Chapter 5 - Moving On

"The next few days that followed were chaotic Phoebe and Cole had to move all their stuff from the penthouse apartment to the manor, so they could look after me. Paige was to busy and whitelighter duties to look after me. As much I loved my Aunt and Uncle they could never replace my parents, no matter how hard they tried. Even when they moved all their stuff into my parents room, replaced my parents possessions with theirs and even threw away some of there stuff, to me this symbolized the end. I just wanted to scream at them and tell them to leave it alone, but instead I locked myself into my own mind building a bigger wall around myself, trying to keep all that I did know in and all that was new out."

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"Its strange how things seem to change around you, except you remain in the same place as before. Feeling lost and alone, unable to understand why you can't change. It was like this for me I was lost in a world of pity I ignored Cole and Phoebe's attempts to lure me out of my trance. I barely strung two words together in a day. Sometimes I wish I was with them, I knew they were happy in heaven...or where ever it is they went. I was angry, so angry at the fact that they left me here alone, yet felt guilty to feel this anger. The one thing I have come to believe is something my mum told me along time ago, 'Evil only exists to spread loss', her words rang over and over in my head as I changed position on the chair, I had been sitting on for the past four hours. My eye barely registered Phoebe entering the room until she knelt down in front of me and pushed open my clenched fist. I felt her place something cold in my palm and casts my eyes downwards to see. Looking at my now outstretched palm I saw the familiar pale white stone glint in its silver casing.

I felt a sob hitch in the back of my throat as she spoke to me "I thought you might like this...I know she would have wanted you to have this!"

I ran my fingers slowly over the jewel, images of my mum wearing the necklace sprung into my mind, clouding my thoughts. I slowly placed the necklace around my neck and held the pendant close to my heart before letting it go, just like I let her go to evil. I managed a weak 'thanks' to my aunt. Although the pendant made me think of my mother's death, it also reminded me of her strength and determination. When someone gives you a family possession you feel honoured to have it yet you know the only reason you do is due to death. As we begin to accept death we cling to these objects as if they were the only thing in this world that could stop us from falling and allow us to move on. But if all we can do is cling to our past so how does that make us able to move on?"

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Luke watched her as she told her story: her eyes staring as though she was seeing a time that was long since past, Her hand clutching the pendant hanging from her neck.


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"After much discussion they lured me into a family dinner that night to celebrate Phoebe and Cole moving back in. It was the first meal we all had together since mum died. It was tense to say the least. Full of false smiles and small talk, mainly aimed at me, It wasn't the same. No matter what they did or how they acted it still wasn't the same. To me the food was disgusting and an eerie silence fell over every attempt to start a conversation."

"The next bit that followed I don't remember well. I remember becoming angry, something my aunt said set of my anger. The tables began to shake so violently that food and cutlery was leaving the table at a tremendous speed, the chandelier above rattled so hard we believed it would fall on us. I looked around to see horrified faces just before we were plunged darkness as the light above us burst. I began to feel a throbbing pain in my head that got worse as every second passed by. My vision became blurry, I couldn't see anything any more and I felt myself falling and heard my head hit the table and at that moment everything stopped."

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A/N: So what did you think? We do apologize greatly for the huge writers block we had which was why this story has not been updated for a long time...