Double D finally came to his senses and walked back to Nazz and sat down, "I am sorry if my accounts disturb you I will stop. I again apologize for upsetting you." And with that Double D again got up and walked out of the forest.

"Good job Nazz!" Eddy said with a little anger in his voice "Now we'll never know what happened, and you know that since he thinks he upset you he won't mention it at all anymore!

Nazz looked up at Eddy trying to control herself and replied "HOW DARE YOU! DO YOU CARE AT ALL ABOUT DOUBLE D!!?? HE IS HURTING RIGHT NOW TO THE POINT WHERE…WELL…. JUST LOOK AT HIM!!! AND ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS GETTING THE STUPID STORY OUT OF HIM!!!

Ed and Eddy were both stunned at what had just been said, Eddy tried to find something to say but he seemed paralyzed by the hateful words of Nazz. "I didn't know." Was all Eddy was able to choke.

"WELL…You should have he has been your friend longer than ever, and you still don't know how to read him." Nazz stood up and turned her back to Eddy "We better find him quickly."

"Why?" Ed slowly said afraid that Nazz might snap at him like she did at Eddy

Nazz didn't want to tell them what she was thinking so all she said was "We just should."

With that Eddy stood up with Ed and followed Nazz out of the forest, leaving the journal laying still by the stream.

Double D was now wandering back to his house with thought whirling widely in his head 'Double D you're a terrible person!'

'NO'

'YES, everyone you care about you hurt!'

'not true!'

'You killed Katie, you hurt Nazz!'

'But… it wasn't my fault! They wanted me to tell them'

'No, they wanted to know the girl in the picture and what the sticky note said! Nothing more'

'I couldn't lie to them.'

'But you could, why let other people feel your pain if they don't have anything to do with it! YOU are the one who got scared! YOU are always the weak one! YOU only care about yourself! YOU are going to hurt everyone one you care about! YOU might as well of been the one to put the bottle to her STOMACH!'

"NO!" yelled Double D now picking up his pace and running into his house, he went up the stairs right into his room. Slowly he looked around his room was covered in sticky notes, for the first time ever his room was a mess and he didn't care. He hadn't noticed that the whole time he had been carrying the picture of him and Katie. Slowly he slid down onto his bed and stared at the picture; thinking.

'She looks so happy, it was my fault'

'Yes it has always been your fault, everything has always been your fault'

'But I didn't mean to I never meant for anything to happen!'

'Every since you were little you always were the problem, why don't you just disappear!'

"STOP IT!"

Double D again yelled at his thoughts and threw the picture across the room, the picture hit the wall right next to his desk and the glass shattered. Double D just stared at what he had just done, no more thoughts raced through his head everything seemed just to stop. The sun was starting to set and its light went through the window so it slowly made the glass near the wall glitter and shine. Double D looked at the broken glass and as if not realizing what he was doing got up and walked over to wall, the picture that was in the picture frame was now half way out, Double D slowly picked up the picture, on the back read: Katie and Edd August 23rd 2003.

Double D started to cry again and one thought repeated over and over in his head 'It's your FAULT!'

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Nazz, Eddy, and Ed were out of the forest now and walking back to the cul-de-sac when they ran into Sarah and Jimmy.

Sarah jumped up of the curb and stood staring at the group, "What do you want?"

Eddy still didn't get along with Sarah, but he had learned to tolerate her because of all the times she had beat him up. "MOVE IT! We're busy!"

With this response Jimmy jumped to his feet, Jimmy had grown a lot in only a few months and had changed habits a little bit.

(He still played with Sarah and her dolls but now he played with Kevin and was on the school football team, so he was big and muscular and always wore his football jacket.)

Eddy hesitated at first because Jimmy was much bigger, but soon gained his senses and repeated himself " you heard me, MOVE IT! We're busy!"

Nazz realizing that if something didn't happen soon they were going to be stuck there for a very long time. Nazz decided to interrupt and politely say "He didn't mean it Sarah, you we are all just a little stressed out so if you could please just let us through."

Sarah looked at Jimmy then Eddy and finally Nazz and slowly she replied with "Why are you so stressed?"

Eddy looked around Jimmy and glared at Sarah rubbing his head, and blurted out "ARGG!! I can't take this anymore!"

Jimmy and Sarah were both surprised at this remark and looked at Nazz for some hint or clue. Nazz just agreed quietly and explained everything that she could remember about Double D and what had happened, when she finally finished Jimmy and Sarah were just in total shock.

Sarah got up from the curb and turned so no one could see the tears going down her face but everyone new they were there. When Sarah gained her composure she turned back to them and slowly said "Do you know where he is now?"

Nazz replied saying "No but I know we have to find him quickly."

Jimmy turned from Eddy to comfort Sarah but she pushed away from him saying "Well come on we have to find him." And started to walk away

Nazz, Jimmy, Eddy, and Ed caught up to Sarah but she stopped abruptly and asked "Where exactly are we going?"

"That's the problem" replied Eddy "We don't know he got upset and just left the forest."

"Well why don't we look somewhere he usually his." Jimmy said

So all together they agreed to go to Double D's house because they had found so much important info and him there so many times.

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Double D this time did not try to silence his thoughts they just kept coming and coming, he hugged the picture against his chest and slowly rocked back and forth 'It's  all your fault, you shouldn't be the one still living you don't deserve to be the one to live.'

Double D lifted his head a little just enough to see the glass still slightly glittering from the sun, tears still streaming more heavily then ever down his face one last thought raced through his head 'It wouldn't hurt'