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CH 2: THOUGHTS
The first few weeks of school was very interesting. Ephram and Amy weren't talking like they used to still, but there are the occasional hi's or hey's or see ya, other than that nothing else. One Saturday night it was raining. Ephram was in his room listening to the radio. Then "Here without you" by 3 doors down came on. "I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind. I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time. I'm here without you baby but you're still with me in my dreams, and tonight girl it's only you and me." This was Ephram's "song" over the summer. It reminded him of Amy. Everytime they play that song, he thinks of her. He sat by his window listening to the falling rain. There was something about the sound, whatever it is, it soothed him in a way. There were so many thoughts going through his mind. So many and yet, only one subject, AMY. "I thought I'd forget about her. I tried but it's not that easy. The more I try to forget her, the more I want to be with her. Damn! This is hopeless. I still wanna be her friend, but I know I'll just get hurt because I will lover her no matter what." His thoughts went back when he first moved to Everwood. The only reason why Amy started talking to him was because she wanted Ephram's dad to help Colin, who was in a coma. But then they got to know each other and Amy realized that Ephram was a nice person. Amy invited him to go with her at Kayla's birthday party but Amy's friends dis-invited him. They said he wasn't cool enough, and Amy didn't do anything about it. Then she realized that she should have said something. She ended up not going the party and she talked to Ephram. "When you first got here, I know I got to know you for all the wrong reasons. Friendship wasn't exactly at the top of my list. But as it turns out, you're really funny and weird and now you're like this guy in my life that I care about." Ephram remembered that it made him feel important to Amy when she said that. Then it hit him, he can't just let their friendship go just like that. It has meant more to him and he knew that it means a lot to Amy too. Ephram realized that Amy is a big part of his crazy life. And he liked it that way. He knew what he had to do.
Amy was in her room too. She loves the rain. It made her think clearly in a way. She was sitting by her window and a million thoughts was running through her head. She was thinking about the whole situation with Ephram. When Colin was in a coma, Ephram was by her side the entire time, then when he got out of the coma, Colin can't even remember her! And Ephram made sure she didn't give up on Colin. Amy even forgot about other people that cared about her cause she was so worried about Colin. And not once did Ephram made her feel selfish. When she wanted to give up on Colin, Ephram gave her strength to move and he taught her to have faith. She knew that he was still having a hard time dealing with his mom's death. Like he told her once, "It will take time. I'm just trying to take one day at a time." Which make sense. She remembered the conversation they had at Fuller's pond. "Ephram I don't know what to do anymore. Do I just wait until he remembers who I am? I remember what he wore on our first date and he doesn't even remember my name." Amy said almost crying. "Amy c'mon. Colin is back. He is awake now. You've waited for this for the longest time. You can't give up on him now." Ephram took her hand and then dried her tears. "I know. I must sound like the worst girfriend in the world. It's just that maybe this is all my fault. If I didn't fight with him that day, maybe he didn't go on a joyride with Bright. Maybe he didn't ran away from me." Amy was now crying hard. "Amy, you gotta stop blaming yourself. You have done more for Colin than anybody in this town. When my mom died, I was sure it was my fault cause it was my stupid recital. Blaming yourself is just a way to try to make sense of something that will never make sense. When the truth is, it was what it was, an accident. No matter how hard I blamed myself, I realized she wasn't going to come back. I just tried to take one day at a time. You should try that. Ok? Hey you're shaking." Ephram held Amy. And she felt safe in his arms. "Thanks Ephram. I needed to hear that. You know with all the stuff you wetn through with your mom, I should be the one consoling you." Amy said. "Nah it goes both ways, I'm always here when you need me Amy. You know that right?" Amy nods and smiled at Ephram. Going back to that day, made Amy smile. She realized that they have gone through good and bad times. "I just can't let our friendship go just like that. I have to show him that I care about him. I just hope it's not too late. Amy sat there thinking about what she's gonna say to Ephram. And what's Colin gonna say about this. All she knew is that she has to talk to Ephram. "Supposed I said I am on my best behavior and there are times I lose my worried mind? Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I'm someone else? Supposed I said colors changed for no good reason and words will go from poetry to prose. Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I'm someone else? And I, in time, will come around I always do for you. Supposed I said, you're my saving grace."
I added the John Mayer song at the end cause that song is great. I thought it was the right song for the moment. I'm working on the next chapter. Please review and you guys are more than welcome to give me any suggestions. This is my first Fanfic! Thanks.
CH 2: THOUGHTS
The first few weeks of school was very interesting. Ephram and Amy weren't talking like they used to still, but there are the occasional hi's or hey's or see ya, other than that nothing else. One Saturday night it was raining. Ephram was in his room listening to the radio. Then "Here without you" by 3 doors down came on. "I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind. I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time. I'm here without you baby but you're still with me in my dreams, and tonight girl it's only you and me." This was Ephram's "song" over the summer. It reminded him of Amy. Everytime they play that song, he thinks of her. He sat by his window listening to the falling rain. There was something about the sound, whatever it is, it soothed him in a way. There were so many thoughts going through his mind. So many and yet, only one subject, AMY. "I thought I'd forget about her. I tried but it's not that easy. The more I try to forget her, the more I want to be with her. Damn! This is hopeless. I still wanna be her friend, but I know I'll just get hurt because I will lover her no matter what." His thoughts went back when he first moved to Everwood. The only reason why Amy started talking to him was because she wanted Ephram's dad to help Colin, who was in a coma. But then they got to know each other and Amy realized that Ephram was a nice person. Amy invited him to go with her at Kayla's birthday party but Amy's friends dis-invited him. They said he wasn't cool enough, and Amy didn't do anything about it. Then she realized that she should have said something. She ended up not going the party and she talked to Ephram. "When you first got here, I know I got to know you for all the wrong reasons. Friendship wasn't exactly at the top of my list. But as it turns out, you're really funny and weird and now you're like this guy in my life that I care about." Ephram remembered that it made him feel important to Amy when she said that. Then it hit him, he can't just let their friendship go just like that. It has meant more to him and he knew that it means a lot to Amy too. Ephram realized that Amy is a big part of his crazy life. And he liked it that way. He knew what he had to do.
Amy was in her room too. She loves the rain. It made her think clearly in a way. She was sitting by her window and a million thoughts was running through her head. She was thinking about the whole situation with Ephram. When Colin was in a coma, Ephram was by her side the entire time, then when he got out of the coma, Colin can't even remember her! And Ephram made sure she didn't give up on Colin. Amy even forgot about other people that cared about her cause she was so worried about Colin. And not once did Ephram made her feel selfish. When she wanted to give up on Colin, Ephram gave her strength to move and he taught her to have faith. She knew that he was still having a hard time dealing with his mom's death. Like he told her once, "It will take time. I'm just trying to take one day at a time." Which make sense. She remembered the conversation they had at Fuller's pond. "Ephram I don't know what to do anymore. Do I just wait until he remembers who I am? I remember what he wore on our first date and he doesn't even remember my name." Amy said almost crying. "Amy c'mon. Colin is back. He is awake now. You've waited for this for the longest time. You can't give up on him now." Ephram took her hand and then dried her tears. "I know. I must sound like the worst girfriend in the world. It's just that maybe this is all my fault. If I didn't fight with him that day, maybe he didn't go on a joyride with Bright. Maybe he didn't ran away from me." Amy was now crying hard. "Amy, you gotta stop blaming yourself. You have done more for Colin than anybody in this town. When my mom died, I was sure it was my fault cause it was my stupid recital. Blaming yourself is just a way to try to make sense of something that will never make sense. When the truth is, it was what it was, an accident. No matter how hard I blamed myself, I realized she wasn't going to come back. I just tried to take one day at a time. You should try that. Ok? Hey you're shaking." Ephram held Amy. And she felt safe in his arms. "Thanks Ephram. I needed to hear that. You know with all the stuff you wetn through with your mom, I should be the one consoling you." Amy said. "Nah it goes both ways, I'm always here when you need me Amy. You know that right?" Amy nods and smiled at Ephram. Going back to that day, made Amy smile. She realized that they have gone through good and bad times. "I just can't let our friendship go just like that. I have to show him that I care about him. I just hope it's not too late. Amy sat there thinking about what she's gonna say to Ephram. And what's Colin gonna say about this. All she knew is that she has to talk to Ephram. "Supposed I said I am on my best behavior and there are times I lose my worried mind? Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I'm someone else? Supposed I said colors changed for no good reason and words will go from poetry to prose. Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I'm someone else? And I, in time, will come around I always do for you. Supposed I said, you're my saving grace."
I added the John Mayer song at the end cause that song is great. I thought it was the right song for the moment. I'm working on the next chapter. Please review and you guys are more than welcome to give me any suggestions. This is my first Fanfic! Thanks.