A/N: I was commissioned by Jestana to write an AD/MM fic. Not just any fic,
but something I had never written before. Different in style and tone and
structure. So in light of this I find it fitting to try a songfic on for
size. This is the song "How Can I Not Love You" performed by Joy Enriquez
which I found on the "Anna and the King" DVD. So this is for you Jestana,
if you're reading this now.
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Cannot touch, Cannot hold, Cannot be together
Cannot love, Cannot kiss, Cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
She watched him from afar. She watched him as he stood before the school and announced the end of term each year. She watched him from over her spectacles when she had her weekly chess or card game with him. She watched him from under her long eyelashes when she danced at the Yule Ball with him. She watched him face down with the Minister of Magic. She watched as he was slandered by the wizarding community. She watched him sit and gaze out at her above those half moon spectacles she so loved, as he told her that he had finally told Harry about the prophecy.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walk away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How could she turn away from him? How could she not love him? He had taught her and believed in her. How could she be indifferent to his kindness and his wisdom and his patience. How could she watch him leave Hogwarts those two times, knowing what was in her heart and knowing that time was passing them by?
Cannot trip, Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, Must not say
What we no longer long
She hid herself behind her books and her intelligence. He hid behind his age and wisdon. They kept it all hidden. She kept herself stern as steel, fighting what was in her heart. He kept himself patient and eccentric, fighting what was in his heart. It could not be. It just wasn't done. She was eighty years his junior and it was unheard of. They both knew it too.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
She hid herself behind her books and her intelligence. He hid behind his age and wisdon. They kept it all hidden. She kept herself stern as steel, fighting what was in her heart. He kept himself patient and eccentric, fighting what was in his heart. It could not be. It just wasn't done. She was eighty years his junior and it was unheard of. They both knew it too.
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long
He had taught her and he had watched her grow into such a fine woman. He had watched her grow. He had watched her bloom. He had watched her defend him and his honor. He had watched her protect the students. He had watched her defend and vouch for Harry. He had watched her gaze at him as they danced and watched her at breakfast every morning. He had loved her always.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
When you are gone
How he longed to tell her ... to hold her. How could he not love her? How could he be numbed to her spirit and her courage and her strength, her beauty and intelligence? How could he turn away from her?
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Cannot touch, Cannot hold, Cannot be together
Cannot love, Cannot kiss, Cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
She watched him from afar. She watched him as he stood before the school and announced the end of term each year. She watched him from over her spectacles when she had her weekly chess or card game with him. She watched him from under her long eyelashes when she danced at the Yule Ball with him. She watched him face down with the Minister of Magic. She watched as he was slandered by the wizarding community. She watched him sit and gaze out at her above those half moon spectacles she so loved, as he told her that he had finally told Harry about the prophecy.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walk away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How could she turn away from him? How could she not love him? He had taught her and believed in her. How could she be indifferent to his kindness and his wisdom and his patience. How could she watch him leave Hogwarts those two times, knowing what was in her heart and knowing that time was passing them by?
Cannot trip, Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, Must not say
What we no longer long
She hid herself behind her books and her intelligence. He hid behind his age and wisdon. They kept it all hidden. She kept herself stern as steel, fighting what was in her heart. He kept himself patient and eccentric, fighting what was in his heart. It could not be. It just wasn't done. She was eighty years his junior and it was unheard of. They both knew it too.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
She hid herself behind her books and her intelligence. He hid behind his age and wisdon. They kept it all hidden. She kept herself stern as steel, fighting what was in her heart. He kept himself patient and eccentric, fighting what was in his heart. It could not be. It just wasn't done. She was eighty years his junior and it was unheard of. They both knew it too.
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long
He had taught her and he had watched her grow into such a fine woman. He had watched her grow. He had watched her bloom. He had watched her defend him and his honor. He had watched her protect the students. He had watched her defend and vouch for Harry. He had watched her gaze at him as they danced and watched her at breakfast every morning. He had loved her always.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
When you are gone
How he longed to tell her ... to hold her. How could he not love her? How could he be numbed to her spirit and her courage and her strength, her beauty and intelligence? How could he turn away from her?