I'd die inside without you
Can't you see it's hard enough to walk away?
But she was not ready. She could tell from the kiss. Pulling away she says, "Sean, no. I'm sorry." Her heart ached for it to be right, for her to be ready to be with him. She wanted it more than anything in the world. It was still too soon. She knew that it would not be fair to him to pretend.
The rain was starting to come down hard. They were both soaked. She started to turn away, but he stopped her. Not wanting to look back, she stopped where she was and let her hand linger in his. His voice cracking, he barely whispered, "Emma." Knowing that if she turned to look at him, she would not be able to walk away so remained with her back to him. "Please," touching her shoulder he asks again, "Emma, please look at me."
Don't look at me and make me wrong
I've been through this too; it made me strong
Reluctantly, she turns around and sees what she knew would hold her back. Seeing him so hurt and in so much pain made it harder for her, it hurt her to see him hurt. With tears forming in his eyes he asks her, "Why?" She wanted desperately to tell him what was wrong, but the words would not come out of her mouth. He needed to trust her on this.
"Please don't make this any harder than it already is," she whispered as she looked into his eyes. The longing, the hurt, the passion, she could see it in his eyes and she forced herself to look away. Why did it have to be this complicated?
She leaned her forehead against his and breathed a heavy sigh. Knowing that if she stayed any longer she would not be able to leave, she wrapped her arms around him and held him tight. They held onto each other, afraid of what was going to happen when they let go.
As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again
As soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
He whispered into her ear, "Please stay. Stay with me." His heart was beating quickly and she could feel it. All he wanted to do was take the pain away, to make her better, but that was not possible. Not tonight, at least.
"I can't," she whispered back. Finally letting go of him, she starts to walk away again. He reaches for her hand again and stops her. She had to leave. It was no or never. Staying would only hurt him more than if she left. It would not be fair to the both of them, more so for him. She had to make him see that.
"I don't understand. I thought you were ready." She shook her head slowly and tried to hold back the tears. With her back still to him she took a deep breath. Not wanting to let go of her hand, he squeezes it and asks one more time, "Why?"
Unable to control her emotions any longer, she allowed a tear to roll down her cheek. She turned around to look at him one last time.
Right now I
Can't give you what you need
Soon as you get that feeling
Soon as you get that feeling
She put her hand up to his cheek and said, "Because I love you." And with that, she let go of his hand and turned and walked away from him. When she knew she was far enough, burst into tears.
Run to me
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Also! Be on the lookout for the sequel to this! It's called The Way. :D