let anyone know that she had gone.

James came over just as she was out of site. "Ok, Remus, where is she?"

"You just missed her she left out of the portrait only a few moments before you came over. No James, she doesn't want you going after her."

James sighed deeply as he took a seat next to Remus on the bench. "Well, class is over so can you tell me now?"

"I suppose," said Remus choosing his words wisely. "Perhaps we should move this conversation to another location."

James nodded getting impatient with all this waiting.

When they reached the room they had been in this afternoon James quickly turned to Remus and begged him to tell him what Lily had said. "Please, Moony I have to know this is killing me, all this waiting. What did she say?"

"James," Remus started then stopped. "She does care about you, although she wishes she didn't."

James was happy, confused, and saddened at the same time. "What do you mean she wishes she didn't care for me!?" raged James.

"James I just have to ask you one thing. What happened that night in the tower?"

"What do you mean what happened? Nothing happened she never showed that is what happened!" said James getting upset with these guessing games.

"James not what happened between you and Lily but what happened between you and Lynelle."

"I dumped her so what. How does that affect me and Lily?"

Remus explained what Lily had saw and why that affected her. Remus told James about Lily's perception on boyfriends was. He told him how she never wanted to be involved because she feared her heart would be broken and he explained that when she saw him dump Lynelle she had been reminded of what she feared most. Heartbreak.

James sat stonewalled. He didn't know what he expected but it certainly wasn't that. Lynelle, why have you cursed me like this!? thought James. "Moony," Remus looked at James, "is their still a chance?"

Remus considered his reply. "She loves you James. Although I don't know why she loves you. And I don't think that any fear she has can destroy that. I don't know what she will do from here. But what I can tell you is I believe that you still have a chance. But the only way you can make that chance count is if you talk to her. Not tonight but tomorrow. Tomorrow we are off its Saturday. That will be your best time to talk to her. Without class interruptions.

James nodded and thanked Remus and left him. It was now one in the morning and he needed to clear his head and think.

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Well that was it I promise the next chapter will be longer but this one was necessary. Did you all here the next Harry Potter book will be releases on June 21, 2003! Happy day I mean it took her long enough don't you think? I hear that its longer then GOF, by one chapter. Hmmm, the excitement builds. Well, please review please, please, please!!