X-Men ---à Marvel
October-----à Evanescence
Me--------------à Poor fan, love'em but don't own any of it, Except this story ^_~
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My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
Most of the week she made a supreme effort to keep to herself she stayed away from the places she normally frequented cutting the chances of seeing Remy down. Although every time she managed to catch a glimpse of Remy she would make a quick about-face and then pull off an exit that would have made Pietro envious, she was getting good at it. She was always distracted, bumping into something here or there everything seemed to jump out of nowhere. "I swear this much thinking can't be good for your health, can it?" she had been saying to herself. It was getting harder to evade Remy though because she couldn't think straight. A few times she had been so caught up she didn't see him until it was almost too late. The first time she ducked into a store before he saw her. Only this afternoon she had panicked when she saw him, she remembered throwing the car keys to Kitty and jumping into the passenger's seat hoping Kitty would get them out of there quick. What was I thinking? She phased them through a parked bus and got them home in record time, Thank GOD for Kitty! Desperation can make you crazy!
What am I going to do I can't avoid him forever; I don't want to avoid him forever. Ugh! This is driving me up the wall! She was slowly starting to accept the fact that she, Rogue, was in love. It was something that she hadn't ever expected to have happen to her in fact she had never actually wanted it to happen, it just did. I'm not going to question it anymore, I don't know why or how it happened but it did. I'm tired of turning around and running away. I kinda miss talkin to him and by now he probably thinks I'm totally insane or something.
I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.
It seemed that in the past two weeks she had taken more walks than she ever had in her whole life. Almost every afternoon she made her way up to the huge maple tree and she sat there until she felt at peace with herself and her thoughts. The tree had become a companion to her, when she was feeling unease she could hear the leaves, moving in the breeze, whispering to her, calming her. It was so beautiful sitting there looking at all the trees in their Autumn dressings it was hard not to feel at peace.
She was able to finally come to terms with what she was feeling. I guess it's about time I faced it no more running. I'm tired of being alone already. It hurts too much. I'm not going to ignore what I feel and maybe I'll eventually get up the nerve to tell Remy how I feel about him but till then it will be my secret. I miss him. I wish he was here with me now. I want to be around him even if we are just friends. I just hope he isn't mad at me for the way I've been treating him lately. I'm sorry. I'll tell him that much. I'm sorry.
With that in mind she resolved to find Remy to apologize for acting strange the past few weeks. Until she saw him though she was going to enjoy the view. She took a deep breath and smiled to herself, slowly she closed her eyes and leaned back against the maple. She felt relieved, her heart felt light, she felt so alive. She would see him soon. Somewhere in the recesses of her mind she could hear a beautiful melody echoing. "Mmm and love is where I am, my only love " lightly humming aloud she smiled once more as sleep overcame her.
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This song just seems to fit Rogue and Remy's relationship very well (ok maybe not their Evo relationship but ya can't blame a gal for hoping it will develop sometime soon… Cajun Spice was a start) and the first time I heard it I thought it was so beautiful, brought a tear to my eye…(I cried) Amy Lee has such an amazing voice. I promise I'm getting around to Remy's part but I'm kinda not sure about doing dialogue so I have no idea how it's going to turn out. Also I haven't really ever had to type accents but at least that I'm not afraid try. Anyone interested in being an editor???????!
Ishandahalf: Thank you! You are my absolute first review…I really did try to get this out as fast as I possibly could, maybe not like a bunny on crack but hey I tried :P
Caliente: Thank you as well. What is there not to love about a Romy??? Btw Love your name.
Queen of the Night: I won't leave you hanging I'm going try for three chapters how does that sound? Thanks for the support, reading and reviewing.
Calliann: Not crying…..I HOPE?! Thanks for reading.
Lulu: This is one of Evanescence's earliest songs from what I gather it's a few years old but it is still pretty awesome. They do have an earlier album I think it is called ummm…. Origin? I'll get back to you on that one for sure though. Thanks for reading.
I'll be back, hopefully. ^_~ Ummmm, I hope you all like this chapter I have a few more verses of song left to cover so there will be at least one more chapter. Please let me know what you think and if you have any ideas they are always welcome.
Ash