Chapter 27 – Where is Reality

A/N – Okies, here is Chapter 27… I'll try and make my chapters longer in future, I'm afraid that you'll have to wait a while for the next one coz I'll be without my computer for at least 5 days… Sorry!!! Thanks again for reviewing… I know I always say it, but I really appreciate it… *grins* I hope you guys understand the whole timeframe of all of this… Mainly we're catching up with goings-on at Hogwarts… Enjoy!

Chapter 27 – Anillia Equanimia

Dumbledore's face paled as everyone in the room looked at him in expectation.

Without a word Dumbledore strode off to the Hospital Wing almost at a run, he crashed through the door and his eyes flew straight to Arabella Figg. She was sitting on one of the beds shaking uncontrollably.

"He's… In pain, cruciatus I think, Voldemort must be using Harry's own wand. It's terrible Albus! And I can't help him." Cried Arabella bursting into tears.

Dumbledore sat down heavily.

"We must try and contact Severus. He's our only link to Voldemort."

"Why don't you send that Inigma woman, she works for Fudge doesn't she?" Said Poppy trying to be helpful.

"Perhaps, but I'm afraid that Severus will find it hard to contact us." Said Albus shaking his head sadly.

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Dawn Inigma had been completely shocked as Dumbledore had relayed the whole story to her. She noticed the deepening lines on the headmaster's face and the fear in his eyes. It unnerved her. She agreed to try and find Snape.

I'll take some strengthening potion with me, and perhaps some of Harry's Scutum draught. I never expected this when I agreed to do this job. I can't believe what an idiot Fudge is… What an idiot I was.

She went to the ministry and explained that she had been sent to join the Aurors that were fighting the Death Eaters. She was sent immediately to the latest battle scene. She was careful to leave her red hood of her cloak down so that Snape would recognise her… If he was even here.

Dawn was shocked and almost screamed when pulled away from behind, when she turned to see a death Eater cloak she almost cursed him immediately before he hastily pulled back his hood and revealed himself as Severus Snape.

"Harry is alive!" He grunted

"We know. Take these for him." Whispered Dawn.

"I can't tell you where he is. Even Death Eaters aren't told where we are when we apparate there."

"That's okay. Keep it up Severus, and good luck." Said Inigma with a small smile.

"Goodbye Dawn." Said Severus before snatching the vials and retreating into the woods.

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It had been an anxious few hours, Arabella had been appalled by the number of times Harry was being cursed, Dumbledore looked more and more worried and Minerva McGonagall was trying desperately to explain everything to Sirius who just could not accept that what he'd seen was fake.

"I saw him die." Said Sirius stubbornly,

"This isn't Harry." Insisted McGonagall once again.

"It's been hours, polyjuice potion doesn't last this long." Argued Sirius.

"Um, excuse me, but, if they used Harry's blood to make it…" Hermione put in nervously.

She had been trying to calm Ron and Neville who looked as though they were ready to throw themselves into the lake if it would help Harry.

"Yes. Miss Granger, as usual is right. There are ways…"

"So… If this isn't Harry…" Said Sirius slowly, finally allowing the cold arm to slip from his grasp. "Then he's still out there… And he's alone!"

"He is still out there, but he's not alone… Severus Snape…"

"That slimy git! What use is he! He's probably too busy celebrating…"

"Really Sirius! He's helping Harry I'm sure! Now calm down and let poppy heal your head, and your wrists, look! They've been rubbed raw." Said Minerva crossly.

Sirius winced slightly and gave in.

"Alright then. But I need to talk to Dumbledore as soon as possible." Said Sirius frowning.

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Dawn Inigma returned looking exhausted but pleased.

"I found him, you were right. Harry is alive. Gave him the Scutum draught and a strengthening potion. Hope it helps." She gasped before collapsing in a seat next to Arabella.

"Thankyou Dawn, Thankyou for your help." Said Dumbledore wearily.

"I don't know how he's still fighting it! That's got to be the seventh time he's suffered the cruciatus!" Whimpered Arabella from the other side of the room.

Dumbledore shook his head gravely,

"Sometimes being a strong wizard just means that you have to suffer more. And Harry's the strongest I know." He said clasping his hands together tightly.

Dawn Inigma looked at the two sad faces and felt as though she was intruding on something she could never hope to understand. She didn't even know Harry that well, and these two had been fighting for him since before he was born!

She left the room quietly, contemplating all that she had learned in the last two days.

She was walking down the corridor and bumped into Minerva McGonagall who was leading a much-calmed Sirius Black towards the headmaster's office.

It was the first time that Dawn Inigma had seen Sirius, she was relieved that Dumbledore had been sharp enough to explain to her about Sirius' innocence, still the sight of the poor man had caused her heart to skip a beat, she'd been involved in tracking him for Fudge for a whole year!

She apologised for knocking into Minerva and glanced briefly at Sirius who looked worried sick for his godson... More people who cared for Harry.

She picked up her hat, which had fallen to the floor and carried on down the corridor, it was her job to prepare the school for the announcement that Harry Potter had been killed, and she was not looking forward to it. She first had to visit the Gryffindors' Common Room. Everyone except Harry's closest friends would have their memories modified so that they would forget what they had witnessed and believe the announcement. Dawn had a lot of experience with memory charms… It seemed Fudge was overly keen on them.

As she entered a hush fell on the students who had been gossiping madly about the recent goings-on, Dawn called out Ron, Hermione and Neville and told them to wait outside. After taking a quick role-call she found that only Fred and George Weasley were absent, she clicked her tongue impatiently, and decided that they would have to be dealt with later. She performed the memory charm on the remaining Gryffindors who went back to idle gossip but which now seemed more relaxed and carefree.

Then she went outside, to talk to Harry's closest friends.

She was only slightly surprised to see Fred and George waiting there with them looking a little sheepish and hastily trying to hide the food that they had scavenged.

"What's going on Professor? There's been lot's of rumours about Harry…" Said Fred glancing at Ron, Neville and Hermione.

"They aren't true are they?" Asked George looking only slightly worried.

"I think you'd better forget all those rumours you've heard and listen to me." Said Dawn frowning.

"It seems that you two are determined to know the truth, well, these three here will be able to inform you. But first I must reveal that the rest of the school including every other member of the Gryffindor house will believe that Harry has died. We need to make it look like we've fallen to Voldemort's bluff. You five will know the truth, but you must pretend that you also believe him dead. Do I make myself clear?"

The five students looked at each other and nodded.

"Is there anything we can do to help professor?" Asked Neville, his desperate eyes pleading with her.

"I'm afraid not, at this moment we don't even know where Voldemort is. But Dumbledore is on the case, and if anyone can help Harry it's him. Not you. The best thing you can do is to keep safe." Said Dawn apologetically avoiding the angry looks of frustration she received.

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Arabella had been chewing her nails anxiously. Voldemort's torture seemed to have ceased, for the time being anyway. There had been a while where she hadn't sensed any pain from Harry. She was worried. She had the feeling that something ominous was about to transpire.

Dumbledore also looked nervous, he was gripping his chair arms tightly and his mouth was firmly set. When they had been joined by Minerva and Sirius Dumbledore had expected a torrent of questions from Harry's godfather. But Sirius had entered the room, taken one look at Dumbledore's face and sat down nervously unwilling to talk.

Now the four of them were waiting. Waiting for Voldemort's next move. So far his only flaw had been that they knew Harry was alive. But even this did little to help them… they didn't know where he was. And the one person who could have helped with that was trapped there, along with Harry.

Arabella was tired, she knew she badly needed sleep, but her senses were alert and her adrenaline high, and she could feel the mounting apprehension gripping the room.

Suddenly, the wait was over. Voldemort had used the cruciatus again, this time it lasted so long that Arabella was sure Harry would pass out. But in the end what happened was worse than that. As she told the room of anxious listeners…

"He's slipping away… He's slipping away."

"What do you mean!" Shouted Sirius

"Don't tell me he's dying! Please God!"

"He's not dying, it's what you always feared the most Albus. He's been hit by the spell, he's starting to forget who he is." Said Arabella in a tiny voice, gazing with dread at the headmaster's face.

"Anillia Equanimia." Whispered Albus Dumbledore with a shudder.

Sirius was not about to be ignored.

"WHAT IS ANILLIA EQUANIMIA???" He yelled frenzied with panic.

"A spell which destroys the very essence that makes us individuals. A spell, which will allow Voldemort to control Harry, a spell which could mean the end of hope for civilisation, unless Harry can fight it." Said Dumbledore looking piercingly at everyone in the room. He turned away from them all and clenched his fists in rage.

How dare he! Tom Riddle had done some terrible things in his time. But all that he'd done to Harry Potter was beyond comprehension. And Dumbledore knew with a heavy heart that he would do anything to stop this from happening, but that there was nothing he could do. The only person who could help Harry at that moment, was Severus Snape…

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Severus watched as Lucius Malfoy returned with the limp form of Harry Potter floating peacefully behind him.

"He's unconscious?" Asked Snape eyeing Harry carefully.

"Yes. But I'm sure you can still get some pleasure out of beating him my friend."

Snape had to fight hard to suppress a shudder, not only the thought that he might take pleasure in beating Harry, but the thought that Lucius Malfoy had called him a friend…

He sneered as nastily as possible and said

"Of course."

Once Lucius had left Snape bent down and checked Harry, he felt how cold his face was and shivered, placing his own thin cloak over the boy he racked his brain for anything that he could possibly do to help.

He could only think about how much he wished that he had Albus Dumbledore's guidance. He watched Harry thoughtfully. Harry had proven himself strong, but how long would he be able to fight the terrible spell that had struck him so mercilessly?

He searched his cloak pockets and found nothing, he then turned to Harry's cloak which, feeling rather guilty, he also searched. He found only a couple of chocolate frogs and some parchment.

Severus sighed heavily, if only he had contact with everyone at Hogwarts. Then with a jolt he realised that surely Dumbledore would try and contact him, he'd probably send Dawn Inigma again. He'd have to ask to join the Death Eaters on their missions and try and get a message to Dumbledore somehow.

He thought about this a little longer, and eventually decided to write a letter, he scribbled down as much as he knew on the parchment and sealed it up quickly. He stuffed it into his death eater robes before leaving to attempt his dangerous plan.

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"My Lord. The Potter boy is deeply unconscious, I feel little purpose in guarding him so closely. I ask most humbly to be allowed to make myself useful in battling the ministry fools into submission."

The words flowed silkily from Snape's mouth as he knelt at Voldemort's feet.

"You have been given orders Severus. You know what they are." Was Voldemort's harsh reply.

"I am sure that there are others who would enjoy the task my lord."

Insisted Snape in desperation.

He glanced pointedly at Wormtail, who looked up eagerly playing right into Snape's hands,

"Oh yes my lord! I, as I know many others, would relish the opportunity to witness your superiority stamped so firmly over the boy." Drivelled the small man sickeningly.

"We shall see." Said Voldemort watching Snape with scrutiny.

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