Dear Diary
It's not like I keep a diary or anything, but there's nobody I can talk to. So writing it all down in this book is the only way I can keep my Goddamn sanity.
.... He tortures me. I... can't bear it. No. Actually, I can. I have to bear it, I have to stand up to him. Otherwise, he'll kill my family.
But sometimes it's so hard. Sometimes.... I just think it'd be better if I was dead. But then, what would he do? Y'know, I think my death would make it worse. I'm almost certain that if I died he'd still kill my family. He doesn't need me anymore. I'm just a puppet. A child dragged along on his spiked leash.
I've been with him since I was just a kid. At first, I could stand him being there. Stand his torturing. But lately I... I can feel myself getting weaker... I don't know how much longer I'm gonna last.
His torturing.... his manipulating... he plays with the mind. It's really starting to wear me down. I.... can't keep standing up to him. I'm... afraid. I'm afraid I'm gonna let my family down. I've lost my pride. Regardless of what I say, what I do, he'll still take it. And... I fear that soon he'll take me, too.
It's not like I keep a diary or anything, but there's nobody I can talk to. So writing it all down in this book is the only way I can keep my Goddamn sanity.
.... He tortures me. I... can't bear it. No. Actually, I can. I have to bear it, I have to stand up to him. Otherwise, he'll kill my family.
But sometimes it's so hard. Sometimes.... I just think it'd be better if I was dead. But then, what would he do? Y'know, I think my death would make it worse. I'm almost certain that if I died he'd still kill my family. He doesn't need me anymore. I'm just a puppet. A child dragged along on his spiked leash.
I've been with him since I was just a kid. At first, I could stand him being there. Stand his torturing. But lately I... I can feel myself getting weaker... I don't know how much longer I'm gonna last.
His torturing.... his manipulating... he plays with the mind. It's really starting to wear me down. I.... can't keep standing up to him. I'm... afraid. I'm afraid I'm gonna let my family down. I've lost my pride. Regardless of what I say, what I do, he'll still take it. And... I fear that soon he'll take me, too.