"Sara." Grissom walked around the car to follow her towards the lab. She
turned her head to indicate she heard him, but didn't stop. "I'm sorry
about this morning."
"Nothing to be sorry about really. I shouldn't have opened my mouth." She said like it didn't bother her. "No harm done." She added as she turned to him.
He stopped. "I thought that there was plenty of harm done." He stated, turning his head to look at her after he glanced around them. "And I think I'm the one who was doing all the harm."
Sara sighed. "You think too much."
Grissom thought for a second before saying. "I do think too much." He agreed. "But, if I stopped thinking and started acting, then."
"You wouldn't be you Grissom." She breathed. "Can. can we just forget this?" She pleaded. He shook his head. Sara closed her eyes and ran her fingers through her hair. "You want to continue this distance?" She asked after the silence settled.
"No." He answered softly.
Sara sighed and looked down at gravel. "You really want to talk about this, at work?" She asked incredulously.
Grissom seemed to think this over as he looked at the lab doors and the car park. "Seemed like the place and the time." He confessed, turning back. After watching her for a full minute, he started speaking in a quiet voice so others couldn't hear. "I'm going to ask you something and then I want you to answer me honestly." Not waiting for a response, he continued. "Do you have feelings for me?"
Sara didn't take her eyes from him. "You know what I feel Grissom."
With a frustrated groan, he shook his head and took a few steps towards her. With only a foot between them, he could see her lip-gloss. "Answer me please." He pleaded on a whisper.
"Yes." She answered with no delay. Grissom looked into her eyes with a blank expression. Sara closed her eyes and shook her head. "Don't!" She demanded. "Don't look at me with nothing Grissom. Show me at least some emotion, not the emptiness I see now." She stressed as she looked back up at him.
"What difference does it make?" He asked throatily.
Sara was getting angry now and he knew it. He was getting her to expose herself and he was showing nothing. "Why don't you show me something Griss?" She was near tears, but wasn't going to let him see them. She had managed to keep them buried for days now. "I'm here, alone with you. and you are still avoiding me."
"I'm right here Sara. Does it really look like I'm avoiding you?"
She bit her lip and nodded. "I just told you I have feelings for you because you asked me to clarify it for you and you gave me nothing, absolutely nothing in return." Her voice was raising now as she tried to make sense of what was happening.
Grissom's eyes seemed to darken as he looked down. His heart was pounding in his chest and his throat felt constricted. He needed to do something. Sara stepped towards him and touched his face. He didn't look up at the contact. Her hand held his cheek as she made him look at her. "You need to show me something Grissom or this will forever eat away at us." She whispered.
He closed his eyes as she made him look at her and Sara's tears fell without her consent. He wasn't going to look at her. She stepped closer and now their clothes were touching. Leaning in with determination, she watched Grissom's eyes open slowly. He watched as her eyes closed. He felt her other hand on his face as she brushed her lips across his. His heart nearly exploded with the chaste kiss.
Sara pulled away slowly and avoided his eyes that were beginning to open. Her hands dropped to her sides as she stepped away. "I'm sorry." She whispered brokenly. Grissom let her put more distance between them. She turned away and wiped the tears from her face. "I should have just left it alone."
"Then neither of us would have known." He said roughly.
She looked at him with pained eyes. "Known what Grissom?" She asked. "Known what? That I was stupid to even try and find out what it would be like to actually care for someone?" She took a shaky breath. "That I should have never trusted my heart with anyone?" She shook her head and walked away from the lab. "THAT'S too late Grissom, not THIS."
Catherine knew by his lack of concentration that he'd spoken to Sara recently. He'd just missed a blood droplet on the table as he past by it without a first glance. She processed the scene in his footsteps to make sue he didn't miss anything else and was glad to see that the blood was the only piece of evidence that he missed. Even one mistake was not Grissom.
"You ok Gil? You've been off all night?" She asked when the officer left the room and they were alone.
Grissom sighed and looked up from his kneeling position. "I spoke to Sara before work and it went badly once again." He shook his head and grimaced. "I can't stop putting my foot in my mouth or the complete opposite, not saying anything."
She smiled at his thoughtful look and confusion. "I can see you're trying."
He snorted. "Obviously not hard enough, I've been told."
"Your mother's heading home tonight, correct?" Catherine asked.
"Yeah. I'm driving her to the airport in the morning." He looked down at the carpet and lifted a footprint.
Catherine leaned against the wall and watched him before asking. "Can I ask you what you talked about this evening to upset Sara?"
Grissom nodded. "You can and the answer would be mine to know and I probably should talk to her again." He winced when he stood and looked around the room as he absently added. "Since she kissed me an all." He turned his head to Catherine and shrugged. "Getting somewhere I guess." Catherine smiled at her friend. At least progress was being made, even though at a snails pace.
Marie looked at the flight board while Grissom checked with the flight desk. The flight to Las Angeles was running on time and she should be home in a matter of hours. Her friend was picking her up and they had plans to eat and catch up with news of her trip to Vegas.
Grissom sat with his mother for ten minutes before he turned to her and confidently told her. 'I'm going to talk to Sara.'
'When?' She smiled.
He licked his lips and looked at his watch. 'As soon as your flight leaves I'll go and see her.'
'You promise to sort this out today?' She signed eagerly.
Grissom nodded and took her hand. "I want to sort it out. I want to tell her everything. I'm going to try mother, I promise."
"Nothing to be sorry about really. I shouldn't have opened my mouth." She said like it didn't bother her. "No harm done." She added as she turned to him.
He stopped. "I thought that there was plenty of harm done." He stated, turning his head to look at her after he glanced around them. "And I think I'm the one who was doing all the harm."
Sara sighed. "You think too much."
Grissom thought for a second before saying. "I do think too much." He agreed. "But, if I stopped thinking and started acting, then."
"You wouldn't be you Grissom." She breathed. "Can. can we just forget this?" She pleaded. He shook his head. Sara closed her eyes and ran her fingers through her hair. "You want to continue this distance?" She asked after the silence settled.
"No." He answered softly.
Sara sighed and looked down at gravel. "You really want to talk about this, at work?" She asked incredulously.
Grissom seemed to think this over as he looked at the lab doors and the car park. "Seemed like the place and the time." He confessed, turning back. After watching her for a full minute, he started speaking in a quiet voice so others couldn't hear. "I'm going to ask you something and then I want you to answer me honestly." Not waiting for a response, he continued. "Do you have feelings for me?"
Sara didn't take her eyes from him. "You know what I feel Grissom."
With a frustrated groan, he shook his head and took a few steps towards her. With only a foot between them, he could see her lip-gloss. "Answer me please." He pleaded on a whisper.
"Yes." She answered with no delay. Grissom looked into her eyes with a blank expression. Sara closed her eyes and shook her head. "Don't!" She demanded. "Don't look at me with nothing Grissom. Show me at least some emotion, not the emptiness I see now." She stressed as she looked back up at him.
"What difference does it make?" He asked throatily.
Sara was getting angry now and he knew it. He was getting her to expose herself and he was showing nothing. "Why don't you show me something Griss?" She was near tears, but wasn't going to let him see them. She had managed to keep them buried for days now. "I'm here, alone with you. and you are still avoiding me."
"I'm right here Sara. Does it really look like I'm avoiding you?"
She bit her lip and nodded. "I just told you I have feelings for you because you asked me to clarify it for you and you gave me nothing, absolutely nothing in return." Her voice was raising now as she tried to make sense of what was happening.
Grissom's eyes seemed to darken as he looked down. His heart was pounding in his chest and his throat felt constricted. He needed to do something. Sara stepped towards him and touched his face. He didn't look up at the contact. Her hand held his cheek as she made him look at her. "You need to show me something Grissom or this will forever eat away at us." She whispered.
He closed his eyes as she made him look at her and Sara's tears fell without her consent. He wasn't going to look at her. She stepped closer and now their clothes were touching. Leaning in with determination, she watched Grissom's eyes open slowly. He watched as her eyes closed. He felt her other hand on his face as she brushed her lips across his. His heart nearly exploded with the chaste kiss.
Sara pulled away slowly and avoided his eyes that were beginning to open. Her hands dropped to her sides as she stepped away. "I'm sorry." She whispered brokenly. Grissom let her put more distance between them. She turned away and wiped the tears from her face. "I should have just left it alone."
"Then neither of us would have known." He said roughly.
She looked at him with pained eyes. "Known what Grissom?" She asked. "Known what? That I was stupid to even try and find out what it would be like to actually care for someone?" She took a shaky breath. "That I should have never trusted my heart with anyone?" She shook her head and walked away from the lab. "THAT'S too late Grissom, not THIS."
Catherine knew by his lack of concentration that he'd spoken to Sara recently. He'd just missed a blood droplet on the table as he past by it without a first glance. She processed the scene in his footsteps to make sue he didn't miss anything else and was glad to see that the blood was the only piece of evidence that he missed. Even one mistake was not Grissom.
"You ok Gil? You've been off all night?" She asked when the officer left the room and they were alone.
Grissom sighed and looked up from his kneeling position. "I spoke to Sara before work and it went badly once again." He shook his head and grimaced. "I can't stop putting my foot in my mouth or the complete opposite, not saying anything."
She smiled at his thoughtful look and confusion. "I can see you're trying."
He snorted. "Obviously not hard enough, I've been told."
"Your mother's heading home tonight, correct?" Catherine asked.
"Yeah. I'm driving her to the airport in the morning." He looked down at the carpet and lifted a footprint.
Catherine leaned against the wall and watched him before asking. "Can I ask you what you talked about this evening to upset Sara?"
Grissom nodded. "You can and the answer would be mine to know and I probably should talk to her again." He winced when he stood and looked around the room as he absently added. "Since she kissed me an all." He turned his head to Catherine and shrugged. "Getting somewhere I guess." Catherine smiled at her friend. At least progress was being made, even though at a snails pace.
Marie looked at the flight board while Grissom checked with the flight desk. The flight to Las Angeles was running on time and she should be home in a matter of hours. Her friend was picking her up and they had plans to eat and catch up with news of her trip to Vegas.
Grissom sat with his mother for ten minutes before he turned to her and confidently told her. 'I'm going to talk to Sara.'
'When?' She smiled.
He licked his lips and looked at his watch. 'As soon as your flight leaves I'll go and see her.'
'You promise to sort this out today?' She signed eagerly.
Grissom nodded and took her hand. "I want to sort it out. I want to tell her everything. I'm going to try mother, I promise."