Hey people! I'm back! Yes, I know it's been a bit, but I couldn't update
on the weekend like I planned to do, too much homework and papers...evil I
tell you. Not to mention I'm sick! *cough cough sniffle sniffle* Anyways,
thank you's:
Yuri Rikusentai: thank you! I never really though I had much skill in writing, but whatever you wish to think! Oh and I don't have any magna, I just know about it from random things...don't ask. Thanks for all your really kind reviews, I appreciate it. *hugs the plushies you gave me*
Link-Roy-Marth-lover: Well, I guess he's sorta crazy, not really. I'll just say its hysteria. I don't know.
Aurora of the Moon: Thank you!
Neko Moon Goddess: Yeah, sorry about that. Mane-chan will be Amane, sort of a sibling nick name.
Dragon's Venom: As you requested; another chapter!
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Anyways, um...yeah so when we left off, Ryou went kinda psycho, but let's just say that was hysteria. I don't really know the symptoms of hysteria, so let's pretend I'm right for the moment. So yeah, well warning as usual.
Warning: Yaoi between Ryou and Bakura and some depression on Ryou's part but that will be cured up! Not to worry, you will have the cheery Ryou back soon! I can't have my favorite character all depressed and such! Oh yeah, it's in Ryou's POV first. ******************************************************************* ****************************************** "Mane-chan?"
Brown eyes cloud over in confusion for a moment before twinkling back at me. I quickly sit up from the bed that I have been lying on. Okay maybe I sat up too quickly; I feel my head pound and my body trembling. Cool hands lead my body back to the soft bed. A comforting voice washes over my like a wave of warmth.
"Lie down, rest Ryou."
I open my mouth to ask how she knew my name and where I was and so many more. A tsunami of questions pounded my mind, forcing my headache to return with renewed vigor. I wince as the pain seems to shoot throughout my skull.
"See? You're thinking too hard. Rest and I'll answer questions then."
I nod the best I can and shift my body as I trying to get comfortable. The cool fingers once more pat my face and reach my eyes. Closing them, I hear a soft hum of a lullaby and soon I'm drifting off into blissful sleep where, I'm once more comforted by the hazy world of dreams. The last conscious thought is of those amusement filled eyes twinkling at me, laughing at me in their own gentle way. Like Mane-chan, just like Mane-chan.
(Bakura)
I sit on our weathered couch, waiting for 'Kassan to let me in, I want to see him! I pace the familiar circle around the living room. I feel like pulling my hair out of its roots, but I stop myself. What good would it do anyways? I fling myself back onto the couch. 'Kassan wouldn't let me in the room, saying that he needed some space. But I want to see him! He's my Ryou, MINE I TELL YOU! I hear the creak of a door and see my mother slowly and quietly slipping out of the darkened room in which MY Ryou is resting. Before she can take another step towards me, I literally leap the space between us and pounce on her. Prying herself away from my death grip of doom she glares at me.
"He's fine! Just resting! Bakura, you don't have to be so jumpy!"
I glare back at her and we hold a death glare contest, in which I'm glad to say I was the victor; before I say something back to her.
"Can I see him?"
"He's resting, as in sleeping honey."
"I know."
A small sigh tells me I won. YES! THAT'S TWICE I WIN 'KASSAN! 2- 0! Giving her a mock air of smugness I slip into the darkened room. The sight of his little body huddled under the covers break my smile and I feel a mixture of dread and unhappiness settle in my heart. My poor little angel. I creep across to where you sleep and hesitantly sit on the bed. The slow steady breathe reassures me that you're fast asleep. The silvery white hair obscures your face from my eyes and I gently move them away, letting the dying sun light your relaxed features. You look so perfect, so pure, so innocent. I don't want to taint you, I can't taint you. You're an angel sent from the heavens, and me? I'm a demon sent from the deepest level of hell. I can't and I won't taint you. Your purity doesn't deserve my black whole of a heart. I let my fingers linger on your smooth cheek, admiring how smooth they are...they feel like angel wings. I smile at my idiocy. Angel wings...funny. My smile fades as I let my whole hand rest on your cheek gently. If you only knew Ryou...I'm head over heals for you koi, and you just don't realize it. Just like you don't realize you're an angel.
(Bakura's mom)
I watched my son gently stroke Ryou's cheek, his eyes holding an emotion that wasn't insanity or malice. I've let him grow up the way he wants, I let him do what he wants. I've loved him, fed him, and clothed him. I've held him when he cried, I tended to his wounds. The one thing I have not yet done yet is teach him how to love. But that, that is a lesson he can only learn through experience itself. I watch him smile at the gentle looking boy and I feel my heart squeeze as I see him look hopeless. Do not lose hope my son, for you see love itself will prevail if you let it. Trust your heart Bakura and you will know what to do.
(Ryou) The next time I came to, I realized that it was rather dark. Blinking I stare at the deep blue walls. Why was I here again? I blink again as I try to remember the last thing that I could. Suddenly a tsunami of memories hits me like a ton of bricks. I see the overly shined casket, the white bleeding hearts, the crowds of black...they are right. Ignorance is bliss. I feel sobs wrack my body as the tears just seem to flow out of my eyes automatically. Fate is cruel...isn't that what Bakura said? I curl up tighter into a ball as I try to hide away from the world. I want to disappear. Wouldn't that make my life easier? I feel someone sweep me into a hug. A hug? It's been how many years since I last received one? Too many, too many for me to count. The motherly hug ensures me everything will be already, that the world isn't coming to an end. I feel the tears slowly halt to a stop and I hiccup. I hate hiccups; they kinda make it hard to talk.
"Th-th-thank *hic* you"
See what I mean? I turn to face the same twinkling brown eyes. Well, now I can see her face better. Kind motherly features greet me and I feel at ease already. Shiny auburn hair swings below he shoulders as she turns to see me better. As her lips curve up into a smile I feel like she's my mother. She smoothes away the mussed locks, something my mother used to do. Sniffling I wipe away the remaining tears and shyly eye the new stranger.
"Do you remember me Ryou?"
I nod and let out another annoying hiccup.
"Good. I'm Bakura's mother. It's nice to meet you."
"N-nice to meet you too."
Some people always said I was too polite for my own good.
"Would you like something to eat?"
I shake my head. Not really hungry, not that I could probably stomach anything at the moment.
"Where am I?"
Once more those twinkling eyes seem to start as they look surprised.
"Don't you know? You're at our house. Bakura brought you here, he's been very worried."
I can feel myself blush. I hate my pale skin. I duck my head down so she'll miss the streak of red painted across my cheeks. Bakura brought me here? Bakura?! Maybe he...NO! I doubt it, don't get your hopes up Ryou, it'll just end up in a crushed heart. I just wish he could like me too, maybe just maybe he does.
(Bakura's mother who will be named Sakura)
I could see the blush painting those pale cheeks of his, I knew it. I can see those heartfelt eyes display every emotion; I can see the longing, the tenderness, and most of all the love. Oh if only that stubborn son of mine could see those emotions were for him! Kami, listen to my prayers. Make my son happy; make Ryou happy, they have not need to feel pain any longer. I offer you my heart to you. I don't care if I don't ever cast another longing look at another man, make my son happy. Make him see that there is more to life then chaos, make him see that the world is full of surprises; make him see that the world is full of love. Kami, are you listening to me? You better be Kami, because you know me, I won't back down until you do as I say, so Kami you better do your best. Just make him happy Kami, make him love.
(Bakura)
Now I'm royally pissed. You see I was just normally pissed at first, now I'm royally pissed. It's a whole new level of being pissed. I'm just sitting in my room looking at my collection of sharp and pointy and shiny things, but my mind still nags at me. Why?! I mean looking at pointy shiny things usually keeps my mind off of well...anything that isn't pointy and shiny! What's wrong with me?!
'Maybe you're thinking of a certain white haired tenshi?'
Am I hearing voices?
'Nah, must your conscious.'
What's that?
'...'
Am I going crazy?
'Nope, just as sane as you were before, well...'
See?
'Well shut up and listen for a minute numbskull.'
Hey! Who you calling a numbskull?
'Just listen already!!!!!!!'
Okay geesh, I never knew I could be so impatient.
'What were you arguing about?'
Something about white haired tenshi.
'Right, you've got Ryou on your mind.'
WHAT THE HELL? FIRST OF ALL I'M HAVING AN ARUGUMENT WITH MYSELF, SECOND OF ALL I DO NOT HAVE RYOU ON MY MIND, AND THIRD OF ALL I DO NOT, I REAPEAT DO NOT LOVE HIM!!!!!!!
'I never said you loved him, but now that you mention it...'
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!
"Bakura honey!'
"WHAT?!"
Turning a little too quickly I topple off my bed and see my mother's face looking at me upside down.
"Ryou wants to see you."
Immediately I get up. Ryou wants to see ME?! I nearly run to his room, but compose myself and manage to walk decently to his room.
'And you said you didn't have Ryou on your mind.'
Shut up.
Gently opening the door, I see the slim little figure staring out at something from the rain drop stained windows.
"Ryou?"
(Ryou)
The rain looked so dreary amongst the grey of the sky. It seems like the weather reflects my moods. You know at every funeral I attended to, it seemed to rain. I remember them so well, the way the caskets shined where the fat rain drops landed, the way the white pristine flowers drooped every so slightly at the added weight of the clear drops. Looking out the window I can see the almost invisible strands of rain filtering the dreary sky. I hear the door open and a rough but gentle voice call out my name.
"Ryou?"
Turning my head the slightest bit I can see the shine of silvery white hair and those beautiful blooded red eyes. You look so handsome, so beautiful, so dark. In the dimmed room you seem to melt into the shadows, almost disappearing into them. Only your silvery white hair and beautiful garnet eyes stand out. It can be quite unnerving really, but to me they are beautiful. I can smell that distinctly dark and sharp smell of you as you sit next to me on the window seat. The smell that reminds me of bittersweet chocolate and coffee. The scent that reminds me of dark midnight evenings where everything seems decidedly evil. Its quite comforting to me, makes me feel secure, as if the dark would never harm me, only embrace me, protect me from all evil. It's silly, I chide myself. He doesn't even like me. Does he?
(Bakura)
Those eyes, those eyes will haunt me. So forlorn, so hopeless, so...unlike the Ryou I used to know. They seem so dull and dead, like life no longer lives in the slim body of my tenshi. Like his soul was buried along with his father's casket.
"Hey, you okay?"
A slow nod which turns into a shake.
"I wish I wasn't...alone. It feels so lonely Bakura-san. It hurts to be alone. Do you get it Bakura-san? I don't want to be alone. I-I-I want to have a family, someone to love me, to take care of me."
I love you Ryou. You just don't see it.
"You don't have to be alone Ryou-san."
"I don't?"
Confused brown orbs stare at me intently. I see a spark of life rekindling in them as they look up at me. Hope softly and subtly shines through them as they ask me; pray for me to help in some way.
"You can stay with us."
It takes a moment for both of us to understand what I just said...WHAT DID I JUST SAY?!?!?!?!?!?! OH DAMNIT ALL! ME AND MY MOUTH! OH KAMI, WHAT GRUDGE DO YOU HAVE AGAINST ME?!
"Do you mean it?"
I look down to see those eyes look alive once more. Those eyes shining full of happiness, of hope, of joy! How can I say no? And somehow I manage a smile and a nod. Oh kami, I'm in deep shit now. ******************************************************************* ****************************************** OH MY GOD! That is the longest I've ever written! Wow! Anyways, as usual read and review please! OH AND IMPORTANT NOTE! I need a link to a picture of Bakura in ancient Egypt for my next fic! Please send me one if you can! Thank you! So read and review and until the next chapter ja ne ^_^!
Yuri Rikusentai: thank you! I never really though I had much skill in writing, but whatever you wish to think! Oh and I don't have any magna, I just know about it from random things...don't ask. Thanks for all your really kind reviews, I appreciate it. *hugs the plushies you gave me*
Link-Roy-Marth-lover: Well, I guess he's sorta crazy, not really. I'll just say its hysteria. I don't know.
Aurora of the Moon: Thank you!
Neko Moon Goddess: Yeah, sorry about that. Mane-chan will be Amane, sort of a sibling nick name.
Dragon's Venom: As you requested; another chapter!
Copycat4: Thank you for liking my story! Thank you thank you thank you! ^_^
Anyways, um...yeah so when we left off, Ryou went kinda psycho, but let's just say that was hysteria. I don't really know the symptoms of hysteria, so let's pretend I'm right for the moment. So yeah, well warning as usual.
Warning: Yaoi between Ryou and Bakura and some depression on Ryou's part but that will be cured up! Not to worry, you will have the cheery Ryou back soon! I can't have my favorite character all depressed and such! Oh yeah, it's in Ryou's POV first. ******************************************************************* ****************************************** "Mane-chan?"
Brown eyes cloud over in confusion for a moment before twinkling back at me. I quickly sit up from the bed that I have been lying on. Okay maybe I sat up too quickly; I feel my head pound and my body trembling. Cool hands lead my body back to the soft bed. A comforting voice washes over my like a wave of warmth.
"Lie down, rest Ryou."
I open my mouth to ask how she knew my name and where I was and so many more. A tsunami of questions pounded my mind, forcing my headache to return with renewed vigor. I wince as the pain seems to shoot throughout my skull.
"See? You're thinking too hard. Rest and I'll answer questions then."
I nod the best I can and shift my body as I trying to get comfortable. The cool fingers once more pat my face and reach my eyes. Closing them, I hear a soft hum of a lullaby and soon I'm drifting off into blissful sleep where, I'm once more comforted by the hazy world of dreams. The last conscious thought is of those amusement filled eyes twinkling at me, laughing at me in their own gentle way. Like Mane-chan, just like Mane-chan.
(Bakura)
I sit on our weathered couch, waiting for 'Kassan to let me in, I want to see him! I pace the familiar circle around the living room. I feel like pulling my hair out of its roots, but I stop myself. What good would it do anyways? I fling myself back onto the couch. 'Kassan wouldn't let me in the room, saying that he needed some space. But I want to see him! He's my Ryou, MINE I TELL YOU! I hear the creak of a door and see my mother slowly and quietly slipping out of the darkened room in which MY Ryou is resting. Before she can take another step towards me, I literally leap the space between us and pounce on her. Prying herself away from my death grip of doom she glares at me.
"He's fine! Just resting! Bakura, you don't have to be so jumpy!"
I glare back at her and we hold a death glare contest, in which I'm glad to say I was the victor; before I say something back to her.
"Can I see him?"
"He's resting, as in sleeping honey."
"I know."
A small sigh tells me I won. YES! THAT'S TWICE I WIN 'KASSAN! 2- 0! Giving her a mock air of smugness I slip into the darkened room. The sight of his little body huddled under the covers break my smile and I feel a mixture of dread and unhappiness settle in my heart. My poor little angel. I creep across to where you sleep and hesitantly sit on the bed. The slow steady breathe reassures me that you're fast asleep. The silvery white hair obscures your face from my eyes and I gently move them away, letting the dying sun light your relaxed features. You look so perfect, so pure, so innocent. I don't want to taint you, I can't taint you. You're an angel sent from the heavens, and me? I'm a demon sent from the deepest level of hell. I can't and I won't taint you. Your purity doesn't deserve my black whole of a heart. I let my fingers linger on your smooth cheek, admiring how smooth they are...they feel like angel wings. I smile at my idiocy. Angel wings...funny. My smile fades as I let my whole hand rest on your cheek gently. If you only knew Ryou...I'm head over heals for you koi, and you just don't realize it. Just like you don't realize you're an angel.
(Bakura's mom)
I watched my son gently stroke Ryou's cheek, his eyes holding an emotion that wasn't insanity or malice. I've let him grow up the way he wants, I let him do what he wants. I've loved him, fed him, and clothed him. I've held him when he cried, I tended to his wounds. The one thing I have not yet done yet is teach him how to love. But that, that is a lesson he can only learn through experience itself. I watch him smile at the gentle looking boy and I feel my heart squeeze as I see him look hopeless. Do not lose hope my son, for you see love itself will prevail if you let it. Trust your heart Bakura and you will know what to do.
(Ryou) The next time I came to, I realized that it was rather dark. Blinking I stare at the deep blue walls. Why was I here again? I blink again as I try to remember the last thing that I could. Suddenly a tsunami of memories hits me like a ton of bricks. I see the overly shined casket, the white bleeding hearts, the crowds of black...they are right. Ignorance is bliss. I feel sobs wrack my body as the tears just seem to flow out of my eyes automatically. Fate is cruel...isn't that what Bakura said? I curl up tighter into a ball as I try to hide away from the world. I want to disappear. Wouldn't that make my life easier? I feel someone sweep me into a hug. A hug? It's been how many years since I last received one? Too many, too many for me to count. The motherly hug ensures me everything will be already, that the world isn't coming to an end. I feel the tears slowly halt to a stop and I hiccup. I hate hiccups; they kinda make it hard to talk.
"Th-th-thank *hic* you"
See what I mean? I turn to face the same twinkling brown eyes. Well, now I can see her face better. Kind motherly features greet me and I feel at ease already. Shiny auburn hair swings below he shoulders as she turns to see me better. As her lips curve up into a smile I feel like she's my mother. She smoothes away the mussed locks, something my mother used to do. Sniffling I wipe away the remaining tears and shyly eye the new stranger.
"Do you remember me Ryou?"
I nod and let out another annoying hiccup.
"Good. I'm Bakura's mother. It's nice to meet you."
"N-nice to meet you too."
Some people always said I was too polite for my own good.
"Would you like something to eat?"
I shake my head. Not really hungry, not that I could probably stomach anything at the moment.
"Where am I?"
Once more those twinkling eyes seem to start as they look surprised.
"Don't you know? You're at our house. Bakura brought you here, he's been very worried."
I can feel myself blush. I hate my pale skin. I duck my head down so she'll miss the streak of red painted across my cheeks. Bakura brought me here? Bakura?! Maybe he...NO! I doubt it, don't get your hopes up Ryou, it'll just end up in a crushed heart. I just wish he could like me too, maybe just maybe he does.
(Bakura's mother who will be named Sakura)
I could see the blush painting those pale cheeks of his, I knew it. I can see those heartfelt eyes display every emotion; I can see the longing, the tenderness, and most of all the love. Oh if only that stubborn son of mine could see those emotions were for him! Kami, listen to my prayers. Make my son happy; make Ryou happy, they have not need to feel pain any longer. I offer you my heart to you. I don't care if I don't ever cast another longing look at another man, make my son happy. Make him see that there is more to life then chaos, make him see that the world is full of surprises; make him see that the world is full of love. Kami, are you listening to me? You better be Kami, because you know me, I won't back down until you do as I say, so Kami you better do your best. Just make him happy Kami, make him love.
(Bakura)
Now I'm royally pissed. You see I was just normally pissed at first, now I'm royally pissed. It's a whole new level of being pissed. I'm just sitting in my room looking at my collection of sharp and pointy and shiny things, but my mind still nags at me. Why?! I mean looking at pointy shiny things usually keeps my mind off of well...anything that isn't pointy and shiny! What's wrong with me?!
'Maybe you're thinking of a certain white haired tenshi?'
Am I hearing voices?
'Nah, must your conscious.'
What's that?
'...'
Am I going crazy?
'Nope, just as sane as you were before, well...'
See?
'Well shut up and listen for a minute numbskull.'
Hey! Who you calling a numbskull?
'Just listen already!!!!!!!'
Okay geesh, I never knew I could be so impatient.
'What were you arguing about?'
Something about white haired tenshi.
'Right, you've got Ryou on your mind.'
WHAT THE HELL? FIRST OF ALL I'M HAVING AN ARUGUMENT WITH MYSELF, SECOND OF ALL I DO NOT HAVE RYOU ON MY MIND, AND THIRD OF ALL I DO NOT, I REAPEAT DO NOT LOVE HIM!!!!!!!
'I never said you loved him, but now that you mention it...'
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!
"Bakura honey!'
"WHAT?!"
Turning a little too quickly I topple off my bed and see my mother's face looking at me upside down.
"Ryou wants to see you."
Immediately I get up. Ryou wants to see ME?! I nearly run to his room, but compose myself and manage to walk decently to his room.
'And you said you didn't have Ryou on your mind.'
Shut up.
Gently opening the door, I see the slim little figure staring out at something from the rain drop stained windows.
"Ryou?"
(Ryou)
The rain looked so dreary amongst the grey of the sky. It seems like the weather reflects my moods. You know at every funeral I attended to, it seemed to rain. I remember them so well, the way the caskets shined where the fat rain drops landed, the way the white pristine flowers drooped every so slightly at the added weight of the clear drops. Looking out the window I can see the almost invisible strands of rain filtering the dreary sky. I hear the door open and a rough but gentle voice call out my name.
"Ryou?"
Turning my head the slightest bit I can see the shine of silvery white hair and those beautiful blooded red eyes. You look so handsome, so beautiful, so dark. In the dimmed room you seem to melt into the shadows, almost disappearing into them. Only your silvery white hair and beautiful garnet eyes stand out. It can be quite unnerving really, but to me they are beautiful. I can smell that distinctly dark and sharp smell of you as you sit next to me on the window seat. The smell that reminds me of bittersweet chocolate and coffee. The scent that reminds me of dark midnight evenings where everything seems decidedly evil. Its quite comforting to me, makes me feel secure, as if the dark would never harm me, only embrace me, protect me from all evil. It's silly, I chide myself. He doesn't even like me. Does he?
(Bakura)
Those eyes, those eyes will haunt me. So forlorn, so hopeless, so...unlike the Ryou I used to know. They seem so dull and dead, like life no longer lives in the slim body of my tenshi. Like his soul was buried along with his father's casket.
"Hey, you okay?"
A slow nod which turns into a shake.
"I wish I wasn't...alone. It feels so lonely Bakura-san. It hurts to be alone. Do you get it Bakura-san? I don't want to be alone. I-I-I want to have a family, someone to love me, to take care of me."
I love you Ryou. You just don't see it.
"You don't have to be alone Ryou-san."
"I don't?"
Confused brown orbs stare at me intently. I see a spark of life rekindling in them as they look up at me. Hope softly and subtly shines through them as they ask me; pray for me to help in some way.
"You can stay with us."
It takes a moment for both of us to understand what I just said...WHAT DID I JUST SAY?!?!?!?!?!?! OH DAMNIT ALL! ME AND MY MOUTH! OH KAMI, WHAT GRUDGE DO YOU HAVE AGAINST ME?!
"Do you mean it?"
I look down to see those eyes look alive once more. Those eyes shining full of happiness, of hope, of joy! How can I say no? And somehow I manage a smile and a nod. Oh kami, I'm in deep shit now. ******************************************************************* ****************************************** OH MY GOD! That is the longest I've ever written! Wow! Anyways, as usual read and review please! OH AND IMPORTANT NOTE! I need a link to a picture of Bakura in ancient Egypt for my next fic! Please send me one if you can! Thank you! So read and review and until the next chapter ja ne ^_^!