By my Side

Konnichiwa minna! Asuki here, thanks for all your reviews^^. I loved them all!~ A new chapter here, and who knows what's going to happen, I hope you enjoy this chapter, there's quite a bit in it, and also I apologize if there's any mistakes, grammar or spelling.

Now on with the fanfic, I think I'll have to do the disclaimer myself this time.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything, not beyblade, not the songs, not even Kai and Rei. There, you happy now? *breaks down*


Chapter 3:
Tell me you love me


Kai has never, ever felt like this before in his entire life. As days drew past, he found himself dangerously attracted to a certain raven-haired boy with golden eyes. He found an urge to care for him, comfort him when he's down, and most of all, love him, if that was ever possible.

He wanted to love and to be loved. Kai didn't know how to deal with this sudden outburst of emotions and feelings in such a short period of time. After all, he was taught to be cold, ruthless, and unemotional for as long as he knows. Little people did know, that Kai's grandfather had once planned to take over the world, and Kai was one of his soldiers. Yet this plan has been postponed indefinitely for some reason unknown to Kai. Yet his grandfather's harsh trainings and beatings didn't stop there.

There were times when Kai just wanted to hold Rei in his arms whenever he saw the boy, touch the silk like black hair, taste those delicate and inviting lips, whisper loving words in his ears, just once. Endless times Kai have watched Rei when he was asleep, being able to just watch the peaceful figure, like an angel, was all that he needed.

He promised himself never to reveal his feelings for this boy, unless of course, if Rei can return his feelings. But that was never going to happen, Rei would never like him, the cold bastard whom everyone hates. Rei was too perfect, too innocent, to be his. He didn't deserve Rei.

Both boys struggled with their emotions for a seemingly long time, subconsciously unaware of the fact that they are falling deep love, with each other. Yet neither one ever admitted any sort of feelings to another.

Day after day, both boys find themselves wanting to pick up the courage to tell the other just exactly how they felt. Yet internal voices inside their heads are telling them their worst fear, the fear of rejection.


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The end of year was approaching, indicating that the end-of-year dance was soon to be taken place. Every boy and girl was either talking about what they will wear, or whom they want to ask to the dance, all except two boys, by the name of Kai and Rei.

Kai of course, was a popular choice with the girls, often while Kai is walking alone in corridors between classes, which he always does, girls would come up to him and ask him to be her partner for the dance. One by one he turned them down, hoping they'd get the message and leave him alone. Of course the girls just kept coming back. (stupid ne?)

Rei on the other hand, was also a popular choice, his sweet personality and that smile of his can make the light-hearted faint. Unlike Kai, Rei always walked with his friends Max, Kenny and Tyson. He also got numerous girls asking him to be her partner, but Rei politely refused them all.

" Rei, are you going to go with anyone at all?" Tyson asked impatiently one day after Maths, when Rei politely refused another girl.

" Er. I don't know, really." Rei was taken back by Tyson's sudden behaviour.

" Man, if I were you I'd choose already," Tyson said, with a hint of jealousy.

" Tyson you'll never be like Rei, but you can always dream," Max giggled.

" Rei, I reckon Tyson's right, if you don't make up your mind soon, there'll be no-one left!" Kenny explained, after tallying up the number of girls that had asked Rei.

Rei made no response, his heart knowing too well who the only person he wants to go with is.

" Yeah, I guess you're right Kenny, maybe I should just go with someone, anyone." Rei replied, sounding rather depressed.


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By the night of the dance, neither boys have got a partner for the dance. It's not like they needed to, but just.

Kai was leaning next to the wardrobe, sipping coffee, when Rei charged in the room, looking concerned. Rei saw Kai drinking his coffee, decided that it is not a good time to interrupt, Kai likes his coffee in peace.

Kai saw Rei sat down but promptly stood up again, he was just about to leave the door when Kai spoke.

" Rei, where do you think you're going, it's nearly time for the dance and you'll need to change and prepare," Kai said calmly, still sipping his coffee.

" Er. I didn't want to disturb you, that's all." Rei replied, surprised at Kai's sudden words.

" It's ok, you can stay, besides you need to get ready," Kai spoke, still not looking at Rei.

" Well, ok then."

With that Rei turned back into the room and plopped down on his bed.

" So, who's your partner for the dance?" Kai asked, not knowing why he did it.

" Er. No one actually, I had quite a few asking me, but I refused them all." Rei mumbled, evidently trying to hide the fact that he has started to blush slightly.

" Well, I see we have the same problem." Kai said simply.

" You. You mean you don't have a partner too?" Rei asked, surprised to hear that Kai isn't going with anyone either.

Kai finished the last drop of his coffee, then licked his lips in such a seductive manner that had Rei watching him pensively, though longer than intended.

" Well I guess we better get ready then, the dance starts in 30 minutes," Kai told Rei.


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In the school hall where the dance is taking place.

People are everywhere, all dressed up and chatting excitedly about the upcoming event. Red and green lights blazed the hall, occasionally flashing on people's faces. Loud music echoed, and everyone except Kai and Rei seems to be in a party mood.


I'm glad when I'm making love to you,
I'm glad at the way you make me feel,
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind,
Everytime,

I'm glad when you walk you hold my hand,
I'm happy that you know how to be a man,
I'm glad that you came into my life,
I'm so glad...


Kai was wearing his most of his usual outfit, except he now wore black denim jeans, revealing his body figure completely, making a lot of girls scream. He wore his usual blank tank top, showing off those perfect muscles subconsciously. His scarf radiated intimidation and a don't-mess-with-me look. He's blue triangle face paint and those silvery black arm gauntlets only added to the mysterious yet attractive appearance of Kai.

At this moment, Kai is leaning against the wall, arms crossed, face emotionless, not wanting to mix with the people dancing, nor is he in the mood to dance but it wasn't long until the girls have found him and came over, trying to *seduce* him by flashing their eyelashes. Of course, it wasn't working.

By now there is at least a dozen girls surrounding Kai, trying to talk to him. Some just looked at him, others were just shocked to see him so close up. One of them had even had the temerity to run her hand down his chest. At that moment, Kai swore he just saw Rei looking at him, fangs bearing, eyes narrowed, looking annoyed.

Kai smirked to himself mentally. Oh. so Rei's jealous now is he? Nah, it couldn't be.

Kai was brought back to reality when one of the girls spoke.

" Say, Kai, are you involved with someone?" A girl who introduced herself as Julie asked, her eyes shining hopefully.

Kai rolled his eyes, the nerves these girls have. Humph, even if he wasn't, there's no way on earth that he would be getting involved with one of these. So he made up his mind.

" Yes Julie, I'm actually involved with someone at the moment." Kai replied with a seductive tone.

All the girls surrounding Kai let out a groan of disappointment, while Kai chuckled mentally.

" Well then, what kind of person is she?" another girl named Sarah, asked cheekily.

" Well." Kai drew out thoughtfully. Now the whole group of girls surrounding him is listening carefully, not wanting to miss a word, ears anticipating.

" This person that I like at the moment is extraordinarily beautiful, kind and sensitive. This person is brave, very intelligent and not afraid to stand up for themselves, when necessarily." To conclude Kai's little speech, he smirked at his audience, "This person is also incredibly sexy." He finished.

To say the girls around him were disappointed was an understatement. There were distinctive groans, moans, and even a few sniffles. Kai just stood there, ignoring them all.

Unknown to Kai, Rei had actually overheard his comments about this person he likes. Rei's heart sank immediately. If Kai is interested in somebody else, what did he, Rei Kon, have? Is he going to have to live with heartbreak for the rest of his life for good? Rei couldn't bear the thought.

And still, the evening drew on.


I really want to learn to last forever,
I really want to be with you...


Rei was now sinking even more into depression, he didn't want to be around the hall any longer. With that thought, he left, headed up to the roof, where he would usually go to if he had any problems. There he could be alone, undisturbed by all his mixed feelings.

Kai had noticed Rei leaving, and wondered why he did so, he had caught his face before he left, and it was the first time Kai had saw Rei depressed. Deciding he wants to investigate further, he too, left the hall.

Not knowing where Rei went, Kai started to look for him. Not in the classroom, not in the playground, not even in the dormitory, Kai was starting to get desperate, when suddenly a thought sprang to his mind. The rooftop! Of course! Why didn't I think of that before? With a glimpse of new hope in his mind, he ran, as fast as his legs could carry him, to the rooftop of the hall.


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Meanwhile on the rooftop.

Rei was sobbing uncontrollably by now, he sat, arms fasten around his knees. The wind rustled through his beautiful raven hair, which is now out of its bonding; and shuffled with its shape. Rei, not bothered to clear it out of the way of his face, let the wind carry on playing with his hair.

Hearing footsteps, Rei figured that someone is coming, but he doesn't care now, nothing matters anymore.


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Kai ascended the last of the steps and is now standing at the doorway. He quickly shot his eyes around, trying to find the one person that's on his mind. And there he saw him, the small figure with long raven hair, just sitting there, with his back to him.

Moving very silently, Kai paused to observe the boy, he's so beautiful. Still startled at the Rei he saw back in the hall, Kai got worried, and moved silently up behind the younger boy, not wanting to startle him, he called out gently.

" Rei?"

Rei groaned to himself silently. This is exactly what he needs, the object of his obsession creeping up on him, but then he felt guilty for thinking such things about Kai. It wasn't his fault that Rei was in love with him, he's just so. perfect. There, he admitted it to himself, he is madly in love with Kai.

Kai on the other hand, was wondering why Rei didn't answer him, now pondering how to get his attention, Kai walked over to Rei, and placed his hands on his shoulders, sitting down next to him.

Rei shrugged his shoulders, trying to get Kai to leave him alone, Kai was taken back by Rei's actions, yet he didn't care.

" Rei, are you ok?" Kai asked, sounding deeply concerned.

" I'm fine Kai, just thinking. Why are you here anyways, shouldn't you be back at the hall with your girlfriend?" Rei said between sobs.

" There's something wrong isn't there, you can tell me you know, I might not be able to help, but at least you can talk to me," Kai offered, not knowing how the hell he just said that.

With one hand messaging his forehead, which has now developed a headache, Rei looked up into Kai's crimson orbs, as if questioning.

Then Kai did something he never thought he was capable of, he gently laid a hand on Rei's, rubbing his forehead, the action soothed and relaxed Rei considerably. Kai brushed away the strands of raven hair on Rei's face with his delicate fingers, and started messaging Rei's temples in a circular motion. Rei was taken back by Kai's actions, but made no attempts to stop them, Kai's actions now brought relief to Rei.

" Shhh." whispered Kai, " Just relax."

Without realizing, Rei started to lean into Kai's touch. Leaning backwards, Rei laid his head on Kai's lean, toned stomach and surprisingly, started to purr.

Kai looked down at the now relaxed Rei, resting peacefully on him, his golden orbs looking straight into his own, Kai started to melt under the gaze.

/If only he knows how I feel, but he never will./

----------Rei's POV----------

I leaned into Kai's stomach, and surprising he let me. I felt so comfortable with his hands messaging me like that. I looked up at him, his crimson orbs shining in the dark, I felt loved, needed and whole.

/If only I can tell him that I love him./

----------Normal POV----------

Both boys were lost in their own thoughts, but not for long. Rei is now struggling with a decision that could change their lives and his relationship with Kai forever. No matter what the outcome is, I will behave maturely, Rei thought. Kai was however, still amazed at the beauty of Rei's golden orbs.

" Kai," Rei whispered.

" Yes, Rei?" Kai responded, his mind still on Rei's beauty.

" I love you."

Kai's hand pulled away from Rei's face when he heard those three words, apparently in shock.

Rei witnessed Kai's reaction, and decided that if it's rejection that he faces, then he'll have to deal with Kai's hatred and disgust to him for the rest of his life, and that can practically kill him. On the other hand, if Kai accepts him, well, he'll think about that later.

While Rei just mustered all his courage to let those three words slip, Kai was so shocked he forgot what was happening. He had been hoping, praying, to hear those words from Rei ever since he realized how much he had loved this boy. Kai never thought that he could love anyone so intently, but he did it, and to know that Rei loves him too. Kai was totally lost in his thoughts, and Rei was impatient waiting for Kai to respond to him.

" Kai! Say something!" Rei nearly shouted in Kai's ears.

" Answer me! I just said I love you! Doesn't that mean anything to you?!" Rei was now shouting, desperately.

Still in complete shock, Kai didn't respond to Rei's shouting. He also failed to notice that the younger boy had unshed tears glistening in the corner of his golden orbs. Rei, all his hopes diminished, looked up at Kai with his enticing golden orbs, tears now falling uncontrollably all over his pale face. It was then did Kai managed to recover from his love's shocking revelation, and looked into those mystic golden depths of his beloved.

" Rei, what's wrong? You."

Before Kai had the chance to finish his sentence, Rei broke off. He stood up abruptly, pushed away from Kai and started running, running as fast as he could. Down the stairs he ran, pass the corridors and classrooms, pass all the dancing and laughter that emitted from the school hall and up the dormitory stairs. He tore past seemingly endless corridors and doors at top speed, finally finding the one he belonged to.

Rei ran into the darkness of his dormitory, unaware of what's ahead of him. In his haste, he tripped over an object and landed face first in his pillow. He laid there, sobbing quietly, trying to escape his worst fears. He needed to be alone, all alone, to deal with his feelings.

The darkness has now completely engulfed the sky, Dark, ominous clouds let out big grey droplets from the sky, pelting down onto the surface below, unforgiving.


TBC...


There, what did you guys think? I didn't mean to leave a cliff hanger but I'm tired so I guess I'll continue later. This chapter is a bit longer but I hope you enjoyed it anyways, some feedback or opinions will be good, I'd love to hear any suggestions from you guys. Cya later and please review^^.

P.S. If anyone wants to read some of the best Kai/Rei fics just go to the favourites list from my profile. Lots of angst, and I cried reading most of them *sobs*.

-Asuki